When it comes to the future, it's always far away. Looking back on the past, it is inevitable that there will be regrets.
I will remember those deep promises, I will remember the places I have thought about going to, and I will always feel a little comfortable, thinking that those contract-like things will be solved and realized as long as they are handed over to time. However, with the passage of time and the passage of time, we began to slowly accept reality and entrusted the originally distant things to more distant things.
When I was a teenager, some dreams were always stirring up trouble, so that some were untamed, thinking that they were unique, born to stand out from the crowd, and that arrogance was not reflected in every dispute and every thing that needed to be strong, and the indifferent look was enough to show the self-righteous and innate difference.
Actually, who isn't? Who's different? We always think of ourselves as special and lonely. The dreams we carry are not easy to talk to others, for fear that others will feel that they are blind when they hear it, or that they are afraid that others will rob their dreams, then they will no longer be unique.
I still remember when I was young, a very good brother at that time, he was special and strange in the eyes of everyone, and even could not get along with many people because of his integrity. Learning he is a solitary outlier, the homework assigned by the teacher is almost unfinished, he has his own plan, and finally the teacher can't do it, and he said that as long as your score remains above 600 points, you can not turn in the homework.
He was naturally ecstatic after listening to it, I know, he is not the kind of car behind closed doors, he looks at what he needs and needs more to complete, once I asked him a mathematical problem, he actually used a book or even a teacher's method has never been, so strange to this day also makes me surprised and called magical.
But one day he said he didn't want to read, and I was greatly puzzled, we are only about 16 years old, even if we don't read, what can we do? He said that everyone was reading, he really didn't know what it meant to read like this, he was very tired, he just wanted to go out early and create his own world.
Returning home for the New Year, he insisted on his ideas without anyone at home, and in the end, according to him, he negotiated successfully. Is he negotiating with his family? He was negotiating his own life and his own destiny. The trajectory of his life has since changed, turning to another area that I dare not set foot in.
And didn't we have similar ideas like him? Or it has been realized or forever becomes a secret in time. It is undeniable that we used to think that we were not the flowers and trees on campus, and if we went out to soak up the sun, there must be forests cut by our hands all over our originally barren world.
When everything becomes a thing of the past, it is vividly remembered, and the depths are different. Did the once-said graduation trip come to naught? Once said ok, reunion in a few years, is there an indefinite delay? Are the dreams that were once promised for themselves still on a long road?
Maybe you haven't had a dream that satisfies you exactly, and you haven't had some real "rebellious" thoughts that make your heart beat, but you can't suppress the out-of-place secret in your heart, and maybe your thoughts are put into a tightly locked diary or a quiet afternoon.
Only we know that we are not "good women" and "good men", we have our own dreams, and we will have regrets, but we all remember that we were so unique at that time.
Like a swordsman, you can say that you can walk away, fight the sword to the end of the world, save the rivers and lakes, and come and go calmly.