There was a weird video on the Internet of a girl lying on the bed with her pillow removed, but she remained still, as if there was an invisible air pillow behind her head.
Someone in the comment area explained that she was in a state of mental illness, not only could she not eat and drink by herself, but she also did not react to being swayed.
"You can do anything to her. ”
This symptom is called waxy flexion and extension, and it is one of the symptoms of stupor, which is caused by the somatization of depression.
In 2016, psychiatrist Pazao Chen admitted a girl who was in a state of stupor, and before coming to the psychiatric hospital, she experienced three miscarriages. The family took care of her like a fragile doll.
After treating her for 7 years, Chen Baizao finally found the real cause of the girl's illness: her family was too good to her.
After the Chinese New Year in 2016, after Zhang Li entered the ward and took off her heavy coat, she lay straight on the bed, letting her mother help her clean up.
In the days that followed, she did not drink, eat, or speak, like a marionette.
Many things that seem strange to others are the norm in the eyes of our psychiatrists, such as the patient's state is called, stupor.
It will appear in patients who have just experienced great mental stimulation, but what kind of stimulation they have experienced, the patient does not say, we psychiatrists can only ask the family, or turn our brains and try to guess.
At this moment, all of Zhang Li's family members are performing their duties, busy around her, some pushing wheelchairs, some collecting clothes, but she can't move.
It was at this moment that I noticed that this female patient was very beautiful, like the star Zhu Lin, but her big eyes were empty open.
No matter what I asked, she didn't respond.
People with stuporis can also be dangerous.
I have been working in psychiatry for more than 10 years, and the only time I have been beaten was by a female patient with a stiff body. She had been lying in bed for many days when she suddenly got up and kicked me hard.
As soon as I reacted, I saw that she was already lying back in her place.
I fell hard and got up to see her lying on the bed, exactly the same as when I walked in the door. I thought it was just my own hallucination.
People with stupora also have memories when they are stiff.
I guess it was because one day I was catheterizing this patient, and although the process went well, she felt humiliated and found an opportunity to kick me after holding a grudge.
Zhang Li, who is stiff at the moment, is also awake, but I don't know what stimulation she has experienced, and what kind of words will appear in the ward during the "lying flat".
It is her family who can unravel part of the mystery.
They told me that Zhang Li was in a state of acute stress because of the great mental trauma.
Zhang Li is 35 years old and has just experienced a miscarriage, which was her third miscarriage, and the successive blows made her completely collapse.
People react differently to trauma, some are hysterical episodes, others are extremely quiet like Zhang Li.
In order to have a better rest, Zhang Li lived in a single room, and when I went to the ward, Zhang's mother was wiping her with a towel, she did not resist, and she was still the kind of obedience at the mercy of others.
Zhang's mother hurt her, and even the sound of putting things was very soft.
The other two men in the family immediately stood up when they saw me enter.
Zhang Li's husband is a typical Northeast man, with a gentle expression, a civil servant, he speaks in a small voice but clearly speaking.
As we spoke, Mama Zhang listened carefully, occasionally adding a little of her observation.
The Zhang family gives me a feeling of male dominance and female dominance, but it is either patriarchal or the division of labor between men and women is different.
In the face of Zhang Li's sudden stiffness, they can also maintain their sanity, care and not be busy. Compared with most of the patients' families, Zhang Lijia's calm response is an outlier.
They took care of their daughter who had just had a miscarriage like a "confinement", and put on a thin cotton hat for her, which filled the atmosphere.
It's not like a family that persecutes its daughter because she wants to have children.
You can feel how willing they are to share the warmth from any angle. Once I saw them eating cocoon chrysalis, which was not quite the usual practice, so I asked in passing.
The next day, a large box of the same cocoon appeared on the office table.
The senior sister looked at the big box of cocoons and said, "Let you ask questions! The patients are very enthusiastic." ”
But this family is like this, anytime, anywhere, willing to be good to others, and trust others unconditionally.
Zhang Li should be very happy as their daughter.
Later, I saw that the family was in good order, and I appreciated it.
They trust the doctors very much, and conscientiously complete the various things assigned by the doctors and nurses, and will not come to the office to urge us to do all kinds of things because they are worried.
After three or four days of hospitalization, Zhang Li gradually began to eat, her family loved her very much, and whatever she wanted to eat, Zhang's mother immediately went home and brought it.
Zhang Li, who has eaten, is becoming more and more energetic day by day.
