Qin Yu's love for Xiao Qingmei on her birthday made me understand that I was just a stand-in

He pressed me against the wall and kissed me roughly, with a morbid persistence in his eyes.

"Be an obedient shadow, huh?"

The rain was heavy, and I had just lost one of my jobs after graduating from college.

With just over 100 yuan left in my body, I don't know how to survive in the city of Shanghai.

Reluctant to spend money on a taxi back, I walked to the bus stop in the rain.

"Wait. "Watching the last bus rush away, my cries were drowned out in the wind and rain.

The city is full of lights and traffic, but it is cold.

I was a little dazed, and I didn't care that it was still raining, and walked aimlessly.

I don't know how long I walked, a bright light hit my face, I subconsciously covered my eyes with my hands, and then there was a sensation of impact, a late but not dull pain.

I fell on the road, the people in the car opened the door, and the handsome man with an umbrella looked at me condescendingly, and the woody scent emanating from his body was as noble as his.

It was as if the torrential rain couldn't wet his black shirt, and the accident couldn't alarm the overly calm heart.

I was shrouded under an umbrella, as if I had entered a space that didn't belong to me. Perhaps, it was at that moment that I broke into this realization.

Then I lost consciousness.

When I woke up again, I was already lying in the hospital with a simple bandage.

"How much compensation?" Seeing that I woke up, the man by the bedside was straight to the point, and he seemed to disdain a polite greeting.

"No... No, just pay the hospital bills. "I sneaked a glance at the man in front of me, it was really good-looking.

"I don't like to owe people. He frowned, his voice magnetic but not warm, "Make a request." ”

"Can you give me a job?"

"Good. The other party put a business card on my desk, "I can report it at any time." ”

He is like an angel descending to earth, lightly handing an olive branch to those in dire straits.

Jewelry design company, very well-known,

Ignoring my look of surprise, he walked straight out of the room, his back straight.

After being hospitalized for half a month, he didn't come to visit me once, except for the time when he asked for compensation, but the nurse ordered a meal at all.

When I was discharged from the hospital, I grabbed the business card and looked for it according to the address, and the company was bigger than I thought.

I called the phone on my business card, and it was his unhurried voice.

"Go to the front desk and look for Daisy, she'll take you to report. ”

In this way, I became the president's assistant.

Even though I was an assistant, I didn't have a task to help with, in fact it was a fictitious job, I just sat in the office and waited for the end of work.

Raising an idler like me is nothing to the president of this company, that is, Qin Yu.

But I always felt uneasy and wanted to do more. So, when Qin Yu was away, the waste paper in the garbage basket and the sorting of the desk became my job.

When I replaced Qin Yu's cold coffee, Qin Yu, who was holding the cup, finally noticed me.

"You don't have to do anything like that. ”

"But I took the company's salary..."

"No, you don't. ”

"But this is an irrational allocation of resources, I have not realized my social value, and this is not in line with the principle of cost-effectiveness..."

"Which university graduated?" Qin Yu was not angry, the corners of his mouth were slightly raised, although this arc was very small, but I still caught it.

"A big. ”

"Sort out the information about this company. Qin Yu pointed to the folder on the table.

"Okay, I will definitely do a good job!" I bowed solemnly to Qin Yu, is this a recognition of my performance?

Gradually, the tasks given to me by Qin Yu became more, and I got along with him more.

I finally became a real assistant.

There are a lot of things going on in the company these days, and Qin Yu has been working overtime.

At 1 o'clock in the morning, Qin Yu was still busy in front of his notebook. In fact, the work in my hand has been done, but the boss has not left, and I am embarrassed to slip away.

Waiting, waiting, I actually fell asleep.

When I woke up again, I found that I was not covered with Qin Yu's blazer, but the newspapers and periodicals on my desk...

This shape is a bit like a homeless man in a park.

"Mr. Qin, is this...?" Seeing that he had turned off the computer, I asked.

"If you sleep here, it will affect my motivation to work, but not when I cover the newspaper, so that what I see is a newspaper full of knowledge, not you who sleep soundly. ”

This is the first time Qin Yu has said so many words to me, and I actually think he is a little cute, serious and cute.

It was already three o'clock in the morning.

"I'll send you back. ”

"My house is on Fuyuan Road... I'd better take a taxi back by myself. "The environment here is very poor, how dare I let Qin Yu send it.

I think his precious leather shoes should be spotless, and he will never step into the old and dilapidated alleys.

Qin Yu frowned slightly and did not speak.

"That's... Mr. Qin, can I be reimbursed for the fare?"I used to live in a rented house by bus.

"Hmm. Qin Yu sat in the car and didn't rush to leave.

Surprisingly, not a single taxi passed by within 10 minutes, and my Didi taxi never took a ticket.

"At this point, it's not good to take a taxi. Qin Yu lowered the window, as if he had expected it a long time ago, "Come up." ”

Naturally, I didn't dare to sit in the passenger seat, so I opened the door and sat carefully in the back.

"It doesn't seem like the way to my house..."

"It's too far, go to my apartment, you stay for one night. ”

I'm a little nervous, it's... Hintly, he wrung his hands uneasily, and could only pray that Qin Yu was not interested in someone of my size.

The car stopped, and it was already at its destination.

The first time I stepped into such a beautifully decorated apartment, I followed him and my breath was deliberately light.

"The bathroom is here, you have this one on the first floor. Qin Yu sat on the sofa, his long legs folded, and picked up the fashion magazine on the coffee table.

In my impression, Qin Yu has always been cold, ascetic, and calm, and he doesn't look like that kind of boss.

I put my mind at ease slightly, with a face like mine, I would be disgusted if I took the initiative to stick it.

Thinking of Qin Yu's indifferent and resistant face, I couldn't help but smile and relax my nerves.

There was a white sundress in the bathroom, and I didn't bring a change of clothes, so I put it on without much thought.

Opening the door, he was still reading a magazine.

I stood next to him at a loss, my wet hair behind my back.

Qin Yu raised his head, and after a short pause, there was something inexplicable in his eyes.

"The hair dryer is on top of the cabinet. ”

"Good. ”

I went back to the bathroom, stood on tiptoe, trying to get there.

At this time, a bony hand easily touched the blowing wind, Qin Yu was standing behind me, my back was almost against his chest, and the heat of the bathroom had not yet dissipated.

"Thanks... Thank you. "I know I must be very red at this point.

"Hmm. "Qin Yu is completely different from me, he turned around and went upstairs, even his back is good-looking.

I didn't sleep well that night, the soft bed, the warm lighting, the gentle air conditioning, and the excessive distance...

It's like stepping on a cloud, too beautiful to be true.

I woke up very early the next day and made breakfast for Qin Yu out of repayment.

"Morning, Mr. Qin. ”

"Hmm. "Qin Yu warmed the milk and sat at the same table with me to eat.

The hot milk was handed to me by his own hands.

"Thank you. I picked up the glass and took a sip, the rich milky aroma spreading throughout my mouth.

Qin Yu looked at me, his eyes gradually deepening.

"How... What's wrong, Mr. Qin. ”

The milk got to his lips. Qin Yu's eyes became more complicated.

I was a little embarrassed, so I quickly wiped off the paper.

"Come with me on a business trip today. ”

"Okay, Mr. Qin. ”

However, the car stopped in front of a women's clothing store.

"Mr. Qin?"

"Important customers, dress appropriately. ”

He picked out a few clothes and asked me to go to the fitting room to change. I stood in the fitting room, looked at the price tag of the clothes, and added and added the money of WeChat Alipay and Yue Bao in my mobile phone, but it was still not enough.

It wasn't until Qin Yu asked me why I wasn't okay that I went out slowly, and I was completely different from usual in the mirror, and I had to say that people rely on clothes.

"Yes, try the next one. Qin Yu looked at me as if admiring a piece of jade that he had personally polished.

When I tried on the last set of clothes and came out, Qin Yu was already holding a few shopping bags in his hands, "Let's wear this set, let's go." ”

Qin Yu had already settled the account, and I followed behind him, with mixed feelings.

"I'll pay you back when I make money. ”

"Business trips can be reimbursed. "I felt the slightest tenderness, if not delicate, beneath his cold shell.

I followed Qin Yu to live in a five-star hotel, followed him in and out of various high-end clubs, and he brought me to that shining world.

I could feel the change in his attitude towards me, he was still silent, but his gaze was on me more and more.

In those inky eyes, there is occasionally a small tenderness.

