A goldfish farmer I will never forget in my life

Last night I dreamed of Uncle Yu.

I said let's go, I'll take you to dinner.

Uncle Yu said that I would change my clothes. Uncle Yu wore a particularly clean and neat dress, and also shaved

As before, he still walked unfavorably, or in the same position as dragging his legs.

We were talking as we walked, and I asked if you went to the hospital again to take pictures? Is the cancer all better?

He said it's all good, not at all, how good!

He also said: They are all too alone!

I don't know who they are, why are they alone?

I met Uncle Yu by chance to brush a video taken by their neighbor, saying that there was an uncle downstairs raising goldfish. The neighbor who filmed the video didn't know how to raise fish, but I was fascinated by traditional goldfish farming. I asked the person who took the video, where does Uncle Yu live? Of course, people will not tell me the specific address, only the approximate location. I rode my bike and went to that position. I inquired east and west in the building group, and I found it. I remember the first time I went, I brought some fruit. I want to see the old man, and I can't go empty-handed. I said I liked goldfish and wanted to learn how to raise fish with him. He was quite welcoming to me, a stranger who suddenly visited, and did not have the eccentricity of an old man living alone (I didn't know he lived alone at the time).

Uncle Yu and my uncle look like each other, and a few years before I met Uncle Yu, my uncle died of stomach cancer. So when I saw Uncle Yu, I had a sense of familiarity. In addition, we are all old Tianjin people, and after chatting a few times, we soon had no sense of distance. To tell you the truth, I filmed Uncle Yu raising fish, indeed for traffic. Filmed from the media, who doesn't want traffic? I feel that filming the old fish farmer of the folk is a scarce topic on the Internet, and it should be popular. But what I mainly pursue is my own passion and the sense of achievement that traffic brings me. As for money, I didn't think much about it. At that time, I didn't sell fish, and I relied on the platform to pay some traffic fees. Just that little traffic fee is not enough for me to buy fish, buy shooting equipment, and run around.

Filmed in the first few issues of Uncle, the video effect was good, and the light traffic fee earned hundreds. At that time, I was a little worried about taking these hundreds of incomes, and I felt that I was making money by rubbing the heat of other people's old people. But directly giving money to others feels a bit raw. So uncle likes fish, so I will buy him fish, and I will buy whatever fish is good. At that time, I didn't understand the price of their insiders, but Uncle Yu understood that he would not let me spend more.

Later, everyone also knows, in addition to the fishing ground, fish exhibition, Uncle Yu's fish farming story has become a fixed and important part of my video. I started selling fish, in fact, I started in my grandfather's courtyard. Uncle Yu said that I have two children to raise, where can I not earn it? Earning, is to earn money, to earn the meaning of life, the old Tianjin dialect describes the hardships and efforts of the people at the bottom.

He worked as a fishmonger when he was younger, and he slowly guided me, taught me some fish selling techniques, and introduced me to several fish farmers and business people. When I make money, I always want to give Uncle Yu more, I don't hide anything from him, and I tell him how much I earn. But he always didn't want my money, he said this is the capital of our trading, don't give it to me, you take the goods. He really couldn't get rid of it, so he took some and said that I would buy a slot or a fish pot for this.

During this period, I also encountered a lot of twists and turns, most of them were for the sake of interests, but only Uncle Yu was alone, he was sincere with me, wanted to help me, and thought of me well.

In the process of slowly getting acquainted, I learned that Uncle Yu lived alone, he originally had an only daughter, he did not follow the right path in his early years, and the person was long gone. He would occasionally mention to me about her daughter, and I usually didn't ask much about him, not wanting to mention his sadness. The most regrettable thing is that Uncle Yu's last birthday, he didn't tell me in advance, only told me, come tomorrow, come tomorrow...

I said yes, but the next day something didn't pass. There is always coming, which day is different? I didn't take it too seriously, and I passed the next day. As a result, Uncle Yu asked me to look at the photos and said why didn't I come yesterday? It turned out that he had celebrated his 66th birthday and had gone out to dinner with his nephew and friends, and he wanted me to go with him. He also said that he originally wanted to call you and ask you to buy me some meat to bring (when I reach sixty-six, I want to eat a girl's knife meat), but then I thought, don't call you. He pointed to the unopened Holly cake on the table and said to take it for your children to eat.

