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On the balcony, with a gentle breeze, 72-year-old Alan Tam quietly looked into the distance, with a trace of vicissitudes and uneasiness on his face. He let out a long sigh, filled with lingering guilt and regret.
As a superstar who attracted national attention back then, although Alan Tam now has a successful career and a happy family, it is difficult for him to get rid of the regret in his heart when he recalls what he did when he was young.
More than 20 years ago, he met a gentle, virtuous, beautiful and generous woman - Yang Jiewei. At that time, his future was uncertain and his family was poor, but Yang Jiewei firmly chose to move forward hand in hand with him.
With her silent support, Alan Tam finally reached the top step by step and became a superstar who attracted the attention of the whole country.
However, just as his career was taking off, Alan Tam fell in love with a 19-year-old girl - Alan Chu in a chance encounter. That kind of immature, but kind and sensible nature deeply attracted him.
Soon, Zhu Yongting became pregnant with his child.
Faced with this sudden change, Alan Tam was entangled in his heart. On the one hand, he is grateful to Yang Jiewei, who has been silently supporting him; On the other hand, he couldn't control his infatuation with Zhu Yongting.
In the end, under pressure, he chose to make his relationship with Alice Chu public and took both children to his side. This undoubtedly completely hit Yang Jiewei, who had been waiting by his side.
She finally realized that her position in her husband's heart was nothing more than a pawn that could be replaced at will. Heartbroken, she finally chose to become a monk and stay away from the world.
Now, Alan Tam has entered his twilight years, and his son has been successfully admitted to Oxford, and his life is carefree. But whenever he reminisces about the past alone, the lingering guilt and regret always follow him, making it difficult for him to let go.
He understands that what he did back then brought too much pain and grievances to the two women who were once the closest to him. And Yang Jiewei paid countless sacrifices and prices in order to maintain this marriage.
Now she chooses to become a monk, but Alan Tam can't imagine what kind of lonely and lonely life the woman who silently supported her back then is living now.
"I was so selfish and hurt so many innocent people. If I could cherish the people in front of me, I wouldn't have ended up like this. Alan Tam shook his head and sighed, his eyes revealing deep helplessness and sadness.
He has everything, but now he is afraid that he will no longer be able to get the sincere love he had at the beginning.
One night in 1981, Alan Tam, who was singing in a nightclub, suddenly found a beautiful and moving woman in the crowd. That is Yang Jiewei, a talented and beautiful beauty consultant.
The eyes of the two strangers made contact, as if there was an electric current penetrating the whole body, and they were instantly attracted by each other's charm.
After several encounters, the two gradually became close friends who talked about everything, and eventually developed into lovers. However, Yang Jiewei's family is not optimistic about this relationship. First, the Tan family is poor, and the economic situation cannot give a sense of security; Second, a band singer like Alan Tam has an uncertain future and is facing uncertainty in his career at any time.
Although Yang Jiewei firmly chose to be with Alan Tam, Alan Tam's heart began to waver. He cautiously proposed to Yang Jiewei the intention to break up, but was firmly rejected by the other party.
"Your parents' opinions do not represent my own, and I don't want to be separated from you. Yang Jiewei's choked answer went straight to the deepest part of Alan Tam's heart.
Faced with a frustrated career and opposition from his family, Alan Tam was full of anxiety and uneasiness. However, an opportunity rekindled his hope. Yang Jiewei found that although Alan Tam is popular, his image is not good.
So she resolutely quit her original job and became Alan Tam's agent instead, working silently behind the scenes to help him create a better image.
With the help of Yang Jiewei, Alan Tam finally got his wish and climbed to the top step by step and became a superstar that attracted the attention of the whole country. In 1981, after Yang Jiewei's family finally agreed, the two officially married in Las Vegas.
Although the wedding is simple and simple, it is still full of love and trust between the two of them.
For a star who has attracted much attention, it is really commendable to have such a bumpy but happy marriage. However, fate never seemed to favor this loving couple.
In the face of media reporters frequently asking "which is more important, husband or career", Alan Tam always replied in a firm tone: "Everything is career-oriented." Behind the scenes, Yang Jiewei, who has been paying silently, had to hide the marriage relationship between the two from the outside world, and didn't even say a word about her friends' inquiries.
She understands that under the aura of an idol, she cannot openly have the status she deserves. However, she never felt resentment because in a relationship there is always someone to make sacrifices for the other half, and this is her choice.
Despite going through a difficult road, the two finally officially entered the marriage hall in Las Vegas in 1981 with the consent of Yang Jiewei's family.
