The day I became pregnant with my young son, it snowed heavily.
He asked me to kneel before the temple and make amends to his new queen.
"Ribbon kite, obedient, this kid is not coming at the right time......
I lost my youngest son, and a few days later my eldest daughter was buried for his royal power.
"It's just a princess, we'll have it later. 」
Later, I ascended to the throne and called out his military power and took his throne.
Chu Jingce——
Queens, princes, and princesses can all be changed, and so can emperors, right?
1
"Does the concubine know that she is wrong?"
Chu Jingce's voice sounded in my ears.
The grandmother on the side lowered her head and looked at my face hesitantly.
The snow falls on the shoulders and is very cold.
The knees kneeling in the snow were numb from the cold.
Consciousness is also gradually blurred......
The snow today is as heavy as the year I first entered the Prince's Mansion.
At that time, the young man was not like he is now.
He would take advantage of the wind and snow to run to me in high spirits.
The frost and snow fell all over his body, and his handsome face was red from the cold.
He took out a well-protected mountain flower from under his cloak and said to me as if offering a treasure:
"The mountain flowers are beautiful, for my wife. 」
……
The identity I wore was not good, and my father was a small county magistrate in the south.
Knowing the horror of imperial power, at first I would always avoid the crown prince Chu Jingce, who came to the southern tour.
But he really spoke to me like he said in his book.
I am not a daughter of a family who grew up under feudal etiquette, I live a warm life and have a lively temperament, which does not conform to the image of Miss Boudoir.
But Chu Jingce didn't care, he was so good to me that he almost poured out his heart and lungs.
I thought to myself, maybe why not try it?
What really made me let my guard down was his words in the peach blossom forest.
"Lone has never seen the marriage proposal that the kite said, but if it is what you want, Lone will be satisfied, and the kite will not have to hide her temperament all her life by Lone's side. 」
Since the young prince was born, he has never knelt down to anyone except the emperor and queen.
He bowed to me, his eyes full of unspeakable love.
Whenever I am emotional, what comes to my lips is - "As long as I am alone, as long as my wife wants ......"
I was not born enough, so he found the prince to be my father-in-law.
There were a lot of rumors in the DPRK, so he blocked the mouths of the people.
Overcoming all obstacles, I took the young man's hand and stepped into the northern kingdom and became his crown princess.
On the day he ascended the throne, he still held my hand.
He said, "Kite Twister, this seat is too lonely, stay with me and make noise for the rest of your life. 」
At that time, who didn't say a word about the emperor's deep affection?
This is the end of the book.
Nobody knows...... After that, it's the real story of the male and female protagonists.
I'm not the heroine, the heroine is someone else.
I'm just a tool person who taught Chu Jingce how to love.
I opened my eyes.
My thirteen-year-old daughter, with tears in her eyes, trembled and held the umbrella for me with both hands.
It was still snow-white in front of me, and I wanted to reach out and wipe her tears.
But her hands were stiff, and she withdrew her hands for fear of freezing.
In the end, I could only say in a dry voice, "Surprise, don't cry." 」
2.
I can't remember how long I knelt.
Anyway, when I opened my eyes again, I was lying on the bed in the dormitory.
Imperial Physician Jiang is holding my pulse, he is the Imperial Physician who followed me when I was the crown princess, and he is a close confidant.
"Niangniang, you woke up, the princess was worried, knelt down in front of Your Majesty and kowtowed her head before agreeing to Weichen to come. 」
As soon as I heard this, my eyes turned red uncontrollably, and even my surprise suffered with me.
Holding back the sourness coming from my nose, I turned my head to look at Imperial Doctor Jiang, "Jiang Yan, what you said back then was right, this palace made a wrong step. 」
"I'm really trapped in the deep palace now. 」
Jiang Yan didn't answer my words for a long time, but the hand that held my pulse shook invisibly, and he stopped talking.