When I went to the rounds, she was already able to sit up and communicate with people, but after saying a few words, she began to cry, and after crying, her big eyes looked into the void, immersed in some inner world. When I asked anything more, she didn't speak.
In the following days, Zhang Li would sometimes suddenly vomit while eating, just like when she was pregnant.
After throwing up, she wailed and cried, and then gradually calmed down after crying. After several rounds of emotional venting, Zhang Li began to give herself an intermittent experience before she was hospitalized.
The family described her recent setback, a miscarriage.
What she was going to say now, I think, must be hiding the whole mystery that had caused her to fall ill and become a puppet.
Zhang Li said that the reason for her stiffness was because she watched a parent-child variety show after a miscarriage.
Parents and children are engaged in funny interactions on TV, and she laughs when she looks at it, and suddenly can't move when she laughs.
The scenes in front of her reminded her that her previous expectations of happiness would eventually be disappointed.
"Three times, Dr. Chen, do you know, it's the third time", Zhang Li repeated, "I probably have no fate with children in my life." ”
Zhang Li's tears began to roll out in big drops. Three test-tube babies and consecutive miscarriages, such a small probability event, have crushed her.
Zhang Li got married at the age of 25, didn't want children at first, and was active in contraception.
originally thought it was a natural thing, but how could she know that it was so difficult, and she took folic acid several times.
Zhang Li smiled bitterly and said, "My husband also eats, and he is more active than me." "Eating folic acid 3 months in advance during the preparation for pregnancy can prevent fetal neural tube defects and improve the quality of eggs and sperm.
Most of them are eaten by women, and it is rare for men to eat with them. It can be seen that Zhang Li's husband is also looking forward to the child.
Zhang Li also knew that her husband was concerned about this matter, but after preparing for pregnancy, there was no movement in her stomach for several years.
She said that even when she menstruated every month, she felt that "I had done a big wrong thing, and I felt so guilty that I couldn't get it back for days." ”
Seeing that Zhang Li was 33 years old, the whole family made a decision to support Zhang Li to go for a test tube.
Injections and egg retrieval were originally a painful process, but for Zhang Li, when the long needle tube for egg retrieval was pierced into the belly, Zhang Li was not only not afraid, but happy.
About half a month, Zhang Li saw the two bars that had never appeared on the pregnancy test strip, and cried excitedly.
"It's the most beautiful pattern in the world," she said. ”
The first pregnancy, Zhang Li was in a very good mood, she saw the child on the street, and even asked others if she could touch the child's little face and hands.
When she came home, she saw that her mother had started knitting children's sweaters.
Dad Zhang once drove for a high-level leader, with a calm personality and simple and direct speech.
Before the leader left the post, he asked if he wanted to help him, and he said that he had nothing else to ask for, as long as he found an easy and good job for his daughter. The thing he loves the most is this daughter.
He always said that the pursuit of people in this life is to warm the kang head of their wives and children.
Everyone in this family is working hard for the same goal, and the little sweater and the father's wish are all proof of the family's efforts.
One day, Zhang Li suddenly felt a warm current flowing out from between her legs.
She felt a chill down her back, so frightened that she could barely take a step. It was easy to move to the bathroom, and the blood on her panties made her faint in the cubicle.
The sound of hitting the partition alarmed her colleagues, and they took her to the hospital, where she cried bitterly after confirming that it was a miscarriage.
After resting for a while after the first miscarriage, Zhang Li started a second test tube, this time without implantation at all.
There was a gap of one year between the third and the second time, during which Zhang Li and they went to Putuo Mountain to worship Guanyin and ask for a child, and hung the sachet they got on the head of the bed.
But this time, she came to us.
Zhang Li didn't know where she heard that she couldn't tell others in the first three months of pregnancy, and it was easy to keep the baby if she told it.
This time she was pregnant, Zhang Li didn't need to tell her colleagues in the unit. But during this time, Zhang Li was busy with work, and Zhang Li felt a little uncomfortable, so she didn't find a suitable reason to ask for leave, and insisted on going to work.
One night, Zhang Li couldn't sleep after tossing and turning, and felt the familiar warm current again.
Zhang Li screamed, quickly dialed 120 to go to the emergency department of the hospital, and after the examination confirmed the miscarriage and the uterine clearance treatment, Zhang Li was observed in the hospital for two more days and then went home.
Zhang Li was quite normal when she first got home, and her parents were worried that she wouldn't be able to bear the blow, but she didn't feel sad.
