#精品长文创作季#
Alain
Alain's childhood
Childhood is the background color of a person's life,
It is a pity to have a childhood and life without a mother's love.
(a)
Alain was sent to her grandmother's house for foster care when she was 8 months old, and when her mother brought a child who was originally "lively and jumping" to the accompaniment of the rumbling sound of the train at night, to a completely changed and very strange countryside and farmhouse (unlike the new countryside now), you can imagine how much fear and damage the child's soul is! Fear pierced Alain's heart, although his grandmother's love and uncle's joy still couldn't sweep away Alain's desire to find his mother and hope that his mother would appear, but his mother never came out, he couldn't see his mother, he couldn't see his father, he couldn't see the novelty of the city, Alain's childhood education lacked a lot of knowledge, and in that era, there was a lack of medical care in the countryside, and Alain fell short of polio, and since then timidity and fear have accompanied her all her life.
Although Alan worked hard later, there were always some people who were afraid of wolves and tigers, and lost many development opportunities and opportunities.
(b)
Naturally, in Alain's memory, there are also good times of childhood, I remember that when Alain grew up in Xiamen Gulangyu Island, he saw the sea for the first time, when Alain sat on the reef and looked at the boundless sea, he remembered the life by the river in his hometown, remembered his childhood friends, and his thoughts ebbed and fell with the sea waves.
Seagulls float in the blue sky, and Alain remembers Lingyan in the mountains and wilderness, and his childhood friend Hai Xinmei (pseudonym). At that time, the two of them went to school together, played together, went up the mountain to collect firewood together, touched the screws by the river, and sat on the mountain in their hometown on a summer night to watch the stars and the moon.
Who accompanies me in Wushan, I will keep my eyes on spring for a long time.
Small hands hold small hands, all like in a good dream.
(c)
Let love come home, the childlike fun in memory. I remember in the early 70s, when I was in elementary school, I didn't need to pick up my grandparents or grandparents to go to school at that time, and most of the children in the neighborhood were picking up and walking, and when Alan walked through the streets and alleys, he saw an egg on the side of the lane, and he limped over and bent over to pick it up, and his ass was kicked by his companion Diao, and he picked up the egg, Alan was not convinced, saying that he saw it first, but he refused to give it, and the two pushed and snatched, and accidentally the egg was broken, and no one got it. You must know that eggs were precious at that time, unlike now, when most students have eggs to eat.
When he grew up, Alain would think of an idiom whenever he thought of this: The praying mantis catches cicadas, and the yellow finch is behind, and he will also think of many people competing for fame and fortune. And Ah Bird has already gone abroad.
More than 30 years have passed, and last year's Spring Festival, Ah Niao finally returned home from abroad for the New Year, visited his childhood hometown and friends, and quarantined and quarantined again (due to the epidemic), but when they met in two small days, they all laughed when they talked about this incident when they were children.
Spring in Alan
The waves of life are blooming, and the petals of the years are falling one by one.
Alain's spring began when he left home to study.
(4) Ideals and aspirations
Alain is the kind of girl who is not outstanding in appearance, but has her own unique charm, after the college entrance examination that year, she was like a bird in a cage for a long time, and suddenly someone opened the cage door and let it fly freely, that feeling was really good. For the first time, she really felt the fairy-like days, without the burden of studying, without the pressure of the college entrance examination, and sighed in her heart that being free and easy in life is the happiest and most precious. However, such days did not take long, the college entrance examination admission score line was revealed, in the face of 480 test scores, Alan knew that the key colleges and universities were in vain, fortunately she was admitted to an ordinary university in D city, studying her favorite Chinese major, but her friend Lin Fang was admitted to the key universities as she wished, which was somewhat exciting to Alain, but they still celebrated happily. Alain really hopes that he can fly out of the family and live a new life, the family circle is too narrow and too peaceful, and Alain does not want to live such a life......
