The beginning of "Kite" is Zhou Qiao's voiceover:
"In the winter of that year, I finished writing a book called "His Military Career", in which the protagonist Zheng Yaoxian was my father.
No, he's not my father!"
After watching the whole play, I understood the deep meaning behind this sentence, and my heart was filled with a thousand feelings.
Zheng Yaoxian has carried too much in his life, for the sake of faith, he lost three beloved women, and for the sake of faith, he had to give up his former brother.
For the sake of faith, he was unable to take care of and raise his only daughter, Zhou Qiao.
This is not something that the average person can do.
Without firm belief and tenacious willpower, it is impossible to give up small love and fulfill great love.
Although he is worthy of his beliefs, he still has regrets in his heart.
After all, Zhou Qiao's life has been completely rewritten.
In fact, Junbao was in love with Zhou Qiao at the beginning, and Zhou Qiao knew this, but she left the Qiuhe mother who really loved her and Junbao's brother who loved her, and resolutely threw herself into the fiery revolution.
In the end, he married an ugly and poor old man, what is the truth behind this embarrassment?
01, experienced a childhood of ice and fire
Zhou Qiao's childhood used to be happy.
Because there is a father and a mother who love him.
His father, Zhou Zhiqian, was an archivist at the Shancheng Police Department, and his income was still good at that time.
Mother Lin Tao is not only beautiful but also virtuous, she keeps her away from home in good order, and she is also a teacher on the street who teaches everyone to read.
It can be seen that on this street, the Zhou family is still respected.
However, without warning, God suddenly took everything from her, and her happiness came to an abrupt end.
From heaven to hell.
Her beloved mother Lin Tao committed suicide by cutting her wrists and disfigurement, and her father Zhou Zhiqian was arrested and imprisoned by the Shancheng Public Security Bureau on charges of "historical counter-revolution".
Zhou Qiao suddenly became a lonely and helpless bitter child.
Seeing that his mother had become a cold corpse and was carried away, the young Zhou Qiao chased the crowd all the way away, crying and shouting for "Mom".
A heart-rending cry was tear-jerking.
As a young child, she endured the pain and sorrow of life and death overnight.
Fortunately, she met the kind Qiuhe's mother and gave her a sheltered home and the love of Junbao's brother.
Before the liberation of Qiuhe, he was forced to fall into the dust because of life, and now he is self-reliant, and his life is bound to be embarrassing.
She has to feed a family of three with both hands, which is really powerless.
Even if she treats Zhou Qiao as her own daughter, she still can't give her the same life as before.
No matter how much Qiu He and Jun Bao care for her, they can't replace father's love and mother's love.
I once got it, but now I lost it inexplicably, this kind of confusion and helplessness is not something that a four-year-old child can bear.
Therefore, she has been looking for her father and wants to return to his father's warm embrace again.
Seeking hard but hitting a wall everywhere.
Later, Zheng Yaoxian appeared at the Chuanjiang Wharf in order to arrest Song Xiaoan, and met Zhou Qiao unexpectedly.
In the rain of bullets, Zhou Qiao pulled him and refused to let go, Zheng Yao was worried that his daughter would be injured, so he coaxed:
"Qiao'er, can you go home with your brother first?—— Dad won't want you. Daddy will come and see you tomorrow, okay? Really, Daddy won't lie to Jo'er's ......."
However, the result was very disappointing to Zhou Qiao, and his father broke his promise again.
She slowly became disillusioned with her father, thinking that he was a "liar".
02, the lonely and excluded girlhood
Zhou Qiao, who grew up, became sensitive and inferior, but he had abnormal self-esteem.
It is not difficult to understand that in those days, her adoptive mother used to be a happy woman, and her brother was the son of a Kuomintang spy, and her own birth was not much better.
One can imagine how much she was stared at and bullied at school.
There is a scene in the play, at the entrance of the Red Star Cinema, Zhou Qiao, who is wearing a red scarf, is queuing up in the crowd, but his face that should be smiling is gloomy, and a few tears have not been wiped off his face.
When she saw Gao Junbao riding a bicycle to meet her, she didn't happily catch up, but hid behind the crowd.
Junbao had already seen her: "You come out. ”
Zhou Qiao turned around and ran, and in a hurry, Junbao deliberately threw away the bicycle, but he fell to the ground.
At that moment, the young Zhou Qiao hesitated, not knowing what to do.
She understands that Qiuhe's mother, He Junbao's brother, is good to her, but she also loves these two people who love her deeply, so she can't raise her head and be a person.
So, she is full of contradictions and struggles in their feelings.
Qiuhe's mother and Junbao's brother gave her a home and gave her the most precious love and warmth.
But at the same time, it also brought her a lot of troubles and troubles.