Before I knew it, I had been on the job for three months.

Except for the necessary expenses, I finally managed to save enough money for those clothes.

I transferred the money, but it hasn't been received for a long time.

After a long time, I sent a message one day, "Bring the documents of Project B to my apartment." ”

"Fare reimbursement. ”

Seeing this message, I couldn't help but search for "reimbursement" and found that there were hundreds of chat records containing reimbursement.

When he arrived at the apartment, when Qin Yu opened the door, he had the mellow aroma of red wine on his body.

"The document is for you, Mr. Qin. He didn't seem to be in a good mood, and he rarely wrote his boredom on his face.

"Let it go. "His shirt was buttoned twice that day, which was different from his usual meticulousness.

"And Mr. Qin, you can collect the transfer. ”

At this time, Qin Yu looked at me seriously, and his gaze stayed on me for a long time.

"Good. Qin Yu collected the money in front of me, "Now, you don't owe me." ”

"Then the next time I buy clothes, it's not for public but for private. ”

"What?"

"I mean, in the future, can I get along with you as a boyfriend instead of a debtor. ”

Before my head could react, Qin Yu's lips had already leaned over, soft and fragrant with wine.

When the tip of his tongue was about to pry my teeth open, I pushed him away, "Mr. Qin, this is not good." ”

"It's my fault to be rash like this, and I'll officially pursue you. ”

I didn't dare to look at Qin Yu's eyes, so I pushed open the door and ran out. All I could hear was the wind and my heartbeat.

I don't know if the heartbeat is because of running, or him.

The formal pursuit that Qin Yu said is not fake, a bouquet of roses every day, exquisite three meals a day, and a sentence I like you when I get off work every day...

Where have I been chased by men like this, surprise and uneasiness coexist. How could he have fallen in love with someone as ordinary as me.

At the same time, there was a lot of rumors in the company, and employees were speculating about my relationship with the president.

When I walked into the design department to get the first draft, my eyes were on me, and it didn't feel good to look at every strand of hair.

"Please leave me with the design of the summer season limited theme. ”

"Go buy me a cup of coffee. "The chief designer simply ignored my words and handed me a card.

"I'm here to receive the design. ”

"Ice American, as soon as possible. ”

It's nothing to buy a coffee, and with that thought, I went downstairs. When I handed it to her, she spilled it and my entire white shirt was stained with coffee.

"Sorry, my hand slipped. Her flirtatious tone really couldn't be called an apology.

"Don't be a designer if you slip your hands. Qin Yu suddenly walked in and put on a blazer for me.

"Here I clarify the gossip between me and Lin Ranyue, that is not a rumor, that is the truth. ”

"If you slip your hand on the president's girlfriend, don't be the chief of you. ”

When Qin Yu protected me behind him, he was really charming. I don't think anyone can say no to such a good man.

I let Qin Yu take my hand and walked out, "Wait for me for a while." ”

When he came back, he already had an extra shopping bag in his hand, "Go change it." ”

"This time, it's a private one, in the name of my boyfriend. I changed into a soft dress and mustered up the courage to say it.

"Hello, my girlfriend. Qin Yu gently dropped a kiss on my face.

"Why do you like me?" I was still curious.

"I just remember that night, you looked very beautiful in a white dress, so I confessed. ”

"Hello, my boyfriend. That night, his half-buttoned shirt was particularly charming, so I was intrigued.

I am with Qin Yu, he meets all the standards of my dream lover, gentle gentleman, elegant and golden, romantic and meticulous, thoughtful and passionate.

3.

Wearing a long dress handmade in Italy, the luster of the limited edition watch reflected in the red wine glass, I looked at the scenery downstairs and was in a trance.

At this time, I have been with him for a month, and he made me understand that the starry sky is lit up with yuan, and so is surprise and romance.

Qin Yu hugged me from behind, "What are you thinking?"

"I'm thinking about you. With that, I turned to the side with some embarrassment and looked at the man who had given me everything, like a man of God.

"It's not good for your stomach to drink so early, I'll give you some warm milk. ”

He is indeed the perfect lover of dreams, except for a few stubborn points.

He liked me to wear white dresses the most, so my wardrobe was full of white dresses.

He liked me to drink hot milk, the daily standard for breakfast, which was never changed.

"Qin Yu, can I change to soy milk today? I've been drinking milk for a long time. ”

"Milk is healthier. Qin Yu handed over the milk and smiled.

Rejected again, I stopped trying to convince him and obediently finished the milk.

Qin Yu helped me wipe the milk foam off my lips, and there was doting in my eyes, although it was faint, it couldn't be ignored.

I didn't want to be his canary, I still stayed in the company and I never swiped the card he gave me.

I always want to be independent, to grow stronger, and to hope that one day I can stand by his side, instead of looking up to him forever.

Tomorrow is his birthday, and I've been preparing for it for a long time to surprise him.

Birthdays, of course, start at 12 o'clock sharp, and I want to be the first person to send him a blessing.

After dinner in the evening, I went out to the cake shop to make my own cake.

The moment I closed the door, I heard his phone ringing.

It's also my first time making cakes, so I don't have much experience, and the last time I was so busy was in a chemistry lab in high school.

It's a bakery, the décor is warm, and most of the people who come here are couples.

I think the owner of this shop must be very happy, and I can witness the warm moments of different couples every day.

It was already dark after the cake was made, so I carried it carefully.

Back at the apartment, my smiling face froze and the door was a pair of women's high heels.

I suddenly had a bad premonition in my heart, which may be a woman's sixth sense.

I called Qin Yu, and the bell rang in the house, but it was quickly pressed off, and the other party had refused.

Pushing open the door nervously, I placed the cake on the coffee table and quickly went up to the second floor.

Qin Yu's door was not closed, he sat on the edge of the bed, his eyes were delicate and gentle, and his hand gently stroked the woman's hair.

There were women's clothes on the chair, the room was filled with the smell of alcohol, and he changed her clothes ... Or did you do something else?

"Qin Yu..." I staggered to him with weak legs.

Qin Yu frowned and looked at me unhappily.

The person on the bed muttered, Qin Yu covered the quilt for her, pulled me out of the room, and closed the door.

"Who is she?" Maybe she was just Qin Yu's relative, and she was taken care of by Qin Yu because she was drunk... Or maybe she's just a friend Qin Yu has known since she was a child...

"People I like. Qin Yu looked at me with a frank gaze, "I've liked it since I was a child." ”

But why didn't he even want to lie to me? Obviously, I had already made a million excuses in my mind, and as long as he was willing to explain, I would believe it.

"Downstairs, don't make a noise about her. Qin Yu went straight downstairs, his back was so cold.

Qin Yu sat down, probably feeling that she owed me an explanation, and said, "We have always been childhood sweethearts, and she taught me what heartbeat is." ”

"When I stood next to her in my school uniform in high school, I already imagined what she would look like in her wedding dress and marry me. ”

"On the day of the graduation ceremony, I confessed, and fortunately, she also liked me. Later, we separated for some reason. ”

"The white nightdress you wore that day, it was hers, you looked too much like her, so I..."

"So, I'm just a stand-in for her, right?" I came to this conclusion with a trembling voice.

I really admire my excellent summarization ability at the moment, and my excellent representative of the Chinese class.

I smiled, but I knew that my face was worse than crying at the moment.

The hour and minute hands coincided at twelve o'clock, and Qin Yu's birthday arrived.

I picked up the cake anyway and handed it to him, "Happy birthday." ”

秦钰接过，楼上传来脚步声。

The woman went upstairs bare, wearing a long white dress and black hair that reached her waist.

Qin Yu's attention quickly shifted, the cake was thrown on the ground by him, he walked over quickly, and picked up the woman.

"It's cold at night, don't go barefoot. ”

"Who is she?" the woman noticed me, her face slightly startled, and we looked at each other's faces.

There are indeed three points of similarity, except that her face is more delicate and moving, like a California rose.

And I'm just the moon season born in the wasteland.

"A colleague in the company. Qin Yu put the woman on the sofa and put shoes on her.

It turned out to be just a colleague... It was as if a big hole had been cut open in my heart, and blood was gushing out, and maybe when the blood was dry, it would be when I died.

Picking up the cake that had been thrown on the floor, I went out, and his careful gentleness made my heart ache more than letting me catch the rape in bed with my own eyes.

I don't know how long I walked, but I found a step to sit down, and the cake was broken by him, and I couldn't see the original shape anymore. Those elaborately carved patterns did not get a second of his attention.

