Text/Editing Yi Zhi Shu
"The most sorry thing in my life is Madoka, I'm too unhuman."
When the famous actor Wang Gang talked about his ex-wife Cheng Fangyuan on the show, he cried with guilt and scolded himself.
Wang Gang and Cheng Fangyuan have been divorced for 20 years, and comparing the current situation of their lives can be described as very different.
Wang Gang now has a happy family, children and a wife who is 20 years younger than him.
On the other hand, Cheng Fangyuan is alone, childless and daughterless, only dependent on his 91-year-old father.
However, Cheng Fangyuan, as a generation of musical talents, countless goddesses of the 80s, how could he be so desolate in his old age?
Wang Gang cried bitterly and said that he was ashamed of Cheng Fangyuan, but what did he do to Cheng Fangyuan?
The pioneer of Chinese music, the proud daughter of heaven
Some time ago, a recent photo of the 80s singer Cheng Fang Yuan circulated on the Internet, which made many fans sad to see it.
Cheng Fangyuan in the photo still has his trademark short hair, but his spirit is similar to when he appeared in "The Masked Singer" a few years ago.
His eyes are no longer as bright as before, and his figure is much thinner, and the bruises on his neck will be outlined very clearly with a little force, and he is so old that people can't recognize it.
As the leader of the Chinese music scene, Cheng Fangyuan has made indelible contributions to the development of Chinese pop music.
The songs she sang in the eighties such as "Youzi Yin" and "Childhood" have become countless good memories of the 80s and 90s.
People's Daily also commented on Fang Yuan: she is a good singer who tells stories in her songs.
How can such an excellent woman in the new era be so decadent when she is old, become childless, daughterless, and lonely?
Cheng Fangyuan was born into a family in Beijing to parents who were veteran film studio workers.
Her name means "no rules, no square circle", and her parents hope that she can become a big lady and be more disciplined.
However, Cheng Fangyuan did not become a well-behaved traditional woman as her parents wished, but instead became a free and avant-garde literary girl.
In order to cultivate her talent and temperament, Cheng Fangyuan's parents let her learn erhu, and Cheng Fangyuan's musical talent is also very high, and the euphemism of an erhu is beautiful.
Later, Cheng Fangyuan also relied on his excellent erhu performance and nightingale-like singing voice to successfully pass the examination of the Central Conservatory of Music.
But little one knew at the time that she actually preferred pop music and played guitar more than playing erhu.
At a performance in the university, Cheng Fangyuan ingeniously covered a popular song of Teresa Teng after becoming a popular song, which won unanimous praise from the audience.
Even after she finished singing, the big guys watching the performance in the audience did not let her go down, and sang several songs in a row, becoming China's earliest "encore scene".
But Cheng Fangyuan, who performed unprecedentedly successfully, was not praised by his superiors, but was instead scolded.
Because Cheng Fangyuan was still a player of the Central Orchestra at that time, the orchestra was mainly based on traditional music, and pop music was deviant in it.
"How can such a messy song appear in our orchestra? It's really unbearable. ”
Cheng Fangyuan was deeply shocked by the leader's scolding, and she felt that her favorite art had been trampled on.
But fortunately, there are still people who have a discerning eye, and Wang Kun, who was the head of the Oriental Song and Dance Troupe at the time, was very optimistic about Cheng Fangyuan.
"Do you want to come to our group? If you come, you can sing whatever you want. ”
In this way, Cheng Fangyuan applied to be transferred to the Oriental Song and Dance Troupe and opened his own path of pop music.
At that time, the mainland was still a "desert" for pop music, and although there were many listeners, they listened to the music of Hong Kong and Taiwan stars, and there were few pop singers in the mainland.
Therefore, Cheng Fangyuan, as a pioneer, sang and borrowed popular songs from Hong Kong and Taiwan while exploring and creating his own pop music.
