Zheng Yuling was born in a well-off family, but unfortunately the good times did not last long, and her parents often quarreled over trivial family matters.
Whenever an argument broke out, the young Zheng Yuling would hold her younger brother, who was still crawling, and hide in the cramped bedroom and wept in horror.
She longs for a warm and peaceful home in her heart, but she is destined to grow up in the quarrels of her parents.
When he was 7 years old, his parents, who couldn't stand the torture of family conflict, finally divorced. Zheng Yuling chose to live with her mother, a single mother who helped in a roadside stall during the day and washed dishes in a restaurant at night to support the expenses of a family of three.
Poverty forced them to blend in with the crowd after the market closed, picking up scraps of food on the ground at night. Zheng Yuling understood the common feelings of people in the past, let go of her innocent girlish nature, and worked hard to learn Xi to reduce her mother's burden.
With her high school graduation imminent, Zheng Yuling had no choice but to give up her dream of going to college and was determined to enter the entertainment industry to make a living. She hopes to become an excellent actor through her own efforts and gain popularity and income.
This is not only for his own future, but also to change the fate of this poor family, so that the traumatic childhood will not be repeated.
In 1975, after graduating from high school, Zheng Yuling entered the actor training class of Hong Kong Television Station. A year later, in 1976, Jiayi TV launched a new program and urgently needed a host, and Zheng Yuling volunteered to take on this role.
Although the ratings of the show are not high, she is still fully engaged and has gained a certain popularity with her fluent language and affinity. In 1978, Zheng Yuling played the heroine for the first time in the costume drama "Golden Knife Lover", and director Tsui Hark was full of praise for her vivid and expressive performance.
The show received a good response and established her status as a TV actress. Then Jiayi TV station went bankrupt, Zheng Yuling transferred to TVB TV, and cooperated with the popular student Chow Yun-fat in many dramas, and the wonderful performances of the two won the audience's love and became a screen couple.
In the 80s, Cheng Yuling continued to collaborate with Chow Yun-fat on many works, such as the hit dramas "Family Affection" and "Crocodile Pond". The two kissed and successfully shaped the classic screen combination.
At the same time, Zheng Yuling also emerged in the field of film. She won the Best Newcomer Award at the Academy Awards for her debut film "Flower City" and became famous. In 1988, Zheng Yuling won the Best Actress Award at the 25th Golden Horse Awards for "Moon, Star, Sun", completing the perfect transformation from TV to movie and becoming a first-line actress.
Three years later, Zheng Yuling relied on the comedy "Cousin, Hello!" to win the championship again and won the Best Actress award at the Academy Awards. From a TV newcomer to a movie queen, Zheng Yuling has written a legendary growth history with excellent acting skills and perseverance, and has completed a gorgeous transformation from grassroots to peak.
In 1979, during the filming of the TV station, Zheng Yuling met screenwriter Gan Guoliang. Gan Guoliang is smart and humorous, and Zheng Yuling is also attracted by his unique charm.
The two have similar interests and soon fall in love and become golden boys and girls. Gan Guoliang loves Zheng Yuling wholeheartedly and is willing to give everything for her. However, Zheng Yuling did not dare to go too deep.
The shadow of her parents' divorce in childhood made her afraid to fully devote herself to this relationship, and she was only willing to be a girlfriend in the background. Gan Guoliang couldn't stand the long separation, and the two had to break up after ten years of love.
When they broke up, Zheng Yuling was full of reluctance and attachment, and she knew that she never dared to enter the grave of marriage.
In 1991, at a cocktail party, Zheng Yuling met the male singer Lu Fang, who was seven years younger than herself. Lu Fang was sunny and cheerful, full of positive energy, and soon melted the wall of Zheng Yuling's guarded heart.
Although the height difference between the two has attracted everyone's attention, Zheng Yuling only loves his sincerity and openness. She did her best to support Lu Fang's singing career at any cost, but Lu Fang's talent has never been able to break through, and Zheng Yuling's investment cannot be exchanged for love.
In the past 16 years, Lu Fang has proposed to Zheng Yuling many times, but has always been rejected. This year, Lu Fang finally couldn't bear it anymore and chose to leave. Zheng Yuling fell into unprecedented pain and regret.
She understands that the fear of her in marriage has always been like a maggot on the tarsal bones, but when the person she truly loves leaves, her heart is also dripping blood.
Time flies, Zheng Yuling is over the age of six. Now 66 years old, she lives in a luxury mansion in the heart of Hong Kong, where the morning sun rises and shines directly indoors, and the bold decoration and expensive furniture are enough to show the identity and status of the owner.
But all this magnificence can't fill the emptiness and loneliness in Zheng Yuling's heart. She sat quietly on the couch alone, thinking about the backs of her former lovers leaving her, and couldn't help but redden.
Success and honor did not bring her happiness, only full of regrets.
Zheng Yuling stood up stiffly and walked to the full-body dressing mirror, the person in the mirror was no longer in the prime of life as she was many years ago, and the wrinkles and white hair showed that she was no longer young.
She twitched the corners of her mouth self-deprecatingly, and turned to face the empty room. It's a place of splendor but empty, no friends, no family, not even lovers.
Zheng Yuling's parents were not harmonious and even violent when she was growing up, casting an indelible shadow on her young heart. She has witnessed how married life can become a purgatory, and she fears that if she enters marriage herself, family conflicts will make her experience the pain and helplessness of her childhood again.
Therefore, Zheng Yuling made up her mind never to get married, she would rather choose career and success than face the harm that may come.
In 1979, she fell in love with Gan Guo, and Zheng Yuling was deeply attracted by his charm and devoted herself to this relationship. Gan Guoliang was willing to spend all his time and money in exchange for his marriage to Zheng Yuling, but every time he proposed marriage, Zheng Yuling politely refused.
She is still determined to carry out her life plan not to get married. After 10 years, the two could only face a breakup, Zheng Yuling watched Gan Guoliang leave with red eyes, and her heart was full of contradictions and painful struggles.
In the past 16 years, Lu Fang has touched Zheng Yuling with sincere love, and she has also gone all out to support Lu Fang, wanting a relationship that can be relied on. However, when Lu Fang proposed again and again, Zheng Yuling still couldn't nod.
She couldn't get rid of the memories of her parents' quarrels and fights in her mind, nor could she erase the fear of marriage in her heart. In the end, she had to watch Lu Fang leave her.
Living alone in a luxurious house, Zheng Yuling will toss and turn in the middle of the night. She realized that she was afraid to face her marriage and ended up losing two men who truly loved her.
Outward success and glory could not compensate for the weakness and emptiness on her inside. This may be the most correct and painful choice she has made in her life. Maybe she should be brave and face her demons.
But unfortunately, it was too late, and she could no longer hope for a marriage after being scarred.