His fanaticism and splendor on stage made me see my own shadow. He and I are both extremely narcissistic people.
Leslie Cheung commented on his role as Cheng Dieyi in the movie "Farewell My Concubine" directed by Chen Kaige, and said so.
After I watched this second-highest-rated "Farewell My Concubine" on Douban again, I couldn't help but feel a feeling in my heart: My brother Leslie Cheung is really the most suitable person to play Cheng Dieyi. As he himself said, the narcissism in Cheng Dieyi is also the trait he values the most.
Only when people have narcissistic traits can they truly burst out the energy of creation, just like Cheng Dieyi.
The most difficult thing for Cheng Dieyi to act is that as a servant who has been trained as a Danjiao in the opera troupe since he was a child, he must have a woman's charm in every move, of course, this also aroused his dependence and attachment to his senior brother Duan Xiaolou from another side.
He is a narcissistic and confident person.
I'm a man, not a woman.
He repeatedly misremembered the lyrics of "Sifan", which provoked his anxious brother to insert the master's cigarette pouch pot into his mouth in a fit of anger, and slowly, the bloody breath in his mouth became heavier and heavier, and the blood slowly flowed down the corners of his mouth, and tears also fell.
This scene has a sexual symbolism. It can be understood that after some sexual enlightenment, the boy Xiaodouzi feathered into a butterfly and transformed into a woman. (Some also say he was castrated.) ）
It was in this scene, like lightning, that he became enlightened: he lived with his mother in a brothel since he was a child, his mother dressed himself as a girl, and every man who came to his mother would tease his little face provocatively, with a look of lust.
That's it, it turns out that being a woman is my fate.
Thinking of this, Little Bean smiled. With tears in his eyes, he re-opened his mouth and sang:
I'm a woman, not a man.
From this moment, Xiaodouzi turned into a girl and did not change until she died.
The 15-year-old Xiaodouzi and the 17-year-old Xiaoshi of the Xifucheng Opera Troupe cooperated in the Peking Opera "Farewell My Concubine" in the church of Zhang Gonggong, and became famous in one fell swoop, from which the two got their names Cheng Dieyi and Duan Xiaolou.
After the performance, Father-in-law Zhang invited Cheng Dieyi to the house for a banquet and took the opportunity to rape him. This is Cheng Dieyi's coming-of-age ceremony after she became famous.
The next day, he came home from Zhang's mansion, picked up an abandoned baby on the way, took it back to the theater troupe for adoption, and in a symbolic sense, he became a mother from then on.
After that, he completely transformed his identity, never took off his costume again, and lived and died in the female identity of Dieyi.
There is a term in psychology called "flow", and I think Cheng Dieyi has this quality: he is a focused person who always enters the flow of the heart.
I understand flow as being able to focus on a period of study, or a role, and immerse yourself in it, and it's hard for anything to disturb your mind, and in this state, people are most efficient at learning.
Cheng Dieyi is exactly like this.
He was sent by his mother to the Xifucheng opera troupe, because of his beautiful appearance, he was selected by the master to play the role of Dan, he needs to become a girl psychologically, in order to sing the lyrics of "I am a female Jiao'e, not a man";
Psychologically, Cheng Dieyi believes that she is the overlord's Yu Ji.
In the end, after the senior brother Duan Xiaolou married the top Juxian girl in the brothel, he was like an abandoned abandoned woman, and he no longer acted with his beloved senior brother, and this situation continued until after the founding of the People's Republic of China.
In WEN Ge, the little four he adopted that year became the red general of GE Life, and took the lead in defeating Cheng Dieyi and Duan Xiaolou. This is the reversal of everything he has done in the past in the sense of his mother (teacher) and father (father).
My understanding is that he did something wrong. As Duan Xiaolou said in the middle of the movie, that little snake was covered by you back then, and now it is Jackie Chan.
And the most fundamental mistake is that he was originally a man, not a woman, but he played Yingying Yanyan on the stage all his life, who in the end mistook my life?
Peking Opera misunderstands me, or does the master misunderstand me, or does the senior brother misunderstand me?
However, after the end of the WEN Revolution, Cheng Dieyi and Duan Xiaolou partnered again on the stage after a long absence, and the two still cooperated in the performance of "Farewell My Concubine", and then Cheng Dieyi drew his sword and killed himself, and died on the stage as Yu Ji, and he finally fulfilled himself.
Am I wrong in this life? But I'd rather be wrong to the end. Yu Ji chose to end her life on the stage of the drama.
This is Cheng Dieyi's life and Leslie Cheung's life.
On April 1, 2003, April Fool's Day, Leslie Cheung was tortured by depression and chose to float down from the 24th floor of the Mandarin Hotel.
Life stayed forever at the age of 46, so he was the elder brother until he died.
There are always people who slander Leslie Cheung's sexual orientation, but in fact, love is love, and love knows no age, gender, and even more so identity and status. This is the true love after that. It's also flow.
Leslie Cheung is such a person, so he has such dazzling achievements.