"Sorry, I'm still alive."
The people on the stage leaned over and said this joke.
More than 3,000 spectators in the audience had tears in their eyes, but they couldn't help but laugh at him.
Subtitle source: B station Up main Japanese sand sculpture daily (the same below)
The person on stage is named Inoma, who is the bassist + lead singer of the Japanese underground rock band Onanie Machine.
It is also revered as the "Living Fossil of Japanese Punk".
This day is the 20th anniversary concert of his band.
It was also his last concert.
Suffering from oral base cancer, he will die soon.
This time, he came to say goodbye to everyone.
Parting is faster than expected.
Two months later, Inoma was gone.
The news of his death once ranked second in Japan's hot search.
The fall of a musician may not be a big deal.
Sooner or later, time will drown him in the cracks of history.
But Inoma's hot life rejected this choice.
Whether it's life or death.
He used the most brilliant and dazzling way to make people remember him -
>>>> a chance encounter
"Can I follow you to your house?" " is a variety show on TV Tokyo in Japan.
The program team randomly interviewed citizens who could not catch the last train late at night.
Paying a taxi fare in exchange for a few hours of interviews with citizens.
The program team never preset the script, but only randomly conducted interviews and inquiries on the street.
Late at night, the streets are full of people with stories.
There are social animals that work overtime until the early hours of the morning.
There was a man who bought a drunken old man.
Or crying, or laughing, or remorse, or gratitude.
The real human world, piece by piece, scattered out.
The most famous episode of the show, "Natto Immortals".
It was also during such a random street visit that by chance, the program team met inoma's story.
One night, the program team was looking for interviewees on the street late at night as usual.
Several people gathered on the street caught the attention of the program team.
After some inquiry, the pink-haired woman Hiro's answer was somewhat unexpected:
"Just attended the funeral today."
The program team was a little scared.
But still tentatively asked if I could be interviewed?
Hiro hesitated, then smiled bitterly, as if to say to himself, "This is his favorite show." ”
A coincidence in the dark, Hiro decided to agree to the program team.
Hiro's home is very close, small one apartment.
Push the door in, and you'll be greeted by CDs, magazines, posters...
Hiro briefly introduced the room to the program team.
Soon, the program team noticed the photo of Inoma on the table.
At this time, the program team learned that it had accidentally hit and interviewed Inoma's wife.
In fact, strictly speaking, Hiro is only a girlfriend.
"I'm his unregistered wife."
When he said this, the expression on Hiro's face was very complicated.
Tired, happy, sad, relieved...
Half of the five years Hiro has been in contact with Inoma, Inoma has been sick.
"It's better to fall in love so hard."
Friends are persuading, and Hiro himself is suspicious.
It's a really good time to be together.
When happiness is greater than pain, everything seems to become less important.
Hiro says he will always remember What Inoma looked like.
"He died standing on stage and exhausting his life."
As Hiro and his friends told, the program team learned some untold stories about Inoma.
>>>> a concert
2019 marks the 20th anniversary of Inoma's band.
Such a memorable time.
Everyone in the band couldn't be happier.
Because just the year before, Inoma was diagnosed with advanced oral cancer.
Doctors say there are still three years at most.
Optimistic estimates cannot stop the unexpected reality.
Inoma's condition deteriorated rapidly.
He had to undergo surgery — cutting off two-thirds of his tongue.
Five months after the operation, Inoma, whose face had not yet swollen, called her friends.
He wanted to get back into the preparations for the band's 20th anniversary concert.
Inoma still put on the same look as before.
Joking with friends, playing musical instruments with their heads down.
However, whenever he sang hard, the unstoppable drooling and the increasingly weak voice would make the people around him feel sad.
However, misfortune came again.
The sudden metastasis of cancer cells disrupted Inoma's plans.
His physical condition was getting worse and worse.
Less than a month before the concert, Inoma had been tortured by cancer and had lost his human form.
His face was swollen and one eye had lost sight.
Walking trembling and majestic, you must walk on crutches.
Inoma, who was talking to her friends a few months ago, now has difficulty even speaking.
Without spirits, he only gets a little better when he hears rock 'n' roll.
