01
Chen Xiaochun became more and more gentle.
Recently, some media filmed the footage of their family of three on the set.
Chen Xiaochun incarnated as a big parent.
First of all, patiently bring the baby.
Play with the little actors and get closer to each other.
When I entered the shooting, the young actors were a little distracted.
He instructed carefully.
Smile and let everyone focus.
During this time, there was a child who was in trouble.
Chen Xiaochun immediately held him high.
After the shooting, the media filmed another scene.
Chen Xiaochun walked over to his son Jasper, who sat down.
Then, Jasper sat on Chen Xiaochun's lap.
Gently stroke Chen Xiaochun's head.
Suddenly -
I suddenly couldn't help but ask, "Who the hell is Daddy?" ”
Go back 5 years.
You absolutely can't imagine what Chen Xiaochun looks like today.
At the time, he took Jasper to the recording of "Where Daddy Goes."
Born in a star family——
Jasper naturally could not adapt to the countryside.
But Chen Xiaochun's way of education is simple and rude. In addition to yelling, it's scolding.
In the first episode of the program, Chen Xiaochun was cursed by the whole network.
Say he's an unqualified father.
Afterward.
Chen Xiaochun mentioned this experience in an interview.
He said: "My early paternity relationship, like my relationship with Jasper in the first issue of "Where Daddy Goes", was magnified by more than 10 times. ”
Today, Chen Xiaochun is 55 years old.
He became kind and loving.
But few people know how many storms he once went through and how much suffering he had experienced...
02
In "Where Did Daddy Go", Chen Xiaochun's first conversation with Jasper impressed me.
Jasper couldn't stand the smell of a rural house.
Pouting and not saying a word.
Chen Xiaochun stood in the doorway, one hand at his waist, the other against the door.
He was a little angry: "I also lived in this kind of house when I was a child, so that's already very good." ”
At the time, many people thought it was empty talk.
But --
Chen Xiaochun was still euphemistic.
The living conditions of his childhood were a million times more difficult than he said.
At that time, Chen Xiaochun was not yet called Chen Xiaochun.
His name is Chen Xiaozhen.
Born in the 1960s, the family of six was crammed into a house of only 10 square meters, commonly known as the "cage house".
Father had fought before.
He is suspicious all the time, puts a knife under his pillow, never talks to his neighbors, and hates hearing the sound of phone calls from home.
He makes a living drilling on construction sites.
Every day, I leave the house at 4 a.m. and turn off the lights at 7 p.m.
The whole family can only live according to his schedule, and there can be no objection, otherwise it will be a beating.
Chen Xiaochun was the eldest son.
Often beaten for no reason.
Later, he was chained and chained to the door.
Until his father died, Chen Xiaochun still did not dare to ask why he was locked.
When he grew up, he always blamed himself in interviews: "Maybe because I am the biggest and the most naughty, my father is afraid that I will learn badly." ”
After Chen Xiaochun finished the first year of junior high school, he was forced to drop out of school.
It was the father who decided.
After dropping out of school, he was driven back to his hometown in Huizhou by his father and lived a life of cattle herding.
He thought about escaping.
However, he was recognized by his father and confiscated his return permit.
Since then, he has woken up every day to lead the cattle up the mountain to graze, go down the mountain to eat at noon, and continue to go up the mountain to herd cattle after eating.
Half a year.
Every time he talked about this paragraph, he always smiled bitterly: "It's like going to jail."
But compared with the confusion of the mind, he seemed to have gradually become numb to the imprisonment of the body.
And then later.
Chen Xiaochun was sent back to Hong Kong by his father.
He was happy. I thought that my obedience had finally bought my freedom.
Who knows—"
It's just one abyss falling into another.
Someday.
Suddenly, his father rose up and told him to drink morning tea alone.
Chen Xiaochun was vaguely uneasy.
As a result, after drinking morning tea, his father patted him on the shoulder and said without a head or a tail: "After that, this home will be handed over to you." ”
He was only 14 years old.
A few days later.
His father ran away from home and returned to his hometown in Huizhou.