Although the wedding was simple and simple, it was still full of love and trust between the two of them. At this time, Alan Tam, although he is already a superstar who has attracted national attention, is still living a low-key and stable life with the silent support of his wife Yang Jiewei.
For Alan Tam, a star who has attracted much attention, it is undoubtedly lucky to have a successful career and fame. But in the face of media reporters frequently asking "which is more important, husband or career", he always replied in a firm tone: "Everything is career-oriented."
Behind the scenes, his wife Yang Jiewei, who has been paying silently, had to hide the marriage relationship between the two from the outside world, and she didn't even mention any inquiries about friends. She understands that under the aura of an idol, she cannot openly have the status she deserves.
However, she never felt resentment because in a relationship there is always someone to make sacrifices for the other half, and this is her choice.
Until 1993, Yang Jiewei's father unfortunately passed away. At such an important moment, Yang Jiewei chose to hide silently to protect her husband's reputation. But when many relatives and friends discovered this family secret in the obituary, she finally mustered up the courage to stand up and admit it all.
Faced with the questioning and scolding of the reporters present, Alan Tam was exhausted, and the Sichuan character on his forehead sadly stabbed Yang Jiewei's heart. originally thought that after years of forbearance, I could finally walk side by side with my husband openly and enjoy the good times of life.
However, to her disappointment, her husband has been swallowed up by the temptation of the outside world, and he is no longer the man who affectionately promised to love her forever.
The complicated relationship between the three people made Yang Jiewei fall into deep confusion. She understands that her husband has fallen in love with another woman----- 19-year-old Zhu Yongting.
And this young girl not only gave birth to a son for Alan Tam, but also successfully replaced her position in her husband's heart.
Despite the contradictions and struggles in her heart, Yang Jiewei still chose to compromise. She understands that in the face of this cruel reality, she has fought hard and has to accept this fact.
And in order to make up for the guilt, Alan Tam also handed over billions of assets to Yang Jiewei to express his apology.
In such a complex family relationship, the three maintain a delicate balance. Yang Jiewei continued to take care of the housework silently, while Zhu Yongting took care of her son and lived with him.
Time flies, and before I know it, ten years have passed. When Yang Jiewei's 61st birthday came, Alan Tam officially announced Alice Chu's identity in front of relatives and friends and accepted her as his wife.
So, Yang Jiewei finally realized that what she had in her husband's heart was only a kindness rather than love. Disappointment and despair mingled in her heart, and she resolutely decided to become a monk and stay away from this world of hurt and betrayal.
In the 11 years before Yang Jiewei became a monk, she once thought that she and Alan Tam could survive. Even in the face of slander and scolding from the outside world, she still chose to endure the humiliation and silently guard this marriage.
However, when she heard Alan Tam introduce Alice Chu to relatives and friends in such an understated tone at her husband's 61st birthday party, the last glimmer of hope in her heart was completely shattered.
"I just have affection for her, and there is no real love at all. This sentence was like a sharp blade, piercing straight into Yang Jiewei's heart.
For many years, she had thought that she had an important place in her husband's heart, but now it seemed that she was nothing more than a pawn that could be replaced at will.
Those affectionate feelings that once let go of self-righteousness have now become vain.
Yang Jiewei, who completely lost trust and hope, finally made a decisive choice on her 61st birthday to ----- monk.
In this chaotic world, she can no longer bear her husband's betrayal and neglect of her. She has long lost her fertility, and she can't give her husband a complete family like a normal wife.
Suddenly realized, she finally realized that her years of dedication and sacrifice were only in exchange for false "kindness".
For Yang Jiewei, becoming a monk is undoubtedly a good choice to rediscover her inner peace. In the silence of Buddhism, she can get rid of all the distractions of the world and no longer share her husband's love with anyone.
This is not only her fight for her own dignity and justice, but also a good example for her children.
The former Yang Jiewei paid too many irreparable costs in order to maintain this marriage. She gave up her job and devoted herself to her husband's career; She also tolerated her husband's perfidy, and even did not hesitate to conceal their marital relationship.
But now, she finally realizes that she is the biggest victim of this marriage.
In contrast, the groom who was happy with each other and made eternal vows back then is now living a very different life from Yang Jiewei. His son was successfully admitted to Oxford, and he had a successful career and a happy and healthy life.
And Alan Tam himself is also recuperating in the sunset, and occasionally shows off his son's achievements.
However, when he recalled the past alone, he couldn't forget Yang Jiewei, who had accompanied him through a long time. Today, she has moved away from the world and is looking for the meaning of life in the silent Buddhist hall.
And he, on the other hand, is burdened with endless guilt and regret, which is difficult to let go.