Every woman has a beautiful dream about love.
Bai Xiuzhu is no exception.
Her dream is to marry Jin Yanxi and be the seventh young grandmother of the Golden Mansion.
She wasn't the door of the Panfu Jin Mansion, she just really liked Yanxi.
She and Yanxi had a sweet time, and they were intimate with each other.
They often came and went in and out of the Golden Mansion with a lot of laughter; or sat in the coffee shop on the corner of the street; Yanxi also wrote many letters to Xiuzhu, and the love words in the letters could make Xiuzhu secretly happy for half a day. Everyone thinks that Xiuzhu will naturally marry Yanxi.
However, Xiuzhu's love was cut off by Qingqiu.
One day, Jin Yanxi suddenly got married, but the bride was not her. Xiuzhu's dream of love was suddenly shattered.
Under the huge blow, Xiuzhu chose to swallow medicine to commit suicide, but fortunately she was saved by her brother-in-law in time.
After experiencing love loss and death, in the hospital bed, Xiuzhu's face is pale, but her eyes are more determined than ever, and she has a vicious idea of revenge on Yanxi after attempting suicide.
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After meeting Yanxi after marriage, it was at a masquerade dance.
Newlywed Yan'er, Yanxi is like a spring breeze, and happiness is full of faces. With him, there is also his wife Leng Qingqiu.
Xiuzhu wears a mask and stares at the two of xiu'en's love.
Qingqiu was indeed different from her.
The eyes are gentle, the smile is shallow, like a blooming lily, pure and white, and the relics are independent.
Xiuzhu had been staring at them for a long time. That gaze was not the envy of happiness, but the resentment of Yanxi and Qingqiu.
So Xiuzhu began to silently carry out her revenge plan.
She deliberately wrote a letter to Yanxi without suspicion, and the letter was indeed inadvertently seen by Qingqiu, and the newlywed Yan'er couple blushed for the first time.
With provocation, she made an appointment with Qingqiu, and in Yanxi's favorite café, she said that she and Yanxi were green plum bamboo horses, and asked Qingqiu to take good care of Yanxi. This kind of rudeness made Qingqiu unbearable. When Qingqiu left, his face was no longer bloodstained.
On the way to Japan, she asked Yanxi to send it, and on the roaring train, she ignored the eyes of others and loudly confessed: "Yanxi, I hate you!" Yanxi, I love you! This confession made Yanxi turn all her boredom into apology and pity, and also planted the seeds for the "compounding" of the next two.
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Less than half a year after leaving Beiping, Xiuzhu returned from Japan, and after returning to China, she began to make frequent appointments with Yanxi.
This time, in front of Yanxi, she chose to change.
She put on the cheongsam, straightened her curly hair, put away her indomitable pride, and stopped being aggressive, and Miss Diao became very gentle and considerate. For her change, Yanxi was surprised to call her a lady and a nobleman.
She took advantage of the situation to tell Yanxi that she had already forgiven Yanxi, she had never hated him, she still loved him, and she couldn't do without him.
Such a green tea-style offensive, Yanxi was really moved.
At that time, Yanxi was deeply trapped in the siege of marriage with Qingqiu, because the three views were different, and his marriage with Qingqiu was very painful.
The appearance of Bai Xiuzhu seems to be a breathing place given to him by fate, and around Xiuzhu, he can escape the responsibility of being a husband and a father, and he can continue to appreciate the world of flowers and flowers.
Therefore, Xiuzhu and Yanxi have become regular customers in the café together.
They stayed together all day, Yanxi was getting more and more homeless, and Qingqiu was living in a widowed marriage, holding a lonely child, and her heart was dripping blood every moment.
At the same time, Xiuzhu's brother Bai Xiongqi also quietly stole Jin Quan's power as prime minister and turned Jin Quan into a cerebral hemorrhage.
This brother and sister revenge plan: one revenge Jin Yanxi, one revenge Jin Quan, both reaped satisfactory results.
However, Yanxi was like being seduced by Xiuzhu, unaware of the danger, and still with Xiuzhu you and me.
