Tang Min, who is also a female writer, wrote a "Girl's Flower", writing: If you don't want to have a daughter, you definitely don't despise girls. It is an indescribable love for girls. Love so much that I can't bear to let her come into this world.
Because there is no guarantee of her happiness in life, it cannot make her get the most beautiful love in her short life.
Especially worried that her body and appearance are not beautiful and despised, if she is extremely ugly but smart and kind, it is doomed to how painful her life will be.
She said:
Just married, it doesn't matter if you have children or not.
As long as one person is on a business trip, the other one tries to follow.
The stove is extinguished, the door is locked, and it is interesting no matter how boring it is.
When you arrive at a place with friends, you will be happy for a few days and leave a pleasant memory.
Living without burdens, walking around the earth, is known as the "Guerrilla Song".
Everywhere you go, you go to see the scenery, drill the alleys and walk the streets, and attack the flavored snacks that you can see with your eyes.
Suddenly, however, very much, they wanted to have their only "only child."
When winter came she began to raise daffodils.
From that moment on, daffodils were seen as a symbol of their own children.
Like a lottery, one of the highest-priced flower balls was chosen.
She thought: If the flowers of the "Marigold" are opened, she will have a son; If the flowers of "hundred leaves" are bloomed, she will have a daughter.
Is it a son or a daughter?
She hopes to bloom the "Marigold" flower.
From the bottom of my heart, I look forward to boys.
Never despise girls.
It is an indescribable love for girls.
Love so much that you can't bear to let your daughter come into this world.
Because she cannot guarantee the happiness of her daughter's life, she cannot make her daughter get the most beautiful love in her short life.
Especially worried that the daughter's body and appearance are not beautiful and despised, if the daughter is extremely ugly but smart and kind, it is doomed to how painful the daughter's life will be.
One day she and her friends had a drink at a café. The friend, who has nearly 10 years more experience than her, said: "A man feels happy in the process of loving a woman he likes. He felt happy because the other person accepted everything he did for her. A woman is the complete opposite, she just accepts love and is happy. If a woman loves and pursues the man she likes, it is the most painful thing, and the man she loves has no feeling of happiness. It's a very wonderful feeling. ”
"In general, the love of men lasts longer than women. As long as the woman he had pinned on for a period of emotion, asking him for help many years later, he would always help her wholeheartedly. The man didn't think much about what the woman had done to herself. ”
At that moment, she was even more determined to have a son.
Boys are not only born better than girls to adapt to society and endure hardships, but also a source of happiness for women.
She hopes that her son will at least be kind to the women in her life and give them a permanent sense of happiness in their lives.
"The biggest disadvantage of being a man is that there is no way to cherish the admiration of women he doesn't like. This disgust was genuinely un hypocritical, and they couldn't help but show contempt for the woman. Frivolous teenagers are even more excessive, hurting such girls in public. This is the evil side of men. ”
Tang Min thought: If her daughter is spared from public humiliation and meets a man who fully knows how to respect her feelings, but regards respect as love for her, isn't that sadness deeper?
In men, the failure of the pursuit does not destroy the beauty of the pursuit; In women it became a lifelong shame.
How to think, she still does not want to have a girl.
The daffodils used for divination have been slow to bloom.
Is it "Marigold" or "Blind Leaf"?
After going home. She asked Lang Jun, "Do you want a boy or a girl?" ”
"Girl!" He answered without hesitation.
"Boy!" She's furious!
"Why?" He was strange.
She couldn't answer.
Just like that, she saw her daffodils bloom in her dream.
It was a flower for girls, and it was a pot full of flowers.
She was indescribably disappointed.
The two flowers that bloomed together at the top said, "Mother doesn't love us, so let's die!" ”
They both fell down and dipped into a basin of boiling hot water.
By the time she hurried to pick them up and offered to take them away, they were already as hot as cooked cabbage leaves.
After a few days, sure enough, the girl's flowers bloomed.
In just a few days they desperately let go of all the flowers.
There is also one flower stem with the highest pump, and in this cluster of flowers, the two largest flowers bloom side by side.
Unlike in the dream, they did not raise their heads, but all bowed their heads, as if they had been blown by the wind, and the flowers tilted in one direction.
The flower stem that had been pumped the longest suddenly became unable to stand straight, and was softly twisted from side to side.
Tied with rope, topped with a pencil, none of them could hold it. If you are not careful, the flower stem falls down.
I don't know how sorry, how sad.
She spent all day looking at this pot of blooming flowers.
It emits a sharp fragrance that penetrates deep into the heart.
They ignore her concerns, purely for their own efforts to express their beauty.
Tang Min felt that their hearts despised her.
Her Lang Jun was busy with official business every day, from the blossoming of flowers to the flowers, he did not care once, let alone talk about them.
He didn't know her ghostly eyes.
So this pot of girls' flowers shows how unfortunate it is.
Their flowers are blooming, gradually withering, but still beautiful.
One day there was a power outage, and she lit a candle and put it on the table.
When she came up from downstairs, she found that the candles were out and the room was dark.
She drew a match.
It was daffodils that poured on the candle and suppressed the fire.
It was the highest-pumped stem that fell on the candle.
Like the flowers in their dreams, they committed suicide.
The candle burned two daffodils, each half burned.
The remaining half was still as watery and open, and there was a shiny black ink line in the place of half a flower.
Tang Min was so frightened that he couldn't get back to his senses for a long time.
This is the flower of a girl, a flower like a knife.
There are many wrong things that can be done in the world, but you must not do anything to hurt girls.
Only pots of daffodils remain.
I don't want boys or girls, and I don't do terrible divination.
But the daughter of her destiny would never come.
Tang Min was born in 1954.
In 1986, Tang Min published a novella documentary novel, "Taimu Mountain Demon Atmosphere".
The novel uses absurd techniques to describe the story of Wang Mou, the commander of the militia battalion of the Taimu Mountain Brigade, who ran amok in the township, fish and meat people, and reincarnated as cattle after death.
In September 1987, Wang's wife submitted an article to China Militia, saying that Tang Min used the novel to slander her deceased husband and others.
In 1989, Tang Min was sentenced to one year in prison for defamation.
While she was in detention, something unfortunate happened: she didn't know she was pregnant, but now she had a miscarriage. She could not have any more children for the rest of her life.
Fiction is difficult to judge.
Just re-reading this article, I can't help but think that maybe the revelation that daffodils want to give her is even more cruel...
In Her Book Toward Peace: A Notebook from Prison, she writes about this passage:
The policewoman came and handcuffed her. Then she spoke:
"Now I have two requests: First, I may be pregnant, and I ask for a gynecological examination."
But the request was denied.
I suddenly thought about pregnancy in the car, I may spend many years in prison, if this fetus can not be saved, I will not have a chance to have a child in my life.
In the detention center, the female officer was very indignant and said: If you are pregnant, you cannot be sentenced, and you must be released. ”
She shed a lot of blood that night and she miscarried.
And she never had children again.