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Time has passed, and now I am 39 years old. For most people, this age has been classified as old age, but for me, it is full of life and hope. Career paths continue to rise and livelihoods are stable. However, my heart was troubled by marital problems, because I was getting older and still lacked a suitable partner around me, which made me feel anxious.
When I was young, I experienced many ups and downs in my relationship, and I firmly believed that as long as I met the right person, I would enter the palace of marriage without hesitation. However, life has taught me that feelings are far from as simple as I thought, and sometimes even if you give it wholeheartedly, you may not be able to get a sincere return. As a result, I gradually lost my faith in love, which was only revived in recent years, and at the urging of my parents, I began to rethink the possibility of marriage.
However, at this moment, it dawned on me that finding a suitable man was not an easy task. Good men seem to be increasingly scarce these days.
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A long time ago, I was also a kind woman, but after a series of experiences, I became what I am today. I remember visiting a friend's house when I was 30 years old, and she was worried about her future. She was two years younger than me, but she was still celibate at the moment, which bothered her. After all, once a woman passes 30, she becomes an older leftover woman who is unmarried and childless and is subject to social pressure.
I feel deeply with what she says. Once upon a time, like many women, I firmly believed that love was a breeze, but slowly understood that the reality was far from it. In my youth, I had a deep relationship, but in that relationship, I was always the one who was hurt, which made it impossible for me to have feelings for any man to this day.
Perhaps for this reason, I became more and more critical and even lost the ability to love. So I wasn't surprised when I reached a certain age and became an older single woman. Of course, I also understand that in addition to my own reasons, the influence of parents also plays a big role in this. Influenced by them since childhood, I have developed the personality traits of mercenary and greedy for money.
02
The years are in a hurry, the years are not waiting for people, and inadvertently I have entered the threshold of 39 years old. Most people think that this age is already middle-aged, but for me, it is full of opportunities and challenges. My career is still thriving and my life is relatively comfortable. However, the problem that bothers me the most is not the workplace, but marriage.
Looking back on my youth, I have experienced many relationships and firmly believe that as long as I meet the right person, I will not hesitate to go to the marriage hall. However, the ups and downs of life have made me understand that feelings are not as simple as imagined, and sometimes even if you devote yourself wholeheartedly, you may not be able to get corresponding rewards. Therefore, I can't help but have doubts about love, which are gradually rekindled as I get older and my parents urge.
However, it was at this time that I suddenly realized that finding a suitable partner was not easy. Truly good men seem increasingly scarce these days.
01
At one time, I was also a woman of kindness, but a series of experiences changed my personality. I remember when I was 30 years old, I was visiting a friend's house and she was worried about her future. She was two years younger than me, but she was still single, which made her anxious. After all, once a woman is over 30, if she has not found a suitable partner, she will be dubbed the older leftover woman.
Listening to her talk, I have a deep understanding. Once upon a time, like many women, I thought love was easy to come by, but life has taught me that this is far from the case. When I was younger, I had a deep relationship, but in that relationship, I was always the hurt party, so I still dare not invest in any man.
Perhaps it is for this reason that I have become more and more
Perhaps it is for this reason that I became more and more critical, and even gradually lost the ability to love. So, when I entered middle age and became an older single woman, I wasn't particularly surprised. However, I understand that in addition to my own experience, my personality has also been influenced by my parents. From an early age, they taught me to pursue money and profit, and developed my mercenary personality.
As I look back, there was a passionate and committed relationship. Those were memories of my youth and my best time. However, the relationship with that man eventually turned into a harrowing experience. He hurt me and made me feel miserable and unworthy. This experience became a shadow in my heart and deeply influenced my view of love.
As the years passed, I began to become cold and no longer believe in the beauty of love. I became more and more independent, pursuing a career on my own, and gradually neglecting the desire for marriage. However, as I entered middle age, when my parents' urging became more frequent, I began to rethink my life. I long to have a warm family, a husband who loves me, and a lovely child.
However, reality frustrates me. It is getting harder and harder to find a good man. Social circles have become smaller and opportunities to meet new people are becoming less and less. Most of my friends have started families, but I am still single. I started actively participating in various social activities, trying to meet new people and hoping to find a suitable partner among them.
However, time passed and I found it difficult to find that special someone. Good men seem to be fewer and fewer, or rather, they have all been snatched away. Some men are married, while others are reluctant to take on the responsibilities of marriage. I became more and more anxious, worried that I would be alone forever.
Sometimes, I feel like I expect too much from love and marriage. Maybe I should be more open, accept those who are not perfect, and give myself and the other person some opportunities to understand and tolerate each other. Maybe I should try some new avenues, such as online dating, to expand the scope of meeting new people.
Despite this, I still believe that true love is worth waiting for and pursuing. I believe that one day, I will meet the right person who will make me believe in the beauty of love again and bring me happiness and satisfaction. I will continue to work hard and not give up the opportunity to find love, because I know that the years do not wait for anyone, but love is always worth the wait. Therefore, I will firmly go on and believe that happiness will come.