"Niang Niang Hugh wants to say such things again. He paused slightly, "Let Your Majesty hear......
Jiang Yan didn't say the second half of the sentence, but I understood it.
As soon as Jiang Yan left with his front foot, Chu Jingce came with his back foot.
"Kite Twist. He hadn't called my name in a long time.
I glanced at him, "The concubine is inconvenient, so the concubine can't ask the emperor for peace." 」
Chu Jingce sat on the edge of my bed, "You're annoying me. 」
"Your Majesty is too worried. 」
He sighed, "You shouldn't have to, you shouldn't have upset the queen, she is the queen after all, and she is pregnant, you should be more stable." 」
I asked him, "What's in the concubine's belly?"
The queen was unhappy only because I was pregnant at the same time as her.
Chu Jingce could make me kneel in the snow for so long because of her words.
I snorted, "How does Your Majesty want to punish me now?"
Chu Jingce stroked the side of my face, and there was some guilt in his eyes, "Qin Tianjian has taken a hexagram, saying that there is a bad star in the southeast that is about to be born, which will affect the luck of the queen's mother and son, I ......
Hearing this, I still don't understand.
Closing his eyes, he interrupted his words, "The concubine understands, what about the abortion pill?"
This child, I don't want him to be born again, there are too many rights and wrongs within the palace walls, let him find a good family again, the country village husband's family is good.
As long as you don't be born in the royal family, it's fine.
Chu Jingce beckoned, and the maidservant at the door came in with the medicine.
It turned out to be ready for a long time, I'm afraid I don't nod my head today, this medicine will also be eaten.
Chu Jingce picked up the bowl and blew twice, "Turtle, this is what I owe you, the queen's womb is my eldest son, and the stakes are very high. 」
eldest son......
If it weren't for Chu Jingce's abolition of me after he took the throne, the child in my womb would also be the eldest son.
I should understand, how can I believe the promise of a lifetime and a couple between the beds?
From the first concubine after he ascended the throne, I should have understood.
At that time, what he said was - "Turtle, I really can't help it, the forces in the court and China are mixed, I must admit them into the palace to stabilize the hearts of the courtiers. 」
He swore that he would not touch those concubines even if he died.
But later...... The promise was disappointed, but the poisonous oath was not fulfilled.
Chu Jingce put the spoon under my lips.
I don't overdo it, take the medicine bowl, and drink it all.
"Concubine Kite think about it these days, but if you have anything you want, I can give it to you. 」
3.
After the child was gone, my mood was calmer.
Jingqiu is still the child I gave birth to when I was the crown princess, and sometimes I am glad that Jingqiu is a woman.
At least in the future, there is no need to participate in the chaotic struggle between the princes.
I went to see Chu Jingce.
I asked him, "Do you still count the words you said when you were abolished?"
He put down the fold in his hand and frowned, "What words?"
When he was going to be abolished, he married the daughter of the prime minister's family and entered the palace.
It is also a sentence of necessity, a sentence of urgency, a matter of great importance, helplessness, and national affairs.
Hold me high, so that I can't get off the stage.
He promised me, "I know that the kite is a finch that cannot be kept in place, and I promise you that this is the last grievance you will suffer, and if one day the palace makes you unhappy, I will let you go out of the palace and you will be a free farrow." 」
He put his arm around my waist and swore an oath, "But there will never be this day, and the kite is the one I put on the tip of my heart. 」
The so-called emperor's words are nothing more than jokes in my opinion.
I stared at Chu Jingce's eyes, "The days in the palace make me unhappy, Your Majesty let me out of the palace." 」
Chu Jingce put down the pen with a snap, the ink splashed, and the movement was very great.
"What nonsense is the concubine talking about? You are my concubine, how can you get out of the palace?"
"It was promised by His Majesty back then. I laughed self-deprecatingly, "But it's also true, Your Majesty has made too many vows to remember. 」
He walked up to me and straightened my sideburns.
