【I】
I think I'm going to die. My legs were as heavy as lead, my head couldn't lift up, and my weak body was shaking. I had to find a place to lie down, but where was my home in the vast city? I can only find the most inconspicuous corner.
The street is still that street, people are still the same people, and the cycle never stops every day. But I am completely tired of this world, and now life is better than death, let me be relieved quickly!
But I wasn't like that before. For as long as I can remember, my mother has been calling me baby. I wore the beautiful clothes my mother had made for me and ate food I bought from the supermarket. Take a walk with your mother every day, enjoy your mother's caresses, and live a happy life without worry. I always thought my whole life should be like this.
【II】
However, that miserable and rainy evening completely ruined my life. I left my mother's sight for a moment and was forcibly carried into a van by two young men wearing sunglasses. I screamed and slapped the car window, but the sound was drowned out in the speeding traffic, and my head was slammed with a wooden stick, and I quickly lost consciousness.
I don't know how long later, I felt the strength to open my eyes, only to find that there were several companions in the car who were in a coma like me. Fear filled my whole body, I tried to wake myself up, I did not dare to move, what should I do? I do not know! By this time the van had pulled into a compound and I heard the driver stop and open the door. The van had just stopped, and a man in sunglasses ran to the toilet with a cigarette. Another man in sunglasses smiled and got out of the car and reached out to open the back door. I heard the car locks snapping open. What am I going to do? The car door was opened in an instant, and a night light shot into my eyes. My whole body was suddenly filled with strength, and I took off, jumped out of the car, and fled the yard like an enclave, fleeing to the road, and fleeing into the dark bushes. Completely ignoring the chase and cursing behind.
I kept running that night. Running desperately in the direction of the lights, towards the loud places, towards the home in my heart. Although I don't know where home is. Straight up until I was exhausted and fainted again.
I was woken up by the morning dewdrops. It dripped at the corners of my mouth, and I smelled its fragrance and tasted its sweetness. Did my mother prepare me a delicious breakfast? ShouldN't I get up after stretching out enough to get lazy? I just wanted to move my legs, when I suddenly regained consciousness and felt my whole body ache and dizzy. What's wrong with me? I opened my eyes urgently. Where is this? Isn't this my home? I was lying in the grass, and above that was a spherical holly tree. I drank dew dripping from the holly leaves. It's disgusting, how could I be here? The memory slowly recovered, and I remembered everything that had happened last night. Is it a dream? I had a nightmare, right? I tried to lift my head and grab the ground with my head, it hurt, it wasn't a dream, why wasn't it a dream? I felt tears in my eyes.
【III】
I tried to cheer myself up and tell myself that I still had a home and that I had to find my mom. My mother would have gone crazy if she couldn't find me, after all, I had been with her for many years. My mother often compared me to her daughter, saying that I was more sensible and cute than my sister. Mom, I miss you so much, where are you? You must be looking for me all over the world, take my picture and ask everyone, and post a search notice everywhere you can. Maybe it's called the police now. I remember the location of home and every road nearby. But where am I now? I don't know how far from home, I don't feel a little bit. I was really lost.
For the first few days I kept running, toward the main road, towards the place where there were high-rise buildings. I remember my home in a city like this. However, after a few days, I didn't find a trace of home. I was a little desperate. I found that several streets near me had xuanwu street, Yuqing street, Lechuan street, Xinhua road, Beihai road and so on. But none of them are streets near my house. Mom, do you know where this is? You're coming to me."
I also tried to ask for help, but whenever someone approached me, I suddenly remembered the two men in sunglasses. Before I could say anything, I involuntarily threw up my legs and ran away. I'm afraid to see people, and I like to hide far from being discovered by anyone. However, the daily hunger made me have to keep running, and I helplessly began a long wandering life.
The wanderings miss you outside, dear mother;
Wandering footsteps have traveled all over the world, and there is no home.
The winter wind caught the snowflakes and blew my tears down.
Walking, walking, walking, walking, how many years have passed;
The spring grass is sprouting, and it's spring and summer again.
Whenever I hear this song coming out of the street shops, I cry, isn't it me?
Every day, in order to feed my stomach, I had to keep looking for it and running back and forth. I don't know how many spring and summer have passed, how many years have passed. Gradually, I no longer had any hope of finding a home, and although I often thought of my mother, I was afraid that my mother had given up the search for me. Even if my mother sees me again, she won't recognize me, right? I'm skinny and dirty now, and I'm tired of people.
After a long wandering, I was all too familiar with everything in the neighborhood. I know where to find something to eat and where to drink water. Inside the garbage can is a fixed food supply point, and if you are lucky, there are leftover breakfasts for guests at the bus stop, and the lady of the restaurant occasionally gives away some leftovers. When I was thirsty, I would lie down on the side of the road fountain pool to drink a few sips, and every day when the water truck passed, I would drink with it, and when I couldn't find a water source, I would run to the Yu River to drink wildly. Although hunger accompanied me all the time, I had almost nothing to do but eat and drink.
I don't have to hide from people anymore, because everyone who sees me will avoid me because they are dirty. I can pass by people with a big wave, see people as air, and ignore them. But dangers abound, with hateful children throwing stones at me, mad dogs rushing up and biting me, and weasels sneaking up on me at night. Poor me, my body is often less skinny and hairless, I only have to desperately escape, where there is still the strength to fight back. Injury and death are always with me, and I've seen a lot over the years. Disasters happen every day, every day there will be deaths, accidents and tomorrow which will come first who knows. In the morning, a wild cat was also seen crossing the road and being run over by a speeding car. Life disappeared in that instant. The flesh-and-blood cat stuck to the road, and even the sanitation workers they saw were lazy to clean up, and one car after another ran over until its flesh and fur attached to one tire after another and gradually disappeared, leaving only a dirty silhouette on the road.
【IV】
I've had enough of the world, and it only means hunger, cold, and hurt to me. I'm afraid I can't wait for winter, maybe it's illness or maybe I'm old, I'm feeling more and more breathless, I'm in pain, I don't even feel hungry, I feel like my limit is coming. This feeling is not sad for me, I have not shed tears, but feel a little bit of relief.
It was getting colder, the north wind was fierce, and the darkness after dusk filled the sky. High-rise buildings, thousands of lights. I finally found the familiar horns, chose the most comfortable curled up position, and suddenly fell down. My mind was exceptionally clear, my whole body was relaxed, and I gradually did not even feel the presence of my limbs, only the whole body of Shutai. The last thing I heard was a walker asking, is there a dog over there?
Well, I admit I'm a dog. I came from chance, like a speck of dust. Although the heavens and the earth are wide, this road is difficult to walk, and I have seen all the ups and downs of this world. Where am I from? Where will I go? In any case, the dead will eventually pass away, forgetting all pain and misfortune. Thank you to my mom for the caresses she gave me. I will return to dust and earth with this mother's love like a cat that was crushed to death.
One night the north wind was cold, and the heavens and the earth were wrapped in silver makeup. In the early morning after the first snow of early winter, passers-by found that in the corner of a snow-covered wall, there was a stiff black that was particularly glaring.
Postscript: Since sending away my last dog, I have decided not to keep a dog anymore. Because the dog must always be concerned, it is inevitable to be sad and parted. There are already many sufferings in life, so why bother with yourself? Now many years later, a stray poodle is often encountered on the street, dirty and dirty, and the original coat color can no longer be seen. Tentatively called little black. Seeing the wounds of the object, the play was given to the little black who was still wandering on the street.
Little Black, who is still wandering the streets