I unpacked the cake, and tears fell the moment I took the sweet cake.

Why does such a sweet cake still make my heart so bitter?

It's so bitter, even more bitter than bitter almonds.

I ate bite by bite until tears blurred my vision.

Like a dream, our encounter seemed to be yesterday.

There was a time when I had a bouquet of roses every day, three beautiful meals a day, and a sentence I like you at the end of the day every day...

But the roses are given by the flower shop staff, and the three meals a day are cooked in the restaurant. What he paid for me was the money and language that he lacked the most.

I thought I was in love.

I didn't wait for a text message from him, a phone call... It was like that night when I missed the last train, and I was once again abandoned by the city.

This sudden love was false from the beginning, I am not Yukimi, and I can't become Xiyao.

When the real thing comes back, my fake should be gone.

It's been a week since that night, and my phone is finally vibrating.

Even though I've come to terms with the reality, I can't help but be able to ... Expect a little.

Seeing that it was an unfamiliar number, the candle of hope that had been lit in my heart quickly extinguished.

These days, it's heartache to the point of numbness.

Answering the phone, it was standard Mandarin over there, and Daisy called me back to work.

"I will resign. ”

I had nothing, but he handed me an olive branch. Now, it's just a matter of getting everything back to square one.

As soon as I went out, the dazzling sunlight made me dizzy, and a car sped by, and the memories seemed to coincide.

But this time... The person who got out of the car was not him.

The bracelet on my hand fell off, and he gave it to me.

It is said that I was in a coma for half a year and almost became a vegetative state.

Sitting on the hospital bed, I looked out the window, the sun was shining, the sky was blue and the clouds were white.

I wanted to go out for a walk, so I got out of bed by myself.

The sun shines on the rusty body, and there is a strange feeling. I've been lying in bed for too long, and I'm a little rusty when I even walk.

One accident, I fell to the ground, and a pair of high heels appeared in front of me.

The man reached out and pulled me up.

"Thank you. ”

"You're welcome. It was early spring, and she was wearing a white sweater dress and looking at me intently.

"We... "My head hurts, and my memory has become less clear since I was in a car accident.

"He Wenqi, Qin Yu's girlfriend. ”

It turned out to be her, Qin Yu's... True love.

"Thank you for coming to see me before. "According to the nurse, during my coma, Miss He came to see me almost every day, and stayed in the ward for several hours at a time.

However, this was the first time we had officially met since we woke up.

"You're welcome, if it weren't for Qin Yu... You probably won't have this car accident. ”

"It's me who didn't see the road..."

He Wenqi smiled, as if relieved.

She helped me and walked with me outside the ward, "Anytime you have anything." ”

"If there's anything you want to eat or drink, I'll bring it to you. ”

"Why are you... So good to me. ”

"I think it's also a kind of fate that we look so similar. He Wenqi helped me straighten my broken hair, "If I can, I want to be friends with you." ”

Friend... Is it?

Qin Yu's childhood sweetheart should also be a person as shining as Qin Yu, and he is completely different from me.

But that's the kind of person who said he wanted to be friends with me.

He Wenqi didn't just talk about it, she came to visit me almost every day, every time she brought a hot drink, or fruit, or dessert, but without exception, I liked it.

"How do you know my preferences?"

"As I said, we're very close. He Wenqi lowered her head, I couldn't see her expression clearly, her long black hair was excellent in the sun.

"Thank you. For some reason, I always felt a familiar intimacy in her voice, "I was discharged from the hospital in the afternoon." ”

"So fast, if you don't stay for a while, I'm afraid you won't recover well. ”

To be honest, I didn't know where to go after I was discharged from the hospital, and the only memory I left was the absurd love affair with Qin Yu.

"Strange... Why do you only remember about him..."

"Probably, you really love him. He Wenqi smiled bitterly, as if she was the one who was injured.

"Don't worry, I won't be entangled with him again. I can see that He Wenqi is also in love with Qin Yu.

"You can stay with me if you don't mind. ”

"I... Don't have a home?"

"I heard Qin Yu say that your parents have passed away..."

"Qin Yu, will you mention me too?"

It's a strange feeling, two similar-looking women talking about the same man together.

However, I didn't feel the pain of being deceived, and I don't know if it was because of incomplete memory.

"Well, it's he's sorry for you. ”

He Wenqi is such a friendly person, I think no matter who I am, she will feel sorry for my existence, but she cares about me so much and understands me.

Even, better than I can understand this pain...

After packing up my things, I went to the discharge formalities. The nurse told me that all the expenses during the hospital stay had been paid by the lady next to me.

He Wenqi took my hand and led me to a secluded place, "I should have paid the hospitalization fee." ”

"Why?"

"Ran Yue, I'm sorry, in fact, I was the one who hit you that day. ”

"I'm sorry, I just got my driver's license and I'm not skilled yet. I panicked when I saw someone..."

She looked at me with the guilt in her eyes so real.

"It's okay, you've been taking care of me too, don't blame yourself. "With a background like her, she can obviously settle such a traffic accident with money, and she ignores me.

Seeing her chagrin and shame at the moment, I actually felt cute, which was more touching than her usual generous, decent, gentle and delicate her.

Resemble... Like a child, a child who trembles because he broke a vase.

I subconsciously touched her head, "It's really fine." ”

He Wenqi was stunned for a moment, and then smiled, like a newly graduated college student, young and vivid.

In this way, I moved into He Wenqi's apartment.

Before we knew it, we became friends who talked about everything. When did our friendship begin?

Is it when we are sitting on the couch watching a variety show and laughing, or when we relive the Spirited Away movie together, or when we are quiet and warm.

We are becoming more and more alike, the same style of dressing, the same smell of perfume, even some subconscious little gestures.

"I'm almost the second month. He Wenqi once said this to me, joking tone.

"Yueyue, bring me a plate. ”

"Here we are. "I don't remember anymore, now she's cooking dinner.

When I handed her the plate and she turned back to smile at me, another image suddenly appeared in her head.

Qin Yu hugged me from behind, taught me how to stir-fry by hand, and said with a smile that I was a little fool.

My head hurts a little and my memory seems to be a little garbled.

When I woke up the next day, it was already nine o'clock. There is a document on the dining table, I heard Wenqi say yesterday that this is going to be used today.

I took the papers and went out, and Wenqi told me that she is now Qin Yu's secretary.

Outside the office, my knock on the door paused, and I heard He Wenqi talking to Qin Yu.

"She lives with me now. ”

"She... Are you doing well?"

"She doesn't want to see you. ”

"I know... Then please take care of her. ”

Is she me here? Why is there such a strange conversation?

The door was opened, He Wenqi pushed the door, and was surprised to see me, "Why are you here?"

"I'm here to deliver you papers, you're at home. ”

"Yueyue..."Qin Yu also walked over, his eyes fell on me and never left, his eyes carried too many emotions.

It's so complicated that I can't see through it for a while, but the thoughts in my eyes are obvious...

And when I saw Qin Yu's familiar face, my heart ached, and a voice in my heart told me to stay away from him.

My head was getting a little sore again, and I held my forehead and frowned uncomfortably.

秦钰扶住我，“你没事吧？”

"Don't worry about it. I shook off Qin Yu's hand, this kind of resistance to him was so great that I was surprised.

Even if the memory is not remembered, the body's stress response is still there.

Qin Yu let go of me and played a concerto of loneliness and injury.

I subconsciously went to look at He Wenqi, and her bitter smile was exactly the same as that day in the ward.

I don't understand it anymore...

"Yueyue, otherwise you can go back and rest first. He Wenqi held my hand, her face full of concern.

"Good. ”

He Wenqi sent me downstairs, "You... Do you remember something?"

"No," I sighed, and every time I tried to remember, I had a splitting headache.

"Then I'll go back to work first, be careful on the road. ”

"Good. ”

After Wenqi left, I didn't wait for a taxi, but it was Qin Yu who waited.

"I'll send you back. ”

"Unnecessary."

"I promise, this is the last time I'll see you. Seeing Qin Yu's pleading eyes, I was a little soft-hearted.

Sitting in the co-pilot, I turned down the gentleman he buckled for me.

Without saying anything all the way, Qin Yu concentrated on driving, steady and slow.

"If only this red light could be a little longer. Qin Yu looked at me, a little stunned.

"As soon as the green light comes on, we should part. "I'm alluding to that relationship with him.