The tone was extremely gentle, "Do you still remember what you promised me, you will accompany me for the rest of your life, how can you break your word?
I was about to laugh angrily at him, "Your Majesty, the kite remembers, but the kite doesn't remember, just as His Majesty doesn't remember what he said. 」
"Don't annoy me, be obedient. Chu Jingce said sharply.
I was resolute and said, "Let me go out of the palace. 」
"You should think about the surprise of autumn, the small country of Bensemanro intends to marry. 」
Chu Jingce said calmly.
I looked up at him and unconsciously raised my voice, "You're threatening me? That's your only daughter!"
He smiled and didn't speak, looked at me for a long time, and finally spoke: "Someone, the concubine is tired, send her back to the palace." 」
I was placed under house arrest by Chu Jingce.
Except for Jiang Yan, who came to recuperate for me every few days and invited a safe pulse, no one could come in, including the shocking autumn I remembered.
"Imperial Doctor Jiang. I asked tentatively, "Do you say that the queen's child is really a prince?"
Jiang Yan looked at me in disbelief, perhaps thinking that this was not something I could ask.
Then he packed up the medical box and replied casually: "The minister has checked the pulse of the queen's mother once, and eight or nine are not far from ten. 」
I was silent for a long time.
Jiang Yan's footsteps were almost to the door, and he turned back again.
"Kite, don't do foolish things. After some hesitation, he continued, "I heard that next month, the envoys of the country of Manro will visit. 」
4.
A few days later, Chu Jingce came to see me.
He looked at me affectionately and untied the ties of my undershirt.
I can't get back the old boy from his eyes, he is only ashamed of me.
"Kite Turtle, don't call me Your Majesty, you have shared a lot with me. 」
"Your Majesty, there should be no less rules. 」
I endured my nausea all night and cooperated with the man in front of me.
I'm going to take Jingqiu back to my side, that's my only concern.
Chu Jingce came for several days in a row, as if he wanted to get back to the feeling of the prince's mansion.
Late at night.
I whispered in his ear, "Your Majesty, the concubine wants to be surprised. 」
He wrapped his arms around me, "I'll send her back to your palace tomorrow." 」
Wake up the next day.
Jingqiu sat at the head of the bed and looked at the notebook, and I breathed a sigh of relief.
"Why did my mother look at me like this, is it a nightmare?"
The little girl has been sensible since she was a child, and patted me on the back, "Mother is not afraid, there is a surprise in the autumn." 」
I wrapped the little girl in my arms, "There is a surprise autumn, and my mother is not afraid of anything. 」
"Don't worry, mother. Jingqiu suddenly became serious, "Although Jingqiu is a woman, she is definitely no worse than a man, and I will not hold my mother back." 」
I'm a little surprised that she would say such a thing?
"Mother doesn't want you to be good, as long as you are safe and smooth, where did you hear about chewing the root of your tongue?"
Jingqiu pursed her mouth, "They all said that the queen mother was going to give birth to a little prince, and that the mother only had a useless daughter. 」
I was furious, "Hugh is going to listen to their nonsense! 」
Because Chu Jingce frequently spent the night in my palace.
probably displeased the queen.
Night.
Chu Jingce asked me for a South Sea pearl.
It was the biggest and most beautiful pearl I have ever seen, and it was Chu Jingce who exchanged his merits for making me smile.
Back then, there was a lot of uproar about this matter, and they all said that the princess had a good life.
The first emperor sent the crown prince out on an expedition to quell the rebellion in Biansai.
The crown prince fought bravely and victoriously, and when he returned to Beijing, the emperor personally went to the city gate to greet him.
The first emperor canonized Chu Jing with many rewards, but he refused all the rewards.
I only asked for one thing.
"Before the retainer went out, he hid the kite and said goodbye, and now I guess she is still angry in her heart, I heard that my father has a pearl of the South China Sea in excellent condition, can the retainer ask for it?"
