Back home, I can't wait to share the good news with my mother. I looked at the smile on my mother's face and felt that I was really happy.
I remember that she started pushing me to study when I was a child, and she always said, "Girls are good at reading."
However, just as I was complacent about my achievements, I learned the news that shocked me.
The moment I heard the news, I was dumbfounded. How is that possible? I kept asking myself in my mind.
Seeing my expression, my mother smiled and said, "Lili, your sister is not easy, and it is not easy." "I just felt a chill in my heart.
From that day on, the atmosphere in the house became a little awkward. Whenever relatives and friends visited, my mother always showed off Xiaoli's grades to them.
I was outraged by this partiality of my mother, with whom I had arguments more than once. But my mother always said, "If you think about it, your sister is not as good as you, and it is not easy for her to be admitted to graduate school this time."
I felt more and more aggrieved and felt that my efforts had been in vain. This went on for a long time, until one day, I saw Xiaoli secretly wiping her tears at home.
It dawned on me that she had been hurt in the fight.
Xiaoli and I started an in-depth conversation. It turned out that Xiaoli had been overwhelmed by her family's expectations.
And this time she was admitted to a third-rate school, and it was the first time she felt that she had surpassed me. She hopes that her achievements will be recognized by her family.
At that moment, I was suddenly relieved. Perhaps, I should try to accept the unfair treatment of my family, because in their eyes, I have always been the daughter who fought for them steadily.
My efforts are not for who is better than her, but for myself.
Then, I began to take the initiative to understand and encourage Xiaoli, and we began to slowly let go of the pressure in terms of grades and status.
Soon after, something happened at home that I didn't expect. Dad unexpectedly lost his job, which made the family who was already messed up because of my affairs even more difficult.
Dad has always been the breadwinner of the family, and his unemployment has put everyone in the family feeling unprecedented pressure.
"When I heard this, I was filled with contradictions.
On the one hand, I feel very aggrieved, my sister has not taken on any family responsibilities since she was a child, but now because of my father's unemployment, I need to pick up the burden of the whole family.
However, Xiaoli didn't seem to care, and went out to play all day, indifferent to the situation at home.
At the same time, Xiaoli's attitude also made me feel extremely angry. Every time I see her indifferent to the situation at home like a heartless child, I can't help but feel resentful.
I know that this state is not what I want, nor is it what my family needs. But in the face of these sudden changes, I couldn't get rid of my inner struggle.
Perhaps, I need to find an outlet to release the torment and anxiety in my heart. But what exactly should I do?
During that time, my relationship with Xiaoli slowly improved, but another contradiction was quietly breeding. Dad was sent to another city due to work, and the burden of the family suddenly fell on Mom alone.
Her face was full of exhaustion and worry.
And my mother, because of her excessive partiality towards Xiaoli, began to slowly give me more care in work and life.
I saw the tiredness on my mother's face, and she seemed to have the same rebellion on her face as I did.
Perhaps just when we thought that the atmosphere of the family had calmed down, another thing once again plunged the family into conflict.
This time, the doctor's diagnosis was very dangerous, and our family was in a huge panic.
At this critical juncture, our family is once again in conflict. Faced with her father's condition, my mother became very anxious, and she had to be busy taking care of my father every day.
Mom's inner stress and emotions became terrible and she often got into arguments with us over trivial matters.
Family conflicts are like poisonous snakes lurking in the dark, bursting out as soon as they get any stimulation. Occasionally, we had an argument over household chores or my father's physical condition, and what had been a seemingly reconciled situation broke down again.
At this time, I realized that the root of family disputes is not in personal achievement or understanding of family affection, but in mutual care and understanding.
Although Xiaoli and I still have disagreements, I also understand that there is no right or wrong in our disputes, and the key is to maintain understanding and respect, so that the family can be more harmonious and better able to face the challenges of life.
Therefore, together we started to try to care for and care for Dad, and also to be more considerate and supportive of each other when dealing with family chores.
This has also become a closer bond for our family after going through a lot of turmoil. Family conflicts may never disappear completely, but we will work together to face and solve them together, which is the key to our family.