Wang Wenxuan died during the day when people were cheering for the victory of the War of Resistance. Some people commented, remembering Mr. Lu Xun's Xianglin sister-in-law, Xianglin sister-in-law died in the blessings of the people at the end of the old calendar year. It is sad to think that after so long of suffering with anticipation, I finally survived, but I also survived to the end of my life.
In the 1940s, people's living conditions were hopeless. People look forward to life and death. Looking forward to life is because there is an unfinished business that wants to be completed; looking forward to death is because people's lives have reached a dead end, and there is no way out but death.
This is Mr. Ba Jin's "Cold Night", about Wang Wenxuan, his wife Zeng Shusheng, Wang Mu, Wang Xiaoxuan and their family of four. In the era of melee, the fate of intellectuals drifted like duckweed, and they could not decide for themselves.
Although Wang Wenxuan has a cowardly personality, he has what he loves, and he is a person with ideals. It's just that he feels the same new general fate, Mr. Good's life is bumpy, he has lung disease, no, it is tuberculosis. He wanted to live, he didn't want to die. But he had no other way to go.
Wang Wenxuan's life is full of things, and when he takes stock, there is really no hope.
Between Wang Wenxuan and his wife Zeng Shusheng, he is the weaker party. He quarreled with Shusheng, always seeking perfection, always being the first to admit mistakes and apologize, always suppressing his own emotions in his heart; he saw his wife and his love enemy drinking coffee and dating, and he didn't even have the courage to chase after him and question him; the inferiority in his heart, from the inside out, he always thought that he was not good enough, he was just a small clerk in the company, he failed to give his wife a good life.
Wang Wenxuan did not handle the relationship between his wife and mother well. Perhaps it is the helplessness of middle-aged people, in the case of their own situation is not good, the heart is tired, Wang Wenxuan can only make a sandwich biscuit, listen to the mother spit on his wife, listen to the wife to pour out grievances, the result of the tension between the two did not clarify the essence of the tension, and then try to solve. Wang Wenxuan's personality made it impossible for him to put himself in the shoes of his wife and mother in the face of his own poor condition, but to say something comforting in vain.
Wang Wenxuan's ideals lost to reality. He was originally a college student who graduated from the education major, and like his wife Zeng Shusheng, he once wanted to rely on his own strength to do a good education career. But the reality is that he worked as a small clerk in a publishing company, and for a low salary, he was tossed with proofreading and boss things. His wife, Shusheng, is a bank clerk and earns a higher salary than Wenxuan. She bears the cost of Xiao Xuan's education and some of the family's expenses. It is reasonable to say that although the family's life cannot be rich and prosperous, the stable life of the middle family can still be maintained. But perhaps it is the self-esteem of men, or the escalation of the contradictions between mothers and wives, and their lives are getting worse and worse. At this time, Wang Wenxuan, don't say dreams, life is a luxury noun.
The tragic death of a friend dealt a great blow to Wang Wenxuan. The novel is actually described in terms of Wang Wenxuan's psychological activities, and his emotions and thoughts have always been gray tones, and there is no particularly happy time. At first, Wang Wenxuan was not happy to drink, met his middle school classmate Tang Baiqing, Tang was decadent and drunk because his wife died in childbirth, and then Tang Zi was willing to degenerate and drunk all day long, Wang Wenxuan finally saw Tang die in a car accident, which brought him a lingering shadow in his heart; Zhong Lao, who was good friends with Wang Wenxuan, died tragically three days after contracting the epidemic and isolating to the temporary hospital, Wang Wenxuan actually failed to see Elder Zhong, and at this time self-blame and despair filled Wang's heart.
When a man is desperate, nothing can save him unless the evil disease is suddenly cured. And Wang Wenxuan's illness is not only tuberculosis, but also the misery of being "given" by the situation, his extreme pain has nowhere to rest, and the living conditions of the people around him are also unbearable to see, and he is resentful. But fate did not give him this opportunity, and he eventually went to extinction.
In the sound of firecrackers in the victory of the War of Resistance, Wang Wenxuan used his last strength to write, "I can die with my eyes wide open."
I think that in the process of writing, Wang Wenxuan's mind is constantly playing back the smiling faces of his beloved relatives and the achievements of his unfinished ideal career.
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