Yesterday someone called me, I saw that it was a strange number, I thought it was advertising, I hung it up, after hanging up, the mobile phone rang again, hung up twice, the other party did not die, or continued to play, helpless, I picked up the phone.
Very unexpectedly, the caller turned out to be my hair Xiao Zhang Xin, the last time we both met was the Spring Festival in 2008, this time more than ten years have passed, during this period we have not met once, every Spring Festival, either I go home, he did not come home, or he went home, I did not go home, we have never met. Last year, my dad said that Zhang Xin asked him to come over my number, probably because I changed the number, I didn't get his call, and then my dad gave me the number he left behind, but I didn't call him, because I had an opinion on him, "Different ways do not conspire", the values of the two people are different, or they are okay.
My opinion of Zhang Xin stems from the Spring Festival in 2008, that year, we both returned to our hometown, because when we were young, we were better, naturally we chatted together, and learned that he had just gone through divorce procedures with his ex-wife, I was still more concerned about his affairs, because both of us and his ex-wife were primary school classmates, the relationship was still very good, I also had a crush on others when I was a child, I asked him: "Why do you want to divorce your wife, how good she is, take the children at home, but also help your mother to serve your grandmother, the farm work in the field is also a lot of work, These ten miles and eight villages all know that she is a good person, such a good person, why don't you know how to cherish it? ”
"Brother, I understand what you said, but the two of us have different feelings, there is no emotional basis, and I work outside, he has children at home, the common words of the two people are getting less and less, when I first got married, she was still a relatively beautiful person, you see now I don't know how to dress myself, I have become sloppy, feelings are two people's affairs, love is a feeling, there is no feeling, still together, what does it mean..." Zhang Xin looked at me calmly, said the head is the Tao.
"You pull so much less for me, saying that there is no emotional basis, how many years have you liked people?" When you were a child, you still asked me to help you hand over the note, how did you chase her, don't you know? What is love is a feeling, love is a responsibility is not good, you really think that your ex-wife is so rare you, have to live with you, she told me, the reason why she endured silently, is to try to maintain this family, to give the child a complete home, as long as you can turn back, she will forgive you.
Look at what you have done, you have been playing and disappearing in the past two years, not meeting with her, not sending money to the family, regardless of your children and the elderly, but giving these responsibilities to your ex-wife, you do not want to live with others, but also let the family bear the burden of the family for you, you yourself take a woman out to live happily, are you too selfish, is it too careful, is it too cruel? ”
In the face of my series of soul torture, Zhang Xin was still calm and self-assured, and said shyly: "It is not that I let her bear the burden of the family, it is because she is unwilling to divorce, her attitude is rigid and stubborn, I can only play and disappear, if I don't play disappear, she is still unwilling to divorce me!" The two of us left early, each of us was fine, and neither of us bothered anyone. And love is originally selfish, since you don't love, leave early, there is no fierce heart, not cruel heart, you say I spend heart, I am not a flower heart, this is called having the ability, not everyone has the ability to find, you can find a yellow flower girl who is five years younger than yourself... Didn't you speak for my wife now because you had a crush on her? Anyway, now that the two of us are divorced, you can chase after you if you want, but don't let your younger sister know..."
I was furious with his sceptuous expression and shameless words, "Zhang Xin, I put my words here today, your son will definitely blame you when he grows up, and one day you will definitely regret what you did." "After saying that, I turned my head and left, and we broke up this time, and neither of us contacted each other in the next few years.
"I'm Zhang Xin, Qingfeng, are you doing well?" As soon as the phone was answered, I heard Zhang Xin's words, "It's you, I'm fine." I answered casually, and the phone fell silent, and after about half a minute, I heard Zhang Xin's heavy words: "You were right, and now I regret it." Hearing that his tone was not right, I quickly asked, "What happened?" Let's hear it and see if I can help. ”
Zhang Xin began to pour out: "In fact, I have long regretted it, after divorcing my ex-wife, I married my current wife, when we were in love, I felt very good, there was no contradiction, after getting married, there were many problems, different consumption views, she spent a lot of money, you said her, she was anxious with you; on the issue of treating both parents, we both had huge differences, every year for the Spring Festival to go to her house; she also managed money relatively tightly, and did not allow me to send money to the family; my son she did not want to bring, Not allowed to live with us, so the son was always with his grandmother.
ay! I was a failure, the Spring Festival in recent years have not returned home, the number of times I have seen the elderly and children is countless, watching this age grow older day by day, I suddenly feel that my responsibility is getting heavier and heavier, but I have not done anything, my son is now grown, I secretly called him to work here from my wife, and then my wife knew, and I made a lot of trouble, she saw that I had a tough attitude, did not accommodate her as usual, and made a fuss about divorcing me.
When the son came, he set up a relative at home, but not long after coming to this side of the factory, he talked about an object, I know that the object at home is really good, very reliable, I repeatedly advised my son not to look outside, I did not expect that my son said a word yesterday that made me very worried, he said that I am not qualified to manage him, from childhood to adulthood, he was brought up by his grandmother, to manage is also his grandmother to manage, when I divorced my mother, is not it also because I am looking for someone outside? I can do things myself, why ask him not to do..." I could hear that Zhang Xin was very sad.
"Do you still have contact with your ex-wife?" Remember those things you said to her before? "I could tell he was sad, but I made up a knife anyway.
"I've never been in touch, I don't have the face to contact her at all, and when I think of that to her, I feel sorry for her." As soon as I drank, I could remember the bad words I said to her back then, I felt very painful, cold, I don't dare to drink now, the wine has quit, if I can go back to the past, I will definitely treat her well, I will not hurt her like before, she is really good, very good..." He choked and said no more.
"What can I do for you?" "No, you have already helped me, I am too depressed, there is no place to tell, do not say it again, I feel that I am going crazy, I now understand: what kind of choice to make, will suffer the corresponding consequences, love is a responsibility, not arbitrary." 」
He hung up the phone, and I fell into deep thought.