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The pain is intertwined
In 2006, Li Si, who was only 18 years old, finally reunited with his mother Huang Qiuyan in the United States. At this moment, she witnessed her mother and a kind and simple man enter the marriage hall.
The life of a family of four is happy, and Huang Qiuyan's face is full of long-lost happiness.
However, for Li Si, who is about to enter the marriageable age, she always feels confused and afraid about marriage in her heart. Whenever the mother persuaded her, "Daughter, it is time for you to seek your own marriage."
Li Si always lowered his eyes and replied sincerely: "Mom, I don't believe in love.
When he said this, Li Si's eyes were gloomy, and he seemed to be caught in some painful memory. She lost her father's love since she was a child, and she was only confused about the concept of love.
Deep down, she harbors endless resentment and dissatisfaction with her biological father Jet Li.
She can't let go of how her father resolutely abandoned her and her mother back then, and instead opened a new marriage hall with film and television star Li Zhi. The trauma of being betrayed by her family when she was young was like a thick dark cloud covering the sun, shrouding her spiritual world and filling the haze.
In the dead of night, Li Si would always toss and turn and find it difficult to sleep. The thought often comes to her mind: "If my biological father hadn't been Jet Li, maybe I wouldn't have suffered all this trauma."
I'd rather not be his daughter in the first place.
For a young girl, this is undoubtedly the most painful cry from the depths of her heart. After experiencing the hurt of her parents' divorce, her concept of family affection has been shattered.
And this trauma may take a lifetime of strength to heal.
Recovered
In 1999, Jet Li and Li Zhi's grand wedding was like a slap in the face, which shattered the last bit of hope in Li Si's heart. When she witnessed it on TV, she was filled with mixed feelings.
Back in 1988, Li Si was born in Los Angeles, USA. Although the family is poor, the warm years of a family of three are yearning. When her mother Huang Qiuyan was pregnant with her, the family was indeed stretched, but Jet Li was still working hard outside.
When little life comes, their faces are full of joy.
Who would have thought that this short period of happiness only lasted for a few years before he was stabbed by Jet Li's betrayal. In my memory, my father said coldly to my mother: "Let's get a divorce, I'm sorry I've found someone I really love."
The young Li Si, although he didn't quite understand the meaning of this sentence, clearly felt his mother's heart-wrenching wail. Her mother's grief seemed to have a telepathic power that touched her tear ducts, and she subconsciously cried along.
In the following ten years, without the company of father's love, it became the deepest regret of Li Si and his sister. Fortunately, with the loving care of their grandmother, they barely let them get through those dark years.
Every time he thinks of the scene when his family was ruined, Li Si's eyes inevitably moistened.
Until 1999, through live TV, Li Si once again witnessed the dazzling wedding of his father and Li Zhi. At the ceremony, the figures of the two holding hands appeared again and again in front of the camera, as if the whole world was cheering for them.
In Li Si's heart, there are hundreds of sourness and helplessness surging.
She tried to suppress the sadness in her heart, but she betrayed her with tears in her eyes. In the eyes of the girl, this is tantamount to hurting and betraying her again and again. From that moment on, her resentment towards her father reached its peak and was almost unforgivable.
Behind the blood and tears
In 1991, when Jet Li and Huang Qiuyan officially completed the divorce procedures, Li Si, who was only three years old, once again witnessed the contradictory break between his parents. For the first time, she experienced the loneliness and helplessness of losing her parents.
At this critical breakup node, Li Si is still too young, and all decisions are in the hands of adults. All she remembers is that her father entrusted her and her sister to the care of her grandparents, while she returned to Hong Kong in a hurry, waiting for a new life with her new love, Lizhi.
Since then, Li Si and his sister have become more and more unable to experience the warmth of their father's love. Even if Jet Li occasionally goes back to Beijing, he treats them like passers-by, and has no time to take care of the lives of his daughters.
This made Li Si have unprecedented disappointment and resentment towards his father.
When she tosses and turns at night, she often thinks of this: "If she had a choice, she would rather not be Jet Li's biological daughter." For a young child, this is undoubtedly the most painful cry from the heart.
experienced the betrayal of family affection at a young age, and Li Si's personality gradually became arrogant and introverted. She began to deliberately suppress her inner emotions and buried all her unwillingness and pain deeply.
Even in the most helpless moments, she has learned to pretend to be strong, and there is always a faint smile on the corner of her mouth.
It is only when she is alone that her eyes inevitably moisten. After this series of traumas, Li Si's resentment towards his father is as hard as a rock, and it takes a lifetime of strength to crush and heal.
The desperation of reality
Back in 1988, that was the year Li Si was born. At that time, the family of three was happy, and although the family was poor, this small family was full of warmth.
At that time, Jet Li was just a rookie martial arts rookie who had not yet become famous, while his wife Huang Qiuyan was a full-time housewife. The relationship between the two childhood sweethearts was not recognized by Huang Qiuyan's parents at first.
But at Huang Qiuyan's insistence, they finally got married in Beijing in 1987.
It was a simple and sincere wedding, without extravagant banquets and blessings from relatives and friends, but Huang Qiuyan still felt extremely happy. With tears of happiness in the corners of her eyes, she clenched her husband's hand tightly, as if she was afraid that it was just a dream.
No one expected that the couple's later life path would go to such a big fork. In a blink of an eye, in 1999, Jet Li and Li Zhi's grand wedding was like a hammer, tearing apart the last bit of hope for a happy family in Li Si's heart.
The Hong Kong media commented on this marriage: "It is difficult to buy a thousand kinds of styles. And Jet Li unabashedly declared: "Lizhi is already all in my life."
Such resolute words undoubtedly sprinkled a handful of salt on Li Si's wound again. She began to wonder if love was really so superficial and hypocritical? Since she was a child, she had personally experienced the trauma of her parents' divorce, and she had completely lost her yearning and confidence in marriage.
In the face of his mother's admonition, Li Si's only response was to say sincerely: "Mom, I don't believe in love anymore. Whenever she spoke of this topic, her eyes would become dull, and she seemed to be caught up in some painful memory.
Huang Qiuyan's tenacity
At the same time, in the United States on the other side, Huang Qiuyan faced the most frustrating trough of her life alone. After the divorce, she raised her two daughters alone, and her financial situation became increasingly worrying.
Huang Qiuyan originally bought a house back then, and originally wanted to give her two daughters a stable place to stay. Unbeknownst to her, she was unable to repay the mortgage debt, and was finally forced to abandon the house, leaving the mother and daughter homeless.
Just when she was most helpless, a kind Chinese old lady reached out and took the initiative to take in the mother and daughter. Although they could only live in a cold and damp basement, at least they were given a place to rest.
For ten years, Huang Qiuyan relied on the old man's sympathy and funding to silently survive the difficult days. In order to make ends meet, in order to take care of her two daughters, she has never been discouraged and has never given up.
Whenever she suffers a heavy blow from life, Huang Qiuyan always dials her mother's phone to seek spiritual comfort. Although her mother never responded, she seemed to be able to hear her mother's faint sobs, which was enough to give her some courage back.
Ten years is not long, but it is not short. But in this long wait, Huang Qiuyan never gave up hope of finding happiness. With her tenacity and courage, she defended the family and provided a safe haven for her daughters.
It wasn't until 2006 that Huang Qiuyan finally came out of the haze and married a kind and considerate man. The life of a family of four is happy, and she finally regains her happy bright smile.
It's just that her daughter Li Si's heart is too traumatic, and she is still confused and afraid about marriage.