It wasn't until the car behind honked the horn that Qin Yu continued to move forward, "A few more seconds is also good." ”

The car stopped downstairs, and I got out of the car without saying goodbye to him.

I didn't expect that he would suddenly hug me from behind, followed by a long sigh.

"I've been missing you for half a year. ”

"Don't you think you're ridiculous, and since Wenqi is back, cherish it. ”

"What does it have to do with her?"

"Isn't it because of her that you and I started?" I broke free of him and walked back into the building without looking back.

Maybe I should remind Wenqi that Qin Yu is not an ideal boyfriend.

Neither the act of finding a stand-in, nor the current entanglement with me, deserves to be forgiven.

Using love as an excuse to hurt two women at the same time, I really can't agree with this approach.

When Wenqi returned to the apartment, her eyes were red, as if she had just cried.

"What's wrong?" I intuitively had something to do with Qin Yu.

"I broke up with Qin Yu. ”

And then there was a long silence, they broke up, was it because of me?

Not good at comforting people, I just took her hand.

Wenqi hugged me, leaned on my shoulder and cried, "Perhaps, what you can't get is the best." ”

"It's okay, Wenqi, you're so good, there must be a better choice. I patted her on the back, feeling a little guilty.

He Wenqi didn't go to Qin Yu's company again, she began to return late, and she was drunk and unconscious again and again.

She was dragged down the abyss by Qin Yu, and the stars in the sky finally turned into flowers in the mirror.

This lasted for half a month, until one morning, she said to me, "Yueyue, come with me shopping." ”

Naturally, I agreed, and it was rare for her to be interested.

Presumably it was the shopping that would make the woman relax, she bought a lot, and eventually we stopped at a fashion store.

When our hands touched the same white dress together, He Wenqi looked at me with sadness in her eyes.

"Yueyue, why do you have to like what I like? Qin Yu too. ”

I retracted my hand, yes, why would I like this white dress, obviously... It's just because Qin Yu likes it.

Why am I really in love with white dresses now?

"No, I prefer this one. "For the first time, I lied in front of Wenqi and pointed to a khaki dress.

"It's okay, if Yueyue likes it, then I'll quit. He Wenqi was laughing, but tears fell.

"You say, if I die the year he loves me the most, will he remember me forever?"

"Wenqi..."I was scared, she really couldn't think about it.

"It's okay, let's go. She wiped away her tears, took my arm and left.

That night, I had insomnia.

Leaving a letter, I left the apartment at dawn.

I thought, maybe leaving the city would be the best option.

Finally settled in Suzhou, passing by a coffee shop with a chic decoration.

Walking in, there was a piano there, and I couldn't help but walk over.

The breeze, the aroma of coffee, the sound of the piano, all of this makes me feel comfortable.

Someone next to me applauded, and I tilted my head to see appreciative glances.

"Your sound is beautiful. ”

"Your Mandarin jumps like a fairy. I couldn't help but laugh, his tone was funny.

God apparently took more care into his appearance, his amber eyes shining in the sun.

"I'm the owner of this coffee shop, and you're welcome to come often. "I think he must have opened the store not for a livelihood, but for feelings.

"I would venture to ask, is this one who lacks the piano?" I learned to speak in his strange tone, and my heavy heart relaxed after many days.

"Of course, my beautiful worker. ”

It's a joy to get a job.

The owner's name is Zhou Chong, and he is a strange but charming person. There is no regular opening time, it is entirely based on his wake-up time.

Still, business is good.

At five o'clock in the afternoon, Zhou Chong was about to close. As a matter of fact..... The closing time is also up to him.

"Is it really good to close the store so early?"

"If I'm hungry, I'm in a bad mood, if I'm in a bad mood, I can't make delicious coffee, and if the coffee is not good, the guests will be in a bad mood, and the guests..."

"Stop. I doubted that Zhou Chong could keep talking, so I directly blocked his mouth with my hand.

"Don't swear such a poisonous oath. Zhou Chongjiao glanced at me with disgust, as if the heroine of an idol drama was on her body.

I laughed and got to his point. In idol dramas, the male protagonist will always swear to prove his innocence, and then the female protagonist will seal her lips with her hands in distress.

"Let's go, the boss invites you to a big dinner!"

As soon as they were cleaned up, a group of people walked in.

"Bring your signature coffee. ”

"Guest officer, it's closed today. ”

"The guest officer said no, Lao Tzu came all the way to check in here, and you close at five o'clock?" The young man was not good, and he had a tattoo on his neck, which looked difficult to deal with.

I'm a little nervous... You won't meet people who find faults.

"Next time, definitely. Zhou Chong was not in a panic, and looked leisurely.

"You must be a big-headed ghost. The young man walked over menacingly.

Could it be... It's going to be a fight.

I took out my phone and prepared to call the police, and I would dial it whenever something was wrong.

The young man hugged Zhou Chong and laughed, "You kid." ”

"Is this?" I didn't turn my head around.

"These are all my good buddies, the kind of thieves who are unreliable. ”

"I'm scared of my sister-in-law, my sister-in-law will call 110 if I continue to perform. ”

I turned off my phone in embarrassment.

"Don't call me sister-in-law, I'm just his employee. ”

"I saw you flirting outside the store just now. ”

"That's not..."

"She plays the piano in my shop. Zhou Chong explained lightly.

"Yo, office romance. ”

"It's also a coffee shop romance. ”

Zhou Chong's brother coaxed, and the person shrugged indifferently, "Let's go, please have a big meal." ”

"What kind of meal is it, Boss Zhou is not allowed to cook in person?"

"How convenient is it to eat out, and you want me to cook?"

"Doesn't that smell of homesickness?"

In this way, we went to Zhou Chong's house together.

"Ran Yue honey, come and help me. Zhou Chong pulled me into the kitchen.

"I won't. ”

"I won't either, it's okay, no + no = very no. ”

"Forget it..."I just think he's modest, but I'm really not talented in cooking.

"Count overtime! You can bear to refuse such a beautiful boss?"

"Okay..."

I never expected that Zhou Chong's wouldn't and really wouldn't.

"Are you shredded potatoes or potato wedges?"

"Why do you add vinegar to your eggs?"

"Can strawberries and cucumbers be fried together?"

"Zhou Chong, hurry up, help me turn off the fire. ”

"It's mushy, put the water out. ”

Pots and pans crackling, oil, salt, sauce and vinegar are flying...

"You two are really a perfect match, I don't know if I think it's in Syria. His friends laughed.

"Okay, I knew that Brother Chong couldn't do it, and the takeout was ordered. ”

"They, they just want to have fun watching me cook as a play. Zhou Chong explained.

"These... It's time to go in the trash. ”

Zhou Chong picked up a piece of burnt pork ribs, ate it without changing color, and chewed it carefully.

"It's really my staff's work, it's really unpalatable, and I really know it. Zhou Chong gave me a thumbs up.

...... Is there such a boast?

After a while, the takeaway arrived.

Like Zhou Chong, his friends are humorous and funny, and they are also very good at making noise.

In the middle of the night, I was already a little tired, but they were still in the mood, and I couldn't interrupt.

Leaning back on the couch, I fell asleep unconsciously.

The next day, I woke up in bed. On the floor under the bed, Zhou Chong, who was still asleep, lay down.

I tried to open the door, but I couldn't.

It was probably this movement that woke up Zhou Chong, and he rubbed his sleepy eyes and sat up, "The door is locked by those puppies, don't bother." ”

"Why am I here?"

"Seeing that you fell asleep last night, I, a snail girl, sent you to my room, but I didn't expect those seven dwarfs to lock me directly inside. ”

"Thank you. "I'm no longer fazed by his magical metaphors.

"You're welcome, my dear Sleeping Beauty. Zhou Chong threw a wink at me.

I replied to him with a wink, "Okay, my beloved Prince of the Beasts. ”

This time Zhou Chong didn't smile, he suddenly blushed and fanned the wind with his hand, "Why is it so hot in this room." ”

"When will the door open?"

"Wait for them to wake up, I drank yesterday, I guess it will take a while. ”

Knowing that I wouldn't be able to get out for a while, I walked around the room.

On the bedside table is a picture of a smiling bright little boy.

"Is this when you were a kid?"

"Yes, how is it, is it from handsome to big?" After getting along for a while, I found that Zhou Chong was not only narcissistic, but also narcissistic.