Because she doesn't have to go to work, she is chasing variety shows at home. Those hilarious parent-child shows.
Psychologist Sigmund Freud said, "Grief is a normal reaction, depression is not normal, and the more we can express grief, the less depressed we will be." ”
She used to be very happy to see other people's children on the street, and now she was watching TV, and for a moment, she realized one thing-
"I can't have any children anymore. ”
The feeling of disappointed expectations is generally defined as frustration, and such a mild description is obviously not applicable to Zhang Li.
She described that grief hit her head like a huge wave, she seemed to be stunned, her whole body seemed to be sealed, and she couldn't move.
Zhang's mother saw that Zhang Li had been sitting for too long and wanted her to rest, but she didn't react no matter how she talked to her.
Zhang Li still remembers those days when she heard someone talking to her.
She looked at them going about their lives, and she thought it was so strange that she couldn't figure out what they were doing, and at one point she didn't even know who they were or why they were in her own house.
This is called non-reality, a kind of emotional isolation, and an instinctive self-protection mechanism of human beings is activated.
It's a bit like a power-off protection device for electrical appliances.
She was thus turned into an immobile puppet, and was taken to the hospital by her parents and came to me.
As Zhang Li and I went over and over the whole thing, her mood changed dramatically.
She began to think that the miscarriage was caused by the leader's deliberate trouble-
If he hadn't arranged so many jobs, he wouldn't have slept well at night, and he wouldn't have the warm current that scared her to this day.
Once an idea is formed, people's consciousness will automatically improve it, and there is more and more evidence that the leader deliberately makes it difficult for Zhang Li.
Zhang Li remembered many times that there were unexpected things in the unit, and the leaders handed them over to her to do.
"Even if I didn't say that I was pregnant, everyone could see that I was fat recently, didn't he have long eyes?"
Her hatred for the leader became very strong, "I really want to tear him apart!" "I can't wait for him to go out and be hit by 10 cars." ”
After saying this, she was like a deflated balloon, and she collapsed to the side and said, "Am I crazy?" Why do I think of people like this? Why am I so bad? I really deserve to die.
Zhang Li repeatedly jumped sideways in extreme anger and total self-denial.
Under the influence of Zhang Li, Zhang's mother, who has always been gentle, also scolded a lot of ugly words, "This leader doesn't have a daughter-in-law, I don't know how much I feel sorry for a woman, I don't know how much money I am greedy, and I will be arrested one day." ”
The whole family suddenly became angry with the enemy, and almost immediately went to Zhang Li's unit to find the leader to compensate their children.
Since hating the leader, Zhang's mother is not in the mood to cook, and when she went to the ward, she saw that the quality level of their meals plummeted, and she even ate a canteen box lunch for two days.
Even Zhang's father began to say that some people go to tea and cool.
As a bystander, I see that the leader does not necessarily have a great responsibility in this matter. It's just that when a tragedy happens, find a "bad guy", Zhang Li's heart will not be unbalanced.
In fact, this is just a "scapegoat" to divert anger.
I'm not going to stop the family's behavior, I'll talk about it later, it's not a good time.
Zhang Li's perennial expectations for children have been disappointed, and she needs this "scapegoat." ”
Her parents and husband also have the same expectations, and these family members also need to condemn the sheep together to protect Zhang Li.
Now, for Zhang Li and her family, the most important thing is to fully express their emotions.
Grief is meaningful, and anger is functional. Without anger, the pain of this loss will be unbearable.
One day, Zhang's father and mother were not there, I passed by the ward and heard a sound inside, and when I went in to see, Zhang Li knelt on the ground, like a kowtow machine, and kept hitting the bed board with her forehead.
She is still blaming herself for not being able to have children. Although cushioned by a mattress sheet, her forehead was also red.
When Zhang Li saw me, she stopped kowtowing, and she asked me, do you have any children?
I don't know why Zhang Li insists on wanting children, everyone has different expectations for children, some people want the family to be more complete, some hope that children can be supported by the elderly, and some simply like children.
I told her that I had a son who was in kindergarten.
All I wanted was health and happiness for my children. I have seen so many depressed children, and many of them are caused by study pressure.
I really felt that my studies and health were so insignificant, so I raised him to have a happy childhood.
Zhang Li said that she wanted a daughter.
She had seen a lot of small clothes on the Internet before, all of them were pink, and she imagined that her daughter must be very cute in these clothes.