Throw your wife and children in Hong Kong and leave them to fend for themselves.
As the eldest son —
Chen Xiaochun was pushed to the shore by fate.
Working several jobs a day, dealing with people in the jianghu, and even going astray.
He has only one goal: to protect his family.
03
However, in the face of fate, Chen Xiaochun always seemed to have no power to fight back.
Because, the true body of fate is the father.
In 2008.
Chen Xiaochun was interviewed by Shen Chunhua.
He revealed a shocking secret: his father had 3 wives.
It turned out that as early as Hong Kong, my father already had 2 wives and 2 families.
Chen Xiaochun's mother is famous.
But he divided his husband equally with another woman.
At that time, Chen Xiaochun was still young. Little did he know that his mother suffered greatly every day.
Later, my father returned to his hometown without a word.
He claimed that he was not suitable for life in Hong Kong.
But soon --
It came out that he had a 3rd woman.
He started his new family in his hometown. With a wife and children, very complete.
However, he still could not afford to raise a family.
Later, Chen Xiaochun became a big star.
The father was not even ashamed to ask him to take care of his half-brother.
Chen Xiaochun went along with it.
For a long time, he took care of it.
On the one hand, it's because of empathy.
Those children had a similar fate to his. There is an irresponsible father, a broken family.
On the other hand, it's because of guilt.
In 2009.
Chen Xiaochun once exposed himself to a terrible past in an interview.
He said: "At that time, the family was too poor, the youngest brother really could not support him, the family passed him on to others for 3,000 yuan." ”
That was the only time he mentioned this younger brother.
He still didn't dare to look for it.
Because, I think I am not qualified.
Photo: Peninsula Morning Post
But at that time, Chen Xiaochun still had not been exposed to the full face of the truth.
Until he grew up, someone told him —
The process of parental love.
In that year, my father fled from Huizhou to Hong Kong and wandered around.
I met Chen Xiaochun's mother by chance.
My mother was a Hakka from a remote rural area of Hong Kong and didn't even know a word. Survival is a problem, and feelings are even more extravagant.
The father took a fancy to the mother.
Completely disregarded, both were married.
Many times to show kindness, and even Eli seduced: "Your husband is not out of work, I will give you 3,000 yuan, you follow me." ”
Chen Xiaochun stated, and the tone was light and breezy.
It was almost impossible to see his emotions.
However, when we substitute him a little, we can perceive —
Parents bond because of seduction.
Not even half a bit of affection.
This family, in the first place, has nothing to do with love.
How should a child face such a family truth?
04
Fortunately, fate still left a beam of light for Chen Xiaochun.
That's the mother.
Chen Xiaochun once described life as a game of eagles catching chickens, and the mother is a hen who is firmly in the way.
Mother's love is direct and clumsy.
The refrigerator is the place to connect.
Every day, she silently observed what Chen Xiaochun had eaten.
Today it's Apple.
She put an apple every day.
Until, Chen Xiaochun stopped eating. She silently put on something new.
Later, Chen Xiaochun went to work in the decoration team.
The dry is to lay the floor.
He was the hardest worker on the team, going out before dawn and coming home after dark.
Because of his inexperience, he always pricked a hand of wooden thorns.
My mother was heartbroken.
Every night he insisted on helping him pick them all out before letting him go to rest.
Chen Xiaochun said that was his happiest moment.
I always hope that time will go a little slower.
But heaven seemed to love to tease Chen Xiaochun.
Whatever he loves, he will be taken away.
In 1999.
Chen Xiaochun, who was filming in Malaysia, received a nightmarish phone call.
The mother was diagnosed with liver cancer.
He left his job and rushed home.
When the whole family arrived at the door of the ward, no one dared to enter.
For the first time, Chen Xiaochun cried until he couldn't stop crying, and he was heartbroken, and he barely stopped his voice for half an hour.
In the end -
It was he who remained with his mother.
He kept cajoling his mother.
She said that she often did not like to drink water, loved to eat ice cream, and had stones in her stomach.
In order to raise sky-high medical expenses, he desperately filmed and took over no matter what kind of work.