The beginning of autumn is coming, tomorrow Alan will leave his parents to embark on a new journey, in the face of the upcoming study career, Alain's mind is a little floating, this night, she can't sleep, lying on the bed without turning on the light, looking at the deep heavenly realm through the open window, the moonlight in late autumn is already very bright, the stars are shining, she is very wild thinking, that star belongs to me? She stared at the starry sky like this, and her thoughts galloped and flew like a horse. She envisioned a beautiful picture of her future, and she seemed to touch and smell in the distant starry sky: she imagined herself as a writer, contributing her thoughts, souls, and emotions to society and the masses. Whenever people read her works, it is like a clear spring flowing into the hearts of readers, clarifying many specious ideas in their hearts, unraveling the knots accumulated in their chests; readers draw philosophy from her works full of life wisdom, and feel inspired and inspired by emotions and hearts; full of humor, full of humanity, and kindness are the main themes of her works.
Alain really dreamed of a day when the clear river, the green lawn, and the big trees surrounded the pavilion where she lived, where the sea was quiet, with some mystery and fragrance, and she let the golden time into the little grid in such an environment, and she worked until late at night for the characters in the square, forgetting the troubles of the world, and the next day, when the oriental wisps of white sunlight shone into the hut through the sycamores, she greeted the new day with full enthusiasm, and went to "collect honey and taste fruits, and fight the wind and rain," Accumulate experience and continue to write a shining and moving chapter in life.
With a beautiful ideal and longing for the future, she fell asleep very late.
(5) Friendship and true affection
When the first day of school arrived, the train took Alain to Lijiawan Station, which was still 100 miles away from D City, and stopped, she looked out the window curiously, only to see the faint mountains in the distance, and the school pick-up bus drove to the depths of the mountains after the new students got on the bus. 40 minutes later, the car drove into the campus, the campus environment is very beautiful, full of green trees, surrounded by mountains, fresh air, quiet environment, Alain has a long-lost mood to return to nature, her college career began in this group of mountains.
In order to realize her dream of being a writer, Alain spends a lot of time reading literary works and social science magazines after class. During the reading, Alan came into contact with writers such as Lu Yao, Jia Pingwa, Su Tong, etc., and admired the literary talents of these people, and envied their works published in famous magazines across the country.
During the study, my friend Lin Fang said that she came to see Alan during the winter vacation this semester. On the eve of the winter vacation, Lin Fang came to Alain's school, and the two had a meal in the restaurant, during which Alan learned that Lin Fang had a boyfriend, so he congratulated him with a smile and jokingly said: "You are okay now, accompanied by a handsome guy, I am sometimes alone in the dormitory on the first floor, and there is no one to talk to, and I am lonely yelling in the building like a complete madman, so I have to indulge in the Internet," Lin Fang said: "You can also seize the opportunity, and you can also be everywhere with suitable students." The two chatted while eating, and then Alan took Lin Fang to visit the nearby "landscape", and walked to the open reservoir embankment, at this time it was the time of sunset, the sunset was sparkling on the lake, shining like fish scales, a fireball in the distance was slowly falling, the dark mountain shadow reflected the fireball was slowly falling to the bottom of the lake, Lin Fang was very admired this landscape, and said: The environment around your school is very beautiful......
The four-year college life is coming to an end soon, during which Alan has a boyfriend, the days of love are very sweet, and his best friend Lin Fang has also been admitted to the graduate school of the university.
Half a year before the end of her college career, Alain interned at a newspaper in the provincial capital, where Alain strongly felt the atmosphere of the times of social progress, the atmosphere of competition and the colorful picture of life. Although Alain's internship in the newspaper was very good, after the internship, although the editor-in-chief of the newspaper Tang gave them a high evaluation of these interns and held a special farewell party, Alain's desire to enter the newspaper was still disappointed.
