I am a girl from the countryside, 26 years old this year, I am considered an older leftover girl in the countryside, two days ago I was introduced by others, and I was given a number to contact myself.
I added a good friend, a 36-year-old man who lives in the city. I don't know where to go on this blind date, but this blind date made me feel unprecedented frustration.
He has a stable job and a good income, while I, just an ordinary rural girl, has no impressive education and career, and is unemployed, has no job, no savings.
Because I work in the city, and my friend is the first to take the initiative, I contacted him first, briefly introduced myself, and then made an appointment to meet, we made an appointment to meet at a small restaurant near his house, I arrived half an hour early, nervously waiting for his arrival.
The moment he walked into the restaurant, I could feel his disdainful and disrespectful look, and there was no expectation in his eyes, as if he was just completing a task. We exchanged a few brief pleasantries, then sat down and began to order. He didn't ask me about my preferences and just ordered my favorite dish, which made me a little embarrassed.
We ate and talked, and he started to find fault with me in all sorts of ways. The first is my family background, he said: "You are from the countryside, and I am worried that your family will be a burden to me. "I felt uncomfortable listening to it, but I tried to keep smiling and trying to explain my family situation.
Then, he mentioned my job and said, "You are unemployed now, and you can't find a good job with your education, how can you make a living with such an income?" I tried to suppress my emotions and told him that I was always trying to improve myself and hope to be better.
He also mentioned how I was dressed, thinking that I was too plain and did not fit his aesthetic. I thought to myself, this is my truest side, and if this is not even acceptable, then what is the point of going on?
At the checkout, I said it's still AA, and he agreed, this is his attitude towards this blind date, is it in his eyes, am I really nothing?
After eating, he left in a hurry, I took a taxi by myself, and I walked home alone, full of loss and grievances. I know that this blind date is destined to be fruitless, and there is no me in his eyes at all.
Perhaps, he was right, the gap between us was too big, and he didn't look down on me for granted. But I believe that everyone has their own value, and you should not deny yourself because of the evaluation of others. I'm from a rural area, but that doesn't mean I'm inferior, my work is mundane, but I also find joy and fulfillment in it.
I will not change myself because of his pickiness, I will continue to work hard to find the person who really knows how to appreciate me and cherish me. One day, I will meet the right person who will see my light and not my origin and background.