"I'm sorry to be human" – Osamu Dazai
I don't know how many people have read Osamu Dazai's "Human Disqualification".
But those who know him will always remember that he was named the third largest literary hero in Post-war Japan because of his works, and that the work itself was related to the background of the era in which he was created.
However, with the popularity of the "Dazaiji" culture, no matter how many people really know him, or just follow the trend, it is difficult to have a negative judgment on the evaluation of Dazaiji himself.
And I don't have any comment on Osamu Dazai himself, just talk about the animated "Human Disqualification".
The so-called "human disqualification" can be interpreted as "losing one's place in the world" or can be understood in terms of its other translation, "Disqualification as a Human Being."
Just looking at the title, it carries a strong "sick atmosphere", which invisibly brings out some bloody meaning.
The setting of "Human Disqualification" is based on the real Showa period in Japan, laying the foundation for its tragedy.
The whole play is haunted by a layer of gray fog, which puts a layer of gray and white luster on the face of the characters, looking like the face of a "dead man", without a trace of blood.
A glimpse of the whole picture, whether it is Dazai Osamu or the protagonist Otoji Yezang, although they are only a member of the microcosm of society, they must have the meaning of their existence.
The image of his father in Ye Zang's heart
Ye Zang, sensitive and delicate from the heart, is very concerned about the emotional changes of others.
As a young man, he regarded his father as a "beast", and his father's image was tall and terrifying, and he could easily choke his lingering throat.
In order to make his father happy, he chose to hide his true desires.
When other siblings can say what they want, he does not dare to speak, but at night he secretly changes his father's gift codex, changing the gift he wants to "the father wants him to" gift, and finally gets a sentence of "After all, it is a strange child."
He was born handsome, and he always carried a melancholy breath on his body, like a noble prince in distress, so he was always easily surrounded by women.
The women pitied him, loved him, protected him, but also "violated" him. Here the violation, I divide it into two types, the first is the physical "violation", the second is the psychological "violation".
When he was a child, Ye Zang was once violated by servants, and at that time he was lying on the ground, his clothes bare, and his face was strange with a specious smile.
He is a man who does not know how to refuse others, he does not shout or scream, he does not cry or make trouble. It was as if things had passed, but it seemed as if something had been left behind.
When he grew up, Ye Zang always looked at women with incomprehension and ridicule, and even faintly carried a trace of disgust and hatred.
However, his life is inseparable from women, and his life is full of tragic colors that are visible to the naked eye, of which the element of "woman" is undoubtedly the most colorful in his tragic life.
During the Showa period in Japan, women were extremely inferior, they themselves were defined as symbols of the "bottom of society", they had few ways out, their lives were cruel and hopeless, and death always seemed to be easily put on the agenda.
When they saw Ye Zang, the women always treated him very well, precisely because they saw "death intention" in Ye Zang and saw that he was a "pure" person.
This purely refers to his knowledge of the world, of himself, and of maintaining a shred of goodwill toward the world. He lived a difficult life, and he regarded himself as a monster, intolerable to the world, and this was precisely what the women who were persecuted by the times were suffering, so they knew that he understood him as a "pure" child like a god.
Ye Zang's self-portrait - a monster that cannot be tolerated in the world
Even if Ye Zang was a cowardly person, his intention to die was always like a shadow.
He said, "Shame on you, I mean people live." ”
As the wind chimes continued to be shaken by the wind, the bells became more and more urgent, and a thought came up eagerly—"Die with me, okay?" So, Ye Zang and a drinking girl bought sleeping pills.
On a cliff in Kamakura, the sky is dark and gray, and the bottom of the cliff is a dark tide without a trace of life. However, Ye Zang still survived, and he was the only one still alive.
The drinking lady asked Ye Zang to push her
He is like a overwhelmed child, in the moment when he can't live, a slight kindness can make him continue to survive, he wants to try to live like a "person".
And these women who "can understand him" have become the biggest motivation for him to survive. Unfortunately, Ye Zang never resisted the malice exerted by the outside world again and again.
Was he afraid of death? Does he still have hope for the world? Or did he want to try to survive, to find a place in this world that was filthy for him, to prove that he was qualified to survive?
He didn't leave a clear word, but I think: he still longs for life, he has expectations for death; so he ends up living like this. It seemed embarrassing, but it was the only way he could think of to live.
Ye Zang, who is loved by women, looks really "envious"
Whenever someone talks about Ye Zang, it will definitely be gossip about women. So how does he see the "women" who have influenced him throughout his life?
When he laughed and said that he was a pure person after he had a confrontation with the wine girl, he once thought of it like this- "Why does a woman, such a creature, explain everything to the aspects that he identifies?" Why turn a blind eye to the truth? For this woman who talked to herself without permission, he moved to kill at that moment.
It can be seen that his heart is contradictory and ironic, whether it is for himself or "women", he always holds a denial of evaluation.
He doesn't identify with himself or the world, he escapes from his true self, but he hates playing the clown to please others.
In that era, Ye Zang lived an unbearable life, the world said that he was a waste, and he hated himself.
A few days after the publication of Human Disqualification, Osamu Dazai also committed suicide. As written in the book, Dazai himself has had entanglements with many women, and the photograph depicted at the beginning of the novel seems to be his own. After the animation process, perhaps people will have a certain understanding of this work, "mourning" culture representative of Dazai, what is the world he wrote, perhaps after reading the novel, you can compare with this animation, under different forms of expression, how a story is interpreted.