<h1 class="ql-align-center">01</h1>
People always believe what they are willing to believe, and the truth sometimes seems to them to be unimportant.
Since the case of Xihezi's "kidnapping" of Hui Licai was solved, the media have called Xihezi a kidnapper, many people say that she is a hypocritical and cunning woman, and since childhood, relatives have also told HuiLizi that she was the worst woman in the world who kidnapped her.
For years, Hui Licai has been reluctant to touch the memory of being "kidnapped" by Xi Hezi. For her, it was a burden that overwhelmed her breathlessly, a source of all pain.
This time, Hui Li cai decided to take an interview trip with Chikusa to see Angel Home and Xiaodou Island, where she once lived.
Some things are not avoided, not wanted, or faced, and this matter is over. Hui Licai's active search this time is also because of long-term depression, she has known that if she gets out of the obstacle that cannot be passed, she can only take the initiative to get close to those things that she does not want to touch.
The car drove into the mountains where Angel Home was located, and they stopped in front of the iron gate of the white building. Obviously, I didn't step into it, but some of the pictures of that year suddenly came to mind. The laughter of the man with her seemed to be still in his ears, but Hui Li cai had forgotten why he was laughing at that time.
According to the information collected by Chikusa, it was actually Angel Home who wanted to take in him not as a Yoshiwako, but as a baby girl Kaoru. Because of the needs of their religious themes, it is planned to cultivate a girl who grew up without a gender concept and maintained a virgin status, and then came to be the successor of Angel.
During the trial of Yoshiwako's case, She summoned Jigami, who had lived with Himiko at Angel Home, and the woman whose child had just been snatched away by her husband felt that Heiko was in the same situation as her, so she guessed that Heiko would leave the place in the future, so she told Himiko the address of her mother's home, hoping that Heiko could go to Shodoshima island in the future to report peace to her mother's family.
And The mother of Kume, who hired Hiriko, also attended, saying that she had no idea that Heiko was a prisoner, and that she looked at Himako and Kaoru like a biological mother and daughter. In court, Jigme's mother also said something: If Noomiya Yoshikazuko is not Nono Miyamiya Kazuko, but Kyoko Miyata (a pseudonym on Shodou Island), how nice it would be.
When Kazuko is arrested and Kaoru is "rescued," those who examine Kaoru find that Kaoru is better developed than children her age.
<h1 class="ql-align-center">02</h1>
People are always accustomed to condemning the victims.
For example, when a woman is raped, many people's first reaction is: the woman must be dressed exposed, or give the other party some sexual hints. And the perpetrator usually says the same thing. This is ridiculous. Not to mention the public's reaction, but as far as the perpetrators and people who hurt others are concerned, they often find faults from others and exonerate themselves.
During this interview journey, Chikusa and Hiroshi exchanged each other's life experiences more deeply.
Chikusa said that when Kazuko left Angel Home with Kaoru, or Hiroshi, soon after the place was exposed by the media, Chikusa's mother took her out of here and returned to her original home. But in the years that followed, her mother always scolded her, and her relationship with her husband was out of harmony, and the relationship with her mother's family was frozen, and she was always blamed on Qiancao.
Hiroshi could fully understand Chikusa's feelings, because over the years, her mother had treated her the same way. The mother always said that as soon as she saw her, she would think of the bad woman, think of her husband's suspicions, and her strangeness with her daughter, which was the work of that woman, and even the daughter who returned was an accomplice.
The practice of these two mothers has made their daughters feel that they have done something wrong for so many years, which has made them lonely and cold from childhood to adulthood, unable to integrate into school life, social life, and even family life. Even let them not know what it means to fall in love with someone. Hui Li Cai had fallen in love with and had a relationship with her husband Kishida, but she still did not understand what love was; and Hui Li Cai did not understand that matter at all, it seemed that in this life, she would not fall in love with a man.
These two mothers may never find problems from themselves, but fortunately, after experiencing so many things that ordinary people will not experience, these two children still have love in their hearts, they want to say goodbye to the past completely, and they want to live a good life later. They decided to raise the child in huili's belly together and let the child see the beauty of the world.
<h1 class="ql-align-center">03</h1>
Sometimes, the results really don't matter. It's like you once loved someone deeply, but for various reasons you ended up separated. However, whenever you think of this person, you will remember that he/she once accompanied you in the most beautiful youth, he/she taught you to grow, and he/she made your youth no longer plain. That's enough.
According to Chikusa's investigation and deduction, the most likely place for Hiroko to stay after she got out of prison was not Tokyo or anywhere else, but Shodoshima. Because she felt that the happiest memories of Xihezi's life were left here.
This time, the return is like a movie replay, and every section of the road is similar to the picture of Kaoru coming here for the first time.
As the journey slowly returns, closer to this once familiar place, the colors and smells that have suddenly disappeared are surging forward in an instant. "The situation that was regarded as taboo and stuffed into the bottom of memory" surged toward Hui Licai, and the memories that she had forgotten all appeared in front of her at once.
You may ask, when you grow up, will Kaoru, Hiroshi, meet the one who once raised her, Yoshikazu Nomiya?
Yes, they were reunited.
While waiting for the ferry in the waiting room, Hui Licai saw a woman in an aqua blue blouse bending down to clean the outdoors. Then, when they looked at each other, the man hurriedly turned his face away and waved his broom.