In the 80s, Cheng Fangyuan's cover of Luo Dayou's "Childhood" was popular all over the country, and her cover version also won the Top Ten Golden Melody Award in 1985.
After that, she sang many popular songs such as "Youzi Yin" and "Always with You", and won various music awards and honors.
In 1986, she appeared on the Spring Festival Gala stage for the first time, and she was also the first pop singer to step on the Spring Festival Gala stage.
Her outstanding performance on the stage of the Spring Festival Gala also made the people in the Spring Festival Gala director group gradually recognize pop music and began to invite some pop singers to participate.
After her, in 87, Fei Xiang was also invited to sing "A Fire in Winter" on the Spring Festival Gala, and with their efforts, pop music finally appeared on the "Hall of Elegance".
Cheng Fangyuan is a pioneer of Chinese pop music and one of the guides in the Chinese music scene.
She is undoubtedly successful in her career, but emotionally she has had a bumpy road.
She had two marriages, but they ended in vain, so much so that she is still alone.
Failed marriage, bad love
In the early nineties, Cheng Fangyuan was already one of the hottest female singers in China.
Her career was at its peak, love came as expected, and during a school show, she met an English teacher at a university.
In the back and forth of communication, the two gradually fell in love, and finally walked into the palace of marriage hand in hand.
But love and marriage are fundamentally two different things, love only needs the feelings of two people without turning back, but marriage requires the joint operation of the husband and wife.
After getting married, they found that the two did not fit together at all, and the man had a conservative personality and traditional thinking; Cheng Fangyuan is an avant-garde thinker and keen to explore new things.
In the end, after a year of "mutual torture", the two chose to divorce.
After the divorce, Cheng Fangyuan chose to study abroad, recharging himself and relaxing by the way.
After returning from studying abroad, Cheng Fangyuan was arranged to be the host of CCTV's "Zhengda Variety Show", and the person who partnered with her was the well-known host Wang Gang.
The two met as early as the spring evening of 86, when Wang Gang was also one of the hosts.
Although Wang Gang is 12 years older than Cheng Fangyuan, he is talented, and he also made him famous in "Prime Minister Liu Luo" in 94.
At the same time, Wang Gang's temperament and Cheng Fangyuan are very compatible, both of them like music and will often meet to watch musicals together.
Host the show together on stage, and often go out offstage, so it is difficult not to rub the spark of love.
In this way, the two naturally fell in love and got married in 96.
Cheng Fangyuan originally thought that Wang Gang and his interests were similar and he was an object that could grow old together, but he didn't expect to look away.
After getting married, Cheng Fangyuan and Wang Gang gradually exposed their conflicting sides in getting along day by day.
Although Wang Gang is open-minded, he is still a traditional man in his bones, and he believes that it is natural for his wife to do housework after marriage.
But Cheng Fangyuan is a young woman of literature and art, often holding a guitar and burying her head in creation whenever she is inspired, sometimes she can't even take care of food, let alone housework.
Of course, these are some trivial things in life, and usually the two endure each other.
However, the fundamental reason for the two to finally part ways was in having children.
Wang Gang had a marriage before he married Cheng Fangyuan, and he and his ex-wife only had one daughter, so he longed to have a son.
But who knew that Cheng Fangyuan was the earliest batch of "Dinkers" in China, insisting on not wanting to have children, so the two couples did not quarrel less.
In 2001, Cheng Fangyuan and Wang Gang finally reached the step of divorce, and the marriage broke down after only five years.
But strangely, Wang Gang's later autobiography mentioned Cheng Fangyuan full of guilt, and one of the titles of his book was called "I --- Shame and Gratitude with Cheng Fangyuan."
It seems that Wang Gang is the party who owes money in this marriage, what did he do? Is there any connection with Cheng Fangyuan's choice to die alone?
62 years old alone, Wang Gang: I'm sorry for her
Once on an interview show, Wang Gang once told about his guilt for Cheng Fangyuan on an interview show.