Friends looked in their eyes, and the worries in their hearts became deeper and deeper.
He wanted to make an album quickly so that Inoma could hear it.
No matter how late it is, it will be too late.
Thinking of this, the friend lowered his head, not wanting Inoma to see him in tears.
But the naïve love to joke.
It cheated and once again turned the wheel of fate faster.
On the day of the concert, Inoma's body was unimaginably weak.
The remaining eye has less than five meters of vision.
The pain of the cancer made Inoma barely stand on crutches.
Every step and breath, Inoma is holding on to his will.
Friends are coming.
"Japan's New Rock God" Ginkgo Boyz Band made the opening.
Good brother Kazunobu Takada (Ginkgo Boyz lead singer) shouted on stage:
"Inoma, if you live with me in this world, it doesn't matter if you die, for you."
Inoma's confused eyes finally lit up.
For more than five hours of concert, Inoma was in a mixed state.
One moment excited by rock and roll, the next moment tormented by illness to the point of falling to your knees.
When it was his turn to play, he had no strength at all.
In the end, Inoma was pushed to the stage by a friend in a wheelchair.
However, as soon as Inoma took the stage, the audience immediately burst out like a mountain roar and a tsunami.
Unconscious, Inoma seemed to have heard the call, regained her form, and got up from her wheelchair.
He picked up the bass and shouted with all his strength:
"Although there is no tongue! I want to sing too! ”
Inoma roared, played, and danced wildly on stage.
He tore the shackles that fate had placed on him.
With the most arrogant song, to curse fate.
The greatest reverence for life.
To death, the greatest irony.
In that moment, you can see it all.
The concert greatly depleted Inoma.
In the final Encore session, he needed to lie on the ground and take oxygen to barely stand up.
After the performance, Inoma fell into a coma.
Soon, he became critically ill.
Even though a succession of visits from friends woke him up briefly, he still didn't last long.
2019, December 19.
2:48 a.m.
Inoma's blood pressure fell off a cliff.
After 2 minutes, on the detector, a calm straight line cut through everyone's inner defense line.
Look, even in the end, Inoma still has to fight with fate.
Friends who had always dared not show their sadness in front of Inoma could not bear it any longer and cried loudly.
Hiro clutched Inoma's hand tightly:
"Thank you, you worked hard and had a great time with you."
>>>> a bouquet of fireworks
Inoma's story always reminds me of a person.
A singer who also burns herself to the fullest in the last moments of her life- Mei Gu.
In 2003, Mei Yanfang held a press conference and admitted that she had cancer.
At the same time, she announced that she would hold 8 concerts to say goodbye to fans.
Mei Yanfang, who was in the advanced stage of cancer, was pinned to her bones, and the water in her abdomen made her miserable.
Her friend Liu Peiji advised her to rest.
Mei Yanfang refused: "You must do it, you don't have to do it if you don't do it." ”
The concert was held as scheduled.
According to legend, she was wearing diapers and singing with complete willpower.
A month later, Mei Yanfang died.
The bad year of 2003 ended with a sad news.
Live brilliantly and die calmly.
How tragic.
And how gorgeous.
They have imprinted their lives on everyone's heart.
When they were about to enter the moment of life and death, were they not half afraid?
Maybe.
But it's not so much fear as regret.
Even until his death, Inoma shouted:
"I'm not going to die yet, because I still have things to do."
Yeah, I haven't made a commitment to my lover yet, and I want to hear a good brother's new record.
There's so much more to do.
How willing he was to leave this world.
At the Meigu concert, a long-tailed wedding dress appeared.
She said she wore a wedding dress many times, but not once for herself.
A song of "Sunset Song" has sung a lot of helpless affection.
Don't avoid your own pain, nor do you disguise your own embarrassment.
Even if they have regrets, they have tried their last bit of strength to fight and fight.
Let everyone know that in this world, they have not only come.
They also truly lived.
Remember, after Inoma's concert.
A close friend asked him: How has life felt so far?
Inoma, who was already unconscious, heard this question and smiled:
"Happy, happy."
Yeah, what could be happier than experiencing a rare life?