The first queen laughed at him, and forgot her mother when she had a daughter-in-law.
It didn't take long for this to spread from the palace and reach my ears.
As soon as Chu Jingce returned to the prince's mansion, he really took the pearl to coax me.
He rubbed my neck affectionately, "Kiss the kite, please don't annoy me, I can't stand it." 」
I scolded him for being a fool, and he smiled.
It turned out that this pearl was like Chu Jingce's love.
All are transferable.
I took it out of the dusty jewelry box and handed it to Chu Jingce's hand.
Since the new queen came to power, my life has been much sader.
In the past two years, relying on the jewelry that Chu Jingce gave me earlier, I spent nearly half of it.
Chu Jingce didn't hesitate, as if he was afraid that I would regret it.
"I'll ask the Treasure Bureau to get you another set of jewelry, just in time for the Manroe feast. 」
5.
The actions of the Treasure Bureau were very fast, and they were sent to our palace before Manro entered the capital.
The palace is very lively today.
Because the envoy who came from Manluo was the eldest prince Yelu Xing, whom they valued the most.
I took Jingqiu's hand and sat down at the banquet.
The gaze of the Grand Prince of Manro always makes me feel uncomfortable.
After three rounds of drinking, the dancers brought by Manro stopped to the music.
Yelu Xing toasted towards Chu Jingce, "These girls are the most beautiful women in our Manro, and they are now dedicated to Your Majesty. 」
Chu Jingce's gaze glanced at me, and there was no expression on my face.
It's the queen, who can't sit still.
Yelu Xing continued, "This time, we Manro have the intention of marrying the two countries, and want to marry His Majesty's princess. 」
Frightened, I clenched her handkerchief tightly, and I patted the back of her hand to comfort her.
She looked at Chu Jingce helplessly, which made me feel distressed.
I only hope that my compromises these days can make Chu Jingce miss some old feelings.
Don't really send Jingqiu to the place where you can't blink an eye.
I stared at him and waited for him to speak.
Chu Jingce gave me a look back, "There is only one princess in my palace, and now she has not yet reached the palace, I'm afraid it's not appropriate." 」
"Looking back, I will make the most beautiful talented girl in Beijing the lord of the county, and send it to Manro in the specifications of a princess to marry, the little prince of Yelu, do you think it is feasible?"
Yelu Xing's gaze fell on Jingqiu, and I could feel that he was not satisfied with this arrangement.
But he said, "Your Majesty is doing a very good thing. 」
I hope it's really good, and I hope Yelu Xing can go back to Manro with their people sooner.
Anyway, I finally let go of a worry.
After leaving the table, I specially instructed Jingqiu to walk around the palace less these days.
But I tried to take all the precautions, but I still couldn't prevent these things that were not human.
6.
"Niangniang, Princess Jingqiu, she ......"
The intimate grandmother bowed her head in front of me, not daring to lift up.
I was shocked, and unconsciously grabbed the handle of the seat, "What's wrong with Shocking?"
"Princess Surprise Autumn was ...... I was bullied......
I couldn't hold it back and stood up, "Who else in this palace dares to bully Jingqiu? Mama don't be joking, where is Jingqiu playing now?"
"In the palace where the Grand Prince of Manro lived. 」
Hearing this answer, I trembled all over, and rushed out of the door in defiance of all the concubine etiquette.
Pulling the hem of her skirt and running all the way.
Autumn, my good girl.
Mother is coming, don't be afraid, don't listen......
I don't know how I got to the temple gate.
There were a lot of people standing at the door.
Chu Jingce and the queen, as well as a group of maidservants, and even the concubines who had not left the house for a long time were also there.
Hiding from me, my biological mother, I am the last to know.
With so many people standing here, what kind of horror do I have to be?
I was panting, my hair was scattered, and my steps were unsteady.
Chu Jingce helped me up, "Why are you here?"
My voice trembled, "Shouldn't I have come?