She is both attached to this home, but she rejects it.
This can also understand that Qiu He did not see Zhou Qiao before he died.
In front of Qiu He's grave, Jun Bao said:
"Kneel down and kowtow to Mom!"
"Then I'll salute her!"
There was no expression on Zhou Qiao's face.
Since she was able to come to Qiuhe's grave, it shows that she still has feelings for this mother.
But in the bottom of my heart, there is still a trace of indifference and disdain for Qiuhe's mother.
At a young age, she suffered from the warmth and coldness of human affection prematurely, and she was mentally and mentally lonely, and could only survive and grow up tenaciously in the gap of inferiority and self-esteem.
However, at this time, she may still have a glimmer of hope, that is, her father Zheng Yaoxian.
After all, he is like a majestic mountain in Zhou Qiao's mind, although she has been disappointed, but in her heart she still hopes that her father can appear and save her from fire and water.
03. Marrying an old man is the brightest moment in life
In order to be completely reborn, Zhou Qiao changed his name to Zhou Xianghong, and selflessly dedicated his youth to the red sun.
She actively participates in various activities and hopes to be recognized through her practical actions.
On that day, she went to Xiangcheng Town with the propaganda team to perform, singing and dancing: "I am a black child, and my motherland is in black Africa. ”
At that time, she was desperate to transform and grow as soon as possible and be recognized.
Unexpectedly, she actually saw her father, and the scene of father and daughter meeting many years later was so unbearable.
At that time, Zheng Yaoxian and Han Bing were both in Xiangcheng Town for labor reform.
The two of them cherish each other and hug each other for warmth in that difficult predicament.
However, in the eyes of Director Pan of the office, this is very rebellious, and she believes that there is an unseemly collusion between them.
Zhou Zhiqian and Han Bing couldn't help but say that they were caught on the stage to criticize and fight.
"You are his concubine, don't you know?"
"Who's who's who's concubine?"
"It's a good couple of adulterers and adulteresses, and they still protect each other for a short time! You don't let people talk about the relationship between men and women! Now I know that I'm in a hurry, don't do it when you have the ability......
When Zhou Qiao saw this scene, how shocked his heart should be!
She felt that her father, who she had always missed, actually "betrayed" her mother, and was caught and criticized in front of the public.
Her heart was completely hopeless and broken.
So when she learned of her father's death (in fact, it was a fake death), her face was full of disdain and indifference, and she said:
"I don't know, and I don't want to know, that the tide of revolution is in full swing, and fierce battles are raging. ”
It turned out that Qiuhe's mother and Junbao's brother couldn't give her shelter, and her father Zheng Yaoxian couldn't give her shelter, and even humiliated her.
The last bit of dependence in her heart was gone.
She wants to go to a place where no one knows, start her life anew, and want to change her life through her own efforts.
Prove her worth to the world.
Because of this, she will not marry Junbao.
She knew that once she married Junbao, her life would be over, and she would be completely stuck in the quagmire and unable to extricate herself.
So, she went to Yunnan to take root and settle down.
At that time, she was in her youth, the best years of her life, but she married the poorest peasant in the local village, and he was ugly and old, old enough to be her father.
But she didn't care at all.
It is precisely because of this decision that she really stood out and became the cover character of the most influential pictorial, and was set up as a model for the public to learn.
Undoubtedly, this was the highlight of her life.
What she didn't know was that when she exchanged her marriage for the most glorious moment of her life, it also laid the groundwork for a sad life in the future.
I think if she could do it all over again, she would still make the same choice.
After all, at that time, it was the only lifesaver she could grasp.
Epilogue:
In the finale, Zhou Qiao and Brother Junbao met again, and everything was already wrong.
She changed back to her original name.
But she was married and had three children, so she couldn't go back to the city.
It's like her fate, which can no longer be turned back and rewritten.
When Junbao, who was dressed up in a trendy and fashionable manner, saw Zhou Qiao, who was dressed in a gray face, her face no longer had the former look, only vicissitudes and loneliness.
Junbao couldn't help but feel sour and painful.
The two were relatively speechless, only pretending to be happy, smiling and laughing, but they couldn't hold back the tears in their eyes.
They knew that there was no going back, and Junbao knew that there could be no future for the two of them.
But he still wanted to be able to help Zhou Qiao one last time and take her with her family.
However, this time Zhou Qiao was still disappointed.
When she saw her father, she was first frightened and asked him if he was a human or a ghost, and when she learned that he was her father Zheng Yaoxian, her eyes became indifferent.
In the end, she left resolutely with the children in her arms, leaving Zheng Yaoxian with endless grief.
From then on, she could only live a hopeless life with her elderly husband in that poor country, with her elderly husband, pulling her three children......