Sayings：
I want to talk about something that makes me feel like I'm in a trance:
The "Supergirls" are all around 40 years old.
The last time I realized about this was when I watched "Sister Lang". As soon as He Jie, Shang Wenjie, and Liu Xin appeared, they reported their age and debut age in turn:
I also pulled out a table and listed all the familiar names in my memory:
When they debuted, I was young, and I imagined myself as 20 years old as they were.
Today they are veritable sisters, and together, they are a group portrait of women who are (nearly) 40 years old.
What does life look like at 40?
Take a look at their later lives:
Some people divorce, some people remarry; Some people returned to their families after having children, and regretted that they did not continue their acting career;
Some people encounter career bottlenecks; Some people are entangled in lawsuits; Someone falls from a high place and has to start all over again......
It's embarrassing.
What's even more embarrassing is that the life full of thorns is not in the past tense, but in the present tense.
The current state of life of the sisters is still stumbling.
Many people have a vision for life at the age of 40.
I often hear people say: Forty, don't be confused.
When we are in our 20s, we imagine that the age of 40 is mature and able to cope with the storms of life.
From them, I found that when people reach forty, it is really not so easy to "not be confused".
Supergirl is the most special group of entertainers.
They started from the same stage, and their later lives were in the spotlight.
Most of them were in their early 20s. From the street, the campus to the center of the stage, overnight success.
is different from the artists who came from today's draft, their starting point is no different from you and me, they are quite ordinary.
Like Li Yuchun, Zhou Bichang, and He Jie, they are all students at the Conservatory of Music.
There are also girls who are resident singers in bars.
For example, Tan Weiwei.
She was born in a small town in Sichuan and has loved music since she was a child. But I was always hit by my own father.
"My father likes Yang Yuying and Song Zuying, and he always says that I am not as good-looking as them."
Zhang Liangying was also a resident singer in the bar back then, and one of the reasons for participating in the show was to earn some bonuses.
During the competition, the program interviewed Zhang Liangying's mother, who cried and said that she was so tired from taking care of adults when she was a child that she fell asleep, and boiled fish soup to dry up the juice.
After all these years, the story is still fresh in my mind with my colleagues around me.
Shang Wenjie is a white-collar worker from a foreign company who graduated from a prestigious school, but her family background is not very good.
As a child, she lived with her parents in a house of only 9.8 square meters with no toilet. Since high school, she has relied on financial aid to pay for her tuition.
At that time, some media were curious about her family background and went to her birthplace to explore.
stamped "She is indeed not a 'lonely singer soaked in the soft water of the warm mountains', but a lonely girl who grew up in bitterness and salty tears." ”
If you're about the same age as me, you'll remember Supergirl's slogan:
"As long as you like to sing, no matter your age, no matter your appearance, no matter your region, no matter whether you have professional training or not, you can sign up for Super Girl and realize your singing dream!"
I counted the total number of applicants for the next edition of Supergirl, which is 500,000.
The class of '05 Supergirl had the largest number of entries and the most exaggerated.
Some media recorded a scene at that time:
"Some people queued for more than 12 hours overnight, and some people took out imitation pistols to intimidate the crowd in front of them in order to cut in line."
"At nine o'clock in the morning, before the registration started, there was already a long queue of thousands of people."
Not everyone had the courage to sign up, but many voted for Supergirl.
A music teacher in his 50s wrote a 6,000-word post on the Internet to canvass for Li Yuchun:
"When I was young, I wanted to be a girl like Li Yuchun, but I didn't dare to do it, and now I see my past dreams from her."
We have sincerely blessed the lives of those supergirls with text messages, hoping that they can experience a wonderful life that we can't experience.
They did.
Lina, the fifth national supergirl in the 06th class, shared her experience when she first became famous:
"An event, the host said that Li Na will be invited to the stage next, listen to the 'boom' in the end, that person is a wave."
So far, I am impressed.
Zhou Bichang said something like this in an interview in 2023:
His most popular stage was the year of competition and debut.
They are a group of girls who have climbed to the top together.
Supergirls have had the 20 years we envy, but most of them have the last 20 years that we don't envy.
But what I want to talk about is not "hidden", "outdated", and "suppressed". This is the cruel law of the entertainment industry.