It takes a lot of courage to put your hands in front of the door and push it open, "No one is allowed to come in!"
With just one look, I couldn't stop my anger.
Like a frightened little beast, I curled up in my arms and cowered in the corner of the bed.
When she heard the movement, she roared like crazy, "Get out! No one is allowed to come in!"
desperately hugged the already tattered Luo skirt, trying to cover himself.
My whole heart hurts.
The hatred that can't be concealed even when the nails dig into the flesh.
"It's so shocking, it's A-Niang, A-Niang is here. 」
Hearing my voice, Shocking Autumn's disguise could no longer hold on.
猛地扑进我怀里，「娘亲，惊秋好痛……」
The bruises and purples on Jingqiu's body were shocking.
She was just a thirteen-year-old girl, and I didn't dare to think about it at all, not at all.
I hugged her, and I didn't have anything to do but hold her weakly, "I'm not afraid, my mother is here. 」
I don't know how long I comforted her by holding Jingqiu.
It was probably long enough that there were no more people standing at the door.
It's been so long that even Chu Jingce can't hold on.
7.
After coming back, I finally fell asleep.
I had the opportunity to go to Chu Jingce, and I forced him to ask, "Why did this happen, why did they let them live in the palace......!
He explained to me that Yelu Xing had drunk wine and happened to be passing by in Jingqiu, and he thought it was Gong E in the palace.
Who will believe this fool?
Shocking autumn is like me, arrogant, and will dress up beautifully every day.
What palace lady dares to dress so gorgeously?
Chu Jingce put his arm around me, "Let's kiss, it's good for everyone." 」
"Is it good for anyone?" I broke free from Chu Jingce's arms, "Is that a vicious place good for Jingqiu or good for me?"
I pounded Chu Jingce's chest, "It's just good for your throne, it's just to stabilize your country!"
Chu Jingce grabbed my hand, "How can you say such a rebellious thing! A princess is just a princess, and you can give birth to a second or a third in the future!"
I was shocked by his words, and he was also full of joy when Jingqiu was born.
threatened to give her the best...... That's what it was given to her?
Imperial power is really terrifying, one person can become like this.
"That's your first child, your only daughter. I tried to awaken his conscience.
"The news of Jingqiu has spread, and no one will dare to marry her in the future. 」
What if no one dares to marry, and what if you don't marry someone for the rest of your life?
I suddenly hated this era.
I was glad that I was wrong at the beginning, my daughter was not in good health, and she could hide from the struggle for power, but she couldn't hide from her relatives.
As long as you are born in the royal family, it is not good.
I didn't speculate for more than half a sentence, and I even begged Chu Jingce.
called the title that he hadn't called for a long time, "Jing Ce, I beg you, Jingqiu can't go and kiss. 」
Chu Jingce sighed, "You don't have the queen who understands righteousness, just a woman, you can exchange peace for a hundred years, why not?"
"In such a ridiculous place, husbands, brothers and even stepsons can share a wife, you make us ......
Chu Jingce flicked his sleeves and left only one sentence, "Now is not the time for your own selfish desires, the matter of harmony is so decided, and Jingqiu must marry Manluo with all his beards." 」
After Chu Jingce left, I saw a figure passing by at the door.
When did Autumn Surprise come?
8.
These days and autumn days will stick to me.
Lying with her at night, Jingqiu whispered, "Mother, what I'm most afraid of is making my mother sad. 」
I touched her face, "As long as Jingqiu is by my mother's side, what is there to be sad about my mother?"
"Well, my mother is the best mother in the world. 」
Chu Jingce was discussing the matter of harmony with Manro.
Everything was in a hurry, and he asked the queen to prepare the dowry.
The day of Manro's return is also a day of great joy in the autumn.
On the third day before the return trip from Manro.
Jingqiu was dressed up very beautifully as before, pulling me to be coquettish, and I had to tie her in a bun.