However, he was unable to keep his mother.
In 2005.
Because of complications of liver cancer, the mother was ultimately rescued ineffectively.
In 2008.
Chen Xiaochun received a special call, the organizer of the "Top Ten Filial Pieties in Chinese Performing Arts" award ceremony contacted him, hoping to give him an award.
That.
Chen Xiaochun stood on the podium, crying for a long time and unable to say a word.
Finally, he sang a song.
A song dedicated to mother, named "Mother's Words".
Mom's Words Music: Chen Xiaochun
"Will you remember the day when I promised to fulfill my dreams together, why I accepted you, but it was difficult to say anything, did your love for me lose to this kind of thing..."
Before dying.
The mother said to Chen Xiaochun: "Don't hate your father." ”
At that time, Chen Xiaochun found out——
It turned out that the mother had always loved the father. Even if he seduced her, abandoned her, betrayed her.
Since then, when talking about his father, Chen Xiaochun will always add a concluding sentence: "He is my father, my own father, I can't blame him." ”
But isn't it really weird?
Perhaps, it is just a kind of self-relief.
Because of his resentment, he was unable to fulfill his mother's last wishes.
And yet -
After his mother died, his heart was empty.
He became a jerk, stopped working hard, and was even perfunctory about his feelings.
Love is fast food.
One night stands don't resist either.
Until, ying Cai'er appeared in his life.
05
In 2008.
Chen Xiaochun was asked, have you found the answer to love?
He showed a sweet expression.
That's when he admitted for the first time that he was in love.
The object is Ying Cai'er.
This time in love, it is very different from the past.
He was very serious.
In the same year, he was attacked by big and small S, pretending to expose his nightclub past.
He was frightened and pale.
Speaking to the camera, he said, "Ying Dad Ying Mom, I didn't, I didn't do this kind of thing." ”
Afterward.
Big S still did not let go of him, deliberately assuming that Ying Cai'er wanted to be ambiguous with other boys.
Chen Xiaochun immediately gritted his teeth.
"Vinegar!"
"Jealousy!"
"I know I'm going to be jealous!"
It made the audience laugh, only Chen Xiaochun bowed his head and blushed.
The second year.
Ying Cai'er participated in "Kangxi Is Coming".
After Xiao S saw her, his first words were: "I didn't expect that Chen Xiaochun would completely surrender to her." ”
It was also requested on the spot to teach at the behest of Cai'er.
Ying Cai'er said: "I will make a family rule." ”
1. Landline reporting.
2. No other girls are allowed.
The audience was shocked.
No one believed that the prodigal son of the past was willing to live such a life.
Why did Chen Xiaochun submit to Ying Cai'er?
He said to the outside world: "There are evil dogs in the house."
The implication is that Ying Cai'er is too fierce, so he does not dare to act recklessly.
That, of course, is not the truth.
In fact —
The bud of this love is Chen Xiaochun's cheerfulness in fascination with Ying Cai'er.
She loves to laugh and be authentic.
There was never anything to hide from him.
The most crucial thing is that Ying Cai'er is the only person in Chen Xiaochun's life who has recognized him.
They fell in love with Chen Xiaochun's darkest moment.
My mother just passed away.
His economy is also in trouble.
Ying Cai'er was not afraid and stood with him.
Give him a laugh.
It also took the initiative to officially announce it.
Because of Chen Xiaochun's history of affair, the outside world is not optimistic about them, and always deliberately makes it difficult for Ying Cai'er.
Ying Cai'er said bluntly: "The two of us (love history) can add up to a page. ”
She understood Chen Xiaochun's vulnerability.
Understand the soul behind his cynicism, the nowhere to be found.
So she gave him a home.
In that house, not only her, but also her parents.
From the beginning of their love, Ying Cai'er's parents regarded Chen Xiaochun as their own.
When Chen Xiaochun proposed.
Crying to the point of not being able to utter a single line.
Or the two elders were next to each other, and came with a best assist.
Ying Cai'er's mother said, "Don't talk about it again, I'll help you talk about it!" ”
Ying Cai'er's father then said, "Xiao Chun, I am willing to marry you!" ”
The audience laughed wildly.