As she spoke, Zhang Li cried again, and she became as if she was made of water.
Zhang Li's condition is more complicated, and it belongs to depression in pregnancy combined with stress disorder. The miscarriage was a double blow to Zhang Li, and it was common for her to have extreme impulsive thoughts and behaviors.
As a psychiatrist, I gave her a small dose of antipsychotic medication in addition to her antidepressants.
Zhang Li's psychological trauma still needs to be treated slowly, but her physiology has basically stabilized.
On the day I was discharged from the hospital, Zhang Li specially dressed up, she was very beautiful herself, like a different person, appeared in front of me, which made my eyes shine.
The sense of accomplishment as a doctor is that I can see the fragility and beauty of a person at the same time, and I am always touched by the strength of people.
At this time, Zhang's mother encouraged her daughter and said, don't think so much, wait for the birth of a child to adjust your body before finding a way.
My back is cold, this family still has to give birth?!
Prior to this, Zhang Li and her husband had gone to several hospitals for physical examinations, and they were all healthy and had no problems.
"If we can find out that we are not in good health, we can accept it. Zhang Li smiled bitterly and said, "If there is nothing wrong with the body, we won't do it, I don't know where the problem is, how to solve it?"
Everyone's expectations made Zhang Li suffer a lot in the days that followed.
I soon saw Zhang Li again in the hospital.
Because she wanted to kill herself.
After Zhang Li was discharged from the hospital for the first time, she did not deal with the leader at work, and the work pressure became more and more intense. But she didn't communicate with the leader, for fear of living up to everyone's expectations of her, and would rather endure physical discomfort.
Until one day when she passed by the river, she suddenly had a thought in her heart, "Jump down and be free".
She was taken aback by herself and wanted to be hospitalized to adjust.
Zhang Li did not live in a single room in the second hospitalization, Zhang's father and mother brought her food every day, and her husband came to accompany her after work at night, because there was no extra bed, and her husband would go home to sleep after seeing her.
During the hospitalization, Zhang Li's condition was quite good, she was very cooperative with medication and physiotherapy, and she slept very well, and even went downstairs to skip rope and turn hula hoops in the open space in the evening to exercise.
When she was discharged from the hospital this time, I told her to insist on taking medicine, she had been in a tight state for too long, and the hormones such as serotonin in her body had been out of balance, and she needed to adjust them with medication.
In fact, her illness can be cured, don't have children, just take medicine well, and don't dwell on things that can't be changed.
She agreed, but quickly reversed herself.
Less than a month after she was discharged from the hospital, Zhang Li came to me and told me that she had to stop taking the medicine, and that the embryos she had stored in the hospital were about to expire.
Theoretically, embryos frozen in liquid nitrogen can be kept forever, but for higher survival rates, it is generally recommended to use them within two years.
Zhang Li didn't dare to get pregnant with medicine, and she didn't want to waste the embryo, so she stopped the medicine in a hurry and began to prepare for conception.
This is the fourth time she has had a test tube.
Eggs that can be retrieved at one time for ovulation induction can be used several times. It takes tens of thousands of pieces to induce ovulation once, and about 10,000 pieces are needed for embryo implantation on the frozen surface in the future.
Neither their family nor her husband's family were wealthy, and she later told me that the family "saved some money and went to do IVF". Over the years, she should have spent hundreds of thousands.
The success rate of a test tube is about 50%, and it is rare for her to be unsuccessful so many times.
This time, Zhang Li is pregnant again.
The first trimester of pregnancy is the most prone to miscarriage, and after the embryo is implanted, she carefully navigates the first trimester and, in her words, "every day is terrifying".
Later, Zhang Li came to see me in the hospital, wearing the most expensive radiation protection suit, and her lower abdomen seemed to bulge slightly.
It was when she was at her most beautiful, more than four months pregnant, through the most dangerous period, and came to give us little colorful dough that she had made herself.
This additive-free food is best for children.
She carefully mashed the dragon fruit, wrapped it in gauze to squeeze out the water, then mixed the dough, then pressed it into a dough, and then used a grinder to make various shapes, then dried it and then sealed and stored in a transparent food box;
The green color is made with spinach water and noodles, and all the colors are dyed with the juice of natural fruits and vegetables, and it is made by hand.
Zhang Li inherited Zhang's mother's ingenuity, and her dough was so delicate that I was reluctant to give it to my son.
