Reading this book was purely accidental.
Eleven years ago, I brought two sons to my parents' house, and I just recently wanted to read and write, and this book on the shelf was more attractive to me, so I finished reading it in one breath.
It is the story of a young sailor who falls in love with a rich woman.
The sailor's name is Martin, and the rich woman's name is Ruth.
Martin fell in love with Ruth at first sight and fell in love with her.
His love was pure, he felt that Ruth was a fairy, he had never seen such a beautiful and cultured girl, and the look in his eyes was so hot.
In order to be worthy of Ruth, Martin transformed from a rude and savage sailor to a person who loved to learn and read, and became a writer as he wished.
But the process was extremely arduous, Martin began to work for a period of time to use the money earned to study and study, and then found the direction and began to write.
However, the bad luck of the times, the submission to the magazine was often refunded, and the manuscript fee was very small, which caused him to be hungry and full, from the strongest sailor to a skin and bone, and even so he did not give up.
However, Ruth gave up, and Ruth loved Martin, but her love was not pure. She hopes to transform Martin into a high-society man, a successful man like her father.
She hoped that Martin would find a decent job and make money steadily, she had never liked Martin's work, even if it was a poem written for her, and she felt that Martin should work as she envisioned to make money and marry her.
But how could Martin, who loved writing so much and was eager to succeed in it, do she want it? Even if no magazine wanted to publish his work, he was so confident, he was convinced that his work was excellent, and he thought Ruth could understand him, but he quickly received a parting letter from her.
He couldn't believe it, he went to Ruth's house several times, but he was blocked out by the servants, and when he saw it, he heard Ruth's refusal, and he understood that this love could not stand the test.
He began to write his last novel day and night, writing that he was already in a daze, he had not eaten for 36 consecutive hours, and when he finally finished writing, he fainted.
He finally finished, and this time he listened to his friend and handed it over to the publisher, which thought he had written particularly well and decided to publish it.
His novels were very popular, printed several times, still sold well, and what he had written before was also taken to publish, and the results were even more popular, and he became famous.
The magazine that had previously rejected manuscripts also wanted to publish his works separately, all kinds of works were constantly drafted, he sent all the manuscripts he wrote out, his works sold well at home and abroad, he became a famous writer, his manuscript fees were continuous, and he saved a lot of money in the bank.
His life had changed completely, before the people who looked down on him, squeezing their scalps every day to invite him to dinner, he did not understand why he was starving and dizzy, these people when he was strangers, now he had everything, these people came to invite him.
However, Ruth also came to him and begged to be reconciled with him, but he saw clearly that Ruth's love in the guise of capitalism was no longer in love with her, and he only had perfunctory hugs for Ruth, but he had no feelings.
He hadn't written for a long time, he had no desire to create, he saw the world clearly, and he was so tired, so negative, that he felt nothing but endless pain.
He had been planning to buy an island to live alone, and on this day he set out, at sea he did not know what to do, began to force himself to read magazines, and then suddenly saw a poem that moved him deeply.
He felt that when life was hopeless, when life was filled with endless boredom, only death was what he longed for most, he did not alarm anyone, quietly jumped into the sea, and thus ended his life.
The novel begins so fiercely, but ends so sadly.
I tried to integrate myself into Martin's soul, and I felt his thoughts, his yearning, his final helplessness.
If I were Martin, would I regret meeting Ruth, would I regret reading a lot of books and starting to write, if I hadn't seen the world so thoroughly, would I have gained a different life?
Will I become a family with someone I don't love so much, but love me very much, have a bunch of children, even if the work is hard, but also have the sweetness of this family?
Reading books, the most afraid of tragedy, will really be very uncomfortable.
Martin, what a living life,
As a sailor, he is rich in experience, has the strongest physique, as an author, he is not afraid of hardships, has the most tenacious will, and it is strange that people like him are not successful, even in that context of life.
Therefore, I think Martin should not end his life like this, he should follow the advice of his friend, go back to sea, away from this city full of copper smell, can not be a sailor, be a captain, and re-sail to be more in line with Martin's personality!
After all, Martin is a man with great vitality!