#分享今天的感悟#
Today is the second month of my mother's hospitalization, these two months are simply two months of physical and mental exhaustion and can't see the light, and I am no longer the happy little princess I used to be, my life has changed dramatically!
On November 8, 2023, my mother immediately went to the hospital for a check-up because she felt numb in her hands, and was found to have suffered from cerebral infarction!
Human life is so fragile, a few hours ago, my mother, who could climb the stairs by herself, now has no sensation in the left half of her body! I have always felt that hemiplegia or hemiplegia are two very distant words, but this time it really happened to my mother!
I didn't take care of my mother for a day in my forties, and this time I worked hard to repay the debt I owed to my mother! In the first few days, I didn't ask for a nurse, my sister and I took care of it ourselves, and my mother, who was once strong and strong, lay on the hospital bed, a little less momentum and the decadence that could only accept fate, at this moment, I just wanted to cry! Mom said, what are you crying about, I'm still alive, but I can't stop crying! Why do I have to wait until my mother is seriously ill to start being sensible, if I know that there is today, then why am I still willful to my mother? But it's too late, my mother used to protect me too well, and there was no fireworks in my forties, and I spoiled myself as a princess, but now my mother is sick, and the reality has woken me up, and I have a mid-life crisis of being old and young!
My mother is a little fat, and half of my body is unconscious and unable to exert strength, so urinating and defecating is a very laborious thing! I have no experience, so I can only fight with brute strength, but I tell myself to be extremely patient, because every time my mother looks at me innocently and helplessly, I think of the time when I gave birth to a child by caesarean section and was pushed out of the operating room, my mother whispered in my ear that it hurts? Every time I think about this scene, I seem to be able to feel the heat of my mother's breath in my ear, and every time I think about it, I cry once!
But, no matter what, I still have to face it! I told myself that my mother was about to be 78 years old, and that from now until the end of her life, this was the mildest illness she would suffer from in the future! But when there is no one, I feel very scared and lonely, sometimes I help my mother change the liquid, I secretly sit in the lobby on the first floor of the hospital, facing strangers coming and going, some pushing wheelchairs, some on crutches, I don't care about the image, I cry while eating ice cream, and high-calorie food that I usually never touch, as if only can relieve the pressure and fear in my heart!
After my mother began to recover, she got better very, very slowly, hired a nurse, and my sister and I started to work shifts! Every day I took care of my mother like a child, and when I couldn't suppress the irritability in my heart, I cried with my son and called and said, "Mom will never have a healthy mother again...... I feel that my heart is hurting, why should I go through such a painful epiphany before I can be sensible!
It's been two months, and my mother has begun to learn to stand, but there may still be a long way to go before my mother can walk! But today I feel that I see hope, and in 2024, I really hope that my mother will get better soon!
My mother has been hospitalized for 20 days, and there may be a long time before I get out of bed and walk, and this road to recovery is still very long! As the hospital stays longer, the lower the expectation of my mother's recovery, as long as my mother is still there, it is enough for me to have my mother!