Today's Wang Gang is an old actor with both virtue and art, but when he was young, he was a complete bad boy.
Especially after marrying Cheng Fangyuan, he also contracted the bad problem of alcoholism, and after getting drunk, he also severely hurt Cheng Fangyuan's heart.
At that time, Wang Gang loved to pull three or five friends to eat and drink together, and when he was drunk, he had to pick her up in Fang Yuan, and he was also restless after getting drunk.
Once Cheng Fangyuan picked up the drunk Wang Gang home, and when the car drove to the Sanyuanqiao section of Beijing, Wang Gang committed "drunken madness" in the car.
He shouted in the car to get out, and when Cheng Fangyuan comforted him, he actually opened the door directly and jumped down, scaring Cheng Fangyuan half to death.
Another time, Wang Gang fought with a friend and got drunk, and Cheng Fangyuan also came to pick him up.
After Cheng Fangyuan arrived at the place, he directly pulled the drunken Wang Gang to go home, "Where are you pulling me to?" "Go home!" "That's not my home, what are I going back for?"
At that time, Wang Gang was very dissatisfied with Cheng Fangyuan's refusal to give him a son, and he spoke out his heart through the strength of the wine, but he severely hurt Cheng Fangyuan's heart.
When he was older, Wang Gang looked back on this marriage and realized how messy he had been.
Cheng Fangyuan was a competent wife who was filial to Wang Gang's mother and regarded the daughter born to Wang Gang and his ex-wife as her own.
On the other hand, she broke her heart again and again.
But missing is missing after all, although Wang Gang feels guilty about Cheng Fangyuan, he also understands that they are not suitable.
After the divorce, the two did not get along with each other like other couples in the entertainment industry who broke up, and even attacked and smeared each other.
The two were still very good friends in private, and later when Wang Gang's mother died, Cheng Fangyuan was still present to offer condolences.
At the same time, after the divorce, the two also embarked on completely different life paths.
Wang Gang married Zheng Yandong, a music professor 20 years younger than himself, in 06, and Zheng Yandong gave birth to a son to Wang Gang two years later.
Wang Gang, who was old and had a son, was ecstatic, and at the same time he also began a life of crazy reception of announcements, just to leave more savings for his son.
For this reason, there are many old friends in the circle who ridicule him, but Wang Gang is as willing as a glutton.
Compared with Wang Gang's "busyness", Cheng Fangyuan is much more relaxed.
She often travels with her camera, looking for creative inspiration as she relaxes, and occasionally gives a concert with two or three hundred people.
On the stage, Cheng Fangyuan played his new song in a white shirt and jeans as always, holding a guitar, and sharing his travels.
But as Cheng Fangyuan grew older, her parents became more and more anxious about her marriage.
In 09, when Cheng Fangyuan's mother was dying, she grabbed her husband's hand and said, "You must let Yuanzi find a home, otherwise I won't be at ease if I go down." ”
But now, Cheng Fangyuan is 62 years old, and her father is 91 years old, but she is still alone.
Father Cheng often chanted beside Cheng Fangyuan, "Yuanzi, I have you to take care of me now, what should I do when you are old?" ”
For her father's words, Cheng Fangyuan also felt confused, but she still pretended to be free and comforted her father.
"It's okay Dad, I can take care of myself, if it really comes to that day, I will go to a nursing home."
A generation of talented musicians, to be old and helpless, and even to go to a nursing home to spend their old age, is really sad.
epilogue
Some people say that Fang Yuan's lifestyle is very dashing; Some people also say that Cheng Fangyuan is asking for guilt, and when he is old, he will know that he regrets it.
For his choice, Cheng Fangyuan may regret it, or may not, who is accurate?
But her dashing became worry and regret in the eyes of her parents, who always planned for their children.
Of course, I also hope that Cheng Fangyuan can have a good home, and life can be more satisfactory in the future.