Chen Xiaochun cried even harder.
Perhaps, he never thought that he could have such a beautiful moment.
Suffering is easy to adapt to.
But happiness is tinged with uneasiness.
Fear is just a dream, and if you are not careful, it will become a bubble.
In 2015.
Friendship years concert scene.
Chen Xiaochun sang his exclusive love song with Ying Cai'er, "Relying on Each Other for Life".
Offstage, Ying Cai'er was playful and playful.
On the stage, Chen Xiaochun spoiled and smiled.
This scene is still a classic today.
People in the world say that Ying Cai'er cultivated the blessings of several lifetimes before he met Chen Xiaochun.
Only Chen Xiaochun knew that he was the lucky one.
As he said, "My happiness was given to me by Cai'er, and she gave me a lot of happy changes." ”
06
However, reality is not a fairy tale.
After the prince and the princess are married, they cannot go to happiness for granted.
Besides, Chen Xiaochun was never a prince.
He hadn't had love since he was a child.
I don't know how to manage love.
With Ying Caier for 12 years, there is still constant friction.
The two were noisy.
Fortunately, we can tolerate each other and get through it.
But in the parent-child relationship, Chen Xiaochun has exposed huge flaws.
He became the person he hated the most.
His father.
This can be reflected in "Where Daddy Goes".
He often didn't think of Jasper.
Very impatient.
Once Jasper didn't do what he wanted, he was rude.
Or pull.
Or, yelling.
Every time it was broadcast, Ying Cai'er would be heartbroken.
Can't help but crusade at Chen Xiaochun on Weibo.
It can be seen that this is not the effect of the program. Rather, they are the most authentic everyday.
Chen Xiaochun was really lucky.
As a wife, Ying Cai'er healed him.
As a mother, Ying Cai'er was also prevented, and Jasper became the second Chen Xiaochun.
She taught Jasper to resist bravely.
Even if it is his father who he loves and fears.
So --
When Chen Xiaochun was angry again.
Jasper finally took out his horn and shouted out his heart: "Can you not be angry?" ”
Chen Xiaochun looked at Jasper under the steps.
Perhaps, at that moment, he saw himself as a child.
At the same time, I found that as a child, there is another way to live.
And then later.
Under the guidance of the program team, the father and son had their first in-depth dialogue.
The people outside the arena, incarnated as trumpet spirits.
Jasper asked: "Did you miss Dad when he wasn't home?" ”
Jasper replied, "Yes." ”
Chen Xiaochun immediately laughed and called out.
Burst with joy.
Then, someone on the sidelines asked Jasper, "Are you afraid that Daddy will get old?" ”
Jasper choked up.
The mouth repeatedly muttered, "I don't want Daddy to get old, I want Daddy." ”
Chen Xiaochun, who was beside him, suddenly burst into tears.
At first, he covered his face and cried.
Later, Jasper noticed he was crying.
Jasper walked over and asked worriedly, "Daddy, what's wrong with you?" ”
And gently scratched away the tears in the corners of his eyes.
At that moment, I suddenly remembered—
There is a year.
Hong Kong ushered in a long rainstorm day, and Chen Xiaochun's father was unable to start work.
Nesting at home every day and throwing tantrums.
Chen Xiaochun took advantage of his father's sleep, secretly walked to his bedside, and whispered a wish: "Lucky and lucky, don't rain, bad things are gone, tomorrow will be better, it's okay..."
As a result, the father was woken up.
Didn't give him a chance to explain at all, beat him badly.
Chen Xiaochun held back hard, not a single tear flowing.
Perhaps, when he looked at Jasper in front of him, he also remembered this scene.
He decided to make a different father.
Give Jasper a chance to explain, a complete fatherly love, and a total attachment.
In 2016.
Chen Xiaochun, who is about to enter the 50-year-old, has released a single.
Telling about the most important thing in life: "There is a wife and a boy, my first half is good, the second half will be tied, I believe it will be more exciting..."
He laughed and burst into tears.
Because, the inner void has been filled.
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