My name is Zhang Guoqiang, a 71-year-old pig, 53 years old this year, I have had three marriages in my life, but now, I have nowhere to go, I don't know where my home is.
Regret, if there is a regret medicine sold in the world, I will take the regret medicine and I will be able to go back.
I lost my mother when I was a child, I never experienced maternal love, and then when I was 14 years old, I lost my father. I have a sister, although my sister takes care of me very much, but my sister is very strong, and I want to meddle in everything.
When I graduated from high school at the age of eighteen, I worked in a factory and met a sister Chun, who was seven years older than me, and she took great care of me.
Sister Chun is twenty-five years old, divorced, and has no children. Sister Chun is young and beautiful, has a mature charm, she has a cheerful personality, loves to talk and laugh, and is very attractive to me.
Sister Chun is my first love, she is the most beloved person I met when I was budding in my youth.
I fell in love with Sister Chun, and in her, I experienced maternal love, as well as the taste of love, and the two feelings fused together, making me completely fall.
At the beginning, Sister Chun didn't promise me, so I chased her and beat her hard, and finally we came together.
We have been together for 20 years, experienced a lot of ups and downs, and finally lost to our children.
It's also that my mind is not firm, Sister Chun is infertile, but my family has three generations of single transmission, and when I was with Sister Chun at that time, my sister was the most opposed.
But I still stayed with Sister Chun without hesitation, because my sister objected, and we didn't get a marriage certificate, so we lived together.
Later, when we were together, we opened a restaurant, went out to work, and after being together for a long time, we also wanted to have a child of our own.
Sister Chun checked out that the fallopian tubes were blocked, so she went to the doctor everywhere, she had taken both Chinese and Western medicines, and after a few years of seeing a doctor and taking medicine, Sister Chun was still not pregnant.
My sister often blows in my ears, you two won't be able to last long, hurry up, find a good one, and have a baby.
I want my own child, but my feelings are on Sister Chun, but Sister Chun can't have children, at that time, we often quarreled over the topic of children, and not being able to have children became the most sensitive topic between us.
My sister has been chattering for a long time, and my heart has loosened, so I broke up with Sister Chun.
At that time, I wanted to find another person to marry and have a child, but I wouldn't ignore Sister Chun, after all, I had a relationship with her for 20 years.
Later, after being introduced by others, she married Songmei, if you want to say that there is no relationship at all, she is completely rushing to have children, and the other is that her family is an only child, and the family conditions are okay, that is, she is a door-to-door son-in-law.
Songmei is very fat, looks ordinary, and is too much worse than Sister Chun, why should I do it, it is completely according to my sister's meaning, give birth to a child, and let my Zhang family have a descendant.
My sister forced me to break up with Sister Chun every day at that time, hoping that I would have a good family and have a child, and Songmei was introduced to me by my sister.
My sister and Songmei's parents know each other, Songmei's parents opened a copy shop, the business is good, just a baby girl, her parents want to find a son-in-law.
And I have no father or mother, I am handsome, and Songmei's parents are also very satisfied with me.
In this way, Songmei and I got married, and in the second year of marriage, Songmei gave birth to a boy. But it's not easy to be a son-in-law, Songmei's parents guard against me, but what about Songmei? As long as I go out alone for more than half an hour, she will call the post and urge me to go back.
If I go back late, they lock me out, why do you want such a marriage? Originally, we didn't have any feelings, and if we watched me like this, how could I stand this as a big man.
When my son was in elementary school, I decided to go out to work, left Songmei's house, and went out to work alone, and it was at that time that I met a woman named Yueyue, who was also divorced with a boy.
The two of us went to work together and lived together, both of them were hormonal age, and they both needed physiological needs, so we were together.
The money I have earned from working over the years has been used to raise other people's children, and with Yueyue, I have no feelings at all, that's nonsense, but with her, I have to raise children for him.
I've been with Yueyue for ten years, and now Yueyue's children are all married, and the house he bought has half of my money, but it's not my home, I want to go, but people won't let me.
I went out to work and returned to my hometown to rest, but I had no place to go and no home to go to.
What I miss is Sister Chun, and the home I want to go back to the most is Sister Chun's home, but now, I have tried Sister Chun many times, and she has pushed me to leave quickly, so she doesn't want to see me.
When I came back, I would buy something to see my father-in-law and mother-in-law, but I didn't give me a good look, nor did I divorce him, nor did he ignore me, and only sent my son to ask me for living expenses.
The house where her children live has half of my money, and I don't want to go, but people don't welcome me to go, and it's embarrassing to go once in a while.
In my life, I have had three marriages and three women, but none of my homes are mine, and none of the lights are lit for me.
Sister Chun resents me, Songmei hates me, Yueyue needs me, she just wants my money, I understand all this, I can't forget Sister Chun in my heart for so many years.
But I can't go back, and Sister Chun doesn't want to see me.
Alas, if there is an afterlife, I will definitely not be separated from Sister Chun, and I will betray my love for the sake of a child.
Now I have my own children, but I don't see them a few times a year, but I raise children and grandchildren.
Do you think I've been too a failure in my life? What I can't forget in my heart is Sister Chun, but I don't have children with Sister Chun, and I have children with Songmei, but I don't have any feelings.
Now, being with Yueyue is just comforting my physical needs and raising other people's children.
I don't even know why? Why can't I have children in my life, and women are all original partners, and they all have an emotional foundation, why can't these three things get together for me?
Why did you come to me, it was shattered, why?