Author: Lian Chuanhao. Finishing and editing: Lian Zhongwei.
Foreword
If it is difficult to inspire others, you can also spur yourself.
It is inevitable that there will be no difficulties, but we should move forward in overcoming them.
I have never met a difficult person, I am afraid that it will be difficult to find in the world.
In my opinion, "all the best" is an illusory mirage, and hardship is a life of human struggle. When a baby is born, why should he cry? It stands to reason that it is the mother who suffers, and the baby itself should not have any pain. The reason for crying is probably based on feelings, and there is no comfort in the mother's body in this world. It seems that when people are born, they face difficulties.
No matter how good the conditions are, no matter how rich the family is, there are difficulties. And the average family, the poor family, is even more difficult. Since the difficulty is unavoidable, it is necessary to face it.
Some people face difficulties by relying on objective conditions to overcome them, and when they are seriously ill, they have relatives and relatives who can use money to help them save or extend their lives; they study and go to university, they have good educational resources, they have cars to pick them up, they have special people to wait for them, and so on.
Some people face difficulties and rely on their own subjective efforts to struggle, such as Xu Yansong, an old man in the village, who is over 80 years old, and still farms, vegetables, and chickens by himself, and what is even more incredible is that he also uses a board truck to haul coal and sell it. He worked so hard to win the filial piety of his children and grandchildren, the respect of others, and his own pleasure, isn't this a good example for me who has just turned sixty?
Difficulties are like musical notes, the strong play them as a triumphant song, and the weak play them as a lamentation; difficulties are like stones, the strong use it to step up, and the weak are tripped by it; difficulties are like a great river, the strong cross them, and the weak look at the river and sigh; difficulties, like punctuation, extend the strong man's struggle poems; difficulties, like the sea, the strong can get the pearls at the bottom of the sea.
People who are afraid of difficulties are like a wasteland with no hope; people who are afraid of difficulties are like forgetting to give salt to the dish, which is light and tasteless; people who are afraid of difficulties have their hands in their pockets and want to climb the peak; people who are afraid of difficulties always like to use the rainbow as a bridge; people who are afraid of difficulties always want to treat blueprints as waste paper; people who are afraid of difficulties always want to use the river breeze to change the direction of the river; and people who are afraid of difficulties always regard dawn as dusk.
No matter how great the difficulty is, like the darkest night, it cannot stop the transmission of sound, and no matter how strong the wind is, it cannot extinguish the brilliance of the sun. People are not born to overcome difficulties, but are formed through continuous training.
The literary works that have been published and circulated, the art is skillful, and the articles are concise. When I am old, I write an autobiography for myself, in case old age apostasy, what I should pay attention to between pen and ink can only be true and natural.
Without the courage to overcome hardships and hardships, it is difficult to achieve anything.
Table of Contents
1. Dangerous burial of garbage
2. The table is on its feet facing the sky
3. Head to a bag
4. Grandmother's tears
5. Offering food to your father
6. This man is sick
7. Don't lose the chest of five drawers
8. The brothers have a good life
9. It's hard for grandma to be left and right
10. The mother secretly felt sorry
11. My grandmother came to see me
12. I didn't do it at the age of ten
13. Elementary school is a big job
14. Secondary schools put satellites
15. Always talk about eating
16. Cabbage sacrifice to grandmother
17. Read the Book of Labor
18. Go home and go farming
19. Reading in labor
20. Lectures in labor
21. "Suffering" in labor
22. Work hard in labor
23. Twenty-year-old "stands"
24. Save a penny in total
25. The Challenge
26. Rehearsal "Three Feuds"
27. The valley is in turmoil
28. Here comes the patrol group
29. When a manure "worker"
30. Go to Hanyang to make bricks
31. Lian Zhongwei was born
32. Transfer to the hospital for children
33. Open the knife to Tongji
34. Go to the oil mill and fry the seeds
35. Go to the Castle Peak Brick Factory
36. Borrow money to buy a pigsty
37. Separation is not distracted
38. Poor brothers marry poor brothers
39. East and West Lake carry bags
40. Exhortation and self-exhortation
41. Do Hanbei water conservancy
42. The year is easy to pass
43. Lian Zhongfang was born
44. Send it to grandma's house
45. Ask for it from your grandmother's house
46. Shoko Shin骆驼
47. Huangpi sieve cinder
48. Help your uncle make a house
49. It is difficult to feed chickens and pigs
50. Pumpkin pickle wine
51. February of '72
52. Get busy as soon as you arrive at school
53. Great criticism opens the way
54. It's easy to go up the mountain and fight the tiger
55. College students are difficult to teach
56. College students are hard to give up
57. Summer Vacation Teachers' Meeting
58. The school is in turmoil
59. Anti-repair commando
60. Social Classroom
61. Burn bricks for the house
62. Help Qinghao make a house
63. Dig up tree roots and sell them for money
64. Seven six years to make a house
65. Work-study is difficult
66. The house is a bottomless pit
67. The poor ghost is the boss
68. It is difficult to recite one's own scriptures
69. Hundred mile board car dealers
70. It is difficult to pan for gold in the water
71. Squeeze across a single-plank bridge
72. Be popular
73. Caring is better than severity
74. Poor teachers help each other
75. Learn from Mingsheng
76. Jin Yuan is a good person
77. Zhiqiang and Ruixiang
78. Teacher-student parental affection
79. On the construction site
80. This is also called a school
81. I stretched out my head again
82. Facing poor students
illustrate
Young people like to talk to young people, and old people like to talk to old people, but I am always a little used to talking about family and life with my children and grandchildren. First, they are all busy with study, production, work, and life.
Second, the topics of dialogue are influenced by the times, and each has its own opinions. If the conversation is not good, the children and grandchildren will pretend to listen, and the worst will cause unhappiness.
