"When I returned in the summer, I often took the road I had walked with her, sitting on the stone steps of the warehouse and looking at the sea alone.
When I want to cry, I can't get tears out, and I always do. ”
- Haruki Murakami, "Listen to the Wind"
"Listen to the Wind" is Haruki Murakami's first work, because of it, Haruki Murakami has changed from an obscure small bar owner to a professional novelist.
Before the age of 29, Haruki Murakami never imagined that he would become a novelist. At that time, he was addicted to jazz, and his biggest wish was to listen to his favorite music from morning to night.
Out of this simple idea, Murakami and his wife played several divisions of labor at the same time in three years, desperately saving money, then borrowing money everywhere, and then opening a small bar that played jazz records and served coffee, alcohol and dishes.
In order to pay off his debts, Murakami got up early every day and worked in the dark. But the baseball team he liked happened to win a game that he wanted to write a novel without warning.
After making the decision to write, Murakami bought pens and manuscript paper, and sat at the kitchen table in the middle of the night after finishing working in the store every day. It took about half a year to write the first draft of "And Listen to the Wind".
But the first draft did not satisfy Murakami. Therefore, he tried to abandon the previous method of Japanese literature creation, first writing a little in English, and then "translating" English into Japanese, so as to form Murakami's unique writing style.
As soon as "Listen to the Wind" was released, it won the newcomer award of the literary magazine "Group Portrait".
"Listen to the Wind" mainly tells the story of the protagonist who spends a summer vacation in his hometown, meets a girl who is drunk in the bathroom with only four fingers on her left hand in a bar, and sends her home, thus beginning a slightly awkward meeting between the two of them.
Contempt, indifference, and ambiguity flow between the two people, and it is difficult to get to know each other well, and the summer is over, the protagonist returns to college, and the girl with only four fingers on her left hand disappears.
The story is a bit bitter, filled with a faint sense of alienation and loneliness, uncapable, and ubiquitous.
The protagonist of the novel experiences painful loneliness in his own way and learns to grow in loneliness. This is not the story of each of us.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="30" >01 Love needs to be expressed, it is an art of bravery and wisdom</h1>
At the age of 21, the protagonist was in a bar and met a girl who was lying drunk on the bathroom floor with only four fingers on her left hand. Because no one in the bar knew the girl, the protagonist had to send the girl home according to the address on the card she had placed in her handbag. Afraid that it would be insecure for the girl to stay at home alone when she was drunk, he stayed at the girl's house for the night.
Although the protagonist does nothing, the girl who wakes up drunk does not want to believe it, and she is full of contempt and indifference to the protagonist.
Soon, they thought they would never intersect again, because a record of "California Girls" met. After the misunderstanding was lifted, the girl slowly became acquainted with the protagonist.
Like the lack of a finger itself, girls always give people an unnatural feeling, and they are rash wherever they go. She doesn't know how to protect herself, even if she's been hurt emotionally; she doesn't know how to express her true heart.
The girl stewed a pot of steak and wanted to invite the protagonist to the house to eat it, and she said on the phone: "An hour later!" If it's late, I'll just throw my head in the trash. After saying that, he hung up the phone without waiting for the protagonist to speak.
Anyone who can cook rice understands that stewed steak is a test of a person's care and patience. Because it not only requires an hour or two of cooking time, the process is also cumbersome, in order to make the taste more pure, but also pay attention to the combination of various spices and the regulation of the heat.
Food is the most heartfelt confession. If it's not for the people they like, who wants to spend a lot of time simmering steaming steaks in a cramped, unusually hot room in the hot summer?
The protagonist came by appointment. They sat at the summer table, the jazz quartet played back in their ears, the steaming stew steak and the cold white wine in their mouths, and the ambiguous feelings flowed in the air, but no one took the initiative to pick out the relationship.
Not knowing how to express it is a common disease of modern people.
Because we don't know how to express it, we are not willing to take the initiative to show kindness, for fear that the feelings that will come will become cheap.
