The destination of love (I hope she is happy)

My ex-wife and others said that she was a fool, a very lazy person, did not do any work, did not like to talk, even her own housekeeping was not sorted out, looking for a job was less than a month to be fired! In fact, I know her best, she was sent by her parents when she was born, and then she was sent back when she was seven or eight years old, and her parents didn't care at all, as long as they lived. Usually, her sisters retired from dressing, and even the mobile phone we just met me gave her was taken by her sister! Later, somehow, she saw our family like an enemy, for more than a year she made her own food, under the same roof but like two families, even the children did not care! She graduated from junior high school, is literate, and has a good English, and she was the representative of their class English class in the second year of junior high school, and she knew all the junior high school courses. Last year she was clamoring for a divorce, but we've been sleeping in separate rooms for two years! Mainly 17 years she was unexpectedly pregnant and so on knew that it was five or six months old! My economic conditions are really not good, helpless to do the abortion, when I saw my own flesh and bones being deprived of my own life, I really felt bad, since then I have a psychological shadow, I am very afraid to live a conjugal life with her, but also since then we have slept in separate rooms! No matter how she knocked on the door in the middle of the night, I wouldn't drive it, and over time she became worse than before. I know that she is also uncomfortable in her heart, in fact, both of us have mental illness, because we are both introverts, usually have little contact with people, and there is no psychological guidance. Now I give her a living allowance of 500 yuan a month, buy her a few clothes a year, because my salary is very small, more than four thousand a month, and I have to raise two children. I actually feel very guilty about her, she is a poor person, the divorce was proposed by her, I know that she is very unhappy with me, I have been working outside the home for a long time, although I have been married for six or seven years, but I have been with her for less than half of the days, when she was most helpless, I chose to escape, but I was really helpless, and I really owed too much to her. I hope she can find a good man who understands that she loves her, so that I feel a little better in my heart.