So, I talked to myself with a pen, and everyone watched it when they were happy, and didn't watch it if they weren't happy. If something is wrong, no one will do it, and it will not cause a penny of economic loss; if it is right, it will resonate with it and make some reference, at least it will be harmless.
In a person's life, there are rich and poor. Some people leave a lot of things to their children and grandchildren, but their children and grandchildren still feel very little, and some people leave very little to their children and grandchildren, but their children and grandchildren feel a lot. When people get old, they change from a creator to a consumer, and there are some things they still want to do, but they can't do anything anymore, and they always like to find reasons to shirk their responsibilities. Leaving a lot of legacy,
Although I feel that my difficult life is worth it and I have a clear conscience, I am afraid that I will change from rich to luxurious and lose my family. I have left a small inheritance, and I feel that I have a difficult life in vain, I am reluctant to eat, I am reluctant to wear, and I am willing to do it, but I still have no wishes, dragging my children and grandchildren to suffer, I am sorry for my children and grandchildren, and I am unwilling to die. No wonder Lin Zexu said that the son is better than the father, what is the use of money, the son is not as good as the father, what is the use of money.
Therefore, I wrote my autobiographical "A Difficult Life" in the form of talking about family life, not in an attempt to leave some "spiritual wealth" without money, to point fingers in front of my children and grandchildren, and to ask them how to behave. It's just that I want them to adjust their mood when they are happy or worried, so that they can better play the yin and shine.
People live in the world, and to die is to eat and wear, and some people feel that it is too worthless. So there are people who smoke, drink, gamble, and even do more outrageous things, and if they lose their temper, it is easy to bury people, and I don't like that.
I'm old, I'm retired, I can't play, I'm looking for something to do, what should I do? I think that talking to myself every day, at least I feel better than time, that's why I wrote my autobiography.
"A Difficult Life" is in the form of talking to myself about family life, of course, I still hope that future generations can see it, so the writing is all in colloquial language, self-talking, and strive to let people read it, without spending energy to scrutinize, and understand it at a glance.
I believe that those who have both ability and political integrity, and who have a conscience and write books and speak upright, are still in their hearts to promote society and promote the progress of the country, and also let those who read their books or articles have both ability and political integrity, so as to better base themselves on society and be an upright person.
And I don't have such a high profile, and I don't have the internal and external conditions to write books and speak. However, as a party member, a Chinese middle school teacher who has taught for thirty or forty years, and an ordinary parent who is ashamed of his children and grandchildren, it is a great blessing in my difficult life to write something, not to mention how much the family will contribute to the country and the people, but only to make the family stable, united, and develop, and not to bring trouble to the country and the people.
——Written on the sixth day of the fifth lunar month of the Jiashen year (my 60th birthday), in the rented house of Baihua New Village, Sandian of Liufang School, Wujiashan, Dongxihu District, Wuhan City.
On the evening of June 23, 2004, Lian Chuanhao
1. Dangerous burial of garbage
"Shanghai is so profitable, I go for three or five years, I want to go home, and I don't have to make money." This is the common saying of people who went to Shanghai in the old society, and my father didn't go back for a few years, so my mother took me to Shanghai at the age of four.
I heard from my mother that after I was born (in 1944), Japanese planes bombed Hankow. It was my father who carried me in his coat pocket, bent his waist, and used his body to "block" the flying bombs, through the corpses strewn all over the street, and escaped the bombardment of the devils, and the family ran back to Liangang's house from Hankou.
My father was so frightened by the bombing that he didn't want to take my mother and son with him, so he went to Shanghai alone to support his family.
This time, my mother took me to Shanghai (1948), but the family was too poor to live, so my mother asked someone to bring a letter and ask someone to write a letter, and my father agreed to let us go.
Looking back now, I don't have the slightest impression of what my father did in Shanghai, what his "home" was like, or even my father's appearance in Shanghai, and the only thing I still remember vividly at the age of 60 is my struggle in a dark and smelly water.
At that time, there was not a single water on the surface of the water, it was all rotten and fresh broad bean shells, and I fell into the water tai, only my head and hands were on top of the broad bean shells, and the people standing on the side of the taitai pulled me up with a rope in front of a long bamboo pole.
I don't know who saved me, whether my parents were among them, how I was pulled up by them, and why I fell into the stinking water.
I heard my mother say that after my father arrived in Shanghai, he was introduced to a capitalist flour factory in Shanghai as an accountant by someone from the Huangpi Fellow Association.
There are no sisters in my father's generation, only three brothers: uncle Lian Yanqing, father Lian Qingyun, and uncle Lian Youqing.
My grandfather died very early, and I don't remember seeing him, and my grandmother died in 1960 when I was in the second year of junior high school.
Of the three brothers in my father's generation, my father probably read a little more. I heard from the old man that my father once ran through the yamen for a lawsuit and saw the scene.
I have also seen my father write Spring Festival couplets in the Ermao brother's house, but my father does not know how to farm, and I have never heard my grandmother, uncle and people talk about my father's farming;
As I can remember, I asked my mother how I ended up in Shanghai, and my mother said that my father was very busy in the factory, and my mother was helping people with laundry, and that I might be hungry or delicious, and I would find the fava beans in the shells that had not been peeled clean and had been missed, and I would eat them raw. If you find it late, you sink and drown, and it's full of broad bean shells, so I don't know where to find it!
Later, many childhood friends envied me for having been to Shanghai, but they didn't know that I was picking up garbage to eat in Shanghai, and I didn't know that I was in danger of burying garbage and had nowhere to find my body.
To this day, I still wonder why I remember this moment so clearly, probably because people are most afraid of death, and the impression left before death is unforgettable, and this impression is: the danger of falling and the timely pulling up.