"You were so honest and cute when you were a child, and you didn't look like it is now. ”

"It's called a frog becoming a prince. Zhou Chong's laughter came from his chest, "Then what did you look like when you were a child?"

"I... I don't know. ”

"Could it be that you jumped out of a crack in the rock?"

"It's pretty much the same, I've lost almost all my memories..."

Zhou Chong thought slightly, "I heard that getting along with familiar people in a familiar environment will stimulate memory. ”

"My friend knows a doctor in this area, so I'll ask and get in touch with you. ”

"Good. ”

The mood sank again, the evasion was only temporary, and when I thought of Wenqi and Qin Yu, I felt a little uncomfortable.

6.

It was a rainy day, and the sky was a little overcast.

"Let's close early today. There were not many guests, Zhou Chongbai yawned boredly, "Don't play the piano, come and talk to your grandfather." ”

"Add money. ”

"Little money fans. "Zhou Chong gave me a beautiful white eye.

I didn't laugh.

"Don't pretend to be profound. Zhou Chong flicked my head.

"A glass of mocha. I turned my head and slid into the ink pupils that looked like night swamps.

Qin Yu: Why did he come to Suzhou?

"Okay, please wait. Zhou Chong smiled, "You are the last customer of our store today." ”

"I've changed my mind and I'm going to have all the coffee and desserts on your menu. ”

"Landlord, it's not a good waste like this. Zhou Chong restrained his smile.

"The market is the basic principle of free exchange. I frowned, Qin Yu obviously didn't mean to drink, he just wanted to make trouble.

"Believe it or not," Qin Yu put it to my ear, the smile on his lips confident and contemptuous, "I have a hundred ways to make this coffee shop go out of business." ”

The voice he whispered in my ear was so magnetic and yet so disgusting to me.

It's really strange, I said that I would never see each other again, and I still looked hurt and infatuated, but now I turned into a demon like a split personality.

"Boss, it's time to close. ”

"Something to call. There was worry in Zhou Chong's eyes.

I followed Qin Yu out of the coffee shop, he held up his umbrella, and the umbrella tilted towards me.

"Not necessarily. "I didn't want to share an umbrella with him, it made me uncomfortable at such a close distance.

Qin Yu seemed to be angered by me, shoved the umbrella into my hand, and walked forward in the rain, "Follow me." ”

He pulled the car out of the parking lot and let me get in.

"Where are you going?"

"Back to Shanghai. ”

"You're crazy? I'm not going to go back with you. ”

"It's okay to stay in Suzhou, I think Suzhou is very good, and it's okay to open a branch. ”

"Can you not pester me? Are you worthy of He Wenqi like this?"

At the mention of He Wenqi, Qin Yu's face became a little ugly, and his hands on the steering wheel were slightly tense.

"Whether you love me or not, I won't let you go. ”

This man is really domineering, I am a little angry, but I don't know what to do for a while.

He drove the car to the house I rented.

"You don't have to send me back. "I'm not surprised at all that he knows I live here.

"Miss Lin is afraid that she is thinking too much, and I live here too. "Qin Yu followed me upstairs, and even stopped in front of the same door as me.

"You live here too?" I had a bad feeling in my heart.

Qin Yu didn't speak, just looked at me, and didn't mean to go in.

I opened the door with the key, and he didn't follow up.

Closing the door, I breathed a sigh of relief. I share this house with an older sister.

At this time, all the things that belonged to the young lady in the common living room were gone.

There were even several documents on the coffee table, obviously Qin Yu's.

At this time, the sound of the key turning was particularly obvious, and Qin Yu walked in slowly, "Surprise!"

"Don't make the idea of moving, you know, it doesn't matter where you move. The corners of Qin Yu's mouth rose, and everything was under his control.

I ignored him and went back to my room and locked the door.

"Zhou Chong, I have to resign, I'm sorry. "I called him, not wanting to get him into trouble because of me.

"Little sweetheart, if you don't play the piano, my coffee shop business will decline. ”

"I'm really sorry, but I really have to quit. ”

"Okay. There was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, and Zhou Chong suddenly spoke very seriously, "If you need help, you must contact me." ”

Hanging up the phone, I sat at the head of the bed and pondered, what exactly should I do to get rid of Qin Yu.

I turned on the music on my phone and randomly played a song of Eason Chan's Red Rose for me.

"What you can't get is always in turmoil. ”

I suddenly had an idea, whether it is He Wenqi or me now, Qin Yu may be full of interest because he can't get it.

I walked to the living room, Qin Yu was smoking, and the smoke made his face hazy.

At this time, he actually had a faint sorrow.

When he saw me coming, he took out his cigarette, got up and opened the window.

"I'll go back to Shanghai with you. I spoke.

Qin Yu and I looked at each other, obviously not expecting that I would agree to him like this.

"I've thought about it, there's nothing wrong with following you without worrying about food and clothing. I gritted my teeth and took the initiative to hug his waist.

It's a feeling so familiar, maybe I've hugged him like this countless times.

Even though he smelled of tobacco that I didn't like.

Qin Yu pushed me away and sat on the sofa.

"Don't worry, stay in Suzhou for a few days. ”

"Why?"

"I haven't been with you yet. At this time, his voice stopped abruptly, "The scenery of Suzhou is good. ”

"It's okay, I'll go back to my room first. ”

"Stay here. Qin Yu's tone was commanding.

I didn't like it, but I sat obediently, but fortunately he didn't do anything, just read the papers quietly.

I don't think it's any different from the chandelier in the living room.

He worked a lot, and I leaned back on the couch and fell asleep in a daze, but not deeply, and I could faintly hear him turning the pages.

After a while, I was picked up, and I wanted to open my eyes, but I was very tired.

The door of the room was opened, and I still struggled to open my eyes, and Qin Yu Junyi's face was expressionless.

When he saw that I was awake, he threw me directly on the bed and walked out without looking back.

In the next few days, Qin Yu seemed to be really traveling in Suzhou, taking me around various scenic spots.

It's a pity that it's only early spring, with only green shoots, and the chill of midwinter hasn't completely dissipated.

"Do you want to take a picture?"

"What?"

"Look at the camera. Qin Yu held the camera at us, and I subconsciously leaned on Qin Yu's shoulder and smiled.

This knee-jerk movement made me wonder.

Is the memory between me and Qin Yu really complete? Even the only remaining memory seems to be just an outline.

"Let's take a few more shots. The corners of Qin Yu's mouth raised a small arc.

It's just that the next thing I did in front of the camera was just a professional smirk, and he had a look of disappointment on his face.

That's when my phone rang.

I'm connected, it's Zhou Chong.

"Ran Yue honey, I cleaned up the room today and found that your hairpin fell on me. ”

"It's okay, let you go. ”

"A token of love?"

I was about to answer, but Qin Yu forcibly hung up the phone.

"Go back. The displeasure in his eyes was obvious, and he had lost the interest in continuing to play.

"Good. ”

"Hold me. There was really no tenderness in his words, but his hands were not warm.

My cool hand was clenched very tightly by him, and he took me down the mountain, in fact, he was wearing sportswear today with a lot less pressure.

I have to go back to Shanghai tomorrow, today is my last day in Suzhou, and I have some regrets that I haven't said goodbye to Zhou Chong yet.

Probably a little sweaty after climbing the mountain, Qin Yu went to take a bath as soon as he got home.

I hesitated for a moment and decided to say goodbye to Zhou Chong.

"Qin Yu, I'll go to the supermarket to buy groceries. "It just hasn't eaten yet, which is a good excuse.

Qin Yu let out a faint sound from the bathroom.

I made an appointment with Zhou Chong to meet at the coffee shop.

"Ran Yue Honey, how about teaching you how to make a cake today?"

"Good. ”

"It's a farewell gift. Zhou Chong was still smiling, but the smile did not reach the bottom of his eyes.

"Why cake?"

"Because today is our anniversary. ”

"How can there be a separate anniversary?" I couldn't help laughing, but it was more of a pity, if it wasn't for Qin Yu, Zhou Chong and I would have become very good friends.

"Alright, let's start our work. ”

"Man, squeeze the cream. ”

"Why do I feel bad?"

"I'll teach you, you beautiful little fool. "Zhou Chong wrapped around me from behind and taught me hand in hand.

"Why is it that your hands can make delicious coffee and make beautiful cakes, but they make a mess in the kitchen. ”

"Probably because I'm afraid I'll be jealous of being too perfect. Zhou Chong shrugged his shoulders and suddenly had an idea, "Why don't we get creative?"

