I like to be alone in the car, quietly listening to the radio, or looking at my phone, or doing nothing, just in a daze. The car door is like a dividing line, inside the car is its own world, push the car door, and it is a part of thousands of worlds, it is a child, it is a parent, it is a good wife and mother, it is a loving father, it is a staff member... He plays various roles, but he does not have himself.
It is said that three hundred and sixty lines, the line out of the yuan, but when studying, parents do not think so, in the same family compound, the same in a children's school, academic performance or become a parents after dinner, meet and chat necessary topics, go to which cram school, learn what extracurricular projects; who who is whose children, but also can play and learn well; who who whose children not only play a good piano, learning has not fallen... Therefore, I lived in the shadow of other people's children, and every day I kept endorsing, constantly practicing piano and allegro, and burst into tears. Finally, after achieving a little success in school, he also became "someone else's child", which made his parents have a light on their faces.
After graduating from university, like thousands of students, I chose to stay in a first-tier city with a dream. After work, in order to stand out from many young people, I took out the long-abandoned Allegro, accompanied by the blurred memories of tears in my childhood, racked my brains to write copywriting, and finally let everyone remember me in the first company team building activity, and also smoothly went to another post under the envious gaze of the same batch of students. That habit of going to bed early and getting up early, hating cigarettes and alcohol to socialize, I also learned to serve wine, hand over cigarettes, work hard like a top day and night, learn to smile everywhere I go, and learn to delete the word "rejection" from the dictionary of life. Maybe that's growth, that's life. Maybe it's the depression of life, maybe it's the influence of the work environment, I also start to bubble up in the major groups of friends, bragging about everything around me; I will rush to pay for it at friends' gatherings; I will use the latest electronic products; I will also eat instant noodles when I am alone, and count down the days when I am paying my salary with my fingers.
Time flies, once the aspiring to be a Dink, I also lived to become a layman, in the blink of an eye, I also got married and had children, I also lived to become my parents, and colleagues to discuss the children's kindergarten, children's make-up classes, and colleagues to grab the school district room, although saddled with 2 houses of loans, but in the eyes of peers is still bright. When the teacher registered in the group how the child arrived at school, he took out a loan to buy a car that made people shine.
Life is no longer about living for the sake of living, but about living to live. Package yourself as a talkative professional, package yourself as a happy family that will not be breathless for a loan, and package yourself as a successful person with a glamorous career. On countless nights, looking at the lonely figure reflected in the glittering lights outside the window, he crossed the city with twinkling lights and looked far away, leaving only a darkness that could not be seen.
In the later stage, it is getting worse and worse, and it is the bottleneck period
Due to the epidemic this year, it gave our whole family a chance to rest and breathe, using a short holiday, the whole family left the hustle and bustle of the city together, do not have to live in order to live, to feel nature, feel life, walk into the green grassy riverbank, admire the splendid mountain flowers, listen to the spring water ding-dong, although it is a camping, but the whole family seems to restore new vitality. So I made a deal with my family to spend one day every weekend with my family, either on an outing or in bed together.
Girls and boys socialize at sunset at the camp
Life should be like this, starting from the heart, there is no need to wear a mask in order to cater, do not have to grit your teeth and insist on comparing, do not have to refuse for the sake of face, in this era of materialistic desires, it is impossible to live out of yourself everywhere, but at least, there is still a trace of self-appearance, so that life becomes meaningful.