If you were to go back to 17, would you still choose the person you initially loved, the one you initially filled out, the hobby you initially loved, everything you initially chose?
At the age of 17, the boy I had a crush on for a long time finally agreed to my confession, and we were together. Because the third year of high school had to prepare for the college entrance examination, we were pressed to death by study every day, coupled with the fact that we were not allowed to fall in love in high school at that time, we did not have a lot of time and did not dare to brazenly talk about love. We could only sneak home together one night of the week during the evening study trip.
I'm a liberal arts student and he's a science subject. Our senior year of high school is on the same floor of the same building. Every time he rings the bell after class to go to the toilet, he passes by his classroom. I would sneak a look at him, even if I did, and I would be satisfied. We were junior high school classmates, and later we were admitted to the same school. Then later the liberal arts and sciences division, he was in the south building and I was in the north building. After 4 years of going around, in the third year of high school, finally, he recognized our relationship. Although the days of the third year of high school were very bitter and tired, when I thought of him, my heart still felt full of happiness and motivation!
But maybe the college entrance examination is really too bitter and the pressure is really too great, and the mentality is really bad during that time. Especially when there is still a month or so before the college entrance examination, the mentality is really going to explode during that time. Not just me, but him. I don't remember exactly what happened at that time, but anyway, before the college entrance examination (I will always remember, it was the night of the 2nd) he and I broke up... I really don't know what words to use to describe my unbearable and sad mood at that time. On one side is the college entrance examination, on the other side is the breakup..... I just know that my eyes couldn't swell anymore when I cried. The next day back at school, I took a detour when I went to the bathroom, didn't pass his classroom, and turned around when the school met him. The back is really a mental explosion, and the teacher asked for leave to go home to review...
Later, the college entrance examination finally came, and it was finally over. The test is not much better or worse. I remember when I came out of the exam room that day, it rained a lot, but I was very calm inside. I think back to the efforts I put into the college entrance examination in the past, and how much heartache I made the person I liked...
Do you think that's the end of it? Nothing. (>_<)
On the day of the 23rd, when the college entrance examination results are released, we will go back to school to get the results. On the way into the campus to the classroom, someone called me. I looked back and it was him. I thought to myself, although he rejected me, after all, after so many years of classmates, it doesn't matter if you say hello. So I responded to his greeting, and the embarrassment that followed prompted me to hurry up and leave. So I picked up the pace and wanted to go faster. But he seemed to want to come with me..... If there is no way, I will take his words. Unexpectedly, he wanted to come and ask for peace. At 17 years old, I was still too innocent, yes, I promised him and was with him again.
The results of the college entrance examination mean that you have to fill in the college entrance examination volunteer. Volunteering means that we have to think about where we will go from here. He did well in the college entrance examination, and there are many score lines in science. And I, the test is really not good, the liberal arts super two score line of more than 20 points. He can choose a better university, a better major, a better future. And I can only choose a very ordinary two books, ordinary and impermanent. He asked me what industry you want to do in the future. I told him I wanted to be a teacher. I asked him about it, and he said he hadn't thought about it yet. I asked him where he volunteered to fill in, and he said to see where he could fill in his score. Since my score was really too low, I didn't think about leaving the province, so I filled in a very ordinary school in the north. And he, who probably didn't really put me in his future, filled a polytechnic university in the South.
Unfortunately, I was kept in the dark at the time, maybe at the age of 17, I was still too naïve and ignorant, and I believed that he would always love me when he said it. After seeing the admission results, my heart was full of mixed feelings. He comforted me and said that it didn't matter if I was off-site, and I could contact me with a mobile phone. And so we started a long-distance relationship. Long-distance relationships are really bad (at least then and I feel so now) We are saying to the phone screen every day that I want you and I love you, and say boring love words every day. Such a different place, no rushing, pure love talk, let me slowly lose the feeling of crazy like him.
College and high school are really different. High school is the high school of a group of people, and college is the university of one person. After going to college, everything is often up to you, and you have your own ideas. Acting alone and thinking alone for a long time made me slowly change my perspective on some things. At the age of 17, I think that loving someone can always love, always love, and love at all costs. Later, when I think about this kind of behavior, it is not. He has a purpose and a mind. At least, he gave up on me when he took the college entrance examination, gave up on me when he filled out the volunteers, and gave up on me in his future life choices. Maybe he doesn't love me, maybe he likes me but he doesn't like it that much... Anyway, I decided to let him go when I wanted to open. With someone who doesn't have me in the future, or a long-distance relationship, there is no rush to think about it
Now when I think back to when I was 17 years old, you are really cute, very naïve, very sunny. But, you're too stupid. You're crazy to like a guy who's tepid to you. Sometimes when I hear the song of Rene Liu's "Later", I really hear the urge to cry. I also miss the midsummer when I was 17 years old, the night we secretly went back together, we chatted about low, talked about the college entrance examination, talked about the future...
Back to the original question: If you were back at 17, would you still choose your original path?
I thought, if I could, I would be willing to choose again. Although the world will eventually smooth out my diamond horns as I get older and experience later, I don't want to know you again, like you, obsessively, and give up my whole world for you again. Our best start is to separate the two widths and rejoice in each other