"Like a yogurt over this cake?"

"Add some Oreo crumbles?"

"Isn't daisies trending lately? Daisies don't, I remember there is chrysanthemum tea in the store..."

"Actually, it's not bad to put a pickled pepper phoenix claw on the cake. ”

............

There was laughter, and our faces were smeared with a lot of cream.

"Alright, it's almost time to go back. ”

"Happy times are always so short. The breath of separation became stronger, and Zhou Chong took advantage of my unpreparedness and took a bite of the cream on my face.

"Master rewarded you with a kiss. Zhou Chong smiled, but his face was as pink as a peach.

"It's a pity that I can't be polite. ”

"Actually, you know, I don't want to return the card, I just want to find a chance to see you again. For the first time, Zhou Chong didn't speak in an exaggerated tone, and his amber eyes were full of loneliness.

"See you next time. I smiled and didn't answer, although Zhou Chong looked very "wild", but he was unexpectedly simple, and I couldn't see his feelings.

It's just that I, a person who doesn't even have an incomplete memory, how can I face this feeling.

"I'll send you back. Zhou Chong drove the car, and the lively person was silent for the first time.

Soon arrived, and he gentlemanly opened the door for me.

"Embrace me, an abandoned widow and left-behind old man. "Zhou Chong pitifully sold cuteness to me.

I nodded and hugged him gently.

This hug was only for a few seconds.

"See you next time, say yes. ”

I went upstairs, a little stunned.

When I opened the door, Qin Yu was sitting on the sofa in her pajamas, staring at me all the time.

"Where's the food you bought?"

"I... Actually, I went to say goodbye to Zhou Chong. "I know, lying doesn't help.

Even, the hug downstairs just now may have been seen by Qin Yu.

"I don't like other men hugging you. The possessiveness in Qin Yu's eyes was so strong.

He approached me step by step, my chest tightened, and I wanted to back away, but I didn't move like a rabbit illuminated by the headlights of a car.

He pressed me against the wall and kissed me roughly, with a morbid persistence in his eyes.

"Isn't it good to be an obedient shadow?"

"He Wenqi is back, why don't you let go of my shadow. ”

"That means that your shadow has done a very successful job, even surpassing the original owner. ”

Qin Yu let go of me, and he has calmed down a lot.

In fact, this kiss was just a few seconds, and he was very strange and didn't seem to want to force me very much.

The stomach made an inopportune scream, and I was sure that it was so loud that Qin Yu could hear it.

"Hungry?"

"I'll just order takeout. ”

"Takeaway is not healthy. Qin Yu added, "It just so happens that I'm hungry too." ”

"There were still dishes in the fridge to make your own. Qin Yu opened the refrigerator door, and the ingredients inside were readily available.

So, he knew I was panicking.

"I won't..." remembered the tragic scene with Zhou Chong in the kitchen, and I had palpitations.

"Help me put on my apron. ”

It seems that Qin Yu is going to cook himself.

I sat on the couch. Looking at Qin Yu, who did it, there was a sense of familiarity.

"Don't be a picky eater, eat greens too. ”

The fragments of memory flashed by, this sentence, did Qin Yu say it to me?

Soon, Qin Yu made a few simple dishes.

The taste is actually not bad, I am even more puzzled, why does Qin Yu look like he often cooks?

Just as I was thinking, a few slices of greens fell into my bowl, "I don't like it, help me solve it." ”

I... I don't like it either.

7.

When I returned to Shanghai, Qin Yu still asked me to live with him.

When I returned to his apartment again, I was surprised to find that the house was decorated in the style I liked.

"Your room is on the second floor. "This room is obviously well cared for.

There is a row of women's dresses in the closet, all of which are my size, and all of them are my favorites.

"This used to be Wenqi's room. Qin Yu stood at the door, with a faint tone.

"Don't you think... Are you feeling a little nauseous?" I took out the clothes and put them in my storage bag.

Qin Yu opened his mouth, but in the end he didn't say anything.

But one thing that finally made me feel comfortable, he was always behaving and most of the time he just asked me to be there for him.

In addition to lunch, Qin Yu has always cooked and eaten with me.

It was the first time, and he hadn't returned at eight o'clock in the evening. I was a little hungry and went out by myself.

I chose a fast food restaurant at random, and there were a lot of people in the store, but I saw He Wenqi at a glance.

She is no longer the glamorous she used to be, wearing a simple coat, a pair of canvas shoes and even stained with mud.

"Wenqi. ”

She was slightly surprised to see me, but she still smiled and walked over.

We ate at the same table, and she looked a little haggard.

"Have you been having a bad time lately?"

"Hmm. He Wenqi nodded and smiled bitterly, "I'm almost sleeping on the streets." ”

I knew it was not appropriate to ask more questions at this time, so I did not delve into the reason.

"I found a lot of your clothes in Qin Yu's house last time, if you need it..."

The clothes are still very new, and they are all brands, whether they are second-hand resold or worn by yourself, they are a good choice.

He Wenqi looked at me and asked with a smile, "Is this really my clothes?"

"Qin Yu said, that's your room. ”

At this time, He Wenqi suddenly laughed, "He really loves you." ”

"What do you mean?" I always felt that there was a mystery in Wenqi's words, and I seemed to have grasped something at once, and I didn't seem to have grasped anything.

"I can't say much about you. He Wenqi held my hand, "Are you feeling well lately?" ”

Although her hands are fair, they do not have the tenderness of pampering.

"I'm fine. I subconsciously retracted my hand, and I always felt that He Wenqi was weird at this time.

After a few bites, I went back to the apartment, and Qin Yu had already come back at this time, looking a little tired.

"Who are you going to see?"

"He Wenqi. "I observed Qin Yu's reaction and found that he was a little flustered.

"She didn't tell you anything, did she?"

"No, but she doesn't seem to be doing well. ”

"I don't like to see her less. His tone turned cold again.

On the dining table, there is a freshly prepared meal.

"I've eaten it. Dumping the food into the trash, I looked at Qin Yu expressionlessly.

I'm like... I've done this before.

He wasn't angry, but his brow furrowed.

"You—" Just then, the light in the living room suddenly flashed.

In a trance, I seemed to see a bloodless face, and the cold light shone on the man's face, and my heart twitched.

This man... Who is it?

I had a terrible headache, and the air in my lungs seemed to condense, so I had to crouch on the ground and gasp for air.

In the dark, Qin Yu hugged me. His arms have a reassuringly familiar scent.

"Don't be afraid, Yueyue, it won't be dark in a while. He soothed me, gently.

He led me up to the second floor, and in my room, the lights were on.

He is my salvation in this night.

When I woke up the next day, Qin Yu actually fell asleep on the side of my bed. This is... Did you keep me all night?

"Qin Yu, it's time to go to work. "Look at my watch, it's half past seven.

He didn't sleep deeply, and almost immediately answered the hello.

"The company will be busy, you come with me. ”

"Why?"

"I'm afraid you'll run. His dark eyes looked at me, and the dark circles under his eyes were a little heavy.

"Good. I agreed, "But give me half a day, I want to go to the hospital." ”

Qin Yu was stunned, revealing a helpless and complicated look, "I'll send you there on Saturday." ”

A few days before I went to the hospital, Qin Yu and I were together almost all the time.

Even the nights when he thought I was asleep, he would come into my room and sit for a while.

It's like, never to see each other again.

This night, he came again.

Qin Yu stroked my hair and sighed faintly.

"When you're around me, even the air I want to take a few more puffs greedily. ”

"Will you stay in this city after you are gone? I thought it would be good to be able to see the same bright moon as you, and to blow through the evening breeze that you have blown. ”

"This kind of day and night with you was stolen by me. ”

A warm kiss fell on his forehead, and Qin Yu sat down for a while before leaving the room.

The next day, Saturday.

The breakfast on this day was extremely rich, like the last meal of a condemned prisoner.

Although delicious, it is difficult to swallow.

I had a vague feeling that I was about to lose something.

"I'm not going to send you in. "Qin Yu sent me to the hospital.

I got out of the car and glanced back at him, colliding with his lonely gaze.

He hurriedly got out of the car, "I can... Would you like a hug?"

"Good. ”

Qin Yu hugged me, very tightly. He didn't let go until I pushed him.

I don't understand, it's not a dead farewell, why is it so sad.

In fact, I went to the hospital today mainly to ask the doctor to help me get my memory back.