Because we don't know how to express it, we self-righteously think, "If you love me, you should know what I'm thinking." ”
Bi Shumin said:
"Love needs to be expressed, like an appliance that consumes electricity too quickly, it has to be charged every day, and it is repeated and fresh to describe love." It is an art of bravery and wisdom. ”
Love is afraid of silence.
Girls who do not know how to express themselves do not speak, and the protagonists who neither speak nor rap do not take the initiative to open their mouths, they think that they understand each other, and in the end no one understands.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="149" >02 The greatest pain in life is wanting to love without loving</h1>
The protagonist and the girl with only four fingers on the left hand met before, and had three failed relationship experiences.
The first paragraph is with his female classmates from high school. The two had skin-to-skin relationships, but soon parted ways after graduation.
The second paragraph is with a hippie girl. The protagonist meets her at the subway station and takes her homeless back to her dormitory. After a week of staying, the hippie girl disappeared along with her belongings in the dormitory, leaving only a note that read "Nasty guy."
The third paragraph is with a french professional girl. Her relationship with the protagonist is harmonious, and she has reached the point of talking about marriage, but surprisingly, the girl committed suicide in the woods.
Teacher Zhou Xiaopeng, an expert in marriage psychology, said that the most important purpose of people falling in love is to be "recognized".
Everyone's heart longs for the approval of others. You like me because you approve of me; then you leave me as a disapproval of me.
The more times we don't recognize it, we will be sad, we will shrink back and close the door of our hearts, and we will automatically be defensive.
In order not to hurt ourselves, even heavy feelings show a thinner appearance, because we are more afraid of loss than a short loss.
John Gray, author of Men from Mars, Women from Venus, said:
"Tightening the door of the heart under the influence of various factors will only lead to the sinking of oneself into the abyss of continued pain."
But at this time, your pain is no longer caused by that person, but because you have suppressed the love in your heart.
There is no greater pain in life than wanting to love without loving. ”
The past is a pain buried in the protagonist's heart. He did not have time to confide in the girl, and the girl did not know his grievances until before leaving, and everything was gone, leaving only painful loneliness.
The book says: "When I returned in the summer, I often walked the road I had walked with her, sitting on the stone steps of the warehouse and looking at the sea alone. When I want to cry, I can't get tears out, and I always do. ”
Wanting to love without loving, when we look back, have missed love.
All relationships in the world are determined by fate. And the dependent arising and the extinction, the deep edge of the deep edge, the shallowness, we can't control it.
When you meet someone who loves you, cherish it; for the missed love, learn to let go, and letting go is also a kind of wisdom to spare yourself.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="153" >03 Time is a medicine that can cure all wounds</h1>
At the age of 29, the protagonist is married, and he and his wife live in Tokyo, living a simple and harmonious life.
The record of "California Girls" is still in the corner of the shelf, and whenever summer comes, it will be pulled out to listen to a few times. A picture of a dead French professional girl, lost while moving.
The past has drifted away with the wind, everything seems to be zero, but in fact it is a new beginning.
Japanese psychologist Grandma Nakamura Tsuniko said:
"To come out of grief or blows, you have to rely on 'daily medicine' rather than advice."
Deeply.
No matter how deep the wound is, there is a day of scabs, and time is the best medicine to cure all the pain! Although it will not take effect immediately, although it will take time to work.
And what we have to do is to wait quietly and live our lives seriously in waiting.
We can try to explore the unknown world, whether it is learning or sports, try to do something new and interesting, give ourselves a different experience; increase the time of reading, find some biographies to see, increase knowledge at the same time, we can learn how others survived when they were unlucky... In short, it is to keep yourself busy and reduce the time spent thinking about it.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="154" > written at the end</h1>
As the first work of Haruki Murakami, "Listen to the Wind" has been praised by the outside world.
And I think that all the words in the world are closely related to the writer and the reader. As readers, we look for our own shadow in other people's stories and gain the strength to grow in other people's stories.
Growing up is a painful thing that creates countless rifts.
But we need to believe that all experiences are meaningful, and even pain will become important experiences in the future.
The rest of your life is not long, let everything go naturally.
Don't dwell on the past, and don't hesitate about the future!
Only by knowing how to let go can we live freely. #Intimacy##情感点评大赏 #
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