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When Premier Jin passed away unexpectedly, the prosperity of the Jin Mansion suddenly collapsed, and Yanxi also became a fallen prince.
Xiuzhu is not too poor to love the rich, and still sees Yanxi as usual.
When Yan Xi, who was full of sorrow, sat next to her, Xiuzhu threw an olive branch to Yan Xi and invited Yan Xi to Germany. Yanxi was hesitant at first, but after a few days, he finally abandoned Qingqiu and his son and agreed to go to Germany.
Xiuzhu offered to let Yanxi propose to her in front of everyone. Yanxi, the husband of a woman, immediately agreed.
He picked up the roses on the table, got down on one knee, and shouted, "Marry me!" "Propose to Xiuzhu."
Taking the rose handed by Yanxi, Xiuzhu did not feel happy, but bitter tears came out of her eyes. The rose in her hand, the petals slightly curled, nearly withered, like her love.
Once upon a time, I longed for the arrival of this scene. However, once love withers, it is difficult to bloom.
When the dream was in front of her, Xiuzhu chose to refuse and drifted away.
Because, she understood that she had long since lost love for Yanxi. Her love withered with that attempted suicide.
Later, in the face of Yanxi, what she said about love was just a means of revenge on Yanxi.
The infatuation she shows is only to find the self-esteem that has been hurt by Yanxi, and that emotion can be understood as: unwillingness, revenge, but not love.
It is precisely because she does not love, so, in front of Yanxi, she can be very decent, no longer fight for the wind and jealousy, in order to carry the whole scene, so she has become a lady in Yanxi's mouth.
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At the end of the story, Xiuzhu left Beiping alone, she took off the cheongsam she wore to please Yanxi, changed into her favorite dress, and became Miss Diao Man.
She didn't see Yanxi for the last time.
He only wrote a letter to Yanxi, in which he told him that she was going to Germany to get married, and all her promises to Yanxi were false.
Before leaving, standing on the bridge of the station, Xiuzhu remembered a lot of past events:
She remembered herself standing on the balcony, dressed in a white veil, waiting for a man who would never come again. At that time, the man was completing a grand wedding ceremony with another woman.
She remembered the scene when she left Beiping last time, when she met Yanxi at the station, and when Yanxi watched her leave, she sat in the train, and when the train started, she loudly poured out her love and hatred for Yanxi.
She also remembered Yanxi kneeling on one knee and proposing to her with a rose, but she found that the young boy Lang who had loved at the beginning had no brilliance in his eyes, only full of decadence.
Everything that was once there will settle with her departure.
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In a letter to Yanxi, Xiuzhu said something like this:
"How painful it is to love someone, how happy it is to be loved by a person, I seem to have received both from you, but the latter came too late. But, in any case, I won, and I went to Germany to get married, to marry someone who loved me, though, I didn't necessarily love him. ”
In a protracted revenge with Yanxi and Qingqiu, Xiuzhu believes that she has won.
Privately, she seems to have won, but she has also lost badly.
She is confident that she has gained Yanxi's love for her, but it turns out that Yanxi did not develop the so-called love for her. Yanxi himself admitted that he had never loved any woman other than Qingqiu.
In the process of revenge, Xiuzhu lost more.
Once, in Yanxi, she had seen the withering of her love, and now, she also saw the withering of qingqiu love. As a result, she no longer believes in love.
Therefore, the woman who was full of hope for love before, persistent and enthusiastic about love, finally chose to marry a man she did not love.
In addition, she is no longer the simple girl she was. Although she used to be brutal, she knew how to be righteous and shameful, scorned her brother's ungrateful treatment of Prime Minister Jin, and did not hesitate to confront her brother, but later, she also used sinister means to retaliate against Yanxi and Qingqiu, and she had lost the goodness of human nature.
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Love is not winning or losing, lost love is a compulsory course in love, the best separation should be "because of love, so compassion; because of understanding, so tolerant." ”
Retaliating against others is actually retaliating against oneself. The failure of others is indeed sad, but the most tragic is the loss of self, the failure of self. When Xiuzhu is taking revenge on Yanxi, she is also abusing herself.
Thinking like this, Bai Xiuzhu is also a poor person!
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