Maybe my mind was completely blank, or maybe it was just a blurry black shadow. I fell asleep on the pine floor that year. It's really sleepy. I firmly believe that the sweltering, gloomy night of the sixties, including the sporadic gunshots, did not wake me up. The darkness was like pig iron covering my thin body. Then I had a dream in which I walked alone and without any taboos on the moor. There were shiny debris, pulsing specks of light, and after the meteor shower had passed, my pounding heart rose like a white sun into a thick fog in front of me. That is, it rests on the top of the vague and distant mountains. It's ridiculously white! It was as if I saw a single black eye, glowing with cold lightning, and I heard the horrible sound of footsteps clattering and sizzling farther and farther into the mud—in fact, it hadn't rained for a long time—and I immediately saw a bolt of lightning like a whip twitching through the corner of the canopy, with a metallic texture. I also heard a series of rumbling thunders. I heard a night bird fluttering and swishing overhead. I heard the owl ball score. I heard the clatter of what was being hit and what animal was gnawing on bones. The lone wolf, also exhausted and wounded, was limping towards the gray-black shadow in front of me. I screamed, and sat up from the floor in horror, my back against the wall, my hands on the back of my head. I've been sitting behind the door shaking like that.
"I want to hear a knock on the door." I say.
At this time, Liao Wang lost playing cards and smashed the cards angrily. He braced himself up. There is no need to look for his son Lilac everywhere, he can't go anywhere in the courtyard, and he will come back by himself.
When the tweeter sings, Lilac will grab a plastic bowl in front of her uncles and line up to eat. Unless he is sick, he actually doesn't need anyone to take care of him at all, let alone worry about him being in danger. The courtyard is far safer than the normal society outside, and I silently thought, on the night when the prisoner beat the dead, the lilacs were not alarmed, and they still slept just as sweetly?
"I hope he's carefree." I said nonsense to the cheeks.
"Thank you." The boy replied like an adult.
Liao Wang turned his head to look at everyone, with a sad face, scolding.
"What's the matter? Nothing ever goes well. ”
Damn it. Live hell thing, just bragging. All the people in the courtyard love to tell lies, it's like fart.
"Even the cadres are full of nonsense." A classmate said.
"Like...... You're pretending to be very ambitious. ”
"I will only regret it when my head is broken."
"The blood doesn't stop flowing, and it's full of irritation for everyone."
"Anyway, I don't have any hope for tomorrow."
"Going with the flow is the biggest scam."
"The problem is that everybody is pretending to educate you."
"There are people in ancient and modern China and abroad who can only live by lies."
"Restless, it's definitely not going to end well."
It seems to be the truth. On the contrary, maybe God can't open his eyes. Becoming a human will not be smooth sailing.
"Deliberately, God wants to go through your suffering."
"There's no choice but to continue to stay up every day."
"It's useless for you to pee and pee." The old ghost said neuroticly.
God also wants to take this opportunity to see if you are qualified to continue to live in the world. There has never been anything in the courtyard playground that makes the abductors of the brigade unhappy in broad daylight. Everyone in the courtyard knew that Liao Wang would be more cautious with a child, and he was originally a more upright kind. The beard is not really fighting with anyone, he is just complaining about fate. What's more, there are lilacs to help his father be a man, and the boy inadvertently brings a lot of happiness to everyone in the courtyard. After I was discharged from the re-education camp and left the labor camp, in addition to continuing to associate with Ding Ke under the pretense of family ties, he did business with a gang, traveled on foot, and sometimes found an excuse to go back to the farm. It's normal for us to be noisy. I went back to work, and then he became obsessed with drugs, which almost made me angry. Dink Harmonic dies in the middle of a trip.
"Back then, those people in the courtyard hardly came and went."
We didn't hear anything from Zhu Yun, Beard, or Lilac. I was on the iron bed in the small dark room, and I heard the night wind beating on the window, and I seemed to see the dark shadow on the small bridge to the old infirmary. The deputy of the ancient brigade blew the iron whistle again, shouting to assemble, and everyone was ready to roll call late. I knew that Qu Hua was going to put the tape that went out in half an hour. The students were all hurrying out. Two or three men were chasing, and seven or eight were running. I squeezed down Dink's fingers as if to take the opportunity to send him some kind of message. Then I took my leave. I ran out behind a large group of classmates, through the crowd, and also inexplicably strung back and forth on the back of the rostrum. The scene was a little chaotic, and I saw Qu Hua telling him to help with the load.
I put my mouth close to his ear and whispered in my voice:
"Tonight, I'm not going to go back to the little dark room to sleep."
Originally, he wanted to stay inside to take care of Ding Ke Harmonic, but he had a high fever.
It's clearly a psychopath, making excuses. I think.
"It doesn't matter, right?" Qu Hua asked, crooking his neck.
"It shouldn't be a big deal." I replied.
"That's good." Qu Hua said.
"Be careful, too."
He laughed and said, "I will." ”
"If there is something, I will call you in the middle of the night." He said.
