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Thoughts and changes on the way home: the sadness of the urban son in the face of the empty hometown

In the fields of his hometown, the breeze gently blows the wheat waves. Jingwen carried a heavy bag and walked on this familiar dirt road. Half a year after his mother's death, he finally mustered up the courage to return to this once warm home alone. Waiting at the door of the house are withered chrysanthemums and scattered memories.

Thoughts and changes on the way home: the sadness of the urban son in the face of the empty hometown

The picture of childhood, blurry and clear. Jingwen remembers that at that time, his mother always stood at the door until his figure disappeared into the village. At that time, Jingwen did not cherish it, and often argued with his mother over a trivial matter. Now, my mother is gone, leaving only deep thoughts and remorse.

Thoughts and changes on the way home: the sadness of the urban son in the face of the empty hometown

Jingwen was the first batch of students in the village to be admitted to university, and his back has become the pride of the village. But he also became an outlier in the village, drifting away from the hustle and bustle of the city. After graduating from university, he stayed in the city and said goodbye to the land and crops.

Thoughts and changes on the way home: the sadness of the urban son in the face of the empty hometown

Family affection is gradually indifferent because of distance. Keiwen tries to go home on holidays, but the once intimate family gathering becomes awkward and difficult. His world and his parents' world seem to be separated by an invisible chasm.

Thoughts and changes on the way home: the sadness of the urban son in the face of the empty hometown

My hometown is also changing. Young people are leaving their homes to work, leaving behind empty homes and elderly parents. The houses are newly repaired, the roads are paved, but the human touch is getting thinner.

Thoughts and changes on the way home: the sadness of the urban son in the face of the empty hometown

Jingwen had a desire to return to his hometown after retirement. His imaginary homecoming is beautiful, regaining his childhood memories. However, reality gave him a slap in the face. Jingwen gradually realized that his hometown is not only a piece of land, but also an emotional sustenance.

Thoughts and changes on the way home: the sadness of the urban son in the face of the empty hometown

The death of his parents eclipsed this sustenance. Hometown is no longer familiar, and there is no longer conversation between neighbors. Jingwen finally understood that the lingering nostalgia was no longer an attachment to a piece of land, but a reminiscence of a bygone time. In this strange land, he can't find the warmth he once had, only the unspeakable loss and helplessness in the depths of his heart.

Thoughts and changes on the way home: the sadness of the urban son in the face of the empty hometown