Text/Wang Xu
(Works: "Black Horse", by Zhang Chengzhi, included in "Zhang Chengzhi's Works Series: Volume II Novellas", Oriental Publishing House, July 2014)
Nine years later, Baiyin Baolige returned to the grassland, and the high-pitched and pathetic ancient song "Black Horse" lingered in his ears, but he still walked with remorse for the past. His mood dominated his disregard for the familiar grassland landscape in front of him. Thaksin is reined in the reins, reminiscing about the bitter past, this habitual chewing, making the thoughts heavy and tired on this short return journey.
Exhaustion reflected the casual indifference of this crooked man on a horse. He had lost the demeanor of a steppe rider, like a piece of dead wood, coldly, following the drive of some will in his heart toward a sad place that he had hated many years ago.
Burlegen, according to legend, was the married girl who "gave" the in-laws of the different surnames, a small river that broke up with her parents. Crossing it, the girl who married to a distant place will not return, and everything in her hometown will disappear. This is the habit of the grassland and its natural law, and it firmly casts the guardianship of the people who work on the grassland. The nature that guards is in harmony with nature.
Nature is the supreme goodness of the white-haired Eji's life, and it contemplates the beauty of Eji's life. When her father handed Over Baiyin Baolige to Eji, somya, who was quiet in the tent, made Baiyin Baolige's stubbornness suddenly soft and plump. Soumia is like a thick, milky smell of milk wine, boiling the footprints of the white sound Offir Borg.) Whether it is picking up dung, catching calves, or setting up foals, this scene of life trivia unfolds in joy, spreading out The pride of Baiyin Bolig as a man, and spreading Out Soumia's trust and admiration for this boy. The joy of the two children's growth, the eyes of Eji are relieved to have the kindness of the elders. She matched them as a beauty that inspired herself, and let the "vigorous spirit" that blended love and kindness overflow the grassland.
Egi is a symbol of the guardianship of grassland habits and natural laws. She raised Baiyin Baolige, who was not related to herself, to grow up, which was the kindness of her mother, which was connected to the vast blood of the steppe and fed a boy the arduous and thick process of growing into a man. In the process, Baiyin Borig's life was ushered in by Ganga Hala, a horse from god.-given horses. It descended from the snowstorm, descended the snow-covered hillside, walked towards the yurt it seemed incomparably familiar with, and appeared in front of Eggie with memories from past lives. Eji was nagging a series of superstitious words about the light of this miracle, and those superstitious words were precisely ancient ideas, which made Baiyin Baolig and Soumia forget the teacher's teachings and thrive on the free growth of their nature under the closeness to the laws of nature.
Ganga Hala, a black horse, blends into the life of the Eji family and also dissolves into the blood of Baiyin Baolig. Under the infusion of this natural mind, at the age of fifteen, which is at the boundary between children and youth, Baiyin Baolige has become an adult. He stepped onto the three-year-old ganga hala and completed the magnificent and pure rite of passage with the ambition of riding a horse through the grassland. In her adult days, Baiyin Baolige realized that Soumia was no longer the little girl who you stabbed me and I beat you. Dropping off his past shell, BaiYin Baolige realized, "Manhood is not just about owning a horse."
"Enlightenment" creates a natural chasm between Baiyin Bolig and Soumya. This chasm makes the Baiyin Bolig people, who were born in the shepherd's family but were not natives, still timidize themselves and grieve the past in recent middle age in regret and self-blame.
Baiyin Baolige fell into the troubles of youth. He began to be annoyed for no reason, shouting at Soumia in a gruff voice, and often buried himself in the space of thought, where he became silent, and a "long, strong, curvy girl who shot out of the sun" jumped before his eyes. Soumia's shadow lingers and becomes the beginning of a new life after Baiyin Baolig became an adult. The vague feeling of life was brewed into a cup of bitter wine full of remorse and self-blame, and Baiyin Baolige drank it dry, and with his rebellion against the habits of the steppe and the laws of nature, he left the land he was deeply attached to. Eji's kindness and kindness failed to keep Baiyin Baolige's stubborn footsteps. He was not a native shepherd, and he would not occupy the piece of white mat felt that belonged to the master of the yurt, just north of the fire, before he had made a marriage with Somia. The white-tone Baolig, who cherishes the hazy love between her and Soumya, is no longer like the young man who grew up on the prairie. His difference from others is further emphasized and verified by the outrage that erupted when he learned that Soumia had been violated by the yellow haired Sheila.