"I'll go out when it's early." I say.
It was difficult for everyone to get out of the chaotic atmosphere of the courtyard covered by clouds and fog in a short time. Perhaps, it was just because I felt that I was also very lonely, so I planned to stop paying attention to the world and prejudice from now on. As long as we are not playing life, but everything, all the emotions of true love, I thought repeatedly: "It must also be in line with the moral norms." ”
"It's not just Zhu Yun and his sister." I told Dink.
During my vacation, I found an opportunity to go to the provincial public security hospital. When I walked to the door, I could even see the door clearly, and suddenly I didn't know why I was going, who did I want to please? Halfway through the bus I got off the bus and went into the store to buy apples, bananas and malt cream, and there were two big bags. I knew that Squadron Leader Chen Chaohai of the Second Squadron was hospitalized in this place, so I told my father on impulse. He repeatedly begged me to put the others aside and take the time to visit them once anyway. "He's not from our squadron." I say. The father insisted that he must go, and that he would pay for the money; If I don't go, he has to go. "Of course it's better for you to go than I do!" My dad tried to convince me. I really don't have any friendship with Captain Chen, this sycophant is a bit weird, not to mention that most of the people in the courtyard scolded Chen Chaohai for being bad. My dad thought about it and said, "Just because everyone thinks he's bad, you should go and see him." Bring gifts! "I regret talking too much and getting myself into trouble. Chen Chaohai suffered internal injuries from the July 7 incident in the courtyard in the first year, but in fact, he did not feel how serious it was at the time, and he did not expect that the more he was treated, the worse the result would be. Captain Chen has been hospitalized twice, and I have heard Luo Sihuai occasionally say that he is now a little discouraged. I felt a little shocked to hear this from Logan, and to be honest, I didn't want to kill anyone on either side. That's why I told my dad about it.
Unexpectedly, when I was looking for a ward, I met Sun Yingchun of the 1st Squadron. He came for a review, and he had just visited Captain Chen. The relationship between the two of them seems to me to be better, not like Ding Ke Harmonic and Xin Shouyi who say that Sun Gan is a sycophant, and the truth is not so simple. Sun Yingchun took me to the ward.
Squadron Leader Chen is not as cold to people as he was when he was on the farm. The next year, I heard that he died after I had gone through surgery. When I went back to the farm with Dink, Luo Sihuai told me the real cause of Chen Chaohai's death, that he had rectal cancer. For a while, he carried a bag of in his hand all day long.
The two of us walked out of the public security hospital. Sun Yingchun and I were walking in the shade of the sidewalk on a street by the river, and Sun Gan, who had always been in a bad mood, suddenly became a little happier. He was rarely so polite, repeatedly asking me if I was busy? Sun Yingchun asked me to take him to a stone factory — in other words, their marble slabs may be a bit eyebrow — and Sun Gan told me: "This requires an experienced company to cooperate in the development." Later, the two of us went to Hekan Street to find Luo Xiaosong's mother. It is said that before coming to the provincial capital, Luo Xiaosong recommended a master to Sun Yingchun, who was an expert in this area. If you find Luo Xiaosong, you can find this person! Sun Gan didn't tell me all the truth, but it wasn't that his words were full of loopholes. I also knew that he and Luo Xiaosong were secretly tinkering with the Red Agate Stone of the Warring States Period. Brother Song had said it to me five times, and he had told me to think about it carefully, and that I might be interested in it after I got out of the sect.
I believe that when the bearded man ran away, they were chased in a group, and the two hooked up together. The original phrase I always joked about Dinky was "hooking up and raping". I replied to Luo Xiaosong, Sun Yingchun is not like a good person, I shook my head, I have to think about him repeatedly. Su Dongyang also secretly opposed Sun Yingchun's involvement, and quietly made a stumbling block. After Shi Wei died, Cheng Ming was moved by Su Dongyang's words again, he was disgusted with Sun Gan, and always stood on Brother Dongyang's side. My co-defendant Li Shen worked under Sun Yingchun, but he was postponed again. I wanted to ease relations with him and immediately promised him to go to the stone factory.
Then accompany him on the bus to go back to his accommodation to get a sample. On the left side of the square is the waiting room of the train station, where small items are stored and stored, which is relatively deserted. The right side is very different, and you can see from the decoration of the building alone, and it is much more lively. Many buildings and iron shelves are lit up all night long, and they are colorful and colorful. Hostels, shops of all kinds, restaurants, snack bars, stalls, and all kinds of service departments are available.
It was 1986, and it was just early spring, and the street trees had not yet fully begun to bloom. Any city is still gray. But the area around the train station is already prosperous enough. Even, with a little thought, you can also find a telephone pole girl who has worn lipstick, put on heavy makeup, and is dressed in a more glamorous way. They crouched on the railings of the street, with their backs to the steps or street trees, causing pedestrians to stare nervously and inexplicably at passers-by. At that time, their behavior was actually quite restrained, and they were not so unscrupulous in most public places. His personal life is low-key, and he only dares to show it off after a few years.