(9) Due to the failure of the review, it is now revised and reissued.
People may love many people in their lives, and they will be loved by many people, but there are not many people who really enter the depths of your memory, many people are just hurried guests, and there are often only a few who give you hard memories. Sometimes we sigh that there is no reason; sometimes we say that we see each other and hate each other; sometimes we see someone as we see each other; sometimes we have to say that it is a coincidence.
First, this is an ordinary hand, I am very touched.
I followed the glasses man from the second floor to the courtyard on the first floor, which was not very high and could see the general outline of the whole city. There were a few people sitting in the courtyard drinking tea and chatting, at the foot of the mountain is Hefei, the capital of Anhui Province, and the lights of Hefei at night are dazzling, like the stars shining in the night sky.
We walked out of the courtyard and walked aimlessly along a path leading to the top of the hill, no one spoke, and the night was quiet, and only the sound of crickets in the jungle could be heard.
Suddenly a cool breeze struck, and I shivered and my body shook slightly.
The glasses man reached out and grabbed my arm, and then took my hand, and I didn't refuse, but I felt his hand big and warm.
There was a long wooden chair right next to the steps, and he took my hand, and we came to the wooden chair next to the path and sat down.
I didn't really know what I was thinking, but I just felt that this man was talented, and my son had regarded him as a good friend and trustworthy. There is no need to be too defensive.
Maybe it's because I and my husband have lived a "peaceful" lifestyle for many years, but in fact, my husband's attitude toward me is a kind of spiritual destruction for me, and I have always reminded myself over the years that I can't go to the same mistakes as before marriage, and I have a sense of guilt.
From the heart, after being snubbed by my husband for many years, how much I want to divorce and re-choose a man, this man at least knows to care for me, love me, respect and love each other, support each other, and live an ordinary life.
I felt both fresh and a little excited about this sudden pull. After all, in the more than ten years of living with my husband, he is like a bulky piece of wood, unable to move, unable to cross, across in front of me, so that I can not go out of this home, nor can I escape this home, cold and warm self-aware care of my son's life.
The normal hand-holding that should have been in life after marriage has long disappeared in my family, and even the memory of holding hands is only stuck in the scene of marriage, and it is not possible to hope for it, and from then on, I feel so strange to my husband's hand.
Second, the evening wind hits, and the night is a little cool.
In fact, to tell you the truth, I have known the glasses man for less than a day, and I also feel that we are not developing too fast, is it because in the shaking car, that brief dream-like experience, let me lose my due defense?
No, this may be a woman's sixth feeling, I feel that the glasses man likes me, he must know as well as I do that I will not refuse, maybe they have a good feeling for each other, it is just speculation in my heart.
After all, we should still be strangers between us, and we can't even call each other's names. There was still a thin veil between us, and no one had opened the curtain.
Grandma Moon seemed to be looking at us on our heads, through the dappled woods, without saying a word, looking at the two young people we knew. It's like watching a play, just watching it quietly, not wanting to disturb the actors in the play.
He held my hand hard, and I felt some sweat in my palms, maybe a little nervous, maybe a little excited. We just sat quietly like this, looking up at the stars.
It was late at night, and I was wearing only a set of silk pajamas, and the breeze was slightly cool, and my body was shaking slightly. He took me in his arms.
I didn't know whether to refuse, I didn't have the strength to refuse, I didn't have the courage to refuse, and Shunshi leaned on his shoulder. Maybe someone like me should have refused, after all, I am a married woman and should abide by the way of a woman.
Although I have a husband, I also understand this truth, and I know that my husband and I are a legal couple, but everyone with my husband understands that we can only get along with our brothers, and maybe we don't get along as well as the buddies' homes.
Over the years, I have wanted to divorce many times, to find a new harbor that will give my tired soul a moment of rest.
This is the love that a husband should give to his wife, but my husband did not give it.
I wrapped my arms around him tightly, almost trying to break his arms. There was no reason, just because I should have taken my husband's arm for years and squeezed it hard to let him know I existed.
Third, there is no sleep tonight.
The moon hung high, and there was silence all around, and only the sound of a fluttering heartbeat could be heard.
How familiar it was, exactly the same as the heartbeat I had heard from my first boyfriend twenty years ago, when we had just finished the gaokao and I couldn't wait to pull him to my side. Because I loved him at that time, thinking that after we finished college and started our own family, we must be a happy couple of gods
The place is in the woods in the southeast corner of the county one middle that we have endorsed during the day, and today it seems that yesterday reappeared, and it was a silent night, another summer night, and another forest.
It's just that things are not human, but the years are still the same.
When I thought of my first boyfriend, I suddenly released my hand like an electric shock.
Embarrassed to look at the glasses man, there is a little apology in the eyes, after all, I am now forty years old, and it is also the age when people often say that love is old and it is too early to talk about death.
Hurriedly said that we have to get up early tomorrow, let's go back early!
On the way back, I didn't know his name. His name is King Gebi. He said that his father's surname was Ge and his mother's surname was Wang, which is why he had this strange name. In fact, this name is indeed strange enough, I think there must be no duplicate name.
He used to be a teacher, resigned and was admitted to graduate school in sociology, graduated last year, and now he is almost thirty, due to his age, it is difficult to find a job, and now he has become a freelance profession, mainly travel and online writing... ～
Soon arrived at the place to stay and the whole courtyard was unusually quiet. He, in fact, including me, reluctantly let go of the other's hand.
Back at the door, which was unlocked, I gently pushed the door in and saw two old men asleep on the bed opposite my bed, facing each other, serene and peaceful, as if to see if the other was asleep.
I went to bed lightly, and at the moment I was not sleepy at all. It was as if the life of these years had slowly flashed through my mind like a movie, some clear, some vague...
The night is quiet, but tonight I have no sleep!