After that, Alain applied for a large central enterprise newspaper in the province as an editor and reporter, although it is a small enterprise newspaper, but after all, it is the job that he is willing to do, here, Alain has been the value of the embodiment, her manuscript rate is high, in the province, city, industry newspapers and periodicals published a lot of manuscripts, two years Alan has been famous in the enterprise, known as a talented woman. Just when our talented girl was exerting her passion in her ideals, she received a euphemistic breakup letter from her boyfriend who was good in college, and the letter was written like this:
Alain: Hello!
I cherish the good time spent with you, but because our work unit is a north and south, I have reached the age of nearly 30, and you still have to fight for your ideals, the end point in front of me has arrived, let's say goodbye, hold your hand to send my tenderness and blessings!
Please bounce me from the top of the hill in my hometown to the bottom of the valley......
Chen Fengshang.
When Alain received such a letter, she was speechless, feeling that the last train of her life was gone, a deep sense of loss soaked her whole body, and a persistent pain that neither cried nor shed was locked deep in her heart, locked deep in this vast night......
As the saying goes, "good things come in pairs", in fact, unfortunate things also come together, this day his mother called to tell Alan that Lin Fang died of a heart attack in the college, Alan heard it, and urgently asked for leave from the unit to accompany Lin Fang's parents to the college to deal with the aftermath. At the memorial service, the teachers of the college were deeply sorry for the loss of a good young man and a good student, and Alain was saddened by the loss of a good girlfriend and a rare friend.
After the memorial service, Alain and Lin Fang's family brought Lin Fang's ashes back to their hometown, and after being buried on the mausoleum, Alain came to the Ganjiang River embankment alone, and came to the place where they traveled and meditated in the past. Sleepers and bamboo rows, but you will never be able to wash away my deep nostalgia for Lin Fangdi, she will always live in my heart!"
After Lin Fang left, Alain was hit hard, a person said to go so quickly, Alain lamented that life is short, the preciousness of friendship, love is unforgettable, she told this kind of thinking to the pen, with passion in the form of factual prose to write a "friendship is priceless", and this work, as a commemoration of Lin Fang's unfortunate death and farewell to the first love, towards the official starting point of the literary career, sent to Shanghai "Young Generation" magazine.
Alain, who was physically and mentally exhausted, took advantage of the "Eleventh" holiday to take the train to Xiamen alone, and she especially wanted to see the sea at this time, so that the sea could wash her dust and fatigue, broaden her mind, and look at life. Soon after getting on the train, Alain took out the magazine and the postcard sent by the magazine "Young Generation" not long ago from his arms, and she was very grateful to the magazine, not because of the publication of the work, but a small poem on the postcard, which portrayed her friendship and character life with Lin Fang very well:
I like to walk quietly alone,
There was no greeting or greeting,
Just because the juice of life is too thick and thick,
I'm going to take it by myself......
Alain was shocked by this little poem inserted into her heart, and she thought that there are indeed many things and people in a person's life that need to be slowly consumed by themselves.
It was already dark outside the window at this moment, and she occasionally looked out the window, only to feel the train speeding in the receding lights in the distance.
Autumn in Alan
The years erase a little spring, and the autumn color and autumn rhyme are also awakening.
(f)
In the autumn park, still green and golden, Alain sat on a bench, watching the lake in front of him ebb and flow, and his thoughts were full of thoughts: this life has come and gone, and he has been victimized and regretted by the self-inflicted acts of life in his life.
The first thing that Alain thought of was that he was not confident, he had a good hand, but because he was not confident (a little lame), he made people take the lead, which is a very regrettable thing. Because of lack of self-confidence, it leads to hesitation in encountering problems, lack of correct evaluation of one's own ability and value, and because of lack of self-confidence, fear of failure, and avoidance of challenges, which leads to retreat, lose great development opportunities, and watch others develop. Alan also thought that the act of dying in life is that people can afford you, but you are so proud that you can't act according to common sense, and finally lead to "relatives are painful, enemies are fast" into a lonely family, and a good deck of cards is played by you to pieces! Then there is the fact that his own ideas were correct, but he was rejected due to the difference in position or role, but he didn't fight for it reasonably, so he had to watch things slide in a bad direction.