For many years, Hui Licai had been hating this "vicious woman" that she felt had ruined her life and family, but when she really faced her heart, she found that she didn't want to hate at all. Hui Licai even felt that when she decided to give birth to the child in her belly, it was precisely because of the deep scenery in front of her eyes: the sea, the sky, the clouds, the sunshine. She wants her children to see the beauty of the world, just as that person brings her the beauty.
When the radio announcement arrived at ×× Harbor, she clearly remembered that day, when Yoshiwako escaped by boat with her, and was arrested by the police at the port, Yoshiwako shouted loudly, not to defend herself, not to ask for forgiveness, but to "the child has not eaten breakfast yet!" ”
On the brink of the most dangerous, she was worried that the child had not yet eaten breakfast, and when she saw this, her heart could not be stopped. Loving deeply can indeed make people desperate and only care about whether the other party is safe and happy.
Ryori suddenly understood that the mother who scolded her for beating her occasionally and was afraid of losing her, as well as Nono Miya Yoshikako, was also a mother.
The woman who swept the floor, Hewako, was released after eight years in prison. Now, she does cleaning in this port. She saw the girl of her age, Hiroshi, but she wasn't sure she was Kaoru, because as soon as she saw the young girl, she would reflexively think it was Kaoru. She often recognized the wrong person and was often reprimanded for staring at the young girls.
Losing Kaoru, Kazuko feels that she has nothing, and she doesn't know what she should live for. After being released from prison, she hid in order to avoid the reporters who interviewed her, but in the end she found that what she longed for most was to return to Xiaodou Island. She often thinks about the days she spent with Kaoru and the people on Shodo Island who are passionate about her, but she didn't board the ferry to Shodo Island. She looked at the girl she thought was Kaoru, Hui Li Cai, and thought in her heart: May you get out of the pain of ignorance, and may your days always be full of sunshine, Kaoru.
Xihezi walked slowly along the river, raising her hands and reaching into the air, she was already an empty shell that had lost everything, but she still felt that "when she knew that she should not hold the baby, the warmth and softness in the palms of her hands, and the heavy weight, why did what had been lost seem to remain in these hands?" ”
They were reunited, but neither of them recognized each other. Kaoru (Hui Li Cai) has let go of her nostalgia, facing her past that is different from ordinary people, no longer hating her family, no longer hating "kidnapping" her, no longer hating herself; and Xi Hezi, also wanting to take that piece of warmth and beauty, continue to walk, they seem to have lost something, but they seem to have always had it.
They are cicadas that live to the eighth day, "and can see things that other cicadas can't see." Maybe I don't want to see it, but it's not exactly bad enough to have to close your eyes. ”
<h1>Let go of love, be strong because of love</h1>
Maybe you, like me, have opened this book with mixed feelings, on the one hand, touched by Xiwako's love for Fumi, on the other hand, you kidnapped Kaoru to Xihezi, so that you can't ignore her identity as a perpetrator; or maybe some people will feel that this is a book with three wrong views, the kidnapper is the kidnapper, is it necessary to wash white because of the so-called maternal love?
Dear officials, the author Kakuda Mitsuyo is just weaving a story, she is not trying to promote any values, as for what everyone sees, it is a personal matter.
In fact, in the process of dismantling this book, I have a deeper feeling that women are really soft and tough animals. Soft enough, will give all love unconditionally, tough enough, and guard their children against the whole world.
Hiroko, who had just lost her child, was called "empty shell" by someone, and when she saw the young Kaoru being left at home alone, when she saw the baby's clear smiling eyes, she fell. The newborn baby is like an angel, all the good is in one, she is a complete and pure existence.
Looking at this child, she not only had the desire to protect, but also attracted by this beauty, coupled with the fact that she had just lost the child, she did not hesitate to steal Kaoru, and ran away for the next ten years, just to stay with Kaoru for a little longer, originally wanted to return Kaoru after a month, but the longer the time, the deeper the feelings, the deeper the obsession.
She went to the temple to worship and pray to the gods, but the gods did not fulfill her. The beauty of being with Kaoru on Shodou Island is coming to an end after all.
And Kaoru, that is, Hui Li Cai, in her growing years, has always lived with hatred for Xi Hezi, and she can't remember the warmest times with Xi Hezi, or rather, she doesn't want to remember. It was this woman who labeled her as a "child raised by a kidnapper", made her isolated by her classmates from an early age, let her live in a family where her parents hated each other, let her develop a cold and lonely personality, and let her hate herself all the time.
But she will still love and forgive. She wants to give birth to a child with her lover, she wants this child to see the good things in the world, and she chooses to forgive her lover for her irresponsibility. Why would she love? Because she was also loved, when she was a child, Hiroko had already given all the beauty she could give kaoru. Even if the memories cannot be remembered, the feeling of being loved will not be forgotten.
They are all cicadas of the eighth day, and they are sad and lonely. Because cicadas can only live for seven days, cicadas that live to the eighth day have no companions similar to them.
However, Xiwako, who has lost everything, can continue to live because she holds the good memories of living with Kaoru, which is a light in her life that no one can take away. And the alternative Hiroshi, also because she remembers the indelible love for her when she was young, Andako, which may be the best time of her life on Shodou Island - there are bright and vivid scenery, and Hitako and her are dependent on her. She decided not to hate all this anymore and decided to let her heart out of the cage. No matter what she went through, her mother, Andiko, was the mother who loved her the most. In the rest of her life, it is up to her to continue to decide how to go, rather than being confined to various constraints.
There is a saying in the Bible that hate can provoke disputes, and love can cover up all faults. This is not what the saints are going to do, it is the best way for each of us mortals to let ourselves go and enjoy life.