I only have a pension of 7,000, so I refused the invitation of my son and daughter-in-law and decided to go to the countryside to live at a nanny's house.
In the morning, I would go to work in the fields with my nanny, return home for dinner at noon, and in the afternoon I would put a few pots of flowers in the yard and look at the large green fields, and my heart would be full of satisfaction.
Although my son did not understand my decision, he accepted it, and he and his daughter-in-law kept visiting me.
But after a long time, they seem to think that I am doing well, and I will not worry about them anymore. Until they gave birth, they often came to me, brought me some dried fruits and sweets, and the food they sent was richer, and they carefully brought some daily necessities, which were very intimate.
On an important day, after a few days of discussion with the nanny's daughter, I finally renovated the nanny's bedroom, and the home was neat and warm.
Their children also enjoy being with me more and more, and each time they add to my happiness.
It was a worthwhile change in my life and a new appreciation for the world. Because of this change, I have enjoyed life more and more.
However, an unexpected conflict shattered the peace. That day, I was playing with flowers and plants in the yard when I suddenly heard my son and daughter-in-law arguing loudly in the house.
The two of them quarreled, and it turned out that there was a conflict because of the child's education. The daughter-in-law believes that the child should receive professional training, while the son believes that school education should be emphasized.
I tried my best to persuade them, but both sides were emotional and didn't listen.
In the days that followed, the atmosphere in the house began to change a little subtly. Quarrels between my son and daughter-in-law are more frequent, while communication between me and my daughter-in-law is becoming less and less.
It was as if my mood was weighed down by a big rock, and I felt dull and confused. I didn't know what to do, and these family disputes seemed to be far more intractable than I had imagined.
Although I understood that what she meant was for my own good, and hoped that I could return to them and live an ordinary life, I still couldn't let go of the emotions and stubbornness in my heart.
Thinking about this every day, I really feel a little uncomfortable. Being in the countryside became more and more boring, and I began to miss the time when I had someone to accompany me every day.
Of course, I understand that even if they speak out and say this, it doesn't mean that they miss me. I also hope that they don't sacrifice too much for me, after all, happiness and longing cannot be confused.
But something embarrassing happened, and I learned that during the time I was back in the city, my son and daughter-in-law's pension had been cut in half, and they had been reluctant to give it up so that I could not stress it anymore.
They seem to be in my house, but they are actually worried about me every day. When I learned about it, in addition to guilt, I was more moved by them.
I lived my life to the fullest, but I felt guilty, and I didn't know if I should go to the city or not.