There is such a story in "Genius on the Left and Madman on the Right". An old lady, after the death of her wife, her time stayed in the time when her husband was sick and hospitalized, and all she could remember was the time when her wife was hospitalized and the two of them lived together before.
After the funeral of her wife and children, the old lady lives by herself, and her children often come to visit and accompany her, but her heart still stays on her wife, she will put her husband's dishes and tea cups at the dinner table, and when she is bored, she will drink tea and chat with her wife. At first, the children felt that it would take a while for the mother to miss her father to adapt.
After a long time, the mother is still like this, the children are worried about the physical and mental health of the old mother, they are more and more aware that the death of the father is too big for the mother to imagine, so they want to seek the help of the psychopsychiatric department.
When Gao Ming (the author of "Genius on the Left and madman on the Right") came to the old lady's house, the old lady's mouth was full of her own old man, in her heart he was still there, or the same as before two people living a life, which made people heartbroken and sad. Before leaving, Gao Ming saw a card that read:
"The ring between the fingers is no longer shining
The wedding dress has long been dusted in the closet
Our faces are slowly aging
But that mood has not changed
Thank you for bringing me every day
It is because of you
I had the courage to say
"Always, always""
In the old lady's heart, the husband is by her side, forever and ever...
Similarly, in the writer Stephen. In King's Rebirth, the madness of pastor Jacobs is also caused by endless longing for his late wife and son.
Jacobs, a priest who loved and was obsessed with the invention of electricity, changed after his wife and son were killed in a car accident, and at first he tried to ask God for help, but found that it was nothing. He then raised the dragon slaying knife to the God he had believed in since birth, cut off his connection with God, and devoted himself to the invention of electricity, but no one knew what he was going to do. What was his purpose?
When "I" meet Jacobs again, he is a runway performer who uses micro-currents to help clients build a new and subversive image, and his show is very popular, but all this is not his intention. He only made a show to make money, to make more money than he could dig deep into his own research.
At the same time, he is also secretly using electric shocks to treat some patients, such as "I", for a while "I" was an addict who unfortunately fell in front of the priest, he took me to his secret base, and through electric shocks helped me get rid of drug addiction. Seeing this you might say, "Wow, that's great too. ”
It's not great, drug addiction is quitting. "I" also suffered from severe sequelae, "I" would sleepwalk into the yard and take a fork and poke at myself, and the next morning I woke up with injuries on my arms and legs, and the blood had coagulated.
And "I" am not the only one being treated or an experimental object. Hugh was one of them, he had been inexplicably deaf, Jacobs used electric shock to help him, his sequelae was called "Prism Rainbow", and when the sequelae he saw people were no longer people, but Ant-Man, each wielding slender and disgusting tentacles, spewing venom from his mouth, hallucinations alone were enough to crush people, and finally, Hugh committed suicide.
Like Hugh, there were many others who ended their lives, and they were almost all treated by Jacobs.
The more he learned, the more curious and repulsive jacobs became, and driven by curiosity, "I" participated in his final experiment, which opened Pandora's box and released the demon mother. It gave me a taste of a different world, a terrifying and terrifying "afterlife" world.
In the gray and endless land, Jacobs's wife and children walked forward in an endless long line, and they were still the horrible appearance they had when they left, this was not heaven, but hell.
In this world, "I" was also fortunate to see my relatives who often appeared in nightmares, they were all in it, numb and indifferent, and the "I" was creepy to see, and even I forgot how I came back to reality.
When it's all over, the dust settles. "I" returned to the small laboratory again, looked at Jacobs who had fallen to the side and died, and suddenly understood the reason behind his crazy actions over the years, it turned out that his spirit also left at the moment when his wife and children died, and the only remaining flesh was only his wife and children who wanted to see another world.
Reading the story of Pastor Jacobs in "The Rebirth" also reminded me of a friend who became a monk in the third year after her mother's departure.
We were shocked but not surprised to hear the news, thinking that she had been unable to extricate herself from the pain of losing her mother for at least a year, and it was difficult to find her trace in the subsequent time, and from the occasional news clip, we learned that she had been volunteering in the monastery for many years, where she regained her inner peace and tranquility, and also found hope and motivation to live again.
As author Stephen. As King writes in the novel, "It seems to me that most people who have suffered a heavy blow of fate — or experienced a major tragedy — will come to a crossroads in their lives." Maybe not then, but after the shock; maybe months later, maybe years later. They may be enriched by this experience, or they may shrink because of it. ”
Whether it's an old lady who has lost her husband, a priest Jacobs, or my friend, their lives have changed dramatically with the departure of their loved ones.
This also reminds me of before the outbreak of the epidemic, when a large group of us got together rarely, and the words of my cousin during the banquet made people silent, she said that every time there are people who are afraid of trouble and do not want to come, and they complain about it. But why do we have to gather every year, because the gathering is less than one year, and the people who have left can never come back.
When I heard these words, I couldn't resist the urge to cry. Looking at the white-haired elders sitting next to us, and remembering the elders who have left us, the original prosperous family has gradually become smaller in the dissolution of generations, how can it not be sad to think of it.
As we spend our days in chaos, there is little time to think about how many people have gradually left us in the course of our lives from birth to death, and they have gone to another world, a world that we did not know and understand.
The most cruel thing about people's lives is that when you slowly enter middle age, from time to time you will hear the news that a friend of a friend, or a distant relative, or a relative or friend around you is sick and dead.
Many people have left us in our unconscious lives and gone to another strange world.
We come from the unknown and will eventually go to the unknown.
If it's still too late, cherish everyone around you.
While alive, "Rebirth".
Text: Yan Yan
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