I can't deny her words, everything is my fault, but I am ignorant for a while, why can't I be forgiven?" I hugged Yuan Li and cried loudly, I knew that I had too many wrongs, but I didn't have the courage to accept such a result.
"Don't be sad, maybe there's room for redemption. You should talk to Xia Jin well, explain clearly, and see what he thinks.
Yuan Li patted me on the shoulder and said soothingly.
I nodded, thanked Yuan Li, wiped the towel from the tears on my face, and stood up. Perhaps, I should really be brave enough to face Xia Jin instead of hiding all the time.
When I got home, Xia Jin was already waiting for me in the living room. Seeing his indifferent face, I felt a pang of despair, but I still stepped forward, knelt in front of him, and choked up to say the truth and remorse in my heart.
"Xia Jin, I'm sorry, forgive me, okay? I know I owe you too much, but I was really impulsive, and I didn't know what to do at that time.
I will change, and I will treat you well. I cried out with tears in my eyes, hoping he would forgive me.
Xia Jin looked at me and was silent for a long time, then finally sighed, helped me up and said, "I know you are also sad, but it is really difficult for me to accept that you are hiding such a big thing."
When I heard his words, my heart sank, but I held back my sadness and looked at him hopefully.
In the days that followed, the relationship between Xia Jin and me became very delicate. He began to grow colder and colder, often coming home late and no longer sharing his life with me.
I began to feel like I was in a state of endless pain and didn't know what to do.
So, I decided to follow Zhao Li's advice and change my attitude. The next day, when Xia Jin returned home, I took the initiative to talk to him.
What I had expected to be a warm conversation turned into an indifferent exchange, and I couldn't help but wonder if there was any room for redemption between us.
A few days later, I learned that Xia Jinzai was very close to a female colleague in the company. I was shocked and desperate, and a storm was uneasy in my heart.
I didn't know what to do, and everything in front of me made me feel powerless and hopeless.
That night, neither Xia Jin nor I spoke, and the whole house was silent and depressed. I was crying and lying on the bed, and Xia Jin was in a daze in the living room, his eyes were confused, and he didn't know what he was thinking.
The next morning, Xia Jin went to work, and he didn't say a word to me. I knew he must be conflicted, and I knew I was the cause of all this.
Just as I was about to write a long letter to Xia Jin, I received a phone call from my mother.
I didn't expect my mother to know Xia Jin very well, and even asked about our emotional conflicts.
I suddenly felt puzzled, how could my mother know so much about Xia Jin, and I couldn't help but ask why.
At that time, she saw Xia Jin send me home alone, and the intimate behavior between us made her suspect that something was wrong between us, so she kept an eye on my situation.
I listened to my mom in amazement, but I didn't expect that she had been silently watching us behind our backs, and I didn't feel it at all.
During the time I was dating Xia Jin, I never mentioned him to my family, and I never even answered the phone, for fear of being discovered by my family.
I asked my mother, "You won't... Won't you think Xia Jin treats me well?" Mom smiled and said softly, "Of course not, I can see that he treats you well."
I was speechless, my mother had been watching me all the time, and I was running away like a stubborn child.
This incident made me feel even more guilty, and I decided to take advantage of Xia Jin's time off work to go to him to explain it well.
The days ahead didn't get any easier. Xia Jin didn't respond to my messages and phone calls for a long time, and I began to feel anxious and uneasy.
But a week later, he still hadn't contacted me, and I felt deep despair again.
In this fidgety moment, I received a strange phone call. It was Xia Jin's mother who called. She said something in a low voice that I didn't expect, and the news made me unbelievable, Xia Jin had a car accident.
I hurriedly asked about the specific situation, and when I saw Xia Jin in a coma in the hospital, my heart was extremely heavy.
Xia Jin's mother told me that Xia Jin was in a car accident and the impact caused serious head injuries. She sadly told me that Xia Jin had always put me in his heart, and I was his heart knot, which caused him to be emotionally unstable.
Maybe all this is a punishment from God.
I quietly stood beside Xia Jin's bedside, looking at the young man with a quiet face, and my heart was full of mixed feelings.
But how should I, who hurt him, deal with all this now?