The birthday has become my biggest regret for my uncle, and I still burst into tears whenever I think about it. I wonder if I bought meat at that time, would Uncle Yu not leave later?

That day, I took Uncle Yu out to eat grilled fish, and he rarely shirked. We took a taxi to the mall and he was a little scared when he went downstairs because he hadn't taken an escalator in a long time. I carried him up the escalator and he said it's okay. He ate a lot that day, eating more than half a grilled fish, several small bowls of rice, and asked me to go to the drink machine to get him soda several times. I was a little surprised that he ate so well. Now that I think about it, maybe I'm too happy, or eating more wants to make me happy. We took a taxi back and he was still unsatisfied. I remember it was a winter afternoon, when the sun shone into his cottage on the first floor, shining on the trough where the fish were kept, and the room was warm. He sang me JD drums, and I said you sang so well, and I made a video.

That afternoon, we came back full of wine and food, watching goldfish and singing JD drums, and I felt that this world was really beautiful.

In the last Spring Festival, Uncle Yu gave our child 200 yuan per person to press the New Year's money, and I didn't want to shirk him. I can't play too hard, otherwise it will break the old man's heart. At that time, I had already decided to go abroad, I thought that the favor was not at this time, and I would send more good things abroad to Uncle Yu in the future. I told Uncle Yu about going abroad a long time ago, and I wanted him to be mentally prepared. Uncle Yu said, don't go out, how good it is at home, why go out. Uncle Yu, you are confused when you are old. Where is the house of the girl who got married? Didn't you follow your own children?

The accident came without warning, I didn't call Uncle Yu for a few days, and then called, Uncle Yu said incoherently that he was sick. I quickly rode over. I thought it must be a cerebral hemorrhage, he had had a stroke before, fell hemiplegia, and it was easy to recur.

I remember the last time I saw him, when his nephew was there. He couldn't stand up on the bed and couldn't speak incoherently. I always thought he had suffered a brain hemorrhage and stroke. I kept calling him and asked someone from the hospital to help with the hospital. But I didn't insist too hard, I was an outsider, and where I ended up going to be hospitalized had the final say on my relatives. In the end, I took out a thousand dollars and said that I would spend it first to see a doctor. Uncle Yu was anxious, stood up tremblingly, just didn't let his nephew accept it, I put down the money and left. His nephew chased him out again, and I was afraid that Uncle Yu would fall in a hurry or be seriously ill, so I didn't insist on giving money.

Later, Uncle Yu was hospitalized, I called several times, and at first he answered, and I said don't talk (he actually couldn't speak, only vaguely made some sounds). I told him not to be afraid, not to worry, to treat his illness, and not to think about the fish at home. When you are discharged from the hospital, I will take you to buy fish, and we will buy the best fish. He answered me hmm-huh. Then I called, and no one answered. It was at the tightest time for mask tubes, and it was impossible to visit the hospital. I could only wait anxiously for the news, and kept calling Uncle Yu, hoping that he would answer again.

One day Uncle Zhai called, and he said that Uncle Yu was gone. I was stunned and said why is it gone? He said no, his nephew had just called me to tell me. I put down the phone, and it took a while for sadness to come up. After a while, another call came in, it was Uncle Yu's nephew, saying that my uncle was gone. I cried and couldn't speak, I said okay, let's get back in touch.

At that time, the mask tube was strict, and the funeral was simple. So there was no farewell ceremony either. The side before being hospitalized was the last time I saw my uncle, and it was also the last time I went to my uncle's hospital. People are gone, and I haven't been there again. I often wonder, what happened to his fish, birds, pigeons, grasshoppers and puppies? Are his treasure-like fish basins cherished?

Before going abroad, I asked Uncle Yu's nephew to take me to the cemetery. On the way, his nephew told me that in fact, people mainly have cancer, they have always had cancer, he did not mention it to others, and then it spread. When I arrived at the cemetery, I saw that it was a cemetery, which was actually a row of urns, crowded with other tablets, and the three words Yu Jianguo were written on it, and I knew Uncle Yu's full name for the first time. I brought a bouquet of chrysanthemums and cried there to say goodbye.

More than a year later, I still can't walk out of the haze of my uncle's death. I rarely owe a person, but I feel that I owe Uncle Yu. He was a lonely old man, and I didn't take better care of him and care for him. The favor he gave me to my children will never be repaid in my life.