What I want to talk about is their embarrassment when they first entered the industry. It was a group of young people who had to go through the embarrassment in the process of being "matured".
They are required to learn to be submissive.
Zhang Liangying recalled many years later that she had just started working for two or three years: she was panicked, unwilling, anxious, and even angry.
I don't understand why I'm working almost 24×7 hours a day;
I don't understand why there are so many "unprofessional" ways of doing things in this industry;
I don't understand why such an unprofessional industry is still prejudiced against artists from the draft.
They are required to learn to look at the eyes.
Tang Xiao was the 9th Super Girl in the 06th class, and she received a lot of commercial performances after her debut.
One day she wore a pair of trousers on stage, and the boss asked angrily: Why did Tang Xiao wear trousers today?
She was 20 years old.
They are being asked to be "cooperative".
Zhou Bichang terminated his contract twice in 3 years after his debut, and then was refrigerated for two years. It is rumored that she is considered by the collaborators to be "the most difficult artist to work with". She recalls that past: it almost caused her to quit the circle.
"I didn't expect that after becoming a singer, there are so many things that need to be done besides singing."
Source: Sina Entertainment
They were told that in this system, business ability and good grades cannot solve everything.
Zhang Liangying's record producer Wen Ya later recalled that within one year of entering the industry, their group of girls experienced the drastic changes that a newcomer would normally need to go through in three years.
In a very short period of time, they quickly discovered that the world has more than one dimension to evaluate you and demand from you.
All of this happens suddenly, and people are very digestible.
Shang Wenjie spent 7 million to terminate the contract with the company. On the new song EP after leaving, handwritten in unpretty:
"The silent speak loudly with music."
is like an ordinary young man who has just entered the workplace, endured it, endured it until he finally lifted the table and said that I would quit.
But after so many years, the lawsuits and huge compensation figures one after another have been sealed. The young man who flipped the table could only sit back at the negotiating table after all.
Looking back at the career development of supergirls, there is a word that often appears, called "curves to save the country".
In order to make music, I tried to learn some so-called rules of the game, but in the end I made a mess of myself.
Like He Jie, she was called Xiao Coco Li when she first debuted, her image is healthy and sunny, and she has been riddled with negativity in just a few years, fake falls on the red carpet, and fainting at the airport......
The reputation is broken, and the layout is there.
and Shang Wenjie, you may remember that she has done a lot of "thunder" looks like crazy in the past few years. People gave her the ugly nickname "Lei Mu".
Later, she was asked about this incident on the show, and her tone was calm:
"That's something that can't be helped. I didn't pay much attention at the time. No one will watch me if I post a song again. ”
Bo people pay attention to Tan Weiwei.
She wrote a song with very ruthless lyrics, diss Shang Wenjie:
"I'm standing to the left of the champion, with her hippie smile, she's not as good as me in everything."
Later, she met Shang Wenjie at an event, and the atmosphere was a little awkward. And Shang Wenjie just looked at her with a smile.
Many years later, Shang Wenjie was asked about this:
"I understand her, she was the same bottleneck at that time, she needed works.
We all need to be seen. ”
As I collated these experiences above, I kept thinking:
Why do I still feel trance when I've been through so much and yet I'm in a trance because they're nearly 40?
Because they really don't look like that.
What should a 40-year-old look like? It is mature, handy, calm and calm.
But in their lives, there are still many puzzles to be answered.
They are far from being able to reconcile with themselves:
Shang Wenjie came to Sister Lang as a contestant, and she is a mentor and a recognized music producer in other programs. You think she won't be nervous.
But she was nervous. Quite helplessly, he said: "The audience is my dilemma. In front of the camera and behind the camera, everyone thinks I have a sense of distance. ”
In her interviews in the past two years, there is such a sentence: Fight against inferiority.
At the age of forty, her life issue is still how to accept herself.
They still don't know how to deal with intimacy:
He Jie divorced. She tore up with her ex-husband, was ridiculed for being in love and unambitious, and was on the hot search many times, all over the place.
In this year's interview, she smiled self-deprecatingly: "What can He Jie do? In addition to having children, taking care of children, teaching children? ”
They still can't see the direction of their careers:
Liu Xin was asked by Yang Tianzhen, who is a former artist agent: What are your plans for the future?
"Nope."
How many do you want to finish in the end? How many hot searches are there in total? How many endorsements are bound to win?