But recovering memories is not so easy, and it also depends on individual circumstances. Some people recover quickly, while others never remember it for the rest of their lives.

The doctor prescribed me medication and told me that I could do rehabilitation physiotherapy.

Just as I was about to leave the hospital, a patient was pushed forward, and the family members chasing after me were full of sadness.

I watched as the patient was wheeled into the emergency room, and the lights came on violently during the operation.

At that moment, the man's pale face instantly appeared in my mind, and I couldn't breathe anymore.

Holding on to the wall to catch his breath, memories flooding up.

8.

"Mom, what are you doing?"

"I heard that a new neighbor was coming today, so I made some dessert and gave it to them. ”

"Will there be new friends?"

"Yes. "Mom touched my head.

When I heard the sound of the car, I ran out of the door, expecting that this was the new neighbor my mother was talking about.

The car door was opened, and the teenager was wearing an inky sweater, better looking than all the boys I had ever seen.

"Brother, my name is Lin Ranyue, and I am your neighbor. ”

There was confusion in those inky eyes, as if they were not accustomed to my enthusiasm.

"Brother, I'll help you get something. I saw that he was holding a shopping bag in his hand, so I took another handle, "You half, I half, so that I don't get tired." ”

That year, when I was ten years old, I met a very good-looking brother named Qin Yu, and I wanted him to be my new friend.

"Brother, look at my new paintings, do they look good?"

"Brother, please eat marshmallows, it's sweet. ”

"Brother, fly a kite with me!"

Qin Yu slowly began to get close to me, and the person who didn't talk much gradually became cheerful.

When I was a freshman in high school, he was already a freshman.

After school on Friday, I saw Qin Yu and her classmates in a coffee shop.

They eat sweets at the store and do their homework at the same time, which is a completely different way of life than in high school.

I noticed that my pretty sister had curly hair, delicate makeup, and a nice dress.

And I, wearing a school uniform, always have little white shoes under my feet.

For the first time, he had a sense of distance from Qin Yu.

When I was about to leave, Qin Yu saw me, "Yueyue." ”

He walked out, and the beautiful sister followed him out with a book in her arms.

Qin Yu touched my head, "Let's go home together?"

"Is this your sister?" the pretty sister looked at me with a kind smile on her face.

"Hmm. ”

"It's so cute. ”

In fact, at this time, I would like to hear her praise me for being beautiful. Cute, which means not so pretty.

"Sloppy ghost. Qin Yu smiled helplessly and squatted down to help me tie my shoes.

I looked at my beautiful sister's mid-heeled sandals, and suddenly I thought that the little white shoes were also very good.

That day, I suddenly realized that other people of the opposite sex around Qin Yu would make me feel uncomfortable.

My homework is not good, and Qin Yu often helps me make up for it. Every hand-to-hand touch, the smile in his eyes when he tapped the tip of my nose, made me feel very excited.

The girl's heart is gentle, but she can't hide it.

Finally, the college entrance examination was over, and he was the first person I hugged when I walked out of the examination room.

"Yueyue has finally grown up. Qin Yu looked at me, and my appearance was reflected in those charming inky pupils, "It's time to fall in love." ”

My face is very red, it turns out that Qin Yu has always liked me.

He held my hand, and although it was a little hot in June, and our palms were sweaty, neither of us was reluctant to let go.

We are together as a matter of course, with the blessing of both parents, and the relationship has been very stable.

In my sophomore year, we separated, and I applied for an exchange abroad.

To be precise, it's our end, the childhood sweethearts Yueyue and Qin Yu, and there is no more.

A tear slipped down the hospital seat. I remembered it all, I was never that stand-in.

The lyrics of Red Rose, those who can't get it are always in turmoil, but the next sentence is favored and has no fear.

I've always felt that memory is very strange, it's more like a familiar script than a memory, but the protagonists of the script have been replaced by me and Qin Yu.

Today is April 20.

adjusted my state and walked out of the hospital, Qin Yu was still waiting for me.

I think he was sad because he also knew that I was about to remember my lost memories.

As for why he lied, and why he cooperated with that false memory, I don't want to delve into it now.

"Qin Yu, I want to fly a kite. ”

"What?"

"I want to fly a kite, just like I did when I was a kid. ”

"You remembered?" Qin Yu was a little surprised, and then showed a heavy look.

"Hmm. ”

"Okay, I'll take you to kite flying. ”

On the lawn of the park, I naturally grabbed his arm, and my eyes were bent into a crescent moon.

With him by his side, even the air wants to take a few more breaths greedily.

We ran against the wind, the sun kissed our cheeks, and everything was so beautiful.

Qin Yu helped me wipe my sweat, but I rubbed the sweat on his face.

He smiled helplessly, no longer hiding the pampering in his eyes.

"Go home. ”

"Good. ”

"I want to walk back, can I?"

"Good. ”

We interlocked our fingers and walked slowly in the direction of home.

I suddenly remembered that Qin Yu, who sent me back after the car accident, told me that it would be nice if this red light could be longer.

yes, if only the way back to the apartment had been longer.

"Go to the supermarket and buy some groceries. ”

"Good. ”

We pushed the cart and walked around the supermarket like a normal couple, and I watched many housewives pick and choose in front of the vegetable section, and this is what life looks like.

When I was picking vegetables, Qin Yu picked up his phone and asked me to look at the camera, and I smiled.

It's not the lens that's looking, it's Qin Yu.

When I went out of the supermarket, there was already a sunset, and who could see the sun's affection at dusk.

It's a pity that such a good sunset can no longer be seen.

"Qin Yu, teach me to cook again today. ”

"Good. ”

"I'll wash the vegetables, cold water and freeze my hands. ”

"I'll cut it anyway, watch your hands. ”

"I'll put the oil out, stay away. ”

I was helpless, "You've done it all, what am I doing?"

Qin Yu handed me the spatula, "Then leave it to Chef Yueyue." ”

He wrapped his arms around me from behind, his hands covering my hands, and taught me hand by hand.

The first time Qin Yu taught me how to cook was April 20.

At that time, my father was sick and was undergoing surgery. I want to cook it myself so that he can wake up and eat the food I made.

Bringing the food to the table, I took out the thermos box and was about to put it on, when I suddenly received a call from my mother.

My father had a medical accident and was being resuscitated. It was originally just a routine operation, but because of the mistake of the surgeon, he was bleeding profusely and was worried about his life.

The chief surgeon is Qin Yu's father.

I knew that this had nothing to do with Qin Yu, but I still blamed him together.

In front of him, I dumped all the prepared dishes into the trash.

"Get me to the hospital, quick. ”

After getting out of the car, I ran all the way, and in front of the door of the emergency room, my mother cried into tears.

Uncle Qin stood aside with a look of chagrin, and he was extremely vicissitudes.

During the operation, the lights went out violently, and my heart seemed to go out with it, and my heart was beating hard.

The father came out, covered with a white cloth.

The mother lifted the white cloth with trembling hands, and a miserable white face was exposed to the light.

The other day, my father, who was looking at me with a loving face, turned into a cold corpse.

I looked at Qin Yu, who stood motionless like a petrified person.

Then came the funeral, and although my mother and I were physically and mentally exhausted, there were so many things that we didn't have a chance to stop and grieve in.

Everything was taken care of, and the emaciated mother fell ill.

Misfortune is not a single line, she has cancer.

The reason why I applied to go abroad as an exchange student was because the medical conditions abroad were better.

The day before I went to the airport, Qin Yu knelt in front of my house.

I wore filial piety and opened the door with a blank face.

"Yueyue, don't go abroad. ”

"Since you're here, then I'll officially propose to you to break up. ”

Qin Yu's lips opened and closed, but he couldn't say a word.

That night, there was a thunderstorm, and the apartment lost power due to a damaged electrical circuit.

The moment the lights went out, I saw the pale face again.

My heart throbbed, and I sat on my knees, almost out of breath.

"Yueyue, what's wrong?"

"Light, I want light. "Ever since my father passed away, I have had a legacy of it. For the first few days, I couldn't even turn off the lights and fall asleep. As soon as I suddenly fell into darkness, I felt like I couldn't breathe.

Qin Yu left and rushed into the rain.

When I came back, he brought a lot of LED lights, and the colored lights illuminated the living room, and my suffocation was slightly relieved.

Qin Yu was drenched all over and panted heavily.

"Yueyue, don't be afraid, I've been there. "He hugged me, and he was wet and hot.

I pushed him away, my voice hoarse, "Get out." ”

"I'm sorry..."

