Muzi (Serial 20)

Pretty and energetic girls are always the object of male preference, and in the face of many suitors, apricots always smile. The boy she had in mind, the tall man with a clean face. When the young girl Apricot was selecting books on the shelves of the school library, she was suddenly knocked down by a person. She looked up, her eyes looked at each other, and what Apricot saw was a pair of black and shiny eyes that flashed a confused and confused look, Apricot had a feeling of being electrocuted, her heart was pounding, and she was hopelessly fond of this boy.

The boys are sophomores in the same school's Chinese department. Apricot was fascinated by the boy as if she had been enchanted. In order to reach him, she spent a lot of effort to please the girls in the Chinese department and become good friends with them. Every day when she inquired about Gao Gavin's news, the girls began to amuse her, saying that she had paranoia. Gao Gavin is a particularly dragged person, a very cold person, it is difficult to catch.

Apricot knows that Gao Gavin likes to read books in the library, and Apricot sits in the library every day waiting for Gao Gavin, just to look at Gao Gavin. In the face of Apricot's enthusiasm, Gao Gavin reacted coldly, and even deliberately did not go to the library to meet her. Apricot was very sad, depressed for several days, a pleasure that the boys of the same line could not express, and the proud apricot also had a time to bow her head.

Gao Gavin still likes this beautiful and spontaneous girl in his heart. The nightmares of childhood made him realize the complexity of human nature prematurely, he had a sensitive and fragile heart, he was afraid of interacting with people, he lived in his own world.

Psychologist Adler said: "A happy childhood heals a lifetime, and an unhappy childhood needs a lifetime to heal." ”

Gaugarvin desperately desires love and does not believe in love. The unbearable time of his childhood was like a tight curse stuck in his head. He was bent on erasing this memory from his heart, but the memory thing always liked to keep the bad things, and the happy things were always easy to forget. Many celebrities always teach us to forget pain and remember happy things. How many people can do that? How can you forget a memory that hurts your bones? Unless you have a state of frustration. Man's life is always a struggle back and forth between pain and non-pain, and this contradiction accompanies man throughout his life.

Time turns to the weeds in memory, slightly pulling them away, a path deep in memory stretches infinitely...

"Mom, you don't want to go, you don't go..." When Gavin Gao cried heartbreakingly, he clutched his mother's thigh and did not let his mother leave him, and finally his mother pushed Little Gavin away and left him alone. At a young age, he didn't know how to live without his mother. He was so frightened, he didn't dare to face Daddy in the house, Mom was gone, there was no one to protect him anymore, he was afraid of Daddy's hysterical yelling, he was afraid of Daddy's fists.

Little Gavin, 6 years old, followed the memory and walked day and night to his grandfather's house, and his grandfather took him in. He and grandpa worked every day at sunrise, sunset and rest, and the vast world gave little Gavin enough security.

And as Little Gavin reached the age of school and was still taken to the city by his father to study, Little Gavin nervously returned to the home he was most reluctant to return to. Since Mom left, Dad seems to have become less grumpy and taciturn.

Sometimes Dad goes out for a few days and does not come home, and when he leaves, he will throw a few small tickets to Little Gavin, in order to save his use, Little Gavin often endures hunger in class, and often grunts in his stomach, and his classmates give him a nickname: Hungry Ghost. Little Gavin's face was flushed with shame, and he was eager to drill into the cracks in the ground.

When the physical education teacher Yan learned of his situation, he took special care of him, often inviting Little Gavin to his single dormitory to eat. Teacher Yan looks dark and strong, and cooks a good dish, roasting chicken legs and braised pork, which is Little Gavin's favorite food. Little Gavin believes that Teacher Yan is the best person in the world.

During the summer holidays, the school was empty. Teacher Yan stayed on duty, and Xiao Gavin went to play with Teacher Yan as usual, and only one room in the teacher's dormitory was lit up. As usual, Teacher Yan cooked a lot of delicious meals for Little Gavin, Little Gavin ate very happily, Teacher Yan also let Little Gavin drink two glasses of wine, and Little Gavin felt dizzy and heavy after drinking. Confused, Teacher Yan carried him to bed, took off his clothes, and scrubbed him with water. Teacher Yan repeatedly ravaged his little brother, he felt like he had fallen into a black hole, and his body seemed to be pushed upward by a huge thing, but he fell down again and again. His ass was so painful that he wanted to escape, but his legs were pinned down and he couldn't move. He shouted for help, but he couldn't open his mouth. He felt like he was going to die, something had entered him, and he screamed and fainted.

Early in the morning, he was awakened by the sound of a flock of chirping sparrows, and he awoke from his slumber.

Seeing Teacher Yan sitting next to him smiling and squinting at him, Teacher Yan bought him a rich breakfast and put it on the table. Let him get up for breakfast.

He told Teacher Yan that he had a terrible dream yesterday, he fell into the black hole, his ass eye is very painful now, there is a kind of tearing pain, his little chicken is also very painful, I don't know what is going on?

Teacher Yan smiled and comforted him, saying that it would be fine in two days, let him get up for breakfast, Gao Gawen squatted in the toilet for a while, and did not dare to pull out the, and the anus hurt fiercely.

Gao Gavin left the school when he fled, he lay at home for a few days, he felt better, he felt like a fan in his heart, he didn't know what happened in Teacher Yan's dormitory that day?

Dad has been gone for many days, and he still hasn't heard from him. The family's food has been cut off. He was lonely and helpless, and he wanted to go to Teacher Yan, but he didn't dare. Hunger rolled over his gastric juices, he involuntarily came to Teacher Yan's dormitory, Teacher Yan saw him coming, hugged him and kissed him, he felt particularly awkward, he turned his face to the side.

After eating and drinking, Teacher Yan rode him home on a bicycle, he sat on the back seat of the bicycle, and he longed for the bicycle in front of him if it was a father, how good it would be. He suddenly missed his father, and tears flowed down his face. Teacher Yan patted him on the shoulder with his hand and bought him a lot of delicious food, and his mood suddenly improved, for him, eating a full meal was more important than anything.

A year of hunger and nightmares tested the 9-year-old boy. A year later, Dad's business came to run and earned his first pot of gold. Dad bought a big house and hired a nanny for Little Gavin, who also transferred to school.

It seems that everything is going in a good direction, and little Gavin is gradually integrating into the new school, but the lingering painful memory makes little Gavin often wake up at night, and he often becomes anxious and afraid; He is sensitive and vulnerable. (To be continued)