This is the life of a famous lady, born in Jiangnan, because of her superior family and wide interests, she was a female sculptor during the Republic of China, she was once named the "first modern girl", and was also the ex-wife of Chang Shuhong, the former director of the Dunhuang Art Research Institute.
She can wear cheongsam and high heels in Dunhuang with yellow sand to maintain her appearance, and she can also sit by the French river leisurely eating small cakes and drinking afternoon tea, but at this time she never imagined how miserable her later life was, and her son, who she had not seen for many years, directly said the three words "you are not worthy" to her.
Who is she? The first half of life and the second half of life changed so much, what did you experience?
Chen Zhixiu first met Chang Shuhong
In 1910, a little girl was born in the Chen family, and her father was very happy and named her Chen Zhixiu, hoping that she would thrive.
Chen Zhixiu did not live up to her parents' wishes, because the family is a family of scholars, so Chen Zhixiu has shown great talent and interest in painting since she was a child, and the family is very happy to see Chen Zhixiu's interest in painting, and hired a well-known painting master for her as her enlightenment teacher with a high salary.
This high-profile girl grew up in the favor of the whole family, and she was a delicate flower.
At a party, Chen Zhixiu met the artistic talent who made her fall in love at first sight, the seventeen-year-old girl in the flower season and the twenty-two-year-old art teacher had a spark of encounter, the friendship between the two people surged before, and others could also see that the two secretly had affection, Lang talent and female appearance, of course, no one would object.
In 1925, Chang Shuhong and Chen Zhixiu held a wedding and officially married each other, and they were very loving and envious of others at that time.
Because of the unpredictable domestic situation, after getting married, Chen Zhixiu and Chang Shuhong flew to France to study with the help of their friend's father, and they enrolled in the French Lyon School of Beaux-Arts to refine their art, one majoring in painting, the other majoring in sculpture, husband and wife Qin Se and Ming, there has never been a red-faced quarrel.
In France, Chang Shuhong created "The Sick Woman" for Chen Zhixiu, this painting is a portrait of Chen Zhixiu Chang Shuhong when she was sick, and when playing the flute, Chang Shuhong couldn't help but pick up the brush and compose "Homesickness" for his wife.
The painting inadvertently won the Lyon Painting Prize, and Chen Zhixiu was also in line with Chang Shuhong's work.
In 1931, the first crystallization of love between the two was born, and Chang Shuhong named the little princess Chang Shana, in order to remember Leon, who fell in love with Chen Zhixiu.
The arrival of the child brings laughter to the home, making the fireworks in the home even more lingering.
Chang Shuhong accidentally saw the Dunhuang scroll paintings in "Iron Horse Dingdong", and the beauty of Dunhuang was unforgettable in Chang Shuhong's heart for a long time, he said: "Fell in Western culture, and once proudly regarded himself as a painter of Montparnasse, but now facing the cultural history of the motherland, I am really ashamed." ”
Out of such interest, Chang Shuhong resolutely gave up his achievements in France and returned to the embrace of the motherland with Chen Zhixiu and his daughter.
Here, Chang Shuhong and Chen Zhixiu's second child was born.
The pressure to raise children doubled after the birth of his son, and because Chang Shuhong changed jobs, his monthly salary was not one-tenth of that of France, and the desolate Gobi Desert was difficult to see even a green plant.
Chang Shuhong likes such an environment, he thinks that this is conducive to his own research on murals, but Chen Zhixiu does not like it, how can the modern girl who has been pampered since childhood, and the modern girl who looks back at the beauty of France with a smile, be willing to fill her high-heeled leather shoes with yellow sand every day, and no one appreciates her beauty?
Such different views also caused an indelible and reversible rift between the two people, and the road of disagreement went further and further.
One day, when Chen Zhixiu shot a layer of yellow sand from her hair again, she finally couldn't bear it, "This is not the life I want," she thought.
Chen Zhixiu red apricot out of the wall
Because Chang Shuhong needs to travel and research, he is often not at home to accompany Chen Zhixiu and the children, and over time, the relationship between the two becomes weaker and weaker.
One day, Chen Zhixiu saw an officer named Zhao Zhongqing on the street, because of the identity of the fellow, it may be that no one has talked to Chen Zhixiu for too long, and the two felt that they hated to see each other as soon as they met.
The long period of you and I made Chen Zhixiu's lonely heart beat again, and when complaining with Zhao Zhongqing once, Chen Zhixiu unconsciously revealed that he wanted to leave this place, and Zhao Zhongqing immediately understood what she meant.
A few days later, Chen Zhixiu left behind a pair of children and an academic husband, and eloped with Zhao Zhongqing.
Back in Zhejiang, Chen Zhixiu resumed her proud beautiful girl outfit and walked in various high-class balls of high-ranking officials and dagui, but as everyone knows, this was the beginning of her tragic second half of life.
Turbulent days
Not long after the two people were happy, the country was liberated, Zhao Zhongqing went to prison because of the particularity of his identity, and then died of illness in prison, and even Chen Zhixiu was hit together, and no one around him was willing to help Chen Zhixiu at this critical time, and Chen Zhixiu also fell directly into the mud from the clouds.
Chen Zhixiu couldn't bear such a life, and missed the past life of spending days and days drinking wine, but when he opened his eyes, he found that he was unkempt and his livelihood was not found.
In order to live, Chen Zhixiu was forced to marry an ordinary worker, but the worker's salary was very small, often a dollar had to be broken into several times, and could not support a large family of people, helpless, Chen Zhixiu could only look for a job, in order to get paid as soon as possible, Chen Zhixiu found a laundry room relying on washing clothes and working as a maid to make a living.
The hipster who used to drink afternoon tea in Lyon, France, has now become a woman with rough hands and years of rabbling.
In 1950, after learning that her son had come to Hangzhou, Chen Zhixiu came to the door to ask to see her son, but her son was angry when he learned about it: "You are not worthy, you abandoned me, I hate you." ”
In 1964, the eldest daughter Chang Shana came to Hangzhou, Chen Zhixiu repeatedly asked to see her daughter again, but helplessly, the Chang family agreed to Chen Zhixiu's request.
After seeing her mother, whom she hadn't seen for many years, Chang Shana was taken aback, "This is completely different from my impression of my mother, and I can't connect this ragged, dish-colored woman with dull eyes in front of me with the Parisian modern sculptor." ”
After twenty years of meeting again, Chen Zhixiu only brought endless regret.
In 1979, Chen Zhixiu passed away and left this world with a brilliant first half of his life and a tragic second half.
Chen Zhixiu's life is destined to be good, but only she knows whether she regrets or not.