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【Preface】
That night, I lay in bed, ready to fall asleep.
The phone vibrated suddenly, and the silence was shattered by a text message from a mother.
"Son, can you lend me 500 yuan, I can't stand the pain......"
Looking at this news, my heart pounded.
Mom never asks for help, especially when it comes to my son.
She has been that strong, independent mother for years and has never let me feel a trace of worry.
But tonight, this text message of hers was like a hammer to my fragile heart.
I knew something big had to happen......
【1】
That night, I got home from work as usual.
I stir-fried a few side dishes and finished my dinner mechanically.
After washing, I lay on the bed, swiping my phone, ready to fall asleep.
Suddenly, the phone vibrated and shattered the silence.
The name "Mom" was displayed on the screen, and a message lay there quietly.
"Son, can you lend me 500 yuan, I can't stand the pain......"
Mom's words were cautious, as if she was afraid to disturb me.
My heart pounded.
Message me so late, or like this, what's wrong?
I quickly dialed my mother's number, and the moment the call was connected, I tried my best to control my tone.
"Mom, what's wrong with you? Why do you need money? Are you not feeling well?"
On the other end of the phone, my mother's voice sounded a little weak: "It's not a big deal, it's just that the old wound on my hand has been committed again, and the pain is terrible, so I want to buy some medicine." ”
"What's wrong with you, why have you never heard of it?" I asked, with obvious concern in my voice.
"I accidentally injured my hand when I was at work before, and it was no big deal. ”
Mom said lightly, but I could feel the exhaustion in her words.
"Are you home now, why don't you go to the hospital?" I asked.
"It costs too much money to go to the hospital, so I want to buy some medicine for myself to take care of. There was a stubbornness in Mom's voice.
My heart was sour, my mother has always been like this, in order to save money, she carries everything by herself.
I took a deep breath, "Mom, don't save it, I'll transfer money to you right away, you must go to the hospital to see, don't drag." ”
There was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, and the mother's voice was low, "Son, it's too expensive to go to the hospital, I ......"
"Needless to say, Mom, listen to me!" I interrupted, my voice firm.
Hanging up the phone, I immediately operated the phone and transferred 10,000 yuan to my mother.
I know my mother's character, she will never ask me for money easily, this time it must have really hurt a lot.
It took a long time for the mother's reply to pop up on the phone, a few simple words: "Thank you, son." ”
I stared at that message, and the caution and humility revealed in my mother's words made my heart cut like a knife.
I couldn't help but tears blurring my eyes and tears running down my cheeks.
【2】
In my eyes, my mother was always so strong, as if nothing could break her.
I remember when I was in elementary school, the atmosphere at home started to get heavy.
Dad often came home drunk, sometimes with a sad countenance of losing everything, and the fact that he gambled slowly became an unspeakable secret in the family.
I was ten years old, and one evening, my mother was sitting on the couch, looking out the window at the sunset, and suddenly decided to fight it all.
"I'm divorcing your dad. Her voice was calm but firm.
"Why?" I asked, unwilling to face it.
"Because if this continues, we don't have a future. Mom replied softly, without a hint of hesitation in her eyes.
In the days that followed, relatives persuaded their mother to change her mind, fearing how difficult life would be after the divorce.
"How do you live as a woman with a child?" asked the grandmother worriedly.
Mom replied firmly: "I will not only be able to feed him, but I will also raise him well!"
Her voice was full of a mother's fortitude.
After the divorce, my mother fostered me at my aunt's house, and I went to work in other places.
Every month, no matter how difficult it is, she will send her living expenses on time.
I remember one time, when she called back, her voice sounded tired: "Son, this month's money has been sent back, tell my aunt if you need anything." ”
I could feel my mother's tiredness on the other end of the phone: "Mom, you have to take care of yourself, too." ”
"Don't worry, Mom is amazing. "Mom always said that.
After my father left the house, the house and mortgage went to my mother.
She took on all the loans on her own, year after year, until I was almost out of high school, and she finally told me that all the loans were paid off.
That day, her voice was full of relief: "Mom has finally paid it off, son." ”
My grandmother and aunt both persuaded my mother to find another partner while she was still young.
But the mother always shook her head: "I just want my son to have a good environment to grow up, and I don't want him to be wronged." ”
I know that my mom has been fighting alone all these years.
【3】
After graduating from high school, I received an offer from college.
Mom looked at the piece of paper with relief and pride in her eyes.
That night, our family held a college entrance banquet.