"Don't see you again, my father-killer. "I closed the door and tried to look aloof.

In the heartache of ten thousand ants, I can't tell whether it is because of my father's death a little more, or because of the pain of being fated to Qin Yu a little more.

We didn't see each other after that night.

After five years, when I returned to Shanghai again, it was because of the company's business trip.

I was drunk with the client, and it was Qin Yu who took me back to his apartment.

That night, I did meet He Wenqi, a woman who was three points similar to me.

And then it was the car accident.

If there is really a stand-in, that stand-in is also He Wenqi. But it doesn't matter what it is.

After making a few simple dishes, I looked at Qin Yu and couldn't help crying, "I really don't have the talent to cook." ”

"It's like there are too many separations between you and me, and we are destined to be unable to love each other. ”

In fact, what is more tragic than death is life and separation.

"One last hug, and we're separated. "As I said at the beginning, when the green light comes on, we should separate.

We hugged, and this time the hug was very light and light.

The corners of Qin Yu's eyes were red, "In the end, I still couldn't keep you." ”

"Goodbye. ”

"Hmm. He turned around, unwilling to watch me go.

For the rest of your life, I only wish you peace.

9.

"Ran Yue honey, guess where I am?" On the other end of the phone, Zhou Chong's voice was still full of vitality.

"Downstairs in my house. ”

"That's right! at the airport a few meters downstairs from your house. ”

"Why did you suddenly come to Shanghai?"

"You come first, other children have someone to pick you up. ”

I had no choice but to put on my coat and go out to pick him up.

"Our Ran Yue Honey's taste is really unique!" Zhou Chong looked at the tricycle and fell into deep thought.

"With such good long legs, you use it to pedal three wheels?"

"Sanwa, you big-headed ghost, be sober, this one next to you is. ”

"You're talking about this motorcycle that looks like it's leaking?"

"It's this car. "I'll open the car door," Boss Zhou asked. ”

"יהוה, יהוה. ”

"It's a long story, I'll drop you off at the hotel now. ”

"Then it's troublesome Mr. Lin. ”

"So, why did you suddenly come to Shanghai?"

"Of course, I came to see you as an unconscionable employee, and by the way, I gave myself a vacation. ”

"Okay, I'll take you to have a good time for a few days and book a hotel in advance, right?"

"What hotel to stay in, I want to stay in a homestay. ”

Later, I found out that the homestay he said was my home.

"I've never seen someone so brazen. ”

"Chasing his wife is unreasonable-Zhou Chong came to the door. He sat on the couch and looked at me.

"Zhou Chong, I have someone I like, someone I have liked for many years. ”

"Even though it's impossible for me to be with him anymore, I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to love again. I looked at him, honestly serious.

"Master, I am beautiful in my prosperous life, and I am guaranteed to fascinate you. Zhou Chongman didn't care, and said, "It's not that we can't get married first and then love." ”

"Don't be poor. ”

"Even if you can't like me, that's okay, it's enough for me to like you. Zhou Chong's expression suddenly became serious, no longer a hippie smile, and there was a little tenderness in his amber eyes.

"Zhou Chong, I am very happy to be with you. ”

"Then do you want to be happy for the rest of your life? ”

"So how long are you going to stay here? "Zhou Chong has been in Shanghai for a week.

"I forgot to tell us Ran Yuehoney, I have closed the coffee shop in Suzhou. I will go to whichever city you want to go. ”

"But isn't your home over there?"

"Unless I start a family with you, I don't have a home. ”

I still chose to stay in Shanghai, and every day with Zhou Chong was dull but really happy.

We often go to volunteer and there are a lot of children there, we play together, laugh together, and heal each other.

On this day, there were a lot of people on the lawn, and I went to join in the fun.

The children held hands and sang together:

White wedding hand, holding flowers, beautiful like a fairy tale...

A man walks up to the girl with a bouquet of roses and gets down on one knee.

The girl took the flower, her face full of surprise.

It turned out to be a marriage proposal, and I stood aside, thinking of my father and mother, who were so affectionate.

It's not easy to fall in love, but how lucky you should be if you can stay together.

Zhou Chong looked at me, "Envy?"

I nodded, "More of a blessing." ”

"Bless you and me?"

"What?"

After saying that, the girl took the flower and handed it to me, and I took it with some confusion.

Zhou Chong knelt down on one knee and took out the ring, "Whether it's envy or blessing, you are the protagonist today." ”

"Marry me, and I will protect my dear princess for the rest of my life. ”

He looked at me with burning eyes, and although he smiled brightly on the surface, his hands trembled slightly.

There are people around me who are coaxing, and for me, maybe in addition to the accident, there is also a little surprise.

I slowly reached out and placed a diamond ring on my middle finger.

"Trapped, don't try to escape in the future. Zhou Chong kissed the back of my hand, stood up and hugged me tightly.

I hugged him back, and maybe, this was the best ending.

Since agreeing to Zhou Chong's marriage proposal, Zhou Chong has become busy.

Pick an auspicious day, choose wedding supplies, book a wedding venue, plan an invitation...

"I really can't wait to marry you home. Zhou Chong kissed me on the cheek, his eyes shining with excitement.

"It's like looking forward to the New Year when I was a child, that kind of eagerness and excitement. ”

"Don't worry, haven't you already trapped me?" I raised the ring in my hand and smiled.

"Going to pick a wedding dress?"

"Now?"

"Yes, love is now!"

I was helpless, and was pulled by Zhou Chong to flash to the wedding dress shop.

A piece of white, here is a sea of pure white flowers blooming in the wedding dress.

Almost at a glance, I saw the wedding dress I liked. The shoulder straps are made of pearls, the skirt is long and heavy, and the outer veil is foggy and light.

"I want to try this. ”

"I'm sorry miss, but this wedding dress has been booked by a gentleman a long time ago. ”

"Is this the only one?"

"Yes, it's the only one in our store. ”

"Alright then, I'll look at something else. "It's a pity, but there's no way.

"Can you communicate with this gentleman, I am willing to compensate at a high price. ”

"Sister, help me. Zhou Chong used a beautiful man's trick to be cute and cute to the shopping guide.

"Okay, then I'll help you get in touch. ”

The shopping guide called, communicated for a while, and agreed.

The gentleman said that he would not need the wedding dress, so he would give it to the person who needed it. ”

"Ran Yue Honey, go and try it. Zhou Chong urged, even happier than me.

The wedding dress fits perfectly, and when I put it on, the shopping guide smiled and praised me for being beautiful.

And Zhou Chong was already stunned, and he didn't come back to his senses for a long time, "It's like... I wore the Milky Way on my body. ”

He exaggeratedly described, his face crimson.

"I even have a name for the child!"

"Then this one. "I went back to the fitting room and changed out of my wedding dress.

When I was about to go out, I was a little dizzy, and I held on to the door, barely supporting my body.

"Zhou Chong. "I called him, and it was already starting to darken in front of me.

It seemed a little tragic, and when I thought I had found someone I could trust for the rest of my life, I was diagnosed with cancer.

In fact, it is not surprising that my mother also had this kind of cancer, and the doctor said that there was a certain chance of inheritance.

Zhou Chong sat in front of the hospital bed, his eyes red.

"Actually, my mother also had this kind of cancer before, and I took her to the United States for treatment. ”

"I'm going to book a plane ticket now. Zhou Chong was so panicked that his phone almost fell to the ground.

"After two years in the United States, she still didn't survive. "I held his hand, it was cooler than me.

"During the two years of treatment, she was in pain every day, at the mercy of chemotherapy and medicines every day. ”

"I don't want to be that painful. I sighed, "I'm sorry, Zhou Chong, I think I'm probably going to regret it." ”

"Don't. Zhou Chong grabbed my hand, "You promised me to marry me." ”

"But I'm running out of time, three years, or less. ”

"I don't care, even if it's just a one-night bride, I'm going to marry you. Zhou Chong turned his face away, and crystal tears fell.

"You're again... Why bother..."

"I am a prophet, there will be miracles, and you will live for a long, long time. Zhou Chong wiped away his tears, and his tone became funny again, "When the time comes, you will become an old woman with white hair and a wrinkled face, and I will still be a handsome little old man." ”

Heaven, will there really be a miracle?

This time, I chose to believe. But I don't believe in God, but in Zhou Chong.

The wedding was held in advance, Zhou Chong invited many people, and he was happy like a three-year-old child on this day.