Wen | Gongziyi
This night, XiaoBei did not return.
This time, the seaweed was in no hurry. He must have gone again, walking all over the streets. Seaweed felt that this time she was hit by a car, and it was not her responsibility. Moreover, in this world, the number of people hit by a car is only a few in ten thousand. Seaweed lay on the bed and fell asleep.
When Xiaobei found Song Siming's text message, when Xiaobei ran away again, Seaweed was completely indifferent. She took Xiao Bei's pain to the heart and despised it as a "bitter meat plan". She didn't have the slightest worry about Xiao Bei, and she even felt that Xiao Bei's life and death were not important to her at all.
She doesn't feel that she is wrong, she feels that what is wrong is Xiaobei, that Xiaobei is not tolerant enough, not generous enough, not tolerant enough to her.
When Xiao Bei went home to pack her bags, she immediately went to find Song Siming and happily threw herself into Song Siming's arms.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="67" > betrayal. </h1>
In the original work, when Guo Haizao was with Song Siming, she said two paragraphs to Guo Haiping with a straight face, one of which was about Song Siming:
Then you say, if a man is not kind to a woman like me who is incompetent, has no support, and is not beautiful, and sends house and money, should I quickly pretend to faint and fall into his arms? There is no such shop in this village.
Does Guo Seaweed love Song Siming?
She didn't love Song Siming, she just took Song Siming as her chance. Including her final agreement to give Song Siming a child, it is not that she wants that child more, but she wants to tie up Song Siming through this child and raise her forever.
Another passage is about Xiaobei:
Who am I? I didn't marry him, as if I didn't have to be responsible for him, right?
Guo Haizao betrayed her relationship with Xiaobei, and she and Xiaobei even discussed getting married this year. However, she was with Song Siming, she did not feel guilty at all, she even said that Xiaobei was her person, and she never felt that she should be responsible for Xiaobei.
Guo Haizao did not rush to Song Siming with guilt, she just ran with courage and joy from the beginning.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="70" > accepted. </h1>
When Xiaobei saw Guo Haiweed and Song Siming in the heavy rain, Xiaobei collapsed.
He walked for a day and a night, and he began to have a fever, and he was in a coma for five days and five nights. In the original, he is in a coma and has been saying five words "Seaweed, I love you". It was his subconscious obsession, he loved seaweed so much, but seaweed was with Song Siming.
When he was sober, he wanted to reject Guo Seaweed, and when he was unconscious, he revealed his true intentions over and over again, and he loved Guo Seaweed.
Even if Guo Haizao betrayed him, he still loved her, and he was reluctant to leave her and did not want to lose her.
When he was completely awake, he saw Guo Haiweed's haggardness, but he also saw Guo Haiweed's kind of indifference of "casually, who loves whom". At that moment, Xiao Bei, afraid of losing, outweighed the damage that betrayed him. He chose to forgive Guo Haiweed because he was afraid that Guo Haizao would completely leave him and fully throw himself into Song Siming's arms.
The seaweed hurt him, and he chose to accept it.
He was reluctant to hurt Guo Haiweed, and even he had to force a smile in front of Guo Haiweed's parents. He was so depressed, so depressed that he could only torture himself. He began to pluck his fingers continuously, until he broke them without realizing it.
After many years, I still don't feel that Xiaobei's reaction after being betrayed is overheated. The depth of love, the cut of the wound, at that time, XiaoBei was close to the limit of patience.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="74" > torture. </h1>
Xiao Bei began to swear foul language and torture Guo Seaweed.
In the original book, it is written:
Xiao Bei's haze was released quite in a rude sentence, making him feel that a gap had suddenly opened between his heart and chest, so that the black, dirty, mud-like entangled clumps of seaweed suddenly floated out.
Many years ago, when I saw this part of the content, I only felt that Xiaobei was crazy, but now that I look at it again, I suddenly find that I have overlooked a very important point:
Our requirements for Xiaobei are too high. We feel that even if Xiaobei betrays, he should be as good as ever to Guo Haiweed, as if nothing had happened. We are used to asking those who are hurt to be more noble. And those who forget to ask to do something wrong, to bear the consequences.
And when we ask the person who is hurt to be more noble, we are actually conniving at the person who has done the wrong thing.
Xiao Bei's easy forgiveness made Seaweed ignore his own faults. She rightly wanted Xiaobei to still be as good to her, and she wanted Xiaobei to act as if nothing had happened. In Xiaobei's self-repair, Guo Haizao put herself in a position of grievance and hurt, and she felt that she was right to betray Xiaobei, and Xiaobei could not be treated as if nothing had happened, there was a mistake.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="76" > loyalty. </h1>
When Xiao Bei broke up with Guo Haiweed, there was such a roar:
I don't hit you, I don't hit women. Although you are very underwhelming. Guo Haizao, I tell you, my fault lies in being too good to you. I should have taught you a good lesson and let you know what loyalty is.
Guo Haizao met Song Siming.
When she saw Song Siming, she was greedy and aggrieved. She felt that XiaoBei was not good for her, and she felt that she had suffered great grievances. She hugged Song Siming and cried at Song Siming, and Song Siming persuaded her to return to her side and advised her not to get married.
She was reluctant to delete Song Siming's text message, she kept that text message. XiaoBei found Song Siming's text message, and Seaweed did not feel guilty at all. She felt that she hadn't done anything to be sorry for Little Bay. She saw Song Siming is not wrong, she and Song Siming hugged yes, she is right to lie to Song Siming, she left Song Siming's text message is even more correct. She wasn't back with Little Bey again. Since she had all returned, Xiao Bei was still dissatisfied, and she still had something wrong.
What exactly is loyalty?
Loyalty is that you have been with a person for a hundred years, he loves you, you have to love her, he does not betray you, you can not betray her. And this is the bottom line for two people to maintain their feelings, at least.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="78" > the "madness" and "pain" of Xiaobei. </h1>
Xiao Bei loves Guo Seaweed so much, but Guo Seaweed returns it to him for betrayal.
How much he loves, how badly he hurts. He shouted at the heavy rain, and he hurt his body and began to protect himself. He was so hurt so badly, but he still chose to forgive Guo Haiweed.
Because he loved Guo Seaweed, he was reluctant to leave her.
This kind of love, in the moment of forgiveness, is itself accompanied by great pain. Xiao Bei couldn't bear this pain at all, so he began to hurt himself, began to swear, and began to be depressed.
And when he wanted to try to get out of this pain, he saw the text message sent by Song Siming to Guo Haizao again. He was hurt a second time, and this time the injury made him see Guo Haizao more clearly. When he felt that this was the greatest hurt, this was extremely painful, Guo Haizao felt that this was nothing at all, this was not a betrayal at all.
Guo Haizao easily said to break up, because she had already had enough of Xiao Bei, who was "not good enough for her". Despicable or shameless, she didn't care anymore.
She doesn't care about loyalty, she doesn't care about betrayal, she just wants to be "pampered", even if she does something wrong, Xiaobei should love her and spoil her. If she hurt Xiaobei, Xiaobei would not love her so much, so why should she stay with Xiaobei.
And this is the root of Xiaobei's madness and pain.
Xiao Bei was in pain because of the betrayal of his body and heart, but Seaweed felt that this matter was not important at all.
What is the most painful point of betrayal?
It is the other party who obviously hurt you, obviously did something wrong, but justifiably did not feel that he was wrong, so that your pain and madness all turned into weakness and internal collapse.
Xiao Bei left, because if he didn't leave, he wouldn't be able to live.