Although our family was not wealthy, my mother gave everything she had, set up a few tables, and invited relatives and neighbors to celebrate.
"It's my son's big day, so it's time to celebrate. Mom smiled at her neighbor, and the wrinkles on her face were stretched.
At the feast, Mom was always busy making sure everyone was eating happily.
I looked at her with an indescribable sourness in my heart.
I know that for this banquet, my mother has been frugal for a long time.
I stole that she was still wearing the same old clothes from last year, and the neckline was already a little worn.
"Mom, why are you still wearing this old dress?" I whispered to her.
"Oh, this dress is still very strong, don't waste it. Mom smiled and waved her hand.
After the banquet, my mother began to worry about my college tuition.
She took out all her savings and even borrowed some money.
I knew that she wouldn't even want to buy a new dress for my sake.
But every time I call home, I always hear her voice of concern.
"Son, how is school life?
"Enough, Mom, don't worry. ”
I always answer because I know she worries about money every day.
Ever since I divorced my dad, I've never seen my mom shed a single tear.
She was always so strong, as if no difficulty could bother her.
But I know that only she knows the bitterness behind it.
Finally, my four years of college life came to an end, and I was able to find a job.
I couldn't wait to call my mom and tell her the good news.
"Mom, I've got a job. ”
On the other end of the line, my mother was silent for a while, and then I heard her crying.
It's a cry of relief that all these years of pent-up emotions have finally found an outlet.
"Mom, what's wrong with you?"
"It's okay, Mom is just so happy. Mom choked up.
I listened to my mother's crying, and tears flowed involuntarily.
"Mom, I will take care of you in the future, you don't have to work so hard anymore. ”
"Son, that's what a mother should do. ”
Mom's voice gradually calmed down, "Now, you can finally be independent, and Mom is relieved." ”
【4】
After my job stabilized, I always wanted to make my mother's life easier.
Every time I called my mother, I would say, "Mom, don't work so hard, I earn money now, and I'll send you some money every month." ”
On the other end of the phone, the mother's voice sounded a little tired, but still firm: "Son, I can handle my own affairs." You should keep the money for yourself, and use it for your daughter-in-law in the future. ”
I sighed, and there was an indescribable feeling in my heart: "Mom, you're always like this, don't I just want you to live a better life when I earn money?"
Mom smiled softly, the gentleness and strength that are characteristic of mothers intertwined in her voice.
"Son, I know that you are filial, and I am very pleased, but your mother and I are still strong and can earn money to support ourselves, and your own life is still long, don't affect your life because of me. ”
I clenched my phone tightly, and the corners of my eyes couldn't help but moisten.
I know that no matter how much I convince, my mother will not change her mind.
She has always been like this, never accepting my help, always saving the best for me.
"Mom, I have enough money saved, so you can take it. ”
I tried my best to make my voice sound firm, but I was helpless inside.
Mom just sighed softly, with a kind of mother's peculiar persistence in her tone.
"Son, listen to your mother, save your money, you still have a long way to go in the future, and your mother doesn't need you to worry. ”
After the call, I sat quietly on the edge of the bed, my heart filled with love and endless gratitude to my mother.
She is always like this, always puts me first, and is not willing to put me under any pressure, no matter how hard she works.
【5】
The memories receded like a tidal wave, and I sat in the dim light, and an indescribable emotion welled up in my heart.
At this moment, I seemed to really see my mother's inner world.
Like many young people, they always want to share their happiness and hide their sorrows deep in their hearts.
My mom, in my eyes, will always be the superhero who can fight against all odds.
But now, I finally understand that even the strongest people have their own vulnerabilities.
In order not to worry me, she has been silently enduring all the pain and sorrow alone.
I closed my eyes, and my mother's gentle and resolute face came to mind.
Every time she smiled and said "it's okay" to me, did she hide the pain that no one knew?
I couldn't help but bury my face in my hands, tears running silently between my fingers.
That night, I cried for a long, long time, until the tears became salty, until the weight in my heart seemed to lighten.
The next morning, I called the company without the slightest hesitation, and my voice was mixed with determination and determination.
"I'm sorry, I need to take some time off and there are some family matters that I need to take care of personally. ”
After hanging up, I started packing.
I want to go home, not only to make sure that my mother's illness is properly treated, but more importantly, I want to be there for her.
For so many years, she has always carried everything silently alone.
Now, I want her to know that she is no longer alone and that I will be her strongest support.