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Wen | Jade sand
Editor|Yusha
preface
"Yu took a small boat, hugged the fire, and went to the lake pavilion alone to watch the snow." It is the scene of Zhang Dai's leisurely and melancholy solitude in the Ming Dynasty, which is a portrayal of a person chewing loneliness when he can still eat and drink.
It can be seen that under relatively good external material conditions, many people cannot shake hands and make peace with loneliness.
However, deep in the rolling and shading mountains, there was a child who only relied on his tender body to guard the four low walls, and survived fourteen bitter colds and heat alone, one stove and one bed.
Loneliness and isolation alone are enough to deconstruct the daily life of an ordinary person.
At this moment, there is more suffering and poverty at the tiger's disposal, but he, a boy who is not yet an adult, still has a naked heart in the midst of the misery.
When do the gears of destiny turn? Will the chain of life be derailed because of this?
Born like a grass mustard, self-improvement
The name of the protagonist of the story is Liang Xun.
In the middle of winter, when the fire spread across the north and south, people gathered together to reunite, looking forward to the arrival of the new year on the white earth.
On the other side of the city, in the backcountry, small villages clinging to the sparse flat land in the cliffs, a few wisps of cooking smoke wafting in the cold wind, and the crisp sound of firecrackers echoing in the valley.
Liang Xun was born in a small village in Qingchang Town, Guizhou.
The remote mountain villages, barren land, and harsh natural environment cannot give the villagers who have guarded the land for generations, and it is difficult to provide for their food and clothing, so more and more young people choose to go out to work.
The young couple, who had four children waiting to be nursed, also chose to leave their hometown to work in Guangdong after careful consideration.
As the youngest child in the family, this news is undoubtedly a thunderbolt for Liang Xun, who is only nine years old.
Looking at the back of his parents far away, he desperately suppressed his inner reluctance, gritting his teeth so that he did not cry loudly.
Back home, his brothers and sisters stayed at school because of their studies, and the warm lights of this small house were completely extinguished this night, and he sat in the dark for a long time, which gave birth to his first dream.
"I want to be a big truck driver in the future, I can make a lot of money, and I can run fast and fast."
Stemming from a child's one-sided perception of the world, the seed of a dream began to skim the beautiful silhouette in his state of mind.
When he woke up the next morning, he knew that from now on he would face a new lonely life, and although he knew that his family was poor, he could not forgive his parents for abandoning him and leaving.
The thin morning mist dissipated as he dumped the scraps of food into the pigsty, after which he traveled across the mountains to his school for a day's study.
At lunchtime, children of the same age in town often cast curious eyes at this slovenly introverted boy, who knew his plight and could not help but feel inferior, always curled up in the corner and silently eating the dry food he brought from home.
After class, when he saw the bustling parents at the school gate, taking their children away with love, his inner suffering reached its peak.
But even so, he could only rush home non-stop to replenish food for the "pig brother" who was also alone in the empty house.
As night falls, the firewood hoarded at home is about to bottom, which means that he can't enjoy a quiet time after school on Saturdays and Sundays, replaced by a busy life of collecting firewood.
Over time, he grew into a silent boy in loneliness, the eyes of his classmates evolved from curiosity to contempt, the four walls of the family were even more lonely in the wind and sun, and only the pigs in captivity at home were attached at a slow speed.
The turning point of the story begins with a variety show, the idea of this variety show that was well received at the time but later controversially spurned is to swap the rebellious rich children with poor children with a bumpy fate, trying to arouse children's gratitude for the current life by feeling the bottom line of life.
It is not difficult to taste that the design intention of the program is undoubtedly based on the children of rich families, and the planning and calculation are also based on their gains and losses.
However, it was such a variety show that gave Liang Xun a chance to change himself.
Break the misunderstanding and dispel the past
Speaking of this, it is inevitable to mention the scene that made the audience cry at that time.
When the director team found the scrawny Liang Xun, he smiled shyly, but was quickly frightened by the huge impact of the director's words, and said to a left-behind child who was accustomed to being alone, "You have to have a new pair of parents again", which undoubtedly stung the heart of this sensitive child.
Before leaving, he insisted on visiting his sister who was studying in town, but the director team did not understand at first.
Until waiting for his sister to finish class, he carefully took out the crumpled five-yuan bill from his pocket, tightly grabbed his sister's hand, and shoved it into hers.
Of course, my sister subconsciously blocked her brother's behavior with her backhand after seeing the banknote, and he cried while stuffing it, and my sister also cried when she saw this.
Later, in the inquiry of the director team, the audience learned that the living expenses of the teenager in the mountains were only 20 yuan a week, but after learning that he was going to travel far, he couldn't worry about his sister.
So I gave all the money I saved to my sister, hoping that my sister would have a better life in his absence.
Of course, he would not know that for the rebellious boy in the city, his five precious dollars were not even enough for this rich young master to buy a bottle of mineral water of average quality.