If it weren't for those things that have happened in the past few days, we would have gone back to the way we were.
I combed her black hair for Jingqiu, and she said, "I will be my mother's child for the rest of my life. 」
I knocked her on the head, "Silly boy, isn't this life hard enough?"
Shocking Autumn showed two pointed tiger teeth, "It's not bitter, it's worth it. 」
This night, Jingqiu didn't ask me to sleep with her.
She went to bed early.
When I opened my eyes on the second day, I looked at the maid's face a little ugly when I was washing, and I cared:
"Are you feeling unwell, if you are not feeling well......
I'm not done yet.
The palace maid in front of her knelt down first, "Please forgive the mother. 」
"I don't blame you, what are you nervous about?"
"Princess...... It's gone!"
My head was a little dazed, as if I hadn't woken up, "What did you say?"
"The princess sheathed, last night. 」
What are you kidding? Yesterday I was bouncing around in front of me.
Okay, she asked me to comb her hair when she got up today.
Tonight, you will take advantage of the moonlight to lie in my arms and look for the Big Dipper with me.
How can it be ......
I went to her dormitory, and the white cloth was already over my head.
Surprise Autumn likes bright colors the most, how can you cover it with a white cloth?
Mama uncovered the white cloth for me, and I saw a deep cut on her wrist, which had formed a bloody scab.
She was the most squeamish, and she was the most afraid of pain.
On weekdays, even if I am bitten by a mosquito, I have to talk to me for a while.
How much does this hurt......
I held my forehead, only to feel a trance in front of my eyes, and a burst of whiteness.
Before consciousness disappeared, Mama helped me up.
After that, I don't know what happened.
9.
The tears had long since dried up, and I didn't even have the courage to look at the coffin of the Amazing Autumn.
Chu Jingce asked people to set up a meal, "Juanqiu, eat some, Jingqiu won't want you like this." 」
I don't know him.
"This is the letter that Jingqiu left for you, I haven't opened it, can you take a look?"
That's when I reacted and took it.
Shocking Qiu's fly-headed Xiaokai is very good-looking, and she is as good-looking as her person.
"Mother, Jingqiu is very strong, I am no worse than a man. 」
"As I said, I won't drag my mother down, I don't want my mother to spend the rest of my life in memory, my mother has to do what she wants to do, I won't become a tool for anyone to blackmail my mother, no one can. 」
"Jingqiu wants to become the brightest Big Dipper, always by my mother's side, my mother is not allowed to be sad, Jingqiu is most afraid that my mother will be sad. 」
"Being able to be a mother's child is the happiest thing in my life, and I will come to you in the next life. 」
"We've agreed, I'll beg Meng Po to order less soup. 」
I couldn't recover until my vision was completely blurred and the paper was soaked.
Shocking autumn, we will not be called shocking autumn in the next life, we will be born in the spring to be Qiongyu.
Chu Jingce sat beside me, put his arm around my shoulder, and said in a low tone, "Do you blame me? 」
I clutched the crumpled paper and muttered, "What's the use of complaining about you, complaining about you and my unborn child, can I come back?"
I don't have any resentment towards Chu Jingce, I hate myself more.
It's useless to hate yourself, and you can't even protect your flesh and bones.
"The child will still have. Chu Jingce hugged me tightly, "We'll have it later." 」
But I don't want to give birth, especially your blood.
Until he was buried in the autumn of shock.
I still feel like I'm still in a trance when I look at the empty palace.
The little man changed the two cold cities of Manro, and that's it.
It seems that this is the greatest value of the autumn season, even if I am not convinced, I have nothing to do.
The right to speak is always in the hands of the person who stands tall.
I was too sad, and my body was not good again.
Every time Jiang Yan saw me, he had to sigh.
After checking his pulse today, I asked him, "Is there any medicine that makes people unable to conceive a child?" 」
"Niangniang!" Jiang Yan's face was full of disapproval.