My name is Gu Yanxi, and this recent incident has made me fall into deep remorse and embarrassment. It was an ordinary but extraordinary weekend night, and my friends and I had a drink at the bar, and before we knew it, we had already drunk a lot of alcohol.
By the time I staggered out of the bar, it was already like a swarm of bees buzzing in my head, and the whole world was a blur. I struggled to find the direction I was going home, and with the remaining consciousness, I made my way home step by step.
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Finally, I came to the door, fumbled for the key, and opened the door. At this point, I had completely lost my sense of direction, and I just felt that there were countless rooms spinning in front of me. I stumbled into a room, saw a figure on the bed, thought it was my bed, and fell down.
It didn't take long for me to feel someone lying next to me and hugging me tightly. The alcohol dulled my brain, and I thought it was my girlfriend and hugged her. In that hazy drunkenness, I even kissed her forehead and muttered some nonsense.
However, when I woke up the next morning, I found that the person around me was my cousin! I stared blankly at my cousin, her hair a little messy and her face still tinged with a hint of redness. I couldn't believe what was going on, how could I have slept with my cousin?
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My cousin was also awakened by me, she slowly opened her eyes, and when she saw me, she had an embarrassed smile on her face. I stammered and asked her, "Cousin, is this ...... What's going on?" My cousin blushed, sighed softly, and slowly told me what had happened last night.
It turned out that I was in the wrong bed last night. My cousin had already fallen asleep, but when she heard a movement, she woke up to check on it. When she saw that it was me, she wanted to push me down, but my body was quite warm, and she couldn't bear it. Coupled with the fact that she was also a little sleepy, she did not drive me away again, and slept with me all night.
When I listened to my cousin's words, I felt even more remorseful. I kept apologizing to my cousin, saying that I really didn't mean to. My cousin patted me on the shoulder and said, "It's okay, it's just an accident." Although my cousin said this, I knew that she must be embarrassed and embarrassed in her heart.
I got out of bed, looked at my messy clothes, and thought back to what had happened last night, and my heart was filled with shame. How could I do such a thing? How do I face my cousin? I paced back and forth in the room, not knowing what to do.
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At this time, my cousin also got up, and she walked into the bathroom in her pajamas. I sat on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, full of self-reproach. After a while, my cousin came out of the bathroom, she looked at me, and said, "Let's go wash up first, don't think about it so much." I nodded and followed my cousin into the bathroom.
During the washing process, my cousin and I did not speak, and the atmosphere was particularly depressing. I looked at myself in the mirror and felt like a clown doing such a ridiculous thing. After washing up, we went back to our room and sat on the bed, still not knowing what to say.
After a while, my cousin broke the silence and said, "Let's just assume that this incident never happened, and don't mention it again." I nodded and said, "Okay, I got it." "Although I said so, I knew in my heart that this matter could not be passed so easily. This will be an eternal pain in my heart, and it will always remind me to pay attention to my words and deeds.
We got dressed and walked out of the room. The house is quiet, and the parents have not yet gotten up. My cousin and I went to the living room and sat on the couch, and no one spoke. After a while, my cousin said, "I'm going to make breakfast, what do you want to eat?" and I shook my head and said, "Whatever, I don't have much appetite." My cousin looked at me, said nothing, and went into the kitchen.
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I sat on the couch, still unable to calm down. I think back to the bits and pieces of growing up with my cousin, we used to play together, go to school together, and spend many wonderful times together. But now, because of my momentary confusion, our relationship has become so awkward. I really don't know how to deal with my cousin, how to deal with the feelings between us.
After a while, my cousin made breakfast, and we sat down at the table and ate in silence. The breakfast was hearty, but I felt like chewing wax. After breakfast, my cousin said, "I still have some things to do today, so you can rest at home." I nodded and said, "Okay, you can go." My cousin looked at me, then turned around and left the house.
After my cousin left, I sat alone on the couch with a lot of thoughts. I felt like a sinner who had made an unforgivable mistake. I kept asking myself, why is this happening, why would I do such a ridiculous thing, what should I do, how can I make amends?
I sat on the couch for a long, long time, and it wasn't until noon that I got up and went into the room, ready to sleep for a while. But I lay in bed, but I couldn't sleep. Images of being with my cousin kept coming back to my mind, and those fond memories were now so heavy.
And just like that, I spent the day in a daze. In the evening, my parents came back and they saw me listless and asked me what was wrong. I didn't dare tell them about it, I just said I wasn't feeling well. My parents didn't ask anything more and let me have a good rest.
For the next few days, I stayed at home and didn't dare to go out. I was scared to meet my cousin and to face her gaze. I felt like a rat crossing the street, everyone shouted at me. I spent every day with self-blame and remorse, not knowing how to get out of this shadow.
Finally, one day, I plucked up the courage to call my cousin. After the phone was connected, I was silent for a long time, not knowing what to say. My cousin seemed to guess my thoughts, and she said, "Don't think so much, it's all in the past." "I listened to my cousin's words and felt a little better. I said, "Cousin, I'm really sorry for you, I know I was wrong." The cousin said, "I know, you didn't mean it either." Let's do the same as before, and don't let this affect our relationship. "I listened to my cousin's words and was moved to tears. I said, "Okay, cousin, I'm going to try to adjust my mindset and not let this happen again." ”
Since then, my relationship with my cousin has slowly returned to normal. We still get along as we used to, but I never talk about it again. Although everything looks the same on the surface as before, I know that this incident has left a deep imprint on our hearts. It reminds me to be careful with what I say and don't do things that I regret.
After this incident, I also understood a truth: there will always be some mistakes and regrets in life, we can't change the past, but we can learn from our mistakes and make ourselves more mature and stable. I believe that after this test, I will become stronger and know how to cherish every moment of my life even more.