The ugly behavior of the yellow-haired Sheila represents "some process that abounds in the ancient steppe." These processes are encapsulated in the content of steppe habits and natural laws, making the incident seem less serious. Instead, Baiyin Baolige questioned Soumia with great anger, causing the latter to turn his face to Baiyin Baolige in order to protect the child in his belly.
Baiyin Baolige walked away, with a mood of intolerance to the habits of the steppe and natural laws, and walked with resentment and pain, although he had always loved them deeply, loved the long civilization and ancient culture on the grassland, the simple shepherds, and the magnificent songs, but he still stubbornly traveled far away to pursue a "purer, more civilized, more respectful beauty." This is the true calling of Baiyin Baolige's heart. It was not until nine years later, when baiyin Baolige returned to this grassland again, that he gradually learned "serious feelings" from life under the wrapping of a shell.
The calm but not full heart shapes the barrier of this shell to the troubles of the world. This is Baiyin Baolige's contemplation of life in his growth, and with the maturity of his thoughts, the resentment left by the past that cannot be chased cannot be recovered, and thinking has become a heavy burden. Baiyin Baoliger's return journey is gasping and frozen under the burden of thinking, and tomorrow has stopped, leaving only the look back and fear of the past at this moment. With Eji's death, Baiyin Baolige blamed himself for not being able to accompany her. After a long goodbye reunion with Somia, full of guilt and making the man deeply uneasy, he calmly dissolved his measure into the dullness after the reunion with Somia.
Reunion, no imaginary moment of excitement. Plain talk, plain labor. However, Soumea became easy-going and indifferent, "natural and calm". This is true calm, not a skill learned from life. Compared to the white-tone Bolig struggling with the regrets of the past, Soumia has stepped out of the shadows of the past. She used forgiveness to make the shell that wrapped the white-tone Bolig nowhere on herself, because the nature of nature allowed Soumia's life to be peacefully illuminated. The bad luck of the past has long since passed from Soumya's memory. Baiyin Baolige's angry and far-reaching journey is only a process in life that is no longer needlessly mentioned. Egi's death caused a moment of sadness, and after the sadness, life returned to casual indifference under Somia's silent strength. This is the indifference that wisdom has given to a woman, and it goes beyond the guardianship of the habits of the steppe and the customs of natural law. Forgiveness is its deep and broad core, in front of it, Baiyin Baolige uses the inner feeling of "you have changed" to realize how profound the maturity of women is presented.
The school decided that Soumia would become a regular employee. This news revived Soumia's beautiful spirit. The unconcealed shyness and nervousness is the reward that life has made to Soumya, and the reward is given to the girl who "walked the path that winds in the grass", survived the bitterness, and got kindness. Kindness is the sublimation of spiritual power, a simple state of mind that steppe riders have pursued all their lives. This kind of mood in the white-haired Erji is the uncomplaining and regretless raising of Baiyin Baolige who is not his own, and it is a pure and simple affection. Soumia inherits Eji's kindness and unpretentiously demands that Baiyin Baolige have a child and must be raised by herself. "I'll make a difference and give it back to you." "Man", the deafening and extremely excited confession, permeated with an incomprehensible light of human nature from the depths of the grassland, that is, the place where the soul first ascended, and in the trajectory of Somia, Eji and the ancestors, the simplicity of the heart shone with shocking power.
This power made Baiyin Baolige understand why the rider looking for his sister in the ancient song "Black Horse" ran up the mountain beam across the horse, but the familiar figure was not her meaning. Because this "she" has been reborn. "She" is Soumya, that is, Eji, the woman of the steppe, who has found true and benevolent maturity through the sublimation of spiritual power.
(End of full text.) (made on August 27, 2021)
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About the author: Wang Xu. His pen names include Wang Muyu, Xu Muyu, Xu Muyu's Bookcase, and Wang Xu 326, who settled in Chongqing.