She said that she gave our children this batch first, and then kept it for her own children in the next wave.
She also said that she can feel the fetus movement now, although it is only a gentle squirming, but she is not afraid of anything, and she doesn't care what the leader says.
When she left, her sister said that Zhang Li had finally come true.
Just when we were all happy for Zhang Li, Zhang's mother came to the hospital to prescribe medicine. She said Zhang Li had a miscarriage and is now hospitalized in the obstetrics and gynecology department.
Did I say something happened?
Zhang's mother's eyes were red, she shook her head and said, I didn't have it when I was sleeping, probably because I was pressing.
But what pregnant woman can go without sleeping?
After being discharged from the obstetrics and gynecology department, Zhang Li came to the department again, and this was her third hospitalization.
She said that she was as weak as stepping on cotton, her feet had no roots, and anyone who could fall if they touched it lightly, she joked, "You don't have to act when you touch porcelain." ”
Zhang Li's husband accompanied Zhang Li gently as always.
I asked him, it's been four times, what if it still doesn't work? He said, I don't want to do this now, it's important to treat Zhang Li well.
Zhang Li was not as stiff as last time, but very weak. She said that she wanted to cry but didn't even have the strength to squeeze out tears.
She and her husband have prepared several names for the baby.
I asked her to pick a name she liked the most and use that name to write a letter to the child who didn't have time to see each other, with thanks, thoughts and goodbyes.
She can write a lot, although she didn't have time to meet, but she still has to thank the baby for being with her in the past few months, and how she misses the baby now, and finally goodbye, plans in the coming days.
Zhang Li wrote this letter for three or four days, and it was a long one. The letter even mentions which kindergarten the child will attend and which elementary school he will attend.
Zhang Li's family often says that "it's not a bad job", their family and her husband's family are not rich, but the house they bought is a very good school district house, and they can walk to the school, and they have high expectations for their children.
She had already arranged everything and was just waiting for the baby to be born.
What surprised me the most was the signing of the letter, it was Zhang Li, not my mother.
She said that when she wrote it, she thought about it, but she couldn't write the word "mother". She also felt strange, "Could it be that I'm not ready to be a mother?"
She quickly dismissed her idea, saying, "Our family is very rare.
"My mother saw the child's eyes on the outside as if they were glued to someone else's body, staring straight at them;
My dad also likes children, and he often goes to a relative for a drink just to hug someone's grandson. And all the indicators of my body are good, so I shouldn't be unable to give birth. ”
After listening to it, I was thinking, maybe in Zhang Li's heart, this child is no longer her own child, but the child that Zhang Li owes to the whole family.
Responsibility and guilt overwhelm maternal love, so she doesn't feel strongly about the role of mother anymore.
Having a baby is a natural thing, and it becomes difficult to do it on a particular purpose.
It's like if you were asked to observe whether you exhale or inhale when you walk with your left foot, you might end up not even being able to walk.
Zhang Li is so obsessed with having a child, she bears not only her own expectations, but also the expectations of the whole family.
Soon after I was discharged from the hospital, Zhang Li stopped taking medicine, and she said to me, Dr. Chen, I know that taking medicine can make me feel better, but medicine can't cure my disease, only children can cure me.
She treats the child as her own "medicine", but she is reluctant to take the psychiatric drugs I prescribed to her.
After that, Zhang Li's illness became more serious.
In 2018, 37-year-old Zhang Li went to do the fifth test tube. Not surprisingly, it failed again.
She was once again in a state of emotional abnormality. Her husband came to get the medicine and the sick note. I asked him, didn't you say you wouldn't give birth, why did you still go?
For the first time, I had a feeling of dissatisfaction with Zhang Li's husband, and without his cooperation, Zhang Li would not have been able to complete this alone.
He explained, Zhang Li wants to live, can I not cooperate?
I asked him what he thought.
Of course he wants a child, he said.
Later, he also told me that his parents also wanted grandchildren very much, and they would pressure him to try again when he was fine.
Although he also felt sorry for Zhang Li, he couldn't bear to let his wife experience physical and mental pain again;
But he always had a trace of expectation in his heart, and he also felt that Zhang Li and his physical examination were qualified, and maybe he would succeed if he tried harder, so every time Zhang Li proposed to do another test tube, he cooperated.
I realized that everyone felt sorry for Zhang Li and accompanied her to see a doctor, but no one ever said, Zhang Li, you can give up the desire to have children.