Take one step at a time, "without thinking." ”
If you say, compared to 20 years old, how have they grown?
At most, it's not so sharp, and it will bow its head and fight for opportunities.
In order to participate in the show, He Jie recommended herself on Weibo, like writing a resume, with a long list of links to her works.
But the heart is still beating the drum and struggling.
"What if someone rejects you? No face! ”
I thought that around the age of 40, people should have figured it out and become stronger, at least not struggling.
The result: it's all still twisting.
The problem still can't be solved.
You may remember that Zhang Liangying proposed to her boyfriend at a concert many years ago. The other party is 19 years older than her, and the two have been in love for 13 years.
This relationship is not blessed. She waited on the stage for a long time, until the man squirmed and came onto the stage, hugging expressionlessly.
The next day, the news headline reads: "Female celebrities forced to marry". His mother also publicly stood up and shouted disagreement.
She got married, and the marriage lasted just over 1 year.
But you may not know that she later wrote a song in response to this incident, as well as all the "black material" she has had since her debut.
"What is called hitting a snake and hitting seven inches, and what can hurt her, only I know it well;
It's dad who comes home and asks her to be 4 years old and wash his socks;
It's the elders, who made you not a boy;
It is a hundred dollars a month, to listen to the thorns in the words of others;
It's a teenage bar singing and being slighted silently by teachers and classmates.
Someone suddenly appeared, saying that it was the wife of the person she had been in love for a year, and she proposed marriage at the concert, and the whole network hated the appearance of iron not steel, and she had to hold a wedding if she couldn't get the household registration book, for the sake of ridiculous face, those who didn't beat me became my new beginning......"
At the end of the song, you will expect her to sing courageously, raise her voice, and shout a few powerful words like a big heroine.
But at the end of the song are the lyrics:
"Fifteen years later, there are still a few subsections left, and she wants to leave a message for her original self: Hey Dear Jane, ideals and reality still seem to be difficult to reconcile......
The 40 years old of the supergirls. It's like the end of her lyrics. I thought it was an exclamation point, but it turned out to be a string of ellipses.
It's an adult, but it's still a screwed, immature "half-mature adult".
The reason why I want to write this article is because in recent years, the life node of "40 years old" has begun to stir up some different waves in my heart.
Most of my friends are in their 30s. 40 years old is not near, nor is it far away.
We hear more and more cheers. Variety shows are talking, female stars are talking, and experts and scholars are saying that a 40-year-old life can still ride the wind and waves.
But for me in my 30s, what is more anxious is:
What if at 40 I'm still as confused as I am now?
What if I'm not mature enough to judge the situation and take charge on my own?
I thought of Liu Xin again. She received an invitation from Sister Lang to the show in the first season, but she didn't go, and chose "Summer of the Band" for her rock dream.
The show was on fire, but the band was not. Later, she was asked if she regretted it?
She said, No.
I am reminded of a very earthy and straightforward saying, "Adults only look at the pros and cons." ”
People who are dedicated to chasing their dreams are quite middle and second, and they are not mature enough. But it's moving.
At the age of forty, she is still a sensual and unsteady sister, which sounds a little ashamed.
And He Jie. When I watched her Sister Lang's first stage, I felt like crying.
Someone suggested to her: You can sing the songs that have become popular in recent years and fight memory killing.
She refused.
她选了一首英文歌，像 19 年前一样，在台上又唱又跳，唱：I don‘t care！I love it！
It's sung to everyone, and it's sung to yourself.
I looked at her shining eyes, wiped away tears, and suddenly wanted to breathe a sigh of relief:
It doesn't seem like much to live like this at the age of 40.
Maybe not strong enough, not sober enough.
It's the lost, it's a half-finished product, it's an adult who hasn't fully evolved after being matured.
However, if we are chased and chased in our 20s and run through our younger years, then it is better to let go of the 40s.
An omniscient and omnipotent life is a false proposition.
It's better to try to reconcile with "not yet someone like this".
After all, life is so boring if it's not confusing.
Written by: Azhu
Editor-in-charge: Liang Ke
Design: Aoi seeds
Internship: Yang Yang, Chen Enxi
Sing if you want to, and sing loud
Even if no one applauds me
At least I was able to
Courageous self-appreciation