Huang Zijiao's father was an extremely successful businessman. He is well-known in Taiwan's business circles and is regarded as an exemplary business elite.
As a son, Huang Zijiao has been proud of his father's business achievements since he was a child. Whenever he mentions his family in public, he always emphasizes that his father is a big entrepreneur and has excellent conditions in all aspects.
This gave Huang Zijiao a great sense of honor for his son.
The success of Huang Zijiao's father's career also allowed Huang Zijiao to live in a privileged environment since he was a child. Worry-free food and clothing, toys and games are everything, it can be described as a happy childhood time like a rich second generation.
But his father's persistent pursuit of his career also doomed him to be unable to accompany Huang Zijiao through those years of growth that should have been warm and beautiful.
The father and son get together less and leave more, and their relationship gradually fades. Huang Zijiao's sense of emptiness in his heart is getting heavier and heavier, and the sense of accomplishment of his father's career cannot make up for the guilt of his son.
This became the starting point of the knot between the two, and it was also the source of hidden dangers on the road of Huang Zijiao's life in the future.
Huang Zijiao's father, who embarked on the fast track for his career, has been unable to accompany his son since he was a child. There is very little communication between father and son, and the father misses all the key nodes of his son's growth.
In order to make up for the debt to Huang Zijiao in terms of companionship, the father spoiled his son financially. The generous compensation allows Huang Zijiao to have a worry-free material life, and his fun life is much richer than that of ordinary children.
However, the emptiness of the spiritual world could not be filled with money, which became a hotbed for Huang Zijiao's distorted psychology in the future.
The father decorates his son's life with all kinds of brand-name delicacies and expensive decorations, trying to make his son feel "loved" through material things. And Huang Zijiao was also happy to accept all this, as if he was silently complaining about his father's absence.
Both father and son know that there are too many holes in the love under this transaction, but they both admit the flaws of reality.
When Huang Zijiao first fell in love with his girlfriend Meng Gengru, his father offered to meet his future daughter-in-law. This was unexpected by Huang Zijiao, because he didn't think his father would pay special attention to his love life.
However, this is exactly one way that the father is trying to make amends. He hopes that his son will form a happy family as soon as possible and live a stable and down-to-earth life. Perhaps such a life can heal the lack of his son's heart and make up for the regret that his father could not participate in growing up.
Huang Zijiao resisted his father's kindness at first, because he subconsciously didn't want his father to be too involved in his private life. But driven by the guilt of his father, he still followed the advice and took Meng Gengru home.
It was a warm time that the father and son had not had for a long time, but it was also destined to become a prelude to parting in the future.
Huang Zijiao's final marriage ended in failure, and his father was saddened. He couldn't help but blame himself, if he had more love and companionship for his son's growth, maybe the ending would not have been so miserable.
This became the regret and endless melancholy of his life.
Huang Zijiao has had a strong interest in the entertainment industry since he was a child, and his father has also given him full understanding and support. Faced with his son's non-mainstream career choice, the father did not oppose it, but did his best to support his son in life to realize his dream.
When Huang Zijiao was a child, his father's gifts were often related to learning Xi, reading, and news content. Those seemingly simple gifts imply the father's expectation that his son will have a correct understanding of this society and grow up to be a man with independent thinking ability.
After Huang Zijiao devoted himself to his acting career, his father became his most solid spiritual backing. In the misunderstanding and criticism of the outside world, his father's silent support and encouragement supported Huang Zijiao to move forward bravely and continue to work hard in the entertainment industry.
And this has also become a rare spiritual fit between father and son.
The father's trust in his son is the most lasting source of motivation for Huang Zijiao on the stormy road of acting. Maybe that's what fatherly love looks like, born and accepting everything.
Huang Zijiao's father fulfilled his responsibility to care for his son, both materially and spiritually. He tried his best to make up for the regret that he could not accompany his son to grow up, and showed his care as a father with money and support.
But the pain and lack in his son's heart can't be filled by these external conditions after all. In those growth processes that should have been witnessed by fathers, the gaps and wounds left behind are difficult to repair the day after tomorrow.
As a result, Huang Zijiao gradually developed various psychological or life distortions, which were beyond his father's ability. As a client, Huang Zijiao himself did not realize this, while his father repeatedly reflected on it in guilt and self-blame.
The emotional gap between the two has not been bridged in material compensation. This became the regret of his father's life, and it was also the fundamental reason why Huang Zijiao was struggling.
And this sense of powerlessness stems from a misreading of the essential meaning of "love".