#头条创作挑战赛#
I was born in 1965 and am 60 years old this year, and I feel that since I have started this year, sometimes I will be very depressed for no reason, and I always feel that life is running out, I wonder if you have the same feeling as me?
I'm feeling very depressed today, and for no reason.
Yesterday on Mother's Day, my son and daughter-in-law also led our old couple and our whole family to have a meal, and everyone had a lively Mother's Day.
But as soon as I got to work this morning, I felt depressed and panicked.
So, I'm almost busy now, so I'm lazy and sneaky to write about my current mood.
I suddenly felt that the poems written by those poets in the past, or the lofty articles written by excellent friends, must have been inspired by the author.
Although we are not poets or writers, sometimes what we write does come with our mood.
I feel very depressed right now, and for no reason I don't feel like life is interesting?
I was thinking, eating and sleeping like this all day, sleeping and eating, going to and from work is boring, and if I am not allowed to go to work now, I will feel even more bored at home.
Just like my husband, he stays at home all day, sleeps until he wakes up naturally in the morning, then gets up to run 5 kilometers, goes to the vegetable market to buy some food, and comes back to the sound of the TV, playing Lianlian, watching on the computer, and playing chess.
When you are tired, you can watch videos on your phone and Douyin.
When I was sleepy, I slept left and right on the sofa in a daze.
I don't eat at home at noon, and sometimes people don't even eat, so they can help me cook a meal in the afternoon.
I felt that if a life like his was to me, I would feel that life would be even more meaningless.
I always told him that when I had nothing to do, I could go to the park for a walk, and I didn't want to sing by myself, but I listened to others sing, and saw if others danced and played chess, and I felt that my heart could brighten up a lot.
But people say they don't want to go, and if they think that there are more people and more noisy, it is better to be alone, although they are lonely and lonely, but at least they are quiet.
Anyway, I think that when people get old, they may not have pursuits, and they will feel that life is gone.
I think that people in our era were very enthusiastic about life, and families like me who gave birth to a son began to earn money and save money from the beginning of work, and knew that in the future, when my son got married, bought a house, bought a car, and the bride price, it was an astronomical amount.
Therefore, they are all very active in life, work hard, and then prepare for their son's future marriage and children.
But at that time, I felt that our life was very meaningful and interesting, and I didn't feel so bored and idle like I do now.
At that time, I was very busy and tired, but everyone was very healthy and did not resist life as much as now.
It may be that now the children who should get married are also married, and they are basically stereotyped.
I am also retired, how much pension should be a foregone conclusion, and there is no point in comparison, I have retired at home and become a passerby.
Whether it has been brilliant or mediocre all its life, it is actually destined to take such a path in this life, so it doesn't matter.
I think it may be because of age, because I am 60 years old, I feel that my wax head is not high, and the rest of my life is not long, so I may feel panicked, and I don't know which day is the end, and this life is over.
If there are times when the children are disobedient and make themselves angry, it will be even more boring.
But I really don't have any anxiety about this, because my son and daughter-in-law are still very sensible.
The main thing is that I don't get involved with them at all, and I just make sure that I go to work every day and live every day happily.
The point is that I want to live happily, but I don't know why, sometimes I feel sad for no reason, I wonder if you feel the same way as me?
I shouldn't have been like this, because my son is older, my grandson is gone, and both parents are gone, so I don't have any thoughts.
My husband's body is okay, I had an operation for thyroid adenoma some time ago, but I think it's nothing from the bottom of my heart, but men, I'm a little squeamish when I'm sick, I always feel that today's hand is numb, tomorrow's mouth is numb, maybe it's due to the operation a little bit of impact, the doctor said that there may be a lack of calcium, so I bought him some calcium tablets, it's really nothing here.
Although my pension is not high, I choose to continue to work after retirement, and I can still earn thousands of dollars a month, living a life that is less than the previous and more than the next, but I still have bad emotions from time to time, and I feel sad for no reason.
I'm thinking, I, a person who has no burden, have such bad feelings, not to mention those who have to serve the old and take care of the young, will they feel that life is not rushed?
In short, all these thoughts come from the year I am 60 years old, I wonder if you feel the same way as me at the age of 60? It's just that it's very sad for no reason, and I feel that there is nothing to do in life?