In 2018, Chen Suqin, who is worth tens of millions, finally set foot on this land again after leaving the Great Northern Wilderness for 40 years. After many twists and turns, she went to an overgrown grave and cried: "I'm sorry for you! But can you tell me where my daughter has gone?" A few days later, she knocked on someone's house, and it was her longing daughter who opened the door.
Seeing that her daughter is now married and has children, and has become a woman, Chen Suqin took her daughter's hand and begged her daughter for forgiveness. I didn't want to, the other party shook it off, gritted his teeth and said, "When you left me, did you ever think that you were my mother?"
Chen Suqin cried bitterly, she couldn't imagine how helpless her daughter would be when she was 6 years old and living on the streets. At the end of the day, she caused everything.
In 1975, Chen Suqin, who graduated from high school at the age of 18, came to the Great Northern Wilderness to join the team.
Not only can she not have enough to eat here, but she also has to pick up dung and do farm work in the field.
Her originally round little face was quickly ground out of small edges and corners, and her delicate hands were also ground out of many small blisters. The day-to-day work made Chen Suqin confused, and often cried secretly in the bed.
But she was lucky that a new school was built in the village. Chen Suqin had good academic performance and was selected to be a school teacher.
She is finally free from hard work, and the work of a teacher is also very meaningful. Chen Suqin felt that she had ushered in a new life, her life had hope, and her life in the Great Northern Wilderness did not seem to be so difficult.
It was also at school that she met Li Fan, who was also a teacher.
Although Li Fan was born in the Great Northern Wilderness, he has knowledge, he is also tall, fair-skinned, and has a scholarly smell on his body.
Li Fan is 2 years older than Chen Suqin, his father works in the city, and his mother takes care of the housework at home. It can be said that Li Fan's family background is one of the best in the Great Northern Wilderness, and he is also a rich and handsome.
Li Fan noticed the elegant Chen Suqin at school, had a good impression, and began to pursue Chen Suqin.
He will bring her good food from home, and ask her out to visit the scene of the Great Northern Wilderness when he has time. After going back and forth, the two began to date, and half a year later they entered the palace of marriage together and gave birth to a daughter.
In the past few years, the originally harmonious family has had a crisis because of the return of educated youths to the city. The educated youths began to return to the city, and Chen Suqin hesitated.
She has never given up returning to the city, she hopes to have a broader space, rather than staying in the Great Northern Wilderness. Thinking of the past, living in the Great Northern Wilderness, living in poverty and without change, her heart couldn't help but be entangled.
But now, the Great Northern Wilderness also has her family and bonds. On the one hand, there are ideals and ambitions, and on the other hand, there is family, no matter which side she chooses, Chen Suqin will leave regrets.
Seeing that there were fewer and fewer educated youths, Chen Suqin finally listened to the voice in her heart and prepared to embark on the journey home.
The day before leaving, Chen Suqin said goodbye to Li Fan with tears in her eyes. After a sleepless night, she took her baggage early in the morning and prepared to leave.
At this time, her three-year-old daughter Li Xiaoyu saw the back of her mother leaving, and she realized something at a young age, and ran to Chen Suqin's side crying and hugged her legs tightly and refused to let go.
Chen Suqin hesitated, but if she didn't return to the city, she would definitely regret it in the future. Once the seeds of regret are planted, the rest of your life will be torment. So, with red eyes, she broke her daughter's hands one by one, covered her eyes and ran away without looking back.
What remained behind her was the shattered home of Li Fan. This home has a big hole, and it can't be repaired.
After Chen Suqin went back, she was admitted to Shanghai Jiao Tong University through hard work, and later graduated successfully and married a classmate.
After marriage, she gave birth to another boy, and the family of three was harmonious and warm. But at that time, going to the sea to do business swept the country. Chen Suqin has always been a woman who strives to climb up and is not satisfied with reality, she took the initiative to leave her job and went to Shenzhen to set up a garment factory.
The clothes she designed were fashionable and generous, and she was liked by many people, and her business was booming day by day. Later, she also opened high-end underwear and made a lot of money. 40 years later, she has become a multimillionaire.
And over the years, she has gone through many hurdles, after several winds and waves, and there has always been a place in her heart for the years when the Great Northern Wilderness was left.
After experiencing many deceptions in the shopping mall, she misses the simplicity of that time even more, and more importantly, the piece of meat that once fell from her body has always made her very worried.
Her husband knew about her past and, when he saw her, encouraged him to go back.
So, with anxiety and guilt, Chen Suqin finally set foot on the land of the Great Northern Wilderness again. But the place where they lived had been razed to the ground and turned into a large farm, and Li Fan and his daughter were never heard from.
Chen Suqin searched for a long time, and after several twists and turns, she asked the local old people, only to know that Li Fan became depressed and committed suicide in the third year of his life.
After his death, 6-year-old Li Xiaoyu was nowhere to be found. I have heard others say that I have seen Li Xiaoyu living on the streets, and she needs to rely on other people's help to eat a bite or two.
When Chen Suqin heard these past events, her heart was painful and uneasy. She found Li Fan's tomb, stood in front of the tomb and cried in shame, muttering that she was sorry for them, hoping that he would be in the spirit of heaven and bless her to find her daughter and make up for it.
In the lonely afternoon, she was the only one crying alone in front of the tomb, but unfortunately Li Fan was unable to respond to her.
Later, she renovated Li Fan's tomb. It suddenly occurred to her daughter that she was young and might have been adopted, so she went to an adoption agency and successfully found her daughter.
She rushed to the county where Xiaoyu was located and saw her daughter.
As soon as she saw her, Chen Suqin covered her mouth and burst into tears uncontrollably. The daughter is too much like Li Fan, just one glance, and the bits and pieces of the Great Northern Wilderness instantly hit Chen Suqin's brain.
Chen Suqin was heartbroken and sad for Li Fan's death. In the face of her daughter, she was even more ashamed and uneasy, took her hand, and apologized tremblingly.
Li Xiaoyu shook her hand away: "If it weren't for my adoptive parents seeing me, you wouldn't even be able to see me now." ”
Those helpless and desperate pasts, it is not Chen Suqin who can let Xiaoyu feel relieved with a few words. Chen Suqin also understands that since she knows their experience, she knows how deep the gap will be between mother and daughter.
But she still has a lot of time to compensate for her daughter, and she will try her best to make up for her regrets for the rest of her life. And in Li Xiaoyu's eyes, the flash of admiration also shows that she has been longing for maternal love, but she can't forgive it in a short time.
In fact, Li Xiaoyu knows that there are too many people with similar experiences to her in the Great Northern Wilderness, who were once abandoned in the countryside by their parents, and even never saw their relatives again for the rest of their lives. Perhaps, she is much luckier than others to see her mother again.
There will always be shortcomings in life, and when I was young, I always wanted to fight hard and fight for a brilliant future without regrets for my future. But don't lose the happiness around you and hurt your family.
The happiest and most peaceful time in life is when you are just born, when your family takes care of you without reservation, and before you die, your relatives surround you with a warm farewell.
Although money is a good thing, it can't buy back the lost time, nor can it exchange it for the purest and warmest family affection.