My name is Lin Fang, I am 46 years old this year, I am in the second half of my life, I thought that life had set the tone, but I did not expect that deep down I set off new waves. My husband, who is known as a successful businessman, seems to have a world of endless business entertainment, the conversation between us is gradually decreasing, and the once strong feelings have become dull in silence. I began to reflect on whether this was really the life I longed for.
At this time, Xiao Chen's appearance was like a clear spring injected into my dry heart. He was young, energetic, and always had an indescribable appeal. His smile was as bright as the sun, warming my heart that had been silent for a long time. From the initial strangeness to the familiarity of our acquaintances, every communication made me feel extremely happy and relaxed.
However, as our relationship deepened, I also gradually discovered the differences between us. He is looking for excitement and adventure, while I crave more peace and quiet. Our attitudes and expectations towards life began to diverge, which left me deeply conflicted and struggling.
I began to think about what this relationship meant to me, whether I was willing to give up everything I had for it, whether I was able to face the pressure and doubts of the outside world, and the questions that kept me awake at night.
Eventually, I made a decision. I chose to go back to square one and cherish the family and work I had. I know that this decision will disappoint Xiao Chen and make my own heart ache, but I think it is the best choice for myself and my family. I hope that Xiao Chen can understand my decision, and I also hope that he can find the happiness that truly belongs to him.
Looking back on this experience, I am very emotional. It has made me more aware of my inner needs and has made me cherish my current life even more. Although the process was full of pain and struggle, I believe it was all worth it. Because only in this way can I truly find my own happiness and fulfillment.