The more everyone loves Zhang Li and treats her better, the more she feels that she has a great responsibility.
This family is too happy, Zhang Li may not want to be the one who destroys happiness.
Soon, Zhang Li not only stopped taking any psychiatric drugs, but she also stopped taking sleep aids.
But she still came to the hospital occasionally, and she said that we were like friends, and she liked to come and talk to us and bring me good food, but we never talked about children.
In 2019, she told us that she was getting acupuncture in preparation for her sixth pregnancy.
Zhang Li said that her idol was Xu Ruoxuan, Xu was 40 years old when she was pregnant, and she lay in bed for nearly five months in order to give birth to a child, eating, drinking, and Lazar, and taking fetal protection injections every day until the child was successfully born.
For the sixth time, Zhang Li was lying in bed like Xu Ruoxuan, but the child was still not saved.
Later did the seventh, eighth......
Because of the epidemic, I haven't seen her these few times.
Until last month, I received a WeChat message: Dr. Chen, I am Zhang Li, and I want to see you recently.
Zhang Li in my memory is still a beautiful girl.
After meeting, I almost didn't recognize her when I looked at her who was already swollen and haggard. She used to be more than 120 pounds, but now she is almost 18 pounds, and she is as fat as two people.
She saw my surprise and hurriedly explained that she had a serious illness during the epidemic, used a lot of hormones, and became fat like this.
"I can't look at it, I put up posters on the mirrors in my house, so I don't have to get angry. ”
Did the child give birth?
She hurriedly shook her head and waved her hand, no, she couldn't care about it now. She held my hand and said, "Doctor Chen, it's been almost eight years, am I not getting better?"
For a moment, I didn't know, was she asking about mental illness, or about having children?
She picked up her clothes, there were a lot of rashes on her body, and it was useless to take medicine and apply medicine. Zhang Li takes injections and medicines in the hospital almost every day, and sees both Chinese and Western doctors.
Her husband and parents are still with her as before.
Zhang's father and mother are a lot older. Zhang's father said, what more grandson, his daughter can't be saved.
Zhang's mother also said that my daughter's life was about to give up in order to have a child, and I also admitted it.
I asked her husband, do you still want to have children? Zhang Li's husband said, no, I can't have it.
When everyone in the family no longer looked forward to the child, Zhang Li naturally gave up the idea of having a child and came back for treatment.
Maybe for Zhang Li, giving birth to a child carries too many things, so much that she can't afford it, so every pregnancy is very stressful, so there is no way to keep the fetus.
Of course, it may also be caused by some reasons that cannot be detected by modern medicine temporarily.
I always think it's unfair to have high hopes for children, because a small body can't carry so many expectations.
Just let the child be a child. Being expected by many people may not be a good thing.
If the basic principle of love is not to hurt others, then the basic principle of expectation is not to let expectations crush a person.
Sometimes it's crushing the child, sometimes it's crushing the mother.
I asked Zhang Li what she plans to do next, and she said that when this winter is over, she will plan what she will do in the next few decades.
Recently, Zhang Lilai came to a follow-up visit, and her condition has improved a lot. She said that she hadn't lost a lot of weight, but it wasn't so swollen, and she wore a little bit of light makeup, and I remembered how she said goodbye to me when she was first discharged from the hospital.
After prescribing the medicine, she looked at me with a sad face and asked me what was wrong. I said, my son is not studying well, and I have insomnia for several nights.
Raising a child is a process of constant self-challenge.
When I was pregnant, I would think that studying was not important, and when I started to speak, I couldn't help but want to teach him to count and read, and when I started school, I couldn't help but compare myself with other children when I saw the test scores.
I also began to look forward to my children.
I want my children to have a happy childhood, but if their grades lag behind their peers, I am worried that it will be difficult for them to be happy in today's social environment.
Zhang Li comforted me and said that it was okay, I could take my time in learning. As she spoke, Zhang Li suddenly laughed.
She smiled and said, "I don't have this problem." ”
At this moment, I was also in a bit of a trance, Zhang Li looked so good when she smiled.
In today's story, there is a character who never appears, but it is especially important.
That is Zhang Li's unborn child.
She was expected from birth, a very united family waiting for her, her mother was stiff for her, others were sad for her, and many people could even give up the possibility of a good life for her.
Is such a home really suitable for the birth of a child?
No one can give an answer to this question, but at least I don't want to be born in such a home, for fear that the expectations will be too heavy, and the pressure behind me will be too great.