Cars roar, and lives are exchanged in a short time.
He wanted to capture the bustle of the city with wide eyes, and his mother in the city surrounded him in a warm arm.
The unfamiliar smell of perfume reminded him of the familiar warmth, and at this moment, he shed hot tears.
For six years, his desire for maternal love and affection that he had been confined by numbness and isolation poured out at this moment.
It wasn't until he arrived at this strange home that he came to his senses, looking at the luxuriously furnished house, he showed a little timidity, but soon under the guidance of his "new" sister, he began to familiarize himself with the fresh equipment.
From the living room to the kitchen, from the bedroom to the balcony, refrigerator, TV, washing machine, there are too many advanced things that children in the mountains have never touched.
At the first dinner of the new family, the hostess fought 100% enthusiasm in order to welcome the arrival of this new member, and all kinds of delicacies were dazzling, obviously, she also needed a new opportunity, a new carrier to let this maternal love she cherished pour out again.
In a dreamy and beautiful scene, the weather-beaten Liang Xun fell into a beautiful dream, and after eating, he was wrapped in a soft bed, and had a sweet night, and the first day in the city was spent peacefully.
But life is like a novelist who loves O'Henry's plot, and new challenges begin to brew on this night.
On the first day of school in the new city, although he wore the trendy clothes added by his new mother, his inferiority in his bones was undoubtedly revealed when he walked into the campus with his head down.
Believing that he excelled in his studies in town, he was once again amazed by the fluency and well-informed conversation of his classmates, so he finally chose silence in his new environment.
A day's study life locked the door of his heart again.
The city mother quickly noticed the changes in her child with a mother's innate sensitive talent, and she did not ask directly, but patiently asked: "Tired?" Are you hungry? And so on warm words.
Gradually speaking, it is as if the Go master has easily found the breakthrough point of the chess game, and as soon as the chess is lost, it will point to his heart.
The wise mother did not act rashly, but while holding the child to signal him to look up, she comforted him and said:
"The stars will not stop shining because of the presence of the moon, everyone also has their own shining points, it is not worth covering up their own highlights because of the brilliance of others"
In a word, seemingly ordinary words have never been told to him in the past fourteen years, and at the moment of electric flint, the boy feels that a new power fills his body.
On the second day of class, when talking about the relevant texts, he took the initiative to raise his hand on the stage to share his life and experience in the mountains.
In the applause of his classmates, he bloomed a smile that completely opened his heart, loving people like love flowers, love gave this teenager courage and strength, and also gave him confidence that he had never had before.
Sometimes, the dilemma faced by left-behind children lies not in the barren living environment, but also in the barren inner world, which has not felt the nourishment of love for too long, and has a new vitality after a long time in Ganlin.
In this way, when talking about the suitability of his dream, the young Liang Xun said that he would be a singer who would perform on stage in the future.
Good times are often short, and the time in the city soon came to an end, and at the end of the show, the city mother took the initiative to give Liang Xun a chance to realize his dream.
With the help of the program group, she took Liang Xun to Guangdong together, and after many days, watching her mother in front of her gradually coincide with the vague outline in her memory, his tears burst out of her eyes again, only this time he asked his mother aloud why he hadn't seen him for many years.
Fourteen years of patience made the biological mother and son cry with a headache, and tears washed away years of resentment, leaving only the thoughts of love and Jin Jian.
The mother told Liang Xun, who was already sensible, about the various changes and reasons for her separation after she and Liang Xun's father came to Guangdong, and when she talked about missing her son, Liang's mother opened the wardrobe, and sweaters of various sizes came into view.
Over the years, Nian Zixin switched into silk strands of wool wrapped around her fingertips, stranded into bundles and woven into sweaters of different sizes in a mother's painstaking business.
Obviously, the sweater made in the past is too small, the little Liang Xun has grown up, and the sweater made later is too fat, and the size that seems to be worn by a normal person looks very wide on his thin body.
The mother burst into tears again, and the sweater that had been knitting for many years of love did not fit together at the moment, like the misplaced love between their mother and son.
The simple working woman just wiped away her tears and said: "Mother knits up, mother slowly feeds you fat." ”
The familiar crook of his arm, the smell of no good smell of perfume once again shrouded Liang Xun's figure, and this time he found the source of love.
Lovers like flowers need to be attentive
At present, there are still empty villages in distant mountains, old people who are slow because of their age, children who are sluggish and numb and cry out for love, and they will climb the distant mountains to look into the distance, trying to imagine or evoke their own memories of love.
In other words, even being in a city does not mean that you have pre-purchased love insurance, and too many worldly disputes blind young parents.
In the silent smoke of "chicken dolls" and "inner rolls", they will only blindly fill the children with rich material conditions, but inadvertently block the children's desire to communicate and longing for love.
Some people say that loving people is like loving flowers, and the common denominator between the two lies in their hearts.