Alain regrets when he thinks about these things, sometimes self-confidence and courage are key to better meet challenges and seize opportunities. Alain Self-Defense: If you feel that you lack self-confidence in some aspects, you can try some ways to improve yourself and enhance your self-confidence, such as: recognize your own strengths and weaknesses, master your own strengths, learn to listen to and respect others' opinions, don't criticize yourself excessively, try to think positively and face problems, don't retreat when you encounter problems, learn new skills and knowledge in time, and enhance your ability and self-confidence.
Alain believes that self-confidence and courage are the keys to success, and that they are a pair of good brothers!
Alain also thought that in addition to the above, there are many self-inflicted behaviors in life: such as driving without obeying traffic rules, being irresponsible to the body, smoking, drinking too much, staying up late for a long time or abusing drugs, etc.;
Alain's sunset red
The years erase a little spring, and the autumn colors and autumn rhyme are also disturbing.
You go with the Pearl River, and I am alone in the Zhenjiang River.
It's the sunset that reflects life,
Half a life of inaction and half a life of trouble,
It's hard to say that the autumn sycamore is old,
The autumn fragrance is still strong,
The sunset adorns the ode to dusk.
55-year-old Alain retired from the newspaper, but her marriage was a bit sad, she divorced at the age of 45, and she lived alone with her children for a long time.
(g)
Alain's departure made Gu Kuai have an inexplicable feeling, that is, he wanted to break off the idea of twilight love quickly, but there were regrets, a 56-year-old person like Alan still maintained a delicate figure, a beautiful face, especially a pair of good-looking Danfeng eyes, and there was no burden, his son worked abroad, and it was rare to come back once or twice a year; She is an acute person, with a strong temper and sentences, and is a typical hot woman, while Gu Kuai is a chronic child, who is quiet and not sensitive to things, and is a person who thinks well and acts safely.
This is not Alan angrily returned to the three-bedroom and two-living room home, and there was another duplex at home, only to see two teddy farts coming down from the upstairs to please the master, Alan was not angry to kick away one, and sat on the sofa with a butt, "What's the big deal, isn't it just a civil servant retirement, a family of four lives in a 90-square-meter house, and a kind reminder that he got married and moved out to live with me, what's wrong, and said to consider, consider",
Mother won't play with you anymore, and there will be no such store in this village after that.
On the way back, Gu Kuai always thought about this sentence again: After this village, there will be no more this store, after this village... Without this store, I have to go back and discuss with my son, it's so urgent.
Gu Kuai returned home and told his son Gu Yuanquan about it, but his son clearly disagreed, "What should you do with your family when you live in her house?" The family of four is happy, why bother looking for complicated things."
In fact, the son has his own small abacus, his father's monthly salary is more than 7,000 yuan, plus medical insurance subsidies, which is a strong reason why Gu Yuanquan does not want his father to find it again, but it can't be said here, Gu Yuanquan doesn't understand the loneliness of the elderly, the old man needs to have a companion to say, as the saying goes: The wife and the wife are the old and have a companion.
(viii)
Two retired "half" old people, after a period of emotional coldness, this day in the University for the Elderly met, Alan studied vocal music and dance, Gu Express is a calligraphy class, Alan took a ticket to Gu Kuai, Gu Kuai saw that it was a famous painter in the province to hold a lecture and training class on art calligraphy, hurriedly thanked, Gu Kuai also really felt Alan enthusiastic, what activities and arrangements are there in the University for the Elderly, there are Alan figures, she is a warm-hearted person, someone likes her, she will be happy all day.
Alan is afraid of loneliness, and the University for the Elderly is a good place for her to move, but there are only two mornings a week, and the rest of the time the two teddies become her companions, and she will accompany them to walk the park and walk the road, and carefully condition them at home, so naturally Teddy gives her happiness and satisfies Alain's desire to command.
When it's quiet, Alain will video with her son and think of her ex-husband.
Alain and her ex-husband were both working in the same state-owned enterprise at that time, and her ex-husband Xiqi was engaged in technology, and the end of the 80s coincided with the reform of state-owned enterprises, and Shenzhen and Zhuhai were reform and development zones, pilot cities, and a large number of people "peacocks flew southeast", Xiqi couldn't sit still, so he discussed with Alain, the enterprise is being restructured, and there are some preferential policies. Xi Qi went through the procedures for leaving his job without pay, and went south, first working in Zhuhai, because of his skills and flexible mind, he became a partner in a local factory, and later went to Shenzhen to open a branch factory, and made money , Alain was really cool for a while, her husband came back and bought a three-bedroom and two-hall house with a duplex in the best local area, and later sent his son abroad to study for a bachelor's and master's degree, but Alain's good life With the rapid development of her husband, she fell in love with Xi Qi with the local girl, and gave continuous tenderness and warmth in the endeavor, so that Xi Qi bought real estate in Zhuhai and Shenzhen, but the paper couldn't hold the fire, and Xi Qi finally had to divorce Alan one by one!
Alan is a happy person, since he has no love and has been separated for a long time, he agreed to give the economic compensation to the negative Xiqi, Xiqi readily agreed, the local house belonged to Alain, and gave Alan a million at one time, and from then on they went to the southeast, goodbye indefinitely.
Although Xi Qi has the freedom of "waving his hand and not taking away a cloud", after getting on the plane, the tears still came down, thinking of Alain's goodness, his heart is so unbearable, which reminds me of a poem "I don't cry in my life, I cry endlessly", just like Xi Qi's state of mind at this moment.
And Alan is left alone, and he is not lonely, Alan is not lonely at this time, and Alain's mood and artistic conception at this time can be described as: You go with the Pearl River, and I am alone in the Ganjiang River.
(ix)
Alain, who is independent of Ganjiang, was not confused at the age of 45, but she was a little confused about whether to remarry? Enthusiastic people, colleagues, and good friends advised her to find the right one when she met it. But Alan really didn't meet it, and the introduction and even the online chat were not as good as her ex-husband Xiqi, she wanted to fight for breath and find someone who was at least no worse than her ex-husband, and she reached retirement age by mistake.
I know Gu Kuai really because of his wife Liang Ying, Alan and Liang Ying are high school classmates, and they work in the same state-owned enterprise, the two are very good, and they can talk; Liang Ying was found to have breast cancer two years before he retired, Gu Kuai accompanied his wife to surgery, chemotherapy, and careful care, all of which Alan saw in his eyes, thinking that this man was affectionate and righteous, unlike Xi Qi.
But five years after the operation, Liang Ying relapsed and passed away. Alain saw Gu Kuai again in the University of the Elderly, the two hit it off at first sight, chatted quite speculatively, Alain learned that Gu Kuai did not remarry, and had retired, and the two of them had to talk about some spring and autumn every time they met in the University of the Elderly, and it was a little interesting to go back and forth, this layer of paper broke out with Alain's initiative, and Gu Kuai told Alain truthfully that he should consider it and discuss it with his son, which was the beginning of Alain's unhappy situation.
After precipitation, exchange and communication, after thinking deeply, Gu Kuai finally disregarded his son's opposition, pulled the marriage certificate with Alain, and moved to Alain's house to live a two-person world with old companions.
There is a poem that praises:
The sunset is red, and the dusk is ode
It's the sunset that reflects life,
Half-life inaction and half-life red,
It's hard to say that the autumn sycamore is old,
The autumn fragrance is still strong,